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Sunday, April 27, 2008 9:14 pm
right. I feel lost - like in an emotional frenzy. I cant explain what is this all about cause I cant make it out myself. all I know is - I feel like I hate myself so much.
I needed a miracle so I remembered an "expect a miracle" card madeleine gave me 2weeks ago and I kept it in my wallet, opening it for the first time it read,
"there is nothing for beautiful in life than getting a second chance" - Ron Kovic. ah ha. just when I cant forgive myself for being self-centred last friday.
it probably made me feel a tad bit better but I still reckon there is a need to clarify myself. what I did was NOT and will never be acceptable to me and absolutely banished myself in those heavenly eyes. God knows it was wrong but I know He is merciful - personified. but when will I redeem myself?
