Monday, May 28, 2007

i found a tee on sgspree with my birthday on it~!
see~!!

no, dont be silly,
im not 60 yrs old.
ignore the year la~!
hmph.

im itching to shop.
its hard being penniless =(
dont scoff and roll your eyes hor~
i really am penniless!
if we disregard the ten dollar bill in my wallet.
wahaha.
but seriously.
ten dollars!
for the week~!
*sob*
i hope grass tastes good.

despite the extreme lack of funds,
i've been in high spirits =)
God's grace.

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my darling grp members,
look how johnson tried to dig info from me.

< " J o H n S o N z Z z " >™ says:
wat is ur dream?
< " J o H n S o N z Z z " >™ says:
they say everyone bound to have a dream
< " J o H n S o N z Z z " >™ says:
some want to be president, some sports player and some want to be pastor etc
< " J o H n S o N z Z z " >™ says:
wat abt u?
sy - for my Heavenly Father. says:
HAHAHAHA!!!

he made me laugh like mad!!

for the unknowing,
we're playing a revised version of angel and mortal.
and he's desperately trying to find out who his mortal is.
one of the clues is his mortal's childhood ambition.
so.
ya.
hilarioussssssssssssssss.

Saturday, May 26, 2007

madness.
my schedule is madness.
and i thought last sem was bad.

but God says do not lose heart =)
for the joy of the Lord is my strength.

OH
and thank God loads
for my assigned group.
i've got the pc whiz w me.
muaha.
its a great grp to work with,
thank God.

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watched pirates 3 late last night~
besides the eardrum-breaking volume of the soundtrack,
it was good.
not so much of the movie itself,
but more of the experience.
we spent half the time discussing irrelevant things i think.
like why we got lay's instead of ruffles =S
and how all the flying debris miraculously misses johnny depp
as he sashays from here to there.
its fun to talk in theaters.
i shld keep gg for movies that im not really interested in.
wahaha.

the couple biked home,
the girls cabbed,
and the guy took NR3.
but the bus-rider got home earlier than me!!
&!%@^!^&@!@!
should have taken bus.
hmph.

got home at 0430,
slept at 0500,
woke up at 0930!!
yes, 9.30am!
i had breakfast. *smug smile*
cereal with milk.
so proud of myself!

oh wheeeeeeee matt and jean are here.
off to play~

Friday, May 25, 2007

Nehemiah 8:10
"...Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength."

2 Corinthians 4
"1Therefore, since through God's mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart... 8We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed."

God is good.

---

played two short rounds of cluedo with my siblings,
who cldnt stop ganging up against poor ol' me.
and now my sister cant stop haolian-ing abt how she won both rounds.
hmph.

im itching for more cluedo.
sobs.
moreeeeee.

---

GSS~

its sad to be broke at this time of the year.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

argh.

that pretty much sums up the first day of sch.

big big thanks to faithy,
for the adorable teddy
(it rhymes!!)
allll the way from korea~! =)
from the teddy bear musuem,
where i stupidly left last year without buying myself a bear.
sobs.
i merely bought a few really pretty badges of the musuem mascot,
which all no longer belong to me.
sobsobs.
so,
THANK YOU FAITH! =)

anyways,
i dont know what got into me,
but i came home after sch,
changed,
grabbed a towel,
and headed straight for gym.
yes, shiqi!
i went to the gym~!
alone~!

feels good to sweat once in a while =)

Monday, May 21, 2007

i carry your heart with me
by e.e. cummings

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)

i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

---

i think cameron diaz recited it very well.

thank God for language
and for the beauty in it.
oh, and for the appreciation for the beauty in it =)

---

i found another suying on friendster
and sent her a msg that says:
"hellos! im sending you a message because im called suying too and it fascinates me that there's another suying out there"

and she replied~
"hi.. Suying..!? ermm it does feel really weird sayin hi to 'myself'.. haha...really nv tot there's one who got the same name out there other than the pri one sch textbook w a 'suyin' in it.. :)"

muaha.
cute.

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sch tmr~
not dreading it.
but not looking forward to it either.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

spent half the day playing with nail polish.
thank you shiqi~
for your hospitality =)
and for laughing at my fan-shaped nails.
hmph.
i cant help them; im born w them!
grrr.

yes i have fan-shaped nails.
shiqi said she wld nv see it if i didnt tell her.
but shaoning took one look at my painted nails,
and asked "how come they look fan-shaped?"
SOBS.

so, anywaysss.
i now have beautiful toenails,
and hideous fingernails.
alvin calls them "tumourous looking nails"
muahahaha.
but im lazy to wipe'em off,
so they're staying till i get less lazy okaaaays.

i love watching dvds with my sister.
she is a wonderful companion =)
very thankful we're family,
because kinship lasts a lot longer than friendship.
i no longer believe in friends forever.

ew, sounds bad huh.
sorreee.
dont mean to sound depressed,
because im not =)
very contented with God's love~!
hee.

oh yes,
IM AM SORRY, SHAN!
for missing your 21st =(
very very sorry.
let me make it up pleaaaase.
meet for dinner!!

long day tmr~
but i cant sleeeeeeep.
grr.

Friday, May 18, 2007

my mummy fell down the other day,
and bled loads from the nose.
so we spent half of yesterday in the hospital.
but dont worry,
all's fine now =)
thankGodthankGodthankGodthankGodthankGod.

went to ah-yi's shop after that
and she gave me a big big bowl of iced mango with milk.

so yummy~!
but so fattening. *sobs*

we took many many photos at ubin~
my juniors =)i like that place.
lets go there cycle sometime~ =)


had a yummy dimsum lunch (cum dinner) w my mummy.
havent spent time with just her alone for a long long time.
i heart my mummy =)
truckloads.

and we bought bread papa puffs for the party later~!
my ma's bday party.
muahaa.
we're getting the food,
lingy's getting the party packs,
and da jie's buying the cake and *wrinkles nose* durian.
hmph.
so anyway,
as i was saying,
bread papa puffs~!
i cant stop eating them ever since mel's bday celebration.
it got me re-addicted to the cocoa puffs.
yumyumyummm.

---

okays in a bad mood now.
bye.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

there's this intense desire to travel.
to a sunny land with clear blue skies and crisp green grass.
not that its bad being here.
the prettiest scenery cant compare
to the beautiful people God put in my life.

=)

sq bought me a lollipop yesterday~
and lingy bought me another one today~!
=) =) =)

but please stop, my friends.
i dont want to be roly-poly-yingy.
(dont tell me i already am, i'll strangle you)

had dinner with sq and my long-time-no-see twinie.
thank you darlings,
for simply being my friend =)
oh, and for the cherry tomato incident.
havent laughed like that in years.

ubin tmr~!
the task's to deliver lunch.
then we can leave.
wheeeeeeeeeee~
no mud!
muahahaha.

when my parents sent matt home just now,
he insisted on sitting on the front passenger seat.
my mummy was worried
that he might keep fall off when the car breaks,
so she kept leaning forward to check on him.
after a few times,
this lil tyke said:
"ah-ma, sit properly."
HAHA!
too funny!!

oh gosh i cant stop laughing.

Monday, May 14, 2007

very thankful,
for where the Lord has placed me in church.

my cell grp has come a long way.
its a joy to watch them grow in the Lord,
and grow alongside with them =)

all of you have been such encouraging brothers and sisters =)
at times when i dont feel very adequate,
y'all have been very sweet to me.
thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou.

and thank God.

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look what we made for the mummies =)

the behind says "happy mum's day mummy/ah-ma/aunty/da-jie/ah-yi!"

oh the lunch at gone fishing was wonderful, btw =)

i truly do love that place.

and here's the beautiful carousel~

the lighting's bad,
but the real thing's really really pretty.

oh,
lingy and cheryl queued for the legendary donuts.


YUM.

many other photos to put up,
but nah.
tired.
got up at a slightly earlier time this morning,
to meet wy for the band retreat recee,
and now my head's throbbing~
yes i know, im sucha pig.
hmph.
shall catch some sleep before i go meet sq at lot one.
the place where poor pple go.
muaha.

Saturday, May 12, 2007

we've just finished preparing the 5 mothers' day gifts,
and they all look so pretty!
my children better gimme sth as pretty.
if i shld have children.
hmph.

we were shopping at daiso for the materials,
and the counter lady was astonished
at the amt of seemingly useless things that we're buying.
not to mention five sets of everything.
we just smiled and said,
"oh, we know a lot of mothers."
wahaha.

cant waaaait for the luncheon tmr.
we're gg to gone fishing, slk darlings!!
yes that ulufied cafe that's so for-the-soul!
i dont think my family can appreciate that place though.
my bro keep saying its super duper ulu,
and my dad wants somewhere more famous.
hmph.
science people.
*rolls eyes*
muahahahahaha.
its a joke geok, its a joke!
wahahaha.

pimples are sprouting like nobody's business.
i need to start sleeping early!
or at least, earlier.
nites!

Friday, May 11, 2007

just read faithy's latest blog post,
with the first line reading:
"GRADES ARE UP ON UBLEARNS GIRLIES!!!"

!!!!!!!!!!

faith!
next time give warning first please!!!!
my heart cant take such sudden news!

and so i typed the web add with shaking fingers,
and checked my grades with one eye closed.

i did well,
thank God =)

congrats faithy,
for your wonderful grades!!!
OH i got A- for nutrition CAN YOU BELIEVE IT.
weiyang was awed.
wahahahaha.
oh but com300 grades arent out yet!
the most dreaded one =(
but oh well.
all in God's hands =)

all glory to God really.
if i depended on myself,
i wld've gotten nothing but Cs.

oh yes,
thank you all for praying for me! =)

im really off to bed this time.
nitessssss~!

had a long day,
changing in and out of clothes,
taking very very spastic photos w wonderfully pretty accessories,
travelling from one end of the island to the other,
walking a long long way down a dark dark road with a growling tummy,
wishing darling wini a happy bday,
scarfing down all the food her bf offered us,
roasting marshmallows,
and travelling back from that end to the end which i belong.

it was a good day.
filled with loads of laughter.

oh yes,
we gave the wooden carousel to wini as a gift =)
its such a beauty,
i think im gg to buy another one to make and keep for myself!
when i have the money that is.
sobs.

anyways,
i booked the place for mum's day celebration,
and im so looking forward to go there!
*bounces excitedly in my seat*
cant wait!

elder sis, mum, granny, elder sis's mum in law.
four mums will be present,
so i need four gifts.
i can only afford lollipops =(
nah, i'll think of sth.

it'll be another long day tmr.
off to bed~

OH yes i owe ting a public apology.
IM SO SORRY!
REALLY!
and i miss you.
*sob sob*

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

overflowing with joy and thankfulness for the Lord.

wanted to blog yesterday,
but google insisted that im a hacker
who wanted to send some deadly virus into their system.
yes, me, the one who dont even understand html codes.
hmph.

anyways,
God picked me up on my feet once again =)
its a process really,
how He strengthens me and nurtures my spiritual growth.
All that has happened,
every bible verse He allowed me to read,
every QT,
every prayer,
everyone He sent to comfort me
and how He allowed them to comfort me
all build up so that I may understand
what the Lord wanted to say to me
through Saturday’s worship and sermon.
And so I did.
all by God’s grace =)

oh yes,
and i want the world to know that
I LOVE MY TWINIE.
because:

thank God very very much
for sending her to listen and encourage.

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its the 2nd monday of may,
and im broke.

please pray that i start handling $$ in a more godly way.

in the mean time,
no more starbucks,
no more restaurants,
no more spreeeeees,
no more cabbing,
no more k box,
and no more movies.

mothers' day is dangerously near.
so is my mum's bday.
and shan's bday bash.
T.T

on a happier note,
had a wonderful day w my favourite shopper.
she is truly the ideal person to shop with.
i loveeee~!

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tired.
nites.

Thursday, May 03, 2007

to lose sth precious
is indeed very painful.
i have underestimated the impact of it,
and overestimated my ability to get over the impact of it.

---

when i was young,
i look at people who are alone
and think to myself "they are not loved."
now,
i look at people who are alone
and realize that they are loved,
so much such that they disregard how others may think,
and feel secured and protected all the same,
by the love that they know their loved ones have for them.
it is by this love that they can be alone and not be lonely.

this doesnt mean that those who lack the courage to be alone are not loved.
it means that they need to learn to be contented,
and stop praying for more love to be showered upon them,
when they already have enough for them to live a strong life.

---

so tired.
of everything.
this is when the reliance on God is complete.


thank God for hard times.

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

holidays~
so far so good =)
except for the first day.
tt was a horrible day.
because i turned away from God
and indulged in very selfish thoughts.
but He loves me all the same,
and gave me yet another chance to repent and change.
when He could have just thrown me into the fires of hell.
pardon the mobidity,
but truth is truth.
for every breath that you take,
thank God.
it is by His grace that you even have life in you.

there are people to thank
for being there to listen, despite how i was acting like a brat.
these people, you know who you are =)

the sunshine after the rain:
lollipops,
meatballs,
teddy bears,
mahjong,
shopping,
extremely refreshing church retreat,
The Letter,
cat!,
noisy family dinner,
more mahjong~
all pasted big big smiles on my face =)
thank God for that.

well,
in the middle of all that activity,
received a phone call that wld've caused much hurt
if the Lord hadnt allow the issue to be resolved within me.
there's still hurt of course,
but how i respond to it wld've been really ungodly
if not for the Lord's intervention.
God is good.

suddenly gripped with an intense fear that i have no friends.
no laughing matter, really.
insecurity's the one thing which i have zero tolerance for.
between veggie and insecurity,
i'd take the veggie.
now you see how serious this is.
very very extremely.
of course, this is a fear that contradicts the Bible.
i know the Lord will provide me with what i need to survive.
and that, of course, includes people.
i've got to pray that i have trust in the Lord's faithfulness.

a worship to plan, 2 books to read and many pounds to be shed.
its time to get back to gym rumashikiiiiiii~!

zzz.
shopping w the taitais tmr.
pray for my bank acct =S
nites.