Saturday, May 27, 2006

there's only one thing im feeling now.
NUA.
N-U-A.
feeling extremely weak.
my arms feel like rubber.
my legs feel like jelly.
*faint*

have been sick since thurs.
missed sch since then.
fever's gone down now,
but the sore throat and runny nose are still here.
head's throbbing like crazy too.
*faint*

but thanx to all who showed concern =)
God's w me, so no worries.
i wun die.
wahahaha

getting another dizzy spell.
think i'll go take a nap.
toodlesss.
*stumbles off clumsily w my jelly legs*
wahaha.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

im...

1. happy
2. sad
3. thankful
4. confused
5. joyful
6. exhausted
7. insecure

all at once.

---

:')
things are different now.
and im very thankful that it turned out this way.
i've nv felt better in the past 2 months.

suddenly thought of the song i wrote for you when i was 15.
i took 2 days to finish it~!
and geline was the first to hear it =)
i loved you like sisters back then,
and i still do~
a lot.

- in unicode -
here's my song for you.
i still mean every word that i wrote in it =)

<<故事>>

Chorus 1:
故事
就从那时候开始
年少无知的样子
分享过的往事
坚定的意志去维持
我们一同守护和创造的名字
我要让世界得知我们之间的故事

Verse 1:
不记得在何日何处何时
让你和我和她都相识
串成了完美的故事

Verse 2:
有点不踏实
心中的位置
怎么可能让你们那么轻易携持

Chorus 1:
故事 就从那时候开始
年少无知的样子
分享过的往事
坚定的意志去维持
我们一同守护和创造的名字
我要让世界得知我们之间的故事

Chorus 2:
故事 从好久以前开始
未来都不会停止
接下来的日子会联成一首最精彩的诗
让周围的每一个人叹为观止
我要让世界得知我们之间的故事

---

thank God for everything.

Sunday, May 21, 2006

heyy.

you know, im forever unsure of how i shld start a blog post.
like, i dunno if i shld address the blog like pple do to their diaries
(eg. "dear diary...")
or am i supposed to write as if im writing to myself,
or to write to my perceived readers?
ah watever.
im talking rubbish.

anyways,
its mummy's bday today =)
went for a xiao long bao feast and then blueberry cheesecake for dessert~!
YUM.
we made mumsy a wonderful card made of vangard (is that the way to spell it?) and crayons.
its really pretty!
my mummy loves it =)
she wants to display it somewhere in the house!
wahahaha.
we've bought her lots of expensive stuff on her previous bdays,
but this simple present was the one that made her the happiest =)
there really are things $$ cant buy.

i think i keep too many things to myself.
i've nv really shared my woes and troubles to anyone b4.
maybe to geline a few times, when im really desperate for someone to listen.
but other than that,
i hardly share my problems with anyone.
i keep them to myself and tell them to God.
a lot of times,
i really hope there's a friend that i'll feel comfortable talking to.
then i'll be willing to share my troubles freely.
and not carry everything upon my shoulders.
then i would think...
"who wld be the best person to share to?"
most of the time, i can think of no one.
and that makes me even more upset than b4.
then i hide in the bathroom,
take a long long shower,
and cry.
crying always makes me feel loads better.

but i dunno how long i can carry on like that.

---

when i told my cell grp abt my late sleeping habits,
xiaoling told me i cant sleep early becos im only mentally tired, but not physically tired.
so even if my brain's half dead, my physical body doesnt wanna sleep.
and the solution that she gave me is...
to exercise.
thus,
i went running w geline and geok some days back,
and went swimming w elphia, jy and geok today.
and it works.
im dead tired now.
zzz.

swimming was fun today~!
i love wave pools~!!!
was happily sitting on the big yellow float waiting for the waves to come,
when elphia decided to flip me over just for fun.
and she succeeded
just when the waves start coming.
and once the wave currents start,
i cant possibly climb up that float again!
so i spent the entire time hanging on to the float w my arms,
fighting the huge waves that keep trying to pull me away from the float.
i was clinging on for dear life.
wini was asking me how to slim down on the arms the other day.
thus, wini, i've found the ultimate way.
just do this thing in the wave pool every week.
guarenteed success.

---

gto is back on youtube~!
finally~!
woohoo~!
but im too tired to watch now!
and faith's lending me the vcd tml!
thus!
it doesnt really matter actually.
wahahaha.
but im still happy!
i have no idea why tho.
wahahaha.

Friday, May 19, 2006

identity crisis.

my dad loves to speak to me from upstairs
in the normal volume.
then i wld scream up to ask him to repeat wat he said.
then he wld repeat wat he said in the same small voice.
then i wld scream that i cant hear.
then he wld shout real loud to tell me that i've damaged my ears by listening to noisy music.

i r r i t a b l e.
i dun feel like talking
to anybody.
even to myself.

identity crisis.

how wld i love
to have a friend who knows me.

then again,
i dont even know myself.

all's ending by next week.
the end.
your indifference anticipation scares me.
a lot.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

on monday,
i felt the strong urge to re-watch gto.
thus, i went to youtube,
and found the whole drama series there!
so i started watching from episode 1 to 7,
and stopped there cos its already dawn,
and i really have to sleep.
so i thought to myself "nvm, shall come back and watch it when im free again"
and today's the day that im free again.
and im SO BENT ON FINISHING THE WHOLE THING.
TODAY.
so i went to youtube again just now.
and i found out a horrible truth.
THE PERSON WHO UPLOADED THE DRAMA MADE IT PRIVATE SO I CANT WATCH IT EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*FAINT*
HOW?!?!?!
I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE!!!!!!
I WANT TO WATCH NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sob.
my onizuka senseii~
SOB.

faith just told me sth totally hilarious.
weiyang saw her and her bf in sch today,
and said she looks fat (which is totally not true) beside her tall and lanky bf.
then faith told him she shall go on a diet and try to be skinny.
and then weiyang told her to try to be my size.
but the fact is
I AM FATTER THEN HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OPTICAL ILLUSION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sighs.
i cant stand it anymore.
im gg to pick any jap drama i have and watch it.
b4 i break down due to the loss of my beloved gto.
sob.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

pms.
again.
the time when i get mood swings,
oversensitivity,
a lot of tears,
and a terribly low level of tolerance
for everything.
all at once.
so pls
be helpful,
be nice.

i.feel.so.alone.
my best friends are leaving me.
it is very pathetic
to feel that my mother is the only person on earth who loves me.

but of course,
she is not the only one.
i still have
my Heavenly Father.

but dear Lord,
i need friends too,
to pick me up when im down,
to encourage me when im too tired to carry on,
to remind me of your presence.

---

friday was parents' day.
we made heart-shaped balloons with cards tied on them,
and presented them to our parents halfway through our song performance.
sweet.

we practised hard on thursday.
rehearsed the skit over and over again.
i have to really thank my actors
for putting up with me.

zhiwei did sth very funny on thurday.
we were all really hungry halfway though the rehearsal,
so we sent our soundman -zhiwei- out to get food.
i wanted ice mountain,
but when he came back,
he told me there was no ice mountain,
so he bought me mountain dew.
WAHAHA.
the similarities end at their names can.
usually pple wld just get mineral water of another brand.
haha.

celebration for mothers' day on friday night.
good food at some yatch club.
pretty.
but i think the sea is scary at night.

went to get the mothers' day gifts w sis today.
bought stuff for mumsy,
and my big sister (since matt and jean are too young to understand whats a present),
and my sis's mother-in-law.
as broke as can be now.

---

help.

Thursday, May 11, 2006

woo~
changed blogskin.
am in the red mood now.
wahaha.

changed the song too.
its truly old.
but so wonderful.
the music rock. (esp. the bell chimes~!!)
the lyrics rock.
the mtv rocks too.
check it out at k box.
i love it~!

anyways,
thanksgiving to God.
grades are better than expected.
better than last sem la :)
not v good but still..
im contented :)
thank God.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

haven blogged for a while~
was beezeee as a beeee *buzz buzz*
three things that kept me busy busy was:
#1: 2cians gathering~!
#2: slk party~!
#3: out w faithy and mellyyy darling today :)
and in between these were long hours of babysitting matt and jean,
and the planning of parents' day.
so...
*phew*
i seriously need rest.

okay, lets go back to the three:
#1 - met up w the 2cian girls =)
it sounds like alot of pple,
but out of the ten, 5 were missing.
and 2 among the 5 who turned up was geokie and tingy.
WAHAHA.
but i was really glad to see xy and ps~!
missed them loads.
*hugs*

neoprints neoprints~!



okays next,
#2 - SLK party~!
it rocks.
the dress code = our pj uni~!!
wahahaha.
i had the constant fear that the others wld pang seh me,
and i'll be the only stupid one wearing the pizzahut uniform lookalike.
but nope, they were true to their words.
we all wore the stupid uniform to imm to get food :)
holarious~

we planned to have a steamboat and order some stuff from sh's restaurant.
BUT~!
very unfortunately,
the vip room got booked and of cos,
customers have priority over our stupid party.
thus,
we had to stash the steamboat food at sh's place,
eat all the ready-to-eat food that we got,
and then get out of the room.

so we went to sing~
typical slk hangout place eh.
was the first time we managed to sing "xing guang yi jiu can lan" tog :)
its a really old but truly wonderful song that we all loved.
shall try to put it up on the blog~
and if anyone dares to laugh at its 'oldness',
i.will.kill.you.

photos photos~



okays,
#3 next!
went out w faith and mel today :)
it was a tiring day.
my feet was aching like crazy.
had a wonderful talk w faith while we rested our feet @ coffeebean.
was good to be able to talk abt stuff :)

saw WanTing and freddy on the wayyy~
and we dragged the holarious moster w us to meet mel for neoprints.
the neoprints are on faithy's blog, if you wanna see them.
am tired of uploading photos.
wahaha.

i.am.so.tired.
agenda for tml:
pick matt up from sch,
take care of him and jean w mummy,
parents day skit rehearsal at 6,
parents day grand rehearsal at 8,
everything ends at 10.
*phew*

i need rest.
help.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

shared the gospel w adrian thru msn tonight.
how wonderwonderful~!
thank God for the chance to.
he was asking sth abt christianity.
so i thought its a good opportunity to share my testimony w him.
i didnt want to force it on him,
so i actually asked if i can.
and he said if i'd like to, he'd be happy to listen!
woohoo~
wat a wonderful answer.
thank God :)

*sings* its raining, its pouring~
i love rainy nights :)
music to my ears.

weiyan sang us a truly holarious revamp of "somewhere over the rainbow" today.
pardon my ignorance if you've already heard it millions of years ago.
its the first time i've ever heard it,
and its too good a joke to keep to myself.
sing this to the "somewhere over the rainbow" tune:
'somewhere over the rainbow,
the birds fly.
birds fly over the rainbow
until they all die'
WAHAHAHA.
holarious~!

-nostalgia-
one day,
i shall dig out all my pri sch photos,
and post them here.

Saturday, May 06, 2006

didnt have time to blog till nowww.
been at sis's place the whole day :)
matt and jean rocksssss.

had ultimate fun w ariel chng siew yu and ms quah yesterday :)
missed yuyu terribly.
its amazing we stayed friends through all the drama in sec sch.
but thats another story for another day~

so here we are~!!

shopping spree again~!
i.am.so.broke.now.
bought 2 tops, a bottom and a bag.
woo~
i realized i really do love shopping loads and loads.
i think its my favourite thing to do besides singing.
geokie was dead beat after a few hours,
but i still felt like i can go on forever.
wahahahaha.
thats bad.
its an expensive hobby.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

happy Bday pemers~!
:))))))
i love every 1st of may that we've spent together!
including yesterday :)
despite the disagreements that we had,
i still enjoyed all your company :)
and i really do appreciate all your willingness to meet up,
even though some of you have other stuff to see to.

we had dinner in town,
then neoprints.
and all expenses are covered by the pem fund~!
woohoo~!
so i didnt have to spend a cent on food and neoprints yesterday.
wahahahaha.

here are my pemer princesses~!
dinner time:
candid shots~ i love candid shots~!!!!


and our neoprints:


you'd notice that we did the exact same pose as i did w jiayi & gang.
i wasnt the one who gave them that idea!
it was sam's idea!
wahahahaa.
great minds think alikeee~

went to the cine kbox w geline and geokie after that.
it was an amazing k box session.
we paid for the 9pm-12am package, which costs $11.50 per person,
but they let us sing till 5am!!!
wahahaha.
isnt it truly amazing?!
5 free hours of singing!!
we cld even go past 5 hours and sing till their closing time
we left only because we were too tired to carry on!
this is the first time there was no staff popping in repeatedly to drive us off!
5 free hours!!
wahahaha.
joy joy joy~

pem rocks :)