Saturday, December 31, 2005

i read it twinie.
read abt how you loved him.
and how you lost him.

all those time when we were together, all i see is your smiling face.
all i hear is your laughter.
but when you are alone,
and start to realize it over and over again that he's gone,
your heart must be screaming in pain.

im sorry for being so blind.
im sorry for being so insensitive.
i was stupid to think you've gotten over it.
now i know, its a pain that'll never go away.
but dun be afraid twin.
because we'll b there with loads of painkillers to keep you gg :)

i wish you're here with me now.
so that i can cry with you.
so that i can bear your pain with you.
so that i can give you a big hug and reassure you again and again that we'll all be here for you.
so that i can tell you that God's with you and He always will be with you.
so that i can make sure you're not alone.

take care till we meet again twinie :)
and stay strong.
for us.
for your family.
for God.

Friday, December 30, 2005

all the bad things happened this month.
suddenly all around me are sad and gloomy faces.
twinie lost the one she loved so much.
sam lost the one she loved so much.
and tingy...
and geok...
they went through so much.

seeing you cry leaves me really helpless.
really helpless.
hoped i had been a good friend for you when you most needed someone to be there.

but im not the one you need.
it Lord Jesus who can help.
all of your teary eyes told me how much pple need the Lord.
and for my love for you,
i truly pray that you guys will realize...
its God's love that can heal your pain.
nothing else but God's love.

may the Lord be with all of you :)
amen.

Friday, December 23, 2005

*this's the season to be jolly~ lalalalalala lala lala!*
wahahaha.
i simply love christmas!
red and green everywhere and all the bright lights!
purty purty purty!
wahahaha.
the cosy cosy feeling the christmas brings...
love it love it love it.

there's another reason to be jolly abt tho and that's...
tingy is back in s'pore!!
wahahaha.
we went to meet her at the airport :)
it was impromtu so she was really surprised to see us waving frantically at her through the glass when she was collecting her luggages.
wahahaha.
her eyes went twice their original size.
wahaha.
i cried a little when i saw her.
its stupid, yes, i know it hasn't been like ten years since i last saw her, but still!
i really did miss her loads.
but i guess samantha was the one who really really needed her to be here.
they share this special bond that i dun think any one of the other pemers can replace :)
and i know sam is really happee to see ting again.
so now everyone's happy :)
thank God eh.

so,
pem went out yesterday for a bit of a get-together thingy.
pem as in all five of us :)
well, geok wasnt able to join us any earlier than during dinner time but thats enough eh :)
at least we spent some time together.
ate ding tai fung (YUMMY!!) and took purty purty neoprints.
was a really really fun day eh.
thank God for the time we had together :D

*cough cough*
my throat's not getting any better eh.
sighs.
really hope i can sing properly on the christmas event in church eh.
shall trust that God will take care of everything :)

Monday, December 19, 2005

has been really busy since the hols started.
busy w the auditions...
spending time w my family...
spending time w matthew boy + jeanette girl :)
spending time w pem...
and serving in church - the band and the amazing race prep and the pamphet thingy.
today's really the start of the hols for me.
its the first day since the hols started that i really stayed home to rest.
felt great to wake up w/o the stupid alarm ringing in my ears.
had band prac for the christmas event in the evening tho, so it wasnt really a whole day rest.
but it definitely was enough :)
thank God.

went to the wake yesterday w slk.
seeing my twinie cry was really painful.
the agony that she went through must have been great.
but by the time we were leaving she was smiling again :)
i know it takes time to heal and she must be still feeling really terrible inside.
but i know the Lord is with her.
that'll make things a lot better :)
because God is above all.

went for rebonding w my dear sammie sam sam.
we both have flat heads now :)
but soon our hair will look more natural and we'll have purty purty hair again!
yay!

tingy is coming back this wed night :)
i really cant wait!
missed her so very much.
time for tons of neoprints and catching up w her!
grrrr busy busy busy.
i need time to breathe.

feeling sickish now.
i cant b sick!
need to sing for christmas in church!
help!
grrr.
shall down all the fruits i can find at home tml and see how it goes...

Friday, December 16, 2005

doing anything seems wrong to me now.
everytime i think of the pain you're gg thru, i cant bring myself to sit around and watch you suffer.
but how can we take away your grief?
i cant think of any way to help except to pray that our Father will continue to be with you.
stay strong for us. for your family. for God.

we'll always be here.
we promise.

Monday, December 05, 2005

grrr.
in sch now, trying to studying for tml's comm exam.
the keyword is TRYING.
sighs.
really wanna do well for the finals so shall keep trying.

jeanette's a month old! :)
really thank God for being with her and seeing her through her first month.

bought a new phone yesterday.
lurveee it~
thank you daddy for this purty phone.
i shall take good care of it :)
so if anyone sees this, please send me your handphone number via email or friendster?
esp. slk!!
twinnie!
i lost your phone number!
sob sob.

grr, shall go back to do my stuff...
sighs.