Saturday, April 30, 2005

geline heard from marcus the our singing instructors are realli pissed by us.
says we are arrogant juz cos we cant perform for them.
it realli cant b helped that my church camp totalli clashes with the dates of performance right?
plus the performance is some vegetarian charity thingy for renci hospital.
which means its somewhat 'publicity' for buddhism?
if i had to choose btwn pleasing the singing school and pleasing God, the choice is obvious eh.
sighs.
wat's not helping is that geline's siding with the singing pple.
non christians may not understand why we dun wanna perform there so as not to stumble other christians,
but they realli shldnt criticize sth that they probably noe nuts abt eh.
juz becos you dun understand sth doesnt mean its wrong.

mum and dad arent happy abt the singing classes ending so late at night.
plus the school regularly performs at pubs and night clubs, which i nv want to step into.
and now, i cant even choose not to go cos if i do, geline and a bunch of other pple says we're arrogant and selfish.
sighs.
i dun think God likes us joining this singing class.
but geline's right that now it involves the 4 of us and not juz me and i cant juz do as i please.
gosh, help me b4 i break down.

sighs.
pem's bday is coming.
but not all of us have the time to gather for this special day.
the urge to cry and juz stop bothering abt things is realli realli realli strong.

but i noe God is in control.
and regardless of wat happens, He'll always b with me.
thats all that matters.

Thursday, April 28, 2005

am finally back to work today after a horribly long break.
so many things changed!
new cash register, new rules...
very strict rules.
the time to quit is dangerously near.
but sadly, with mothers' day and pem's bday coming,
im desperately in need of $.
the situation's so bad such that when i gave a hundred bucks to my singing instructor for school fees, i immediately asked for the change and got laughed at by like everybody.
haha.
sighs.
i dun even noe how i can laugh at a sad time like that.

uncle freddie said he'll talk to my parents and try to convince them to let me go on the mission trip to malaysia.
but the problem is,
i dun even noe if i wanna go.
i noe as a christian i shld b happy to b given a chance to serve the Lord.
but this is all so sudden, im really caught unprepared.
unprepared as in im not given time to think abt it and to realli come in peace with my decision.
i dun want to feel forced to go.
cos it shldnt b that way.
if im going, im gg joyfully.
sighs. how do i break this to uncle freddie and make him understand all this?
grr.

had a great time with nicole pearly ang yenting todaeeee~
wahaha... i juz cant get use to her new name!
she brought bibi along to accompany me at freshbox.
she's as cute as can b! (bibi i mean, not yenting)
she's ting's 4 yr old cousin.
she's so cute everyone working there wanted to befriend her. :)
and having her around at work made today a wonderful day.
plus i bought a realli cute cropped jacket and a sequin belt today which i realli love.
so today's not juz wonderful.
its amazing!
wahaha.

oops, its getting late!
gotta work early again tml!
juz the thot of the numbers in my bank acct increasing gives me so much passion for work.
wahaha.
say gdnite to suying the moneyface!
cheerios!~

Thursday, April 21, 2005

yup.
once again, poor little me is stuck at home with nothing to do.
am now trying to upload songs into my blog to liven things up a bit
but judging on how uncooperative my pc had been all this while,
there wun b any music on my page for many years to come.
sigh~

am starting to get worried abt my future...
yes, my future that seems so bleak right now.
the feeling of not knowing where i'll be a few months from now is...
its, well... scary
since young i always knew wat to expect.
primary sch, then seconday, then jc.
sighs. this transition is realli freaking me out.
i can only thank God that im His child, that i know wherever i go, He'll b with me.
knowing im not alone in this makes it so much easier to bear.
:) i love my Heavenly Father!
heh... and i noe He has already prepared a path for me to take.
yup. so there's realli nothing to b worried abt.
hur...

to quit or not to quit?
wahaha...
i realli think there's no need for me to quit ah, twin...
i can always ask for off days when you guys wanna come out yes?
this friday is an exception cos my singing lesson is pushed to thurs, i have church on sat and sunday, so i cant afford to get friday off...
mabbe we can get together next week?
im realli sorri twin, for not being able to make it this week...
but its not becos i dun care abt slk twinie! i love you guys loads!

juz read your blog awhile ago...
being unable to meet as a whole doesnt mean we dun want to meet up!
sometimes, its realli due to circumstances, like rahel and sq needs time for school and homework, you needa work every night and cant come out too often, while im always busy during weekends cos of church and work.
i'll try my best to fork out time for you guys k!
if you guys can, settle on a day next week for a gathering early so i'll have time to plan my schedule k?
hope to hang out with you guys soon! :)
anyway, you sounded realli sad in ur blog girl.
is everything fine with jon and all?
let us noe if you need a listener ok?
you noe that we'll make time to share ur troubles no matter wat!
cos we're slk, the bestest frens in the whole wide world.
muahahaha. ^________^V


slk i love you! :D

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

now that jasmine is back to work at FB, im becoming very VERY free.
had both mon and tues off... while the rest of the world is happily working.
grrrr... i miss all my old colleagues.
ruiling's having attachment now.
sherlyn and julian are tranferred to parco and village.
so now, i've got to adapt to a whole new environment,
working with jasmine and kaixin.
not that they're bad pple...
but still... missed the old gang.
josline's quitting for a better job soon so i'll realli realli b alone then.
sighs... mayb its realli the time to quit eh.

i am so very bored.
singing class is pushed to thursday.
so,
im stuck with nothing to do AND nothing to look forward to today.
ARGH.

my life is so bland that im even running out of things to blog abt.
HAALP!!

Monday, April 18, 2005

my twinie posted this on her blog.

"today was fine... =) ------walkin down memory lane------- me and ms twinie wah ate yaki something at cinei.. it was wonderful seeing my twinie again!! =D we ate alot. haha not alot la. i dont think we ate our money's worth tho. but we sat our money's worth. coz of the rain we were stuck in cini.. haha. of all places! so we kept chatting and talked about our JC life.. how i miss SLK and even back to the Valerie and amy days... wahaha... it was indeed valerie who triggered our interest in BK. hahah.. bk rox. =) will u marry me? hahaha. private joke here.. i miss the good ol times when we decide when to pon school.. or have a surprise ponnin day. i miss the vacuum cleaner joke and the mr macdonald joke about bk.. sob sob. i miss goin to bridge for maths tutorials!! and the Bingo we once played during maths!!! haha.. well. our lives are mainly about maths... i do miss econs with siao lang qi tho... remembering the time we were caught by the ball eating pita bread!!! hahahah... and the times we will not hand up assignments and we were the weakest students in econs!! haha... and alex tan who hated us to the core!! haha that fish monger... oh and literature lessons that we'll always skip and even if we do not we refuse to participate in lessons... we'll take like a few hours on a lit assignment and spend loads of our time on lit.. in the end.. we got a friggin C for lit. haha.. but lit was fun with SLK. haha.. that was the amy times.. and the phui phui times... and remembering the time we cried while rahel decided to leave our class to retain another year. PP was so scared to see us crying... i miss miss miss PJ... i miss hearing mr quek's funny jokes that will send shiqi into peals of laughter.. and miss laughin at caleb when he tries funny stunts when singing school song.. sobbity sobs. i miss the mass pe aftermath when we go eat waffles!! i cant remember what's it called le. i miss the old school life that i once took for granted.. "

every word you typed, twin,
made me miss slk even more than i already do.
love you loads twin.
realli i do.

yesterday was BPGC's 50th anniversary.
the anniversary dinner was loads and loads of fun :)
am glad i had the chance to get to noe my brothers and sisters in Christ a little more thru this dinner...
thank God :D

MTV's playing Vivian Hsu's "Hao Xiang Ni" every two hours or so.
its a wonderful wonderful song.
so simple...
so magical.

shiqi came to visit me at freshbox on friday.
we went on a crazy shopping spree after that.
she almost lost her mind when we found out there's a 50% sale as the WOS.
wahaha.
i bought a purty purty nike drum bag at half price!
wahaha... that sounds v aunty-ish i noe...
wahaha... but it was fun!

the response for the superstar contest seems to b overwhelming...
cant wait to check out the contestants and c how good they are at singing...

am realli struggling with myself now.
i realli dunno if i realli shld go to k box animore.
geok's realli firm in her decision not to go.
but talked to joseph yesterday and he thot its still okay to go...
so shld i go?!
ARGH!
decisions, decisions.
shall continue to pray abt it...

a cute little stray kitten suddenly turned up in my neighbourhood a week ago
its realli realli lovable :)
used to roam our corridor and follow us everywhere.
but now its no longer here.
am a little worried if it'll survive out there...
its a world full of cruel pple.

i realli do miss singing at k box.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

gosh, the last time i posted on this blog was november 2004.
suddenly had this urge to write down all that has happened in my life.

i got a job at freshbox.
my dad accepted Christ :D
pem started taking singing lessons :D
yenting drew apart from us for a while but she's back now ^.^
i started baptism class :)

sam started school
she called and woke me up from my sleep a couple of days ago
i asked her wat she wanted
she said she wanted nothing but to chat
she misses pem and she took time to let us noe.
its sad we didnt bother to let her noe we missed her too.

working makes me realise how hypocritical a person can get.
thats when i learn to treasure friends i got to noe from school :)

was out this whole day with mum.
i really spend loads of time with her nowadays
and i love every second of it.

baby matthew's abt nine months old now!
and he's as cute as ever.
he's got a bad case of rashes right now.
please take time to pray for him beothers and sisters
thanx :)

the lit cohort in pj is doing the sunma eman ifada and efigy drama piece for pc.
i miss slk so v much.

parents' day is coming :)
*sings* "wo yao gei ni ge jing zhong zhao, yi ge tie bu shan!"

bought the new FIR album.
it rocks.

yawn.
time to hit the sack.
nites~