In full knowledge of the obligations I am undertaking, i promise to provide a competent standard of care for the sick, regardless of race, religion and status, sparing no effort to alleviate suffering and promote health and to refrain from any action which might endanger life.

I will respect at all times the dignity of the patients under my care, holding in confidence all personal information entrusted to me.

I wil maintain professional knowledge and skill at the highest level and give support and co-operation to all members of the health team.

I will abide by the Singapore Nursing Board Standards of Practice for Nurses and Midwives, and be responsible and accountable at all times for my nursing actions and decisions.

I will do my utmost to honour the Code of Ethics and Professional Conduct of the Singapore Nursing Board. I will uphold the integrity of the professional nurse

congrats to class 2008 =)

FROGGIE free days = 01 day

i love my life nw..
although life in alexandra is so stressful
at least i have time for my frens and family
shopping in bugis street with joy
queuing for donuts from donuts factory
bargaining in malaysia
eating ard with the greens =)
and hanging out with via!

i found back the laughter
which was lost when that bastard went away
found back my cheeky self

im addicted to MAC GRIDDLES
eating it everyday is making me go out of shape
not mentioning the 6 packets of sugar i add to my tea! =X
no wonder my collegues say i go hyper after taking my breakfast

im sorry if i left without explaining
i didnt mean to hurt u the way i did
u might not know it's hard for me too
but i'm choosing all or nothing!

i remembered how i looked forward to this day
lookin at my past entries
it reminded me of how silly i was
to believe in a fairy tale that will never happen
i've walked out of ur life nw finally
i wonder how will i take it when i'm there
hopefully everything turn out smoothly

LA LA LA LA!
i've never regret the decision i made
although i may b selfish
but i guess everything happen for a reason
n every decision i made have different concequences

let's do this again
5 things i will never say

1. fate brought me to you. although i was in denial at first, i learnt to stick beside u and ignore the stares and glares. i'm still trying very hard. please give me some time!

2. with you around, i'll never be lost in my own world. u could read my inner thoughts n gave me advice when necessary. girl, meeting u were one of the best thing that happen to me in secondary school life.

3. i didnt mean to not stick to my promise. i miss the times we were so happy with each other around. i guess i was a lousy friend which made us drift apart. thank you for all ur patience and cheerin me up when i'm down.

4. i hate the way u command at people as though u r super perfect. SO WHAT when u lacked PR skills.

5. although i dun hate you, but i hope i'll never see you again. cus i think u r a wimp. for everything i've done for you, i dun deserve to b treated this way.

HAPPY CNY!
it's been ages since i last blogged.
i'm so busy with attachment and work
that i dun even have time to sit down and pen down my thoughts

i've finally GRADUATED
lalalala~
BYE BYE to student life
and HELLO working life!
i'm going to make use of my 2 months hols
i've promised all my frens i'll stop being a workaholic
and date them out

i no longer dread chinese dinner
except de-boning the fish
i still need more practice
i miss the pioneer batch of part timers
gary, wendy, jack, jin long, michael . . .
who taught me from the scratch when i was a green horn

some people just like to make life miserable for others
but i'm not goin to let them put me down
cus what goes around come around lols

i love my sister, daddy and mummy
cus they made my pizza round =)

i'm so busy i dun even have time to blog
has been doin my attachment at AH
and hanging out with a bunch of xiao di di lols =)
i know they have their troubles too
but eating supper with them always cheer me up
n relieve me from my stress =D
i look forward to dusk n joining them at 848

i know clearly it was just another meet-up
havin it or not doesnt matter to you
but to me, i was pretty nervous
i know i'm pathetic still longing for you
at the moment i was tachycardia =)
i prayed to give me courage n i got it
pushin u away when i wanted to hold u so close
u still have the familiar scent n attitude
knowin me from inside out
i was disppointed cus u forgot i lived on the 11th floor
rushin to somewhere u looked forward to
i didnt question cus i didnt want to confirm the truth
i wanted to hold u back but i know i couldnt stop you
after 2nd sept, we might never meet again
i look forward to it yet dread it as well
no matter what, i will be strong!

just came back from esplanade
today was the open house for 'king n i'
n i had fun with the girls =)
i love esplanade events
cus roger is super nice

sch's goin to be over
and exams are ard the corner
cant wait to b free again =D

i know i shouldnt have done that
i should have kept to my principles
now it's hard to pull myself away from you
ever since i met you
i have been faking my smiles
i know you wanted all or nothing
cus of my guilt towards u
i've been making all the wrong decision

JUNXIONG, dun forget
fri sat n sun
sat dun go out lah..go study

for the past few nights
i have been contributing to the income of taxi driver
n splurging on myself =)

worked at CREATIVE with fang n her frens
compared to o/c, it was super slack
the pay was higher too =D
lazy to blog in details here are all the pictures!

went back o/c to eat
yoke mei's gaze is so funny
bridget n i couldnt help but giggle =)
bumped into shan
n we chatted
i realised i was running away from everything
i may choose to deny
but deep down i know myself best =)

met up with mielin n jas
ate at mos n shopped at simlim square =)
bought d/s lite accessories n ear phones
*bastards* =X
then met up with lp n clarence
hk cafe the 3rd time this wk

havin supper almost everyday
i'm growing horizontally
i'm so addicted to donuts from the donuts factory

i'm a happy girl
it was a blessing in disguise
since u left me, i became stronger
discovered things i never did about myself
i knew i made the wrong choice
but i never did regret being together with you
i will shower u with unconditioned love as a fren
n nth more than that!
cus this time u really did hurt me
n from the start, it was ur mistake
u need alot of energy to hate n i'm tired


to watch the chelsea match =D
i always look them up as my seniors
being out with them was a totally different feeling
they r not as 'mature' as i tot they were
like all 20 yr old guys, they r playful guys

sun-watched spiderman with pamy
wth we caught the 3 plus show
then the reel was spoilt, the show was delayed to 5 plus
then met up with lp at orhcard for dinenr
n guess what
exchanged numbers with someone from oc =)

it was weird being out on weekends
cus normally i will be clearin ppl's plates n toppin up their water
now it's the other way round
i guess i will get used to it =)
chilling out with my chums
looking forward to my next weekend!

flashbacks runnin through my mind
when i made tt dash

orchard tower with mielin, jw n lp
pasta cafe with 6/1s18
then balcony =)

Forget his name,
forget his face,
Forget his kiss and warm embrace.
Forget the time you spent together.
Remember he is gone forever.

Forget the fact that he once cared,
Forget the love that he once shared.
Forget his love that once was true,
Remember now there is someone new.

Forget you cried all night long,
Forget him when they play your song.
Forget how close you once were.
Remember what he chose over you.

Forget you memorized the way he walked.
Forget the way that he talked.
Forget the times he made you mad.
Remember how he made you feel so sad.

Forget the SMS when he said, Hi!
Forget the times he made you cry.
Forget the way he said your name.
Remember now he is not the same.

Forget you saw him yesterday.
Forget his gentle and teasing way.
Forget the things you had planned to do.
Remember now he is not with you.

Forget the times that went so fast.
Forget it all it is in the past.
Forget he said, I'll leave you never.
Remember now he is gone forever.

03/04/07
shopped with shanni
to n fro cini n taka
splurging on acessories
then had dinner at s-11 with fang
was a random meet up
spiderman next wk right??

04/04/07
e-learnin day = no school
skipped work = sick
went to eat stingray n mini steamboat =)
colours by the bay
we met the same type of guy
were in similar fate
the only difference was the duration
i could feel what you felt
the agony, pain, misery, anger and disappointment
cabbed home =D
jia you girl!

after that supper with darren n ls
at nyp =)
listening to their craps
brought me back to my younger days =X

*highlights of the week
shall blog more details next time round
sorry for the m.i.a =)

mos with gina
went friendster-ing =)
sat ard waiting for jason to on his hp lols

balcony after work
chocolate mint martini!
3 girls, 1 butch, a jacuzzi and a random caucasian
someone broke a martini glass
n i got to noe a friend better =)

went suntec
with a guy who wears hair band
n tinks he look like 罗志详 =D
marina square+nuss+fountain+mac+857
that's about it
d/s lite accompanyin me everywhere

my fever is so terrible that i had rigors last night, having migranes in the evening when i woke up. i know sometimes things wont go your way when u wanted it to. but if u were to reassure, i will believe you, no matter what the rumours are. i wanted to have the doubts in you, but i cant cus i believed wadever they say, you must have ur reasons. fang told me i was not wrong to trust you. waiting for ur explainations paid off.

everybody i'm okay,
i really am.
time will prove everything
if he were meant to be mine
i believed our relationship will become stronger
if we were never meant to be together
i know whenever i need a friend
he will be there
like how i was always there for him. =)

i was the runner of the day =) although it was tiring but i was proud of myself. had supper (which was my first meal of the day) at rivervalley with angie and rix. chat over the difference between malaysia and singapore and numerous things. no matter what, i'm proud to be a singaporean. it was a place i dread going at this time. thinking back, it still gives me the sweet feeling of the honey moon period especially on the way back home in the cab.

他告诉我
忘了他
他是个傻瓜
他不值得你还为他流泪牵挂
有太多好男人是我的选择
想再看到我笑得灿烂如花

it's not that i do not want to give you time, but i was afraid history will repeat itself again. long long ago, pride was more important to me and i chose to be oblivious. And when the truth slapped me, it was too late to do anything. But i believe we are strong, strong enough to overcome any obstacles. you were my top priority but i guess i was not yours =) all i want is for you to be happy with or without me. i do not want you to worry about me anymore, adding pressure to your problems. So, i'm going to be a good and sensible girl from now on.

Anyway, i cant wait for the next sleepover. mielin, you better plan one soon lols. i wanna hear all your tales and play cluedo and bridge again. next gathering with the greens is to celebrate fang's birthday. n i cant wait to club with margaret they all, i wanna try your sunset margarita. we may meet once in a blue moon, chat once in a while, but i know when i need you guys, you'll always be there for me either to lend me a listening ear, give me a shoulder to cry on or provide solutions to my problems. i'm bless to have a group of wonderful chums surrounding me.

i feel so fake
trying to be cheerful
behind my smiles
are all the things
you'll never know
and i'll never say

i wan to be there for you
and to make you smile
lighting up your life with my presence
even if my whole world is in darkness

it was smth i thought i longed for
but i was wrong
i believe you were really hurt
but i know it wont be for long

everything happens for a reason
wadever the reason is
i hope u benefit from it =)

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY to everyone
especially my dear valentine
i'm so touched!!!!
although it was a simple trip
appearing at my door steps n all
at the stroke of twelve
but it says it all
i know u r a busy man
n i'm really surprise at the effort u put in
thanks for the prezzies n surprises =)
now it's my turn to make it up to you =X
from the day i gave my heart to you
i knew i will never set my eyes on another guy

p/s:
thank you benson for being e driver..nah dun say i never thanks
n jing ling for being super sweet with the chocos n soap =)

n i cant wait for exams to be over

went johor with dear and ben
as usual they say i bombarded them with questions
i was really curious by how things work
lols.. amused by how they pay their parking fees
and how different their uniforms are from ours

sometimes seeing your face at orchard hotel turns me off
it makes me feel like goin home
the comments u make are so negative
and u should have know i was a full time part timer
to know that u use wine glass for wine
even an inexperienced waitress can tell you that
im not sayin that you do not have the right to question me
of course you do cus u r a FULL TIME FULL TIMER
it is the way you phrase ur doubts
like how alex gently remind me to use colster for soft drinks
did i hold it against him NOPE
if it was you who saw that
you would have blow your top

if only i could pour out my feelings to you
without any negative concequences
maybe i wont be suffering in this misery
wake me up when it's over
i dun feel like crying tonight

YOU made me really feel like quitting
cus u r just so bad at words
or maybe i was ultra sensitive
YOU might not mean anything
or YOU jus blurt it out for fun

no matter how gd i m
few would appraise my strengths
mayb this is how life is
focusing on my weakness n blowing it up
i know i'm onli a PART TIME
but i have feelings too
like any FULL TIME

if one day i were to leave..
will YOU miss working with me??

















BENSON LAU WEI ZHANG
ah ben, it has been a yr since i know you
thank you for driving us around n sending me home
no matter how late it is and how many detours u have to make
your ah beng tales always amaze me
n your lame jokes never fail to make me laugh
dun give me tt pathetic look you use on girls
n i promise i will introduce u more 'turbo' girls =)
there, i delicated my last para to you

2 more projects to do
6 more exams to take
before my holidays =)

i know problems r lurking you
and stress and work load are piling up
i believe you will be able to overcome all these obstacles
and there will definitely be sunshine after the rain

i miss those days when i worked night shift with you
cooking pizza, nasi goreng, chicken in the basket
without the help of chefs
i always enjoy working with you
and i have no idea when did i start to check your schedule
and whether it clashed with mine =)

i saw you from a captain to a supervisor
from a sweet talker to someone so devoted
someone who smoked 3 sticks a day to none
darling my days were filled with joy n love
ever since fate brought us together =D
happy 1 year and 3 months anniversary

holidays have finally came
n in another 48 hours or so
i will be at sentosa for 3 days n 2 nights=)
my long-waited tanning
n our delayed break


in life, we have to constantly make choices
i hate it cus i'm either too fickled or too rash
but i have never regret anything
that has to do with you
darling, i love you!

brought my sis to orchard hotel
to have taiwan porridge buffet
shall bring her to high tea next time
n we chatted over alot of issues
that made me think of the past
heck~cus it's over




















went to 1s18 chalet
same place, same ppl
but different ambience
thank you for the birthday presents
i love the necklace n the bracelet
for the gurls, all the best n we shall meet up soon
n for the guys, i cant wait to c ur botak head!


















went with evon to do our nails =D
it was our virgin experience
thanks to shufang
we got a cheap deal
$38 for a classic french mani n classic pedicure






































i cant wait for my hols to come
n your annual leave
i love you dearly =D

i'm finally 18
n there's so many things i wanna do
thank you for everybody who wished
n all the surprises u guys planned =)
it's the thoughts that count huh lols
i shant complain much hehe


special thanks to evon for the swatch watch
alex n jason for the chocs
eunice for the birthday cake
jw for his mysterious present
sis for her help in my blogskin =)
n darling for everything he has done

i noe i've hurt you badly
yet u were always there when i need you
without a complain or hatred
u would never say no to me
no matter how demanding i was
it made me feel guilty
there were so many things i wanna tell you
but i'm clueless on where to start
cus i'm afraid to lose a best friend


sis, if there's a will, there's a way
i wont make you go through what i went through
if u need help, u can always call me or knock at my door
n i will accompany you till dawn
when u have fallen asleep =D
i will be there for you no matter how late it is
n how early i have to wake up the next day
jia you~
if i can do it, i'm sure u can too

passed my BCLS =)
1 project down n 5 more to go
for this semester


went jogging today
n i was breathless after 1 round
it has been 3 yrs since i last exercised


wake me up when everything's over
i dun feel like crying tonight

have been workin everyday at oc, would u b surprise if i ended up being a full-timer there??i wont cus i wanna be forever a part time there


i still remember my first day at work, i didnt even know how to cut lemon, holding the knife on one hand, e lemon looked so oval. i stood there for 5 mins figuring. balancing e tray seems such a difficult task. now it was such a breeze. intially i always hide in the pantry, not knowing what to do next. to those captains, i was another new chore. they have to teach me all overall again and i was slow in everything, not knowing what to do next. i used e whole one hour just to top up the whole cafe's sugar bowl. how slow can i go? lols..now it was just a mere 20 mins or so.


i still remember my objective in having a part-time job at that time. it was to keep my mind occupied. no matter how hard work is, i had to endure. hearing sentimental songs from intermezzo bar made it worst. after i got over him, i fell in love with workin at oc.


the buffet food was another temptation, i gained weight eating too much supper and after that lost weight cus i had no time to have break during the promotion period and the rules became stricter. the apron was another problem, i couldnt seem to keep them on my hips. it kept slipping down. and the hair of mine, no matter how much clips i used, it is still messy.


it is always fun workin with albert, he could link everything to dirty jokes. i love workin mornin shift with him. alex was a manager who understands and a crazy one as well when it comes to fun =) he had e charm which will make the china trainees go gaga over him. raja who never fail to make me smile with his ridiculous craps. he's such a gan chiong guy. fiona, shan and kenny who tot me alot of things. when others dun even bothered, they pointed out my mistakes. lewis who always have a way with me to brighten up my day e.g copying the way i walk, drawing me and labelling cute names. dewi, noreen and linda who will always take care of me by saving food and cakes for me.and huili, michelle, kerin, derrick. with them ard, workin seems so fun n interesting. rix, nicole and john, although they may seem harsh, but i know they just wan to get the job done. lastly all the chefs who treat me super nice, cookin porridge, omelette, satay, and noodles for me. if one day i would ever quit, i will definetly missed all these ppl. =D n it is always a bliss having kenny ard =)


ya, that's all for now.
i'm goin to work tata!

this 2 wk have been a tiring wk for me
going all the way to hougang for attachment
thanks to evon n all my lovely friends
i wasnt late during my mornin shift


i just love talkin to them alone
as i was afraid they would touch me
panicking when we hear the crisis signal
sittin in doctor's round
hearin the ridiculous answers e pt gave
n e doctors answered them back in witty replies


asking for more medications
choosing the colourful tablets in e trolley
havin delusions of grandeur
sayin tt he was the 2nd generation CEO of imh
beggin for sweets thus reachin out for our pockets
cus he was hungry


pulling down his pants to show us the pain site
dancin n singin without music to entertain us
telling everybody we owed him 100 millions dollars
delusions of prosecution
claiming that everybody wanted to harm him
telling me all the gangster songs


these were all my favourite patients
behind their bizarre behaviours
they have a lovely heart n a beautiful mind


i played games such as dumb, mahjong, manopoly n black jack
i even learned poker games (fishin, la-bee, 3-cards) from them
i enjoyed myself even doin e case study
although my instructor was boring
but she will not reprimmand us if we slp durin her lectures
so i slept throughout =)


i'm lookin forward to my hols
back workin in o/c
n spending my time with all my darlings =D

finally my attachment in kk is over
i had fun playin, feeding n bathing the babies
the babies r so cute
while changin their diapers
they urine all over my hands
hearin more bout educations on breast feeding
exposing the scandals in the adult world
n protecting myself from hi5 =)
now i'm lookin forward to my imh posting lols


do you noe what was the age of the youngest mother??
guess b4 u clicked on the url below
http://www.snopes.com/pregnant/medina.asp


i saw you again
this time u were not alone
u were with ur friends
maybe it's better for us this way
all the best ya!!


it's been 5 days since we last met up
i missed him so badly lols
2 mths or so to our anniversary
n i have already prepared everything haha
i always have faith in u
this time i know i've made e right choice =)

i know u have your pride
no matter how strong a guy is
he will still break down
although i cant lend you my shoulders
i can be ur active listerner
u can always count on me
i promise i wont turn u down =)


3 more papers to go
i'm so stressed
i need a break from all the mugging
have been meetin up wiv fang n hian
spending our time in fast food
studyin away lols..
mental health is driving me mad
help!!!i regret skipping his lectures
i'm still clueless on the 44 topics


we seem to be avoiding each other
was it u or was i thinkin too much
e friendly smiles have turned into
turn-away glances


*back to 2117 -_- sians

ended my 3-wks attachment
suddendly she bu de the staffs in 5B
joanna pointed out my strengths n weakness
though it's still a long journey
but i believed one day i would b like what i am nw in o/c
sians have to start muggin for exams


went out with 1s18 the day b4
went to play number ball
i didnt join in lols..
had to leave early cus accompany fang to work
then met up with kenny watched click


i'm back at cafe
i was able to stand up for my rights
some things changed but the values still remain
tryin to act as if i remembered e regular customers
when they smiled at me
ate nasi goreng
it was kind of dewei to treat us all


i wonder wad life will be like not knowing u
but right nw i'm glad u r part of my life
all his little actions made my everyday's life significant
thanks for all the surprises n for being there =D

went out wiv the gurls today
to celebrate grace's birthday
finally everybody was present today
we went to have lunch at baker's inn
took neoprints
then went to play arcade
thanks pamy for e earrings =D


everybody seems to have smth to do
after the meeting except for me lols
in the end i shopped alone
bought darling's present in advance
cant wait to c his reaction
i'm a sweet gurlfren lols..


im glad u found ur own happiness
u deserved to b a happy gurl
after all those unhappy events
a guy who can dotes on u
n willin to cab down to meet you =X
thank you for pickin the tie pin lols


im tired!!!
i cant wait for my T n C items to arrive =P

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i have found a cheaper way to shop
thans to evon lols
online shoppin =D
e same top i saw at orchard
cus 15 dollars cheaper online
i swear i'm not goin to shop in orchard
unless e prices r compared

sch's goin to end
n i'm goin for attachment
posted to e ward wiv all e critically ill pts
i hope everything goes well

i'm glad u were there for me
appreaciated evrything u hav done
it feels so nice to b protected
i love 53669

i promise to hold back my anger
but it takes 2 hands to clap
it hurts me to c you drinkin throughout e night
mayb if i return hm late
there would b less quarrelling

i'm glad we cleared all e misunderstandings
lols..i know you love me alot
i will try to gain back ur trust
but i love to c u jealous *grins

had been bumping into amk ppl
first it was shawn n eric i think
we seemed to have more things to chat
compared to last time
he was still e same..so crappy!

then it was e 4B guys

then it was kejun they all
made me miss amk days
yes!i was shocked

watched superman returns
it was a crappy gd show
nobody seems to recognise him in e day
when he put on his spects lols..

la senza rawks!
e items i wanted came
nw i'm onli left wiv the abercrombie top =D

last project tml =)
he's slpin nw n i missed him

it was so fun helpin u to move house
whisky is so cute
tryin to run ard in e car..
when u drove me hm =D

as usual we played arcade n ate
went to thai xpress
every dish is so spicy tt it made me tear
n u were so paranoid lols...
we ran out of movies to watch =(

ms qwen told us bout this guy
whose proteins were mixed wiv CSF fluids
n she say it was a 'sure die' situation
my heart goes out to tt young guy
it was jus a matter of luck
next time i will build up my immue sysmtem b4 i travel..

i'm lookin forward to sch everyday
n work every week end
it wasnt a naughty smirk
i smile cus i have no idea wad was goin on =X

thai xpress again ltr wiv my family
tata!

i feel so slacked
nw tt e xams r over
n evon suggested studyin for e next one =D
guess who i saw in sch lols
still e same drug addict face =)
we chatted over lunch

i miss oc n huili
it has been 2 long wks since i worked in oc
who says i'm workaholic =X
i'm workin e day after
my weekends r booked
i had no time for jason n alex
why cant u guys go out on weekdays

mister eurasian, i love you

i'm so glad my immune system killed e virus =X

went out wiv dear
1st it was smth bout e small changes
misunderstood e chasier
n then it was e c0uple seat
poutin when there wasnt in tt theatre
he really made me laugh =)
we watched scary movie 4
it was like 1 hr 20 mins
lame like hell
so we wasnt satisfied
n we caught just my luck
it was such a cute show

though it wasnt e endin i wanted
we walked off each have our own pride
i guess i was occupied wiv my own tots
i lied on ur shoulder
n told u wadever was troublin me
u told me
u nid energy to hate someone
but u nid courage to forgive them t0oo
i guess we r quits =)

rushin for sch nw
1st day n i dun wanna b late

*edited

dr lum cured me =D
it was a viral infection
i'm goin out to enjoy later
n today is e last day of hols

i love kenny
ya, i really love him =)

it was a long time since i last blog
all this while i was not feelin well
went to c dr toh
n gave me all e fever medications
n didnt give me any anti inflammations
like wad sf say
he was tryin to cure my fever
n usin anti biotic to treat my sore throat
n had ask ppl to replace me at work =(

i dunwan to b sick
i wanna to b healthy again

many things happened
but i'm glad they r over
i didnt wan to forgive
cus it will onli give u
another chance to hurt me again
i was moved by ur words
so i'm goin to let my luv build ur trust =D

i noe i shouldnt judge u frm all e rumours
i jus wan to sit on e fence
n let u face e music urself
this time i'm goin to keep my mouth shut

i'm goin malaysia again
this time i'm goin wiv my relatives
i'm goin to miss those i will missed =P

accompany von n elieen to eat at level 5
they were big eaters
i had a small stomach at tt time
then we went window shoppin

met up wiv kenny
n we watched the omen
the evil alwis stays lols
he was crappin wiv me throughout e show
06/06/06

if ever u could understand me better
step into my shoes to feel wad i m goin through
for every word u used to criticise me
i have grown numb by hearin them each day
i really did treasure but u jus couldnt feel it
this is e last time i'm goin to give in
i'm tired of callin u back everytime u hung up my call
apologising when it is not even my fault
tolerating ur demanding protection

e onli thing tt have changed is e way u percieve me n my words
i'm not goin to "disturb" u again
ur hp wont have any of my missed call
ur inbox will onli hav msges sent when we r together
this time, u have really left me speechless

today shall b e end of our 3 projects
it was a hectic wk for us
though it was a new enviornment for all of us
we managed to work out everything quite well
except for 2037 =D
evon, jing ling, jiafang shairah n malini
i'm glad we ended up in e same grp
waiting for practical n lab exam to end
then we shall go n have our ben n berry =)

ate wiv evon at l/t last nite
it was an early celebration for us
she was not feelin well
so i decided to bring her to porridge buffet
facin e food everyday it was kinda sians
but evon was there to accompany me to eat
so i had my fill n still feelin full nw

oh ya n i caught da vinci code
i got e whole picture
but i was puzzled by e story line
had to ask kenny bout this n that
he was smart exploiting their plot
i dun mind watchin it again lol

pls tell me this time i m right
dun do things to prove me wrong
leavin me in agony n helplessness
i could onli c ur back
cus u jus wont turn ard

i'm goin to sch
i dunwanna b later than evon =)

went k box wiv evon magaret jf n yf
i sang songs after songs lols..
n were chased out three times
our next outing will b e sushi buffet

why do names i dread appear everywhere
it makes me relate back to you
1.it was e lesbian in my sch
2.then came a gurl wiv schizophrenia
but y such a coincidence??
i realised initially i was just suppressin e tots
surprised at how i entangle between ur thinkings
n how well i can decifer everything
everything has gone wiv e wind whoosh!!!!

kope frm mummy =D

(i) list 10 things you want to say to people but know you never will
(ii) don't say who they are

1. it was our cca that draws us closer into e platonic friendship..thank you for chattin wiv me every night n all e enlightenment u gave me..lols..though we seldom contact nw, no matter where u r, i wish u all e best! even if u dun ask me out b4 u go ns =X

2. thank you for being there in e middle of e night, gurl u understand me so well n it always feels great talkin to u..without you i will still b stuck in e ordeal..i know you will find 'him' too =P

3. i know you have always been proud of me..but i'm sorry i let u down..i tot feelings do rekindle..so i didnt expect it to turn out this way..i'm sorry for being a terrible fortune teller..i broke your heart in an untactful way..and u didnt even blame me for tt..i wish u happiness alwis

4. i hate to c you flared up cus nasty words would b heard or mean actions were done..but when u r alright..u can become so swit and angelic..lols thank you for all e letters n being a buddy..i'll alwis b there for u..=D

5. you were a big eater like me..lols..our personalities bonded us together..thank you for e mornin call every weekday..i just wan to tell you how borin sch will be without you..so attend all e lectures, tutorials, labs n break wiv me..lols

6. being e youngest among u guys..i was pampered..thank you for being such amazing ppl..although i would go m.i.a for sometimes..but i promise i will alwis make e effort =)

7. i'm sorry things didnt work out between both of us..i'll nvr forget e times we spent together..mayb it was due to my childish attitude n e price i had to pay was our friendship..i always wanted to understand wad u were thinkin inside..i c things so simply while u c them in such a complicated manner..i jus wan to say dui bu qi..c ya ard =)

8...although sometimes we do argue and disagree on issues..but u guys were alwis there..thank you all e appetizing meals, tidyin up e things i messed up n providing wiv all my shoppin expanses..when i grow older i wanna b like you guys..cute and loving couples who luv their children dearly =P wo ai ni men!

9. if we ever had a chance, can we b tai tai again for another day..lols =)

10. baby, sometimes i jus couldnt stand your chauvinist way..but i noe these r ways u shower your care n concern..all i ask for is your trust...i didnt mean it to tire you out..i luv ur smile n i wan to make u smile forever =D

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here r 10 things which i will nvr say
due to complex reasons =)
n e pts r not arranged in order of importance
some of it r easy to guess if u noe my frens well enough =D

met up wiv wc ml clement jh roy n yf
had dinner at cafe cartel
it was a long wait for my chicken bolo
it wasnt tt nice too lols..
while they played contract i chatted wiv ml..lol
i'm sorry i didnt turn up today

it wasnt tt secret after all
at least me n fang noe
i was proud of myself feelin this way
it jus shows......
at this moment this is wad i feel
i shall blog it down b4 i changed my mind lols
live your xiao qi world
n i'll live mine

<3 mister kenny valentine gregory =D

went to momo wiv jiafang eunice tutty n their frens
it was a last minute decision
i borrowed eunice i/c n had to memorize all her details
in the end i was not checked
we went to bar n had drinks first
seeing women flirtin ard wiv men
n enjoyin e music
i had two volkva sprite n a turqeilla shot
then we headed to e dance floor =D
i enjoyed myself
cant wait to go wiv fang n pamy
e next day i took n m.c =)

i'm back from genting =D
we were planning to stay for 3 days
in the end we ended up stayin for 5 days
it's been a long time since i enjoyed myself

he was too shy

we went to golden mile to wait for our tour bus..we sat right behind e bus conductor..entertaining me throughout e journey..my own personal tour guild =) my first trip overseas alone without my family members..we finally reached after 6 hours or so..

we stayed in first world..although our room was deluxe..it was super small..we should have chosen genting hotel..

e first night we had our dinner at some chinese resturant..then kenny suggested to go to casino lols..so he called mr mystery..lols..tt was wad he saved it under..he discussed wiv him and even bargain wiv him..then e deal was settled..

walking through e gate which i'm not supposed to..i didnt even dare to look at e policeman..they didnt stop me cus i noe they have been bribed..first 6 hours i was still feeling scared that someone might stop me and check my ic so i didnt bet..after tt i started to have e courage to make decisions..all they did was jus looked at me wiv e puzzled look.. i tried almost all e games in casino and visited every part..casino de genting, morte carlo..

2nd day..we went to the theme park..we tried all e rides except e space rocket..tt goes up n down vertically..we had fun indoor n outdoor..spent our time in arcade..collecting tickets to b changed..i'm too lazy to blog in down but here r e pics =D

he claimed he was not photogenic so was avoiding e shot
a picture of us finally =)
he did all e cycling i was busy taking photos =D

believe it or not! e bks r falling on me this isnt kenny's hand =X

daydreaming =)
strange things started to happen..kenny told me tt 5th floor which we were staying used to b close..tt night i woke up suddenly and realised tt e toilet lights were switched off..i woke him up and he told me b4 e lights went off..he heard e water dripping sound..i was so frightened..but in the end i went back to slp..i was awoken by e switch sound n e lights went on..i wanted to wake kenny up but i couldnt move at all..i started to say prayers..i wonder how i past through e nite..e next day my ear was abit red and blue black..like someone has bitten it..i wonder was all these things linked..we changed our rm after spending 2 nites..

evidence tt my ear was bitten

we spend e rest of the days shopping and going to casino every night..last 2 night we had a hard time getting in..cus e policeman say i looked too young..the other one claimed to b righteous..pui!!

we spent e extended days walking ard.avoiding my relatives who were coincidentally in genting..moonlighting at nite =D shopping, trying e food..e services they provide was damn lousy..i could even do better than them..they could rather spend time tokin than show me e restroom..

tt's all..i'm too tired to blog..sians..going back to sch tml

last but not least i luv him <3

wanted to blog yesterday
but was too tired
wanted to have breakfast but end up having lunch
met 1s18 ppl at e least expected place

being mia for so long
i realised that i missed lots of things

wenchien is still her
so bubbly and full of ideas
i wont deny her seating arrangement in e end was superb =D
i was thinkin of ways not to make it so obvious
n bingo! wenchien thought of it

i didnt noe he was this kind of guy
such a romantic thing to do
but to e gurl who onli luv u as his fren
i pitied u n i hoped u moved on
like wad i did 3 yrs ago =)

clement is still crazy over snooker
we shall defintely play some day

readin mielin's blog
anyone can tell tt she's so full of him =D
i wont comment anything cus nobody have updated me yet
i was lagging like 3 mths lols...
anyone care to explain..
i'm still puzzled over many things =D

played bridge while we were waiting for e movie to start
v for vendetta lols..
i didnt noe how kenny can link it to virgin haha
it was rather political but i enjoyed myself

that all
n i luv 1s18 peeps!

attachment is finally over
and hols have started =D

went out wiv my beloved darlings
i was fatigue frm e day's work
n having headaches frm e insufficent slp
after meeting them i felt better

bought fang a tweety bird
it was a GIGANTIC one =X

had our dinner at sweet recipe
didnt really taste as nice as i tot
most of their things were item 86
communication breakdown among e staffs
had to wait 10 mins to tell us

pamy was unable to come
hian had to leave early
it's so hard to get everyone together
i'm glad i made it this time =D

went to l/t to drink n had dessert
talked bout everything
i jus love them
n e guy wearin e black jacket

cant wait to meet up again wiv them =)

just came in to blog to two things

i just got my results
n i'm happy bout it
currently no D for me =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY fang
i'll join u 8 mths later =)
hope u enjoy ur day
freee frm distractions =X

i'm starting to enjoy my vpt at ttsh
i'm down wiv flu
still tryin to get use to workin in B1
having done my presentation
i'm just waiting for attachment to end
we were totally slacked but i learnt lots of things

told me how rare ur sername was
n onli hainanese ppl will adopt it
and how e middle name was passed down through generations

or was i tinkin too much
came into e ward wiv ur broken thumb packed in ice

i miss all my frens
n i cant wait for hols to start

witnessed another death
it still brings tears into my eyes
wonder if i have e courage to do last office
life is indeed vulnerable
called u immediately to tell u
how much u meant to me =)
i do treasure you lols

i jus cant stand e politics in e adult world
n i dun wanna to b part of it
saying one thing n doin e opposite
i guess i just have to tolerate everything

had swensens last nite
filled in e GEMS card
i knew how difficult it is when ppl dun fill in
cus some times i helped oc to fill in
and i had to forge different handwritting
anyway i appreciated ur service
had calamari rings, banana spilt n dunnoe wad burger

morning shift tml
sians
15 more days to hols
n tml is fang's last paper
i can date her out again =D

went newton circus wiv alex, dewi, david n darling
as usual they drank till 3 plus
heng i was afternoon shift
e conversations they had alwix amazed me
e world is so small
i wonder when will we ever meet again

i dun look forward to tt day, i dun dread it either
u were an unfogettable love
no matter wad happens n who came into my life
this is wad e first luv alwix does, doesnt it?

on attachment at 11b
paying class is jus different
B1 is so free
e pts demanded more frm us
but tt doesnt mean they r not friendly
learnin less things
we did 2 pts to 1 nurse care =D
i had nth to do
so i went to xplore n read e case note

there is a tv for every pt
n i watched e 7pm show n e super star
lols i was not caught
cus i was clever in sneakin ard

e lectures acted strict
but i heard she's those boh chap one
always disappearing frm e ward
n nowhwere to b found
tryin to make us scare of her
so when she slack, we wont =X

my collegue is a lesbian
i dun discrimminate her
but when i heard it, i was shocked
she looked so feminie,mayb she's e female

there was this surgeon tt make me go WAH
he has unique features
wiv deep set eyes n he dun look local
he talks in an accent which sounded to me like he's frm europe
n i heard he's a top surgeon =D

my mum was hinting me to buy diamonds for her lols
since her birthday is ard e corner
she told me she's sick of gold lols
reminding me everyday bout hw gd e susage in cafe was
kept on buggin me to ask e chef how they cooked it
last nite she tried cooking
n when i reached hm
she told me 'pei arh, si pai lea..'
lols..she's cute..i luv her to bits

i'm waitin for him.... =)
n my chicken bolognise!

14th feb-spend my valentine day in cafe
wiv a bunch of cranky ppl
it was a romantic nite
using candles as our centrepiece
seeing stingy customers and making fun of them

me and jasyln b4 lights out =D

sweet rite?

a complete stranger made it for me
when he was dinnin wiv his family
using chocolate frm e founde
i was avoidin his table but it was right in e middle
in e end he called me over n requested me to clear tt plate
but i didnt eat e marshmellows stick =D

would u accept 500 dollars if a stranger give it to u??
thanking you for e pleasant services
u offered to him n his wife when they were dinning in
i didnt- anti to corruption lols

long queues everywhere
and we settled for coffe club
silence kills
pls dun ignore me =X

15th feb-studied wiv huili and her fren
we ended up toking although we did study
my parents took taxi down to thomson plaza
just to find me to hav dinner

went to e chalet organised by o.c ppl
i tot i lost my purse which spoilt my mood
but i have found it =D
everything was intact except my $50 boo!

i have learnt my lesson
i onli drank a glass of martell sprite
gambled e whole mornin
and i lost $100 wiv u
it was little compared to his $300

she was tryin to get close wiv e guys
and tryin to be someone's darling
i saw another side of her
they were abit high frm e alcohol
forcing vovlka down ppl's throat

back to mugging 1029 sians...

went dewi house..
gambled till dawn
initially we were losing bout $150
we won bout 350 together =D
just by playin black jack

went tp to mug
lp was so noisy
shouldnt hav met up wiv her =X
saw someone living nearby lols

happy valentine's day
love my frens n e boi =D

8c attachment finally ended
exams r jux one wk away

saw junxiong at marina square
wiv a grp of gurls =D
lols he got e charisma
his height caught my eye
i bet u went to watch e fire works as well
meet up wiv u ppl again

went to nuss to drink
had snowball
it tasted like root beer
bloated frm e ice water n e mocktail
regretted drinkin wiv n empty stomach
on call cab for one hour
i hate hang overs
popped two panadol down =D

mug mug mug

fri-met up wiv 2/2 ppl
i didnt noe gamblin was so much fun
played in-between n mahjong
i won 1.20 =D haha
all our guesses were wrong
she didnt give anything lols

went to intermezzo bar to drink
had virgin grasshopper n cosmopolitian
i luv e peppermint taste in e mocktail
i didnt join them for vintage
i was too tired

sat-accompany my parents to sin min to pray
it was a long wait
but i guess gd things r worth waiting for
called me to recommend drinks in star bucks
u made e right choice
i'm a coffee drinker n a fan of star bucks=D
both of us luv ice blended

u were right
i luv this kind of guy
guys who r childish at times but mature in their thoughts
who will surprise u wiv his unpretictable actions
n cheer u up wiv all their weird remarks
dotes on u n put u in their first priority
who will onli swit talk to YOU
but ppl and feelings changes
you went away becus i didnt hold u back

this wk has been busy for me
i'm back to ttsh ward 8C
cardiovascular n respiratory
i'm not afraid of all e MRSA cases
i'm a brave gurl

e demented ah ma
request me to bring her toilet
n insisted she dun hav wear pampers
when i bring her there
WTH she was wearin pampers

e confused pevert who try to touch us
i was too fast for him
i pity his embarassed son

n e violent ah pek who refused to b tied down
kickin us wiv his legs n grabbing our hands
cant he understand bout his fracture leg
tryin to climb over e rails

n all e friendly stuff and pts
e hostile bishi bashi
if u wan find excitment
go tok to her

i'm half way through my case study
mr doctor i meet u again

couldnt meet up wiv 1s18
cux i worked until 9.30
meetin evon e next day
to do pedicure
i'm lookin forward to cny
n my eight dollars per hour

went to newton circus wiv mr v n k.l
ordered a bit too much..
i wanna hav my topless 5!!

prove me wrong
tt i dun dread e hours
i'm loving every minute of it
hope everything turns out well

went to swensens to have topless 5
i didnt noe bout e i-cream of e mth =D
the waitress n i have same taste lols

wanted to catch i not stupid2
but missed e slot by 15 mins
end up playin pool at k-pool

i fallin in luv wiv him n his game
addicted to e planes n power
his cheeky smile nvr fail to brighten my days

thanx to all who helped =D
3 gurls wiv attitude
we r okay nw!
couldnt have past e night without u gurls

went l.p.s to have supper
heard bout e scandal
will e same thing happen to me

went to eat pizza to hav lunch
wiv a bunch of crazy ppl
i tink u all should tip me
considerin e excellent service i give

after tt went to my fav eatin place to have dinner
i m their regular customer =)

i admit i'm lame
but i noe u guys luv it =X

exams n attachments r comin
cant wait for everything to end

s.h.e rawks!!!

i will nvr change e way i m
i may forgive but i'll nvr forget
wadever shit u gave me
intentionally or accidentally
dun try to ignore me
cux it's a childish way to react
why continue wiv her when there isnt any trust in it

met up wiv pamy
bought a pair of errings
it has been ages i spurgle on accessories
she was shoppin for 'cow' presents =P
then went swenens to hav our gold rush
it was a pity fang didnt join us
pamy's cute in her own way
this explains e reason y we click =D

then met up wiv 1s18
happy birthday roy
i'm sorry i didnt noe where did i throw my contact list =X
i'm goin to stick to my new yr resolution
spendin more time wiv my frens
drank, played bridge n did all e dares =D

i'm goin to try singapore sling some day
when dewei told me e sweetness in it
bloody mary is disgusting
usin tabasco n tomato sauce as their ingredients

went national library
in search of my bangladesh bks
lost my way
cux i alight at e wrong stop
in e end took a cab there

i neva wanna start all e arguements
they r so silly
mayb we r not meant to b
i'm goin to b like fang =D

met yulin n weilin at far east
earlier on i went to visit cindy
n her stingy boss lol
i didnt forget u all..
we shall meet up one day

ho wee ling alwix made us come back
she's biased
jux cux we cant get her into our gd bks
she do not need to mark us down ..
goin for her lessons le
tata..

i hate to close my eyes
cux it will make me lose u again
usin a different approach
i dun wanna care any more
it jux show how much u dun care

went junction 8
went to find jessie
she's so cute in her pasta mania uniform
still so bubbly
guess who i saw there?? lols
expect e unexpected

went to pot black to play billard
challengin n interestin
luv hearin e ''tad'' sound n e ball goin in
it's like ''plong''
n table is so big..i had to stretch myself

had to do projects on bangladesh's culture
interestin topics huh``

some things r jux so easy to lose
hopin tt all my fears dun come true

though it's hols now
i'm like super busy
it's like a long time since i went out wiv e 5 of them
i wanna take neoprints wiv them..

sometimes little things could perform wonders
when it is said frm e bottom of my heart
i cant wait to spend christmas wiv u
though we hav to tong gan gong gu
you r forgiven =D
i admitted
cux i'm proud of it

jux came back frm work
thanx for all e compliments
i flared up but u cooled me down

we were strangers
nw i'm suddenly standin at e beginning wiv u
no one told me i'm goin to find u
unexpected wad u did to my heart

lols..saw u holdin hands wiv a gurl
when u saw me
u let go of her hands n told me
da bu shi wo de nu peng you

one part of me
wanted to let e whole world noe
e other part of me
wanted to keep u in the dark
is tt how u r feelin rite nw..
i had succeeded but i didnt wan u to noe
if i were to plant a flower whenever i missed you
e garden will bloom forever

hols are coming
i'm goin to spend it wisely
no last min cramping
cux i'm goin to study durin my hols
=D some things are hard to control

it's so hard to tell e truth
correct me if i'm wrong
u seem to rebutt wadever i say
i was merely makin a pt
but u had to prove me wrong
in wadever i say
blame it on my childish tinkin
e labels u gave me made me feel this way

i'm happy for ms fang =D
she's goin to tell me e details tonight
n i'm waitin for her call . . .
we r not foolish anymore
so dun expect us to follow e rules
cux we luv to break n bend them

rushin for e onli 1029

went for blood donation finally
it was a fun experience
was hestitatin wad colour to choose
n u took e colour i dreaded
i took less than 5 mins to fill e pack =D
n i forgot bout e iron tablets
this explain my tiredness

went to 1s18 chalet
finally i saw roy
he gave me e feelin of security
all e best to both of u
i noe i'm mean
but i meant it to b a joke
i was fatigue frm all e late nites out

thank you for e presents
i was touched wiv tears =)
love ya guys

1034 is over
soon 1082 presentation n 1029 ica will b over

had been busy for e past few days
it was e best birthday present i eva recieved
i didnt anticipate tt day to come
cux exams was ard e corner
i wanna thank everybody who wished me
b4 e day, on tt day, after tt day
liz, kenneth, weber, yulin, yong zhi, sarah, junwen, jessie, chengyin, cheehian, shafiqa, jason, weiliang, pamy, huifang, long seng, alex, jennifer, mcdonalds, daddy, huili, chia yun, jun xiong, regina,felicia, evon, francis, albert, jiehui, benedict, ying2, jess, alex chong and kenny
this yr there were a few surprises

30 nov - 1037 exam finally ended
was quite easy consider i didnt study for it
went to eat dou jiang you tiao e previous nite
evon gave me my fav things
went hm to cut cake
it was kinda rush cux i had to go out
after tt went to lavender to settle ur things
went congrad to hav our dinner
e buffet spread was so so
i like e teryaki chicken
didnt eat much not even e i-cream
after tt went to nuss
it was a pub for nus peeps
drank mocktail there =D
then i went to play pool
i was trashed
so went k box
guess who i saw, deqiang =D
tt was how i spend my birthday!

1st dec-went out wiv fang regina n pamy
thanx for e presents
it came in handy cux my eye shadow was shattered recently
n e flowers were pretty
anyway went to la terasse to hav tawian porrige
e fruits were disappointin though
we headed to orchard rd to take photos
brought sylvia n her frens to interview
had fun too
cant wait for christmas to cum...

2nd dec-accompany them to newton circus to drink
dewi, alex, david and kenny
they were tellin me bout their childhood tales
how happenin clark quey was
n all e live blue films they saw
how they tricked albert lols
though i onli understand a bit of hokkien
i had a translator
i realised how complicating guy's life can get
so wad if they r married or engaged or had a gf
anything could happen =D

times flies
many things change
but some still stays e same
though i hav attended 2 assessments
i still had butterflies in my stomach
my scenario was drain care n airway
it may seem easy
but e settin n stress make me blank out
most importantly I PASSED =D

cant wait for thurs to come
i miss all 5 of them ! ! !
cinta kita

*yeah i missed e chance
i wanna go back to e past
when we play bridge everyday
when nth matters at all
runnin e tele tubby hills
singin an jing under our breath
attending lectures sitting randomly
i miss jc life which was so happening
but most importantly i miss 1s18

went to swenens to hav topless 5 n calarmari
those were e days
when topless 5 was jux 1.95
n we had it almost everyday
boy i cant believe it was so cheap
and yest i paid 7.50

chatted wiv via
updating me bout her life
typical her to b so typical worried
i noe how u feel gurl
it will soon b over
cux i noe u will noe how to react

1 wk ago =X -met up wiv 1s18 for dinner
there were so many crystal jade in taka
i nearly lost my way findin them
level 4 of taka has 3 crystal jade
they waited for almost two hours
finally we managed to get our table
i didnt wan to eat but ying xiu them
ordered wanton ramen n small dragon pao =X
lookin forward to e chalet

2 days ago-went to watch harry potter
i rate it 7/10
blurt out e 2 words to u
it was supposed to b a secret
but u were understandin
this was wad frens r for
craps all e way
lookin forward to e next gatherin

went to oc to work
kama n i struggled through e 5 hours
we r diligent doubles =)
had crispy chicken wiv thai sauce
and pork satay
*yummy*
stayed till one
it's ur turn to wait for me
i'm still waitin for my peppermint ice-cream

i'm still goin through our past
rem e tiny weeny bit of memories tt happened
listening to our songs over n over again
e strengths n encouragments we shared
it made me stronger
but it's all gone!

meetin 1s18 later to hav dinner
roy, here i come! =D

i'm goin to b a nerd n slpin beauty
mug like hell . . .
and catch up wiv my slp . . .

when e goin get tough
i had to find a way out
overcomin obstacles tt come in my way
i realised e concequences i had to face
n e numerous lessons i had learnt

i was affected my ur call
it made me realised how small e world is
n will e same things happen to me
changes in e emotional pyschology
are u missin me e way i missed you

e cups r so easily chipped
cux they r cheap =D
last time everything doesnt matter
now....i jux wan to take a break
i'm fatigue frm all e waiting
strainin myself to do e things i dislike
when will it b ur turn to wait for me!

i'm gonna to watch jux like heaven
browsing through e papers
wanna watch yesterday
there was no midnight show last night as well as tonight
fang n shan ni gave gd review bout tt show
i haven c ps's decoration yet..
to think wad u tot ps was
I DUN FEEL LIKE WORKIN TODAY~

went out wiv fang gina n pamy
had swenens-chicken baked rice
finally had time to meet up wiv them
i'm so happy for gina
this jux proves tt though it takes time
but u will succeed eventually if u want
all e best, fang
i'm sure u r strong despite his hestitation

you xie shi qing bu zhu shou
fang jiu nen fang xia de
ai qing bu nen zuo bi jiao
wo he ni hai hui you jie guo ma

anyway caught midnight show
for e past few nights
thanx to fang's recommendations
i enjoyed zoro
wanted to watch exorism
but bought e wrong tickets
in e end we watched doom
realised it 5 mins after e show started lolx..
nobody checked my ic
i looked 16 n > =D

supper is makin me grow sideways
i'm not goin to have it anymore
goin to meet a.l.p now =)

brought fang to cafe to eat
glad she enjoyed herself
hey my manager is interested in u lolx
we shall try e high tea some day
n bring hian they all to eat
it's so hard to coordinate our timings

went newsroom bar
but had to rush back to cafe
to settle stupid things
next time ba
i wanna go double o too =D

met fang again
had starbucks-mocha rumba
seeing frm e same perspectives
we wont continue to b e silly gurls
clinging onto nth
waitin for miracle to happen
a brand new start for me
jia you, fang =D

021105
<3 wadever =X

HAPPY BIRTHDAY chengyin
i'm beggin u to forgive me cux i forget
i noe u will cux u r nice =D
was shocked to c u at ps
fate wans me to remember ur birthday
you look so hyper happy on tt day
i love you too =)

on tt day
walked frm orchard to ps then to bugis
was pourin but we went esplanade anyway
was choosin where to hav our dinner
went to pizza hut in e end
ordered pizza n baked rice
plus two side orders
as usual i enjoyed myself goin out wiv u

i'm addicted to workin n e suppers we had
hav been goin esplanade frequently
a place where there was no memories of us
i hav decided to hav a clean break wiv u

went to lorong 13 to hav tou jiang you tiao
complicated place
no comments on wad went on tt day

chatted wiv fang
miss her ya~
pamy hian regina n grace too

wad would happen
if i say i love you

tue nite-went lau pa sat
wanted to walk there
but we ended up takin cab =)
had satay, popiah, chicken chop, sea coconut n more desserts
wad a feast !
after tt walked back to esplanade

was so relieved after receivin fang's msg
i alwix tot e disc was wiv me
but it was all along wiv her
lolx...we hav been worryin for nth =X

last nite didnt join them at devil's bar
cux i dun feel like drinkin
waited for two hours at orchard mac
e nite life in orchard is so happenin
7 sticks per hour
i surrender to ur biddin =)
tt nite witness 3 fights, 2 arguin n many ppl vomittin
was full frm all e food u ordered

i notice e disappointed look on ur faces
isnt love a selfish game?
just like me, they longed to be
close to you!

skipped e whole day today
will b goin to e last lecture
was fatigue frm all e workin

waitin for mr k.v.g
i went to drink at orchard tower
wiv two cooks =D
i still prefer tiger than heniken
cux of e after taste
frnt station onli had me n kl
imagine how busy i was

finally u ended work
n we headed to esplanade
had satay there
it was a long time since i star gazed
e feelings stay e same
went fullerton
had breakfast at mac =D

absence makes e heart grows fonder!
cau mau peki mana =D

she's jux not sure of wad she wanted
n i'm sure she will come back
it's a pity u lost feelings for her
i will stop havin supper wiv u
it deprived me of slpin

i decided to put a stop
then i realised i knew e things i wanted
dun hold me back
i jux wan to b e old me!

first of all
happy belated birthday pamy..
i WANNA c ur hair
i've been busy attainin my goals
tt i couldnt meet up wiv u guys
miss e care free days i used to hav
but priorites r different nw

been lookin forward to every nite
we didnt eat pizza
went to eat prata again @ river valley
i showed e vulnerable side of me
how i wished this will go on forever
no commitment jux pure friendship

sat nite went to m.u
opened two bottles
volka n chivas
burnin my throat
seriously he was an excellent dancer
drinkin down turquilla shots
amazed by how e bar top dancers
tryin to earn money
i wanna go to gay pubs too

sun nite had swensens @ crown prince hotel
had calamari rings n banana split
we were discussin bout services
as usual we chatted through out e nite
e taxi uncle was so keen on our business
beggin u to go jurong first b4 goin yishun
cux he stayed in yishun
but u inisited of sendin me back
then tell e uncle wa buai pang xin!

ur ex reminded of myself
but i wasnt usin him
after i knew how much i cared
i cant bear to let go of e past
esp after holdin for so long
but whenever i nid u, u werent there
i wanna start anew

-wee seng
-orchard hotel banquet =)
-amk ite
-18 years

will try to recall wad happen this wk
met up wiv fang jessie si hong n kenneth
we didnt get to eat our taiwan porrige
i'm sick of eatin it every nite too =X
had kfc n we gossip all e way
knowin more things made me ponder
all e cravings we had
e halloween costumes r cool
i miss e toot old days =)

i know i'm thinkin too much
do i still like him n is he worth it

i hav been goin out wiv k. for e past few nights
1st nite-went river valley to have prata
2nd nite-went amk to hav mac
3rd nite-lolx went to music underground
tonite-we r havin pizzas =)
hav been cabbin around
reachin hm late
slpt for two hours b4 draggin myself to sch
couldnt concentrate on e lectures

it was a last min decision to join fang
when i went there jj was half drunk
n fang was babbling away
i guess it was e effects of alcohol on her

when everybdy stood up on me
i felt protected
k. was right
it was smth he cant give me
e security i wanted
so why should i puruse a future wiv him
when he dun even care at all

went wiv k., angie, r. n song wei
headed to music underground
it was ladies nite
fang joined us later

e place was so sleazy n smoky
met lawerence
we cab to novetel since we werent familiar wiv e place
then we walked up again
it was so hilarious
communications break down

they were dancin away
high by martell
it was on e house 239 dollars if i'm not wrong
were troublin over two things yest
him n fang

was afraid smth wrong would hav to happen to her
wanted to cab down when she didnt pick up my call
relieved tt she walked away
n joined us -wink-

it is true tt a simple yes
can save us frm e loneliness
wad m i supposed to do
deep within my heart
you r still there

i dun believe we still hav feelings for them
but why r we clingin on
when we noe nth will come out frm it

after sittin ard
fang came to my house to stay
we were too tired to chat
slpt until one
skipped my practicals
i hated make up lessons
tt means i would hav to study when every1 is havin their break

goin to sch nw
cant wait to go to work later
joining him for supper after work =)

i skipped my attachment
tt's y i'm bloggin here
my legs couldnt move at all
no matter how much i dragged it
goin to c e doct b4 e polyclinic close
sianx still mux do make up

anyway same station wiv ying2 n huili was fun
i knew u were angry wiv e schedule
jux wanna tell u it was i who request to change
n i believe ying2 wanted me than her
i was jux givin u more chances to work wiv her
so thanx me for tt

i felt weird tt i wasnt e gurl u were nice to
but i was relieved i saw ur true self
treatin every gurl e same
i guess all e msgs u send to me u sent to her
sometimes i wonder should i hav mislead u
n let myself to b in ur luv
but i shant b tt selfish
when i noe i will never accept u!

love doctor i'm sick =X
it's all started out when u asked me to b chaperon
chattin while we were behind e curtains
u didnt give me hear e heart sound
yupx without me u wont b able to hear it too

goin to polyclinic to queue le
sianx!

i refused``

was lookin through friendster
saw wl's photo
i miss him =D
colleen is still so cute

waitin for tt guy in black
neva gonna repeat history

i'm still limping
my leg still hurts

you arent tt perfect

i'm not an auntie

blah blah blah blah....

I’m enthralled by your beauty,
mesmerised by your charisma and
spellbound by your love.
i hav been missin euu =D
101005 =P

i should hav noe tt
u still hold grudges against me
you r a petty guy =D
i was in pain
if i was to ask to rate frm 1 to 10
1 being e least painful
n 10 being e most
i would rate 9
but ur actions exceeded this
i wanted to find consolence in ur voice
assurance in ur msges
u refused to give me both
i guess it was all retribution
you had e prerogative
but wad bout mine??
can u give me e pride i gave to u

i was strong
stayed up e whole night
bearin all e pain
without a tear shed
though i did beg my daddy to send me to e hospital
but why m i breakin down now
after all e pain is gone
mayb i enjoyed being traumatised
or were i proud of myself withholdin all e pain

how were i to take care of them
when i cant even take care of myself
mornin shift today 7 to 3
i wonder when 3 will come
n i'm on my way to meet e guy wiv n i
buyin my sis's birthday present -winkx
then off to work..6 to 11
i noe ppl are goin to nag at me
but i'm a workaholic =)

i'm goin to forget e pain
both pyhsical n emotional
tryin to use work n oc to numb it
i wanna give e best service
e patient is already in pain
e least i can do was to make them
as comfortable as possible

i was afraid to go into tt cubicle
which i experiences so many deaths
will she still b there today??
her bp was still low when i leave
her pulse rate was bearly heard
so wad if she had so many children n grandsons
onli 5 turned up yest

anyway recieved e call frm huili
heard she's comin back to oc
glad for her =D
lookin forward to workin wiv her again..

i kept to my promise
but u didnt

thanx to those ppl who called or msged
showin their concern after readin my blog
you noe who u r -winkx-
i'm feelin much better now
i'm addicted to working
quittin seems impossible..


i'll forget everything
i'll b fine...

tryin to use to make me jealous
frm tt min onwards
u r nth to me..
so dun even try

goin to sch to do my case study

wenchien called me
1s18 i miss you =D
i'm like so busy
cuttin out frm e world
everything will b over
after two more week
i can b student again

i'm breakin down
my fever went up to 38.5
i guess i'm workin too hard
tryin to get u outta of my mind!

starin into e nite sky
memories started to pour in
e wind failed to blow my troubles away
are you missin me e way i missed you??
i was nvr gone
though u seems like a millions miles away

i didnt noe y i felt so sad when she passed away
i regretted not tokin to her when i came
not attendin to her call yest
luffin at her silly actions
imitating her usual words
she told me it was better this way
all her pain n agony is gone
is this e way she c it too??

goin to ttsh
goin to complete my case study today =D

hav u wondered how it feels when it's all over
wondered how it feels when u jux hav to start a new
never knowin where u're goin, it used to b tt way
now i jux close my eyes and say

i jux wan to breathe again
learn to face e joy n pain
discover how2laugh a little, cry a little, live a little more
i jux wanna face today
forget bout e woes of yesterday
mayb if i hope a little, try a little more
i'll breathe again

startin out again is never easy

wiv a bit of luck, it's a brand new start
tt might jux work my way
no nid to walk away
dun wan to live on life replay

things will work out fine??
if i can find e courage to look past e night
to c e break of dawn

will you b my week end lover??

all of us tried to wake her up
but to no avail
so we reported to e sn
she got a fright n went to check her tpr
one nudge frm her she woke up
then sn reponse was so funny
u all arh wanna xia shi me arh??

playin pranks on each other
we hav to b careful of our butts n backs
last day for them
i will miss xue lian summer n her frenx

summer told me this
if the patients try to b cheeky
showed them a 'dun try to b funny' look
n hold them down wiv both hands
it's better to touch them then to let them touch u

e case study i'm doin isnt my patient
patient is admitted to e hospital after RTA
fracture of mandible n radius n ulcer
he's on trigomestomsy- wadever
present status- comma

everytime b4 break
i would b called by someone to change e diapers
tried to run away today
but e patient's relative stopped me

had a sense of satisfactory
after doin e mouth garle
n givin e patient medience
n feedin him
tellin me bout ww2
n her children
communicatin in hokkien

i would hav known it wasnt referrin to me
hatred was better than guilt
cux hatred was immediate
but guilt will stays wiv u
say e 3 words tt i'm so familiar wiv
may u mislead me all over again

esther franics n peiqi came back
suddenly o/c was filled wiv part timers again
busting wiv life cux of them
gettin use to oc life
but she was poor thing
amy km fiona n chia yun dot dot dot
was crude in their remarks to her
though it was not said in frnt of her
albert was there to b e judge
i wonder how things will go

but she didnt noe things that went on
fiona amy n albert sort of quarrelled
cux of her over schedule
though i nvr worked wiv her b4
i wont let wad i hear affect my impression of her
cux i noe she's jux gettin use to it
wo dui shi bu dui ren =)

tt day pei qi was sent to back station to help us
it was not veri busy
but got a lot of ala carte order
n fiona was missin in action
n frances was pickin up drinks
without her i will hav to work double hard
mayb still bu xi guan
so many food tempting her
n yet she can refused =P

i tend to push myself over e limits
though i'm not a perfectioninst
i wanted everything to go on smoothly

buyin 5 cakes for e price of two
i n chia yun seems to click
although i noe she once hated me
cux we hav smth in common

jugglin my attachment n work
i realised how boring is my life now
changin diapers takin tpr everyday
servin bed ban
my fav task is ng tube feedin
i nvr fail to aspirate
e lactose smells nice
some of e patience r funny
offered me chocolates bars
then i say i cant eat
then they say
if cannot eat then screen e curtain
then tou tou eat
recievin report is tough
i alwix couldnt catch wad they r sayin
CA = cancer
common one r bleedin GIT
my hands r dry frm all e washin

ivan went to oc to eat
i didnt recognise him until he called me
askin my bout my pyscology exams
n bout my attachments
i miss his lectures =D
i realised he told all his classes bout me
lolx....
when i went for attachment
i saw my seniors
whenever i told them i'm a waitress
they asked me whether was i e one ivan was mentionin bout
it was weird of them to link me to wadever ivan say
cux i wont rem as they r 800 ppl in nursin
whoever would b possible to meet ivan

orchard towers were flood wiv ppl wearin red
she wasnt wearin any pants
jux an oversized shirt

to prevent myself bein late
i took a cab down to meet daddy
went back cafe to buy his cake
happy birthday, daddy...

peipei
love me once <3
& i will love you twice =)


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