So what 's this about Christ's (Christian's) Love that's so different from others?

Some find it extremely easy to define love, you can feel it in the air. (that's when some slow swing music tickles one's ear)
Some, like me, find it rather abstract, it has alot of 'feeling', but i rather use the word 'experiencing' to describe love.

Most interesting note to park here is that, I don't really know how to love. It was Christ who first loved me, enabled me to actually love myself and somebody else. Likeable or not so likeable people alike.

There's this term that church speakers tend to use alot. First Love. After many years, I nearly forgot that experience when God first touched my heart. I was released, relieved, refreshed, reconciled and rejoiced. Gosh, I do missed my first encounter so much. However the renewing part comes so much slower and later. How could I've identify?

It was the ability to love. With no strings attached, no gain at sight, no reward expectant.

Okies, so its easier to love material things than people. I do have a huge collection of my lovelies and most of my online friends know too well. People are just downright as imperfect as me.

but
With Love, there's also forgiveness. The release of hatred, bitterness, sorrow, and disappointments to God. Before that there's tendency to wrestle abit with Him. Cause when we allow these negative feelings to occupy our minds, we want to try to settle our emotions and feelings on our own. Maybe a sweet revenge before we try to forgive.

Old saying, many still believe it works that 'Time will heal all wounds'. I'm not absolutely sure this saying is of much remedy for wounded hearts. Our memory storage is so good in remember hurts, that even with time, we can still remember what the other person did to us 10 years back. But how we would react towards that person or a similar situation would show whether time has heal that wound in us. (putting amnesia and dementia aside)

For men, if you still angry with the other person, people will say you are being very unsporting, why not let bygones be bygones. For women, two can exchange smiles and still hide the vibe for each other undercurrent. Either way, we will have to bear with it, even if deep down we don't like it. we're just forced to for the better. Yeah for the better. Are there still wounds? Apparently neither of the party truly would wanna live in the same house with the other that have wronged them before. Yeah, let's call lawyers and divorce. Avoiding conflict is good to avoid violence and ticking off anger or simply hate the other lesser. These are probably extreme examples that are happening. The only way we humans can do, is better we don't see each other, let time flush away the angry and let's bury the hurt somewhere deep down.

Drama indeed. So, I know I can't love another person that wronged me. I can't love a criminal that killed innocents. I know I don't approve of their actions, either do God. I will want to love my enemies because Christ first loved me. I was His enemy before I accepted Him. He still loved me. That's what's Love all about.

reflection and note from my last small group session. there's always something to learn or remember back.