Let my lifesong sing to You.

YAY... back from batu pahat... you guess wat i did? I learned driving from uncle teck hock... the car moved... i changed gear... and it carried on moving... wee... so fun...

something very shocking happened to me while i was there.. haiz.. God.. give me wisdom to handle this...

Mosquitoes there still love me lot.. i got like, 29 bites on my legs.. plus those not counted on my arms... sianz..

bought a new dress.. haha.. what's wrong with callista? suddenly so vain...

Callista wrote;
10:56 PM

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL~~ ^^

hmm... GOd has been talking to me a lot this few days...

first he suddenly asked me :" have you ever thought about why you are an only child?"
and i said "no...."
then i asked God why He asked that question...
He told me, it is becos He want me to understand what it means to call the body of God a Family, What it really means when friends become your brothers and sisters in Christ.
i begin to realise how differently ppl with siblings think.. to them, brothers and sisters in Christ are different from their earthly siblings... they even treat both groups of ppl differently.. to me it is the same.. in fact.. the family of God is the family i am going to spend eternity with...

secondly He asked me a question... "Do you think I would die for you even when I noe you may not believe in me or love me the same way?"
I replied " I know with all my heart that You would"
Then God asked me another question " Will you still love and care for your friends even when you noe they may not love you the same way?"
I said.. " I did... but it hurts"
He replied "it hurts so much when a few persons do that to you... but billions are doing tat to me.. Will I, your Father, not understand how you feel?"
I didn't answer.. i cried...
He understands and He cares...

All you ppl who thinks God doesn't know, He won't understand, He don't care... Let me tell you.. those words are lies!! When will you come "home" running?

Callista wrote;
8:14 PM

today i went back to MI... missed the performance becos i was too tired to wake up in the morning... hehe.. i told germaine to wake up earlier but in the end i woke up late.. sorry dear...
get to catch up with some of the teachers.. so many teachers got married.. hehe..congrats "chers"...

then met dee dee for shopping.. went to see guitars, clothes... and went to sch to enrol for the next term..

haiz.. i dun dare to look at all my shopping receipts.. mati lah eh... it's the first time i spend so much on clothes.. hopefully my new year "income" will cover that.. hais it's also the first time i bought it all with my savings.. dad didn't give me a cent...

Callista wrote;
11:34 PM

nothing much happened lately... Callista is fine.. bought some new year clothes and a pair of new shoes from timberland.. i love those shoes!! so pretty... Thank you Jesus for nice shoes!!

it's another chinese new year.. my feelings more or less the same... i no longer look forward to reunion dinner.. nobody would really understand how i feel.. i can try to tell someone about how i feel.. but words are never enough.. so i have stopped telling ppl how i feel.. (except for God.. becos even if i dun tell Him, He noes.. so i will still talk to Him..)

Will i still choose to praise Him? Will i choose to give thanks?

yes.. i will.. For what i went thru did not change who God is..

Before I say anything, You have heard me
Before I shed a tear, You were already by my side
Before I know You, You knew me inside out.
Yes, You are GOd. You are my Best Friend.

Callista wrote;
8:10 PM

yawn.. just got home from BSF.. God convicted my heart of ao many things i took for granted.. Lord, in front of everyone, i give thanks to You for sparing me from Your wrath.. Thank You for sending Jesus to die for my sins.. so that I may live..

Tmr got to work some more... it's gonna be so tiring tmr.. up and down the ladder.. sorting out books.. God!! save me!!

had a Great, fun, Funny party last nite.. it was Kenny's bday.. and we had a kids party for him at macs.. haha.. so funny... a kids party for a MAn... hehe but it surely was memorable...

okie.. gotta go prepare worship liao...

Callista wrote;
10:41 PM

wee!!!! last day of sch for this term... last exam paper!! yay!! so glad it's over... i feel so relieved... heh... been sick past few days.. still feeling a bit giddy and having headache... so sian.. keep falling sick...

haiz.. no shepherd would like to lose any of his sheep.. but sometimes it's not really becos the shepherd never take care of the sheep.. it's becos the sheep cannot hear the shepherd's voice.. or rather, the sheep refuse to listen.. haiz.. Lord, teach me how to be a good shepherd to a lost sheep... for you are the good Shepherd... and i am your sheep..

how would you react if one day a guy comes up to you on two occasions and tell you that "God told me that you are the one i would marry".. ?

erm... just in case i dun come in before valentine's day, i wanna wish you all a HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!! all you sweet couples out there... May GOd bless your relationships...

Callista wrote;
12:17 AM