Let my lifesong sing to You.

today is a very fun day.. i went to church early today becos i have to set up sound.. so many problems.. guitar cannot hear at all.. piano very soft..haiz.. dunno wat's wrong.. then in the end found out is that DI-box the power cable came loose liao.. i was like - -"....

Pastor AC preached about redemptive purpose of God today.. all of us, we are redeemed by the life of Jesus.. for a divine purpose.. and thru the cross, we all become His children.. princes and princesses of Heaven... =)during the sermon, pastor said that he will ask a few people to come up to share testimonies.. to be honest i was thinking.. "erm, not me again please..." First.. bro John W.. shared about how he used to be dealing with drugs and now God have changed him and he is sharing the love of God to the people having the same problem as he did.. God is wonderful.. next Bro jonathan Y.. he shared about how God took away his addiction to cigarettes in just a short period of time.. 6 MINUTES! God is simply amazing! so i was like... "heng ah... never call me... if not my testimony so lousy sia... paiseh.. haha" .... and who noes......... pastor said "the next person that comes to my mind is Callista... Callista can you please join me up here..?" AHHH.. caught.. unprepared.. again! so i went up.. and share testimony about my life lor.. so nervous when i was up there.. hmm.. is today's sermon another comfirmation to the things spoken to me?

then after service, we went to jidi da jie da house to have lunch... her mum's cooking is fantastic.. yum... curry, veg soup, fishcakes... the list goes on... haha.. *drool*=P``.....then we stay on to play.. XBOX.. some funny funny game.. all we do is whack each other.. then the characters very cute one.. haha.. play until hand so suan.. hahaha... but had a lot of fun laughing together.. ya.. after that.. i went home.. and slept.. so tired... neck pain also...on my way home.. papa called.. and i think my hand was shaky frm all the playing, i dropped my phone.. and it blanked out..AHHh!!! so many scratches liao.. *heart break* luckily when i try switching it on again, it worked.. my poor phone... tomoro i will start working liao.. finally can work in a place full of the things of God.. a place filled with christian music all day long.. i'm gonna love it.. =) i am so excited.. haha.. but need to pray that all will be fine.. and lotsa favour from my new colleagues.. =P tomoro papa not working.. so hope he can fetch me to work lor.. haha.. next few days i am going to get busy.. trying to meet so many people in sucha short period of time before my sch starts.. hmm.. yup i agree with wat you say, sis.. "it's time to move on"

Callista wrote;
11:14 PM

today is another saturday.. 6 days to school.. haha ppl holiday start, i school start.. so funny de..

this year i might have to give youth camp a miss.. becos i have school.. sad sia.. youth camp is something i always look forward to every year... it's has always been like a "must go" kind of thing.. dunno if i can skip one tutorial just to go for the camp or not..

Hmm.. today me woke up at 9plus.. then went breakfast with daddy.. then i played guitar for a while and went IMM with dad to walk walk.. haiz.. my dad's shopping is always windows shopping.. i dun like shopping with him de.. then came home .. online and do some household chores... *sweep sweep, mob mob* *xi sua sua xi sua sua*

Hmm.. later i want to go cycling.. hope my neck doesn't hurt after that.. haha.. i really need to exercise man.. if not i becoming fatty bom bom liao.. haha.. last few months didn't exercise much... so now that i can do some exercise, i better cherish this chance..

Callista wrote;
5:19 PM

this few days i didn't blog much.. cos i was either to lazy to type, or no mood, or too tired by the time blogging comes to my mind..

this few days i have been spending most of my time in the presence of the Lord.. worshipping, seeking for directions in life, praying for a transforamtion in my life, praying about certain things said to me last week.. yup.. and God spoke to me.. i was able to hear Him so clearly..

Erm, i no mood to type lah.. just dunno wat else to say liao.. heez.. ciaos~

Callista wrote;
10:45 PM

Energetic, creative, and very curious about the world...You're not going to let anything hold you back, especially a cold day.Whether you're chilling out at the beach or partying all night, you live for the warm weather.

What Season Are You?

I am summer wor... sunshine.. woo....

Callista wrote;
10:35 PM

today i went for morning service then lunched with JJ(mushroom swiss double! slurp!) then stayed for afternoon outreach.. i was "sabo"-ed by someone to share a testimony for sis sandy's preaching.. but i believe it was God's arrangement.. pastor AC heard my sharing and revealed certain things God revealed to him about me. feelings :"I CAN"T BELIEVE IT!" i am leaving it to the Lord. i noe it's not going to be about me. it's all about Him. and i shall not touch His glory.

then went for evening service. at the altar. yet more words from the Lord. Lord, i can't help but be really honest. there are just so many "why"s in me..

went for dinner with amos, cyndi, JJ and silas.. enjoyed it.. appetite wasn't good.. dunno why.. i was so hungry at one moment and at the next moment i was too full to eat. it's been like that lately. wat's going on man?!

i am so sleepy now.. slept at 3am last nite.. yawn~ zzzzz

Callista wrote;
10:15 PM

yesterday nite i went for all nite prayer meeting.. actually didn't want to stay thru out.. but i did.. in the end.. cos i wasn't that sleepy after all.. but neck hurts big time half way thru it.. i am so glad i went.. God's presence is a luxury... i reached home 5am this morning.. then slept till 10am.. then woke up to prepare for Jiawen's wedding.. had to rehearse the marchin with the twins.. thank God everything went on smoothly... the girls are very smart and they are definitely very fast learners.. =) then after the wedding, i went home to continue my sleep lor.. episode number 2 lasted till 9pm wor.. woke up, ate a light light dinner.. and here i am... blogging..

hmm.. today i chatted with auntie Joanne on evan's car.. she shared that when she visited one church in KL. if i am not worng, it's called The tablenacle of David.. their calling was to bring worship to the rest of the world.. and she said during worship God actually rained down Golddust on them and sometimes diamonds and rubies.. becos God is so delighted in their worship.. and suddenly i remembered.. i ever saw that scene in my own church too.. when i was at the altar.. i saw golddust on my hands! but i didn't share becos i was afraid that it was my own imagination... but now i noe! it's true! it was God... i am so encouraged to noe that.. really...

haiz.. had a bad bad headache at Jiawen's wedding.. migraine.. due to lack of sleep i guess.. really hate it you noe.. haiz... then my neck is so painful due to all the sitting last nite.. =( tiger balm doesn't help... sianz.. okie, that's about all i want to share.. have a great weekend!

Callista wrote;
11:22 PM

hmm.. yesterday i had a very very weird dream.. i dream a dream of many different scenes.. and all those scenes got nothing to do with each other.. haha..

scene 1: i was on my way home... then near my house there suddenly open many shops that sell food and drinks.. small stores... some sell pasar malam food.. some sell snacks.. some sell fruit juices.. and one sell.... BUBBLE TEA!! YAY!! so being a bubble tea lover, i went into the store... "auntie, Green apple green tea! double pearl.." then the auntie apparently ran out of green tea.. but she started to find a bit of it from everywhere.. abit from the sink, some from the fridge, some from somebody else's cup.. then she make... but dunno why the green apple green tea appeared pinkish.... EEEEEWWWW.... and she say "nah.. $7.20" then i was like..."!!!!!" "WAT ?! 7bucks!! " "auntie.. other shop only selling one cup for $1.50 (double pearl) leh! how can you sell for $7.20?" then the auntie replied "is it? how come i didn't know?" then i paid the money walked out angrily.. and said that i will not to go back again...

Scene 2: germaine called me to say diana is angry with me.. and i was like "huh? what did i do?" then i call diana... then the scene end already... = ="'

Scene 3: i cannot remember.. but i noe there's another scene.. something like i quarrel with one of my very good friends... but i noe it's not happy one lah.. haha..

wat a weird weird dream... is God trying to show me anything thru these dreams? haha... stop drinking bubble tea? dun make diana angry? dun quarrel? haha i dunno man....

today i went for prayer meeting.. met bro israel at the video room.. he was doing some recording for his church in east timor.. then we spoke to each other.. thank God for bringing healing in his eyes.. it's recovering faster than the doctor's expectation... and mind you is very very much faster... the doctors were just shocked and amazed.. i am amazed too.. ^^ then i met hayley downstairs.. she supposed to replace shirley lim for piano.. but all the instruments were removed for the some upcoming event.. so we went opposite for a drink..(though i didn't order anything...) so happy i got the casting crowns cd.. God noes the desires of my heart... thanks sis for burning it for me... hmm.. i wanna testify of God's goodness.. i am supposed to be on duty for prayer meeting.. but i have a leader's meeting at the same time.. so i was wondering wat i should do.. becos i couldn't get a replacement.. then just as prayer meeting got started , Shirley sim came into the video room and offered to help me upon hearing my situation.. really really thank God... He has things all in order... i am so grateful for that...He shows me that He is in control thru many littles things He do for me daily..

when i was on my way home, i met my kindergarden classmate.. so i witnessed to him.. but he didn't get saved... but we exchanged contact numbers.. and i believed that i have sowed the seed.. and i am glad i did what God told me to... yup... that's my day...

Callista wrote;
12:29 AM

today i woke up at 10plus... then "nuah" on my bed until 11am.. haha.. i love to nuah alot ... last time always get scolded for that.. now no more people scold liao... had raisin buns for breakfast.. and clean up my room a bit.. then i met silas up for lunch.. haha.. talking about this little brother.. we really got so many things in common.. haha.. and then he accompanied me to go buy my textbooks! haha.. so happy that i got my textbooks now.. at least got something to start with liao.. haha.. wah.. the books very very heavy lor.. esp the anatomy one.. haha.. somemore it's quite expensive lor.. haha.. luckily my dad paid for it.. if not i even more pok gai!.. (i am already broke) oops.... =X

then we jammed the whole afternoon... playing guitar.. sharing things about our walk with God.. haha.. God is so good.. He has truly blessed both of us so much in our lives.. and we shared we remembered the things He had done.. and can't help but be awestrucked.. so amazed by His love..

Lord, i dunno why i feel so dry about certain issues that has been in my heart for quite sometime.. maybe i have grown so tired of trying to get things in order.. Wat should i do next Lord? I am awaiting Your guidance.. please be quick.. i am running out of patience and strength..

Callista wrote;
12:16 AM

I find the lyrics in this song sooo true.. it somehow describes how i feel right now..
i managed to hide my pains so well by smiling. trying to convince myself that i am alright.
since everyone seems so fine too..
we've all become plastic people with plastic smiles on our faces..
sad.. but it's so true.. and i feel it so strongly..

Stained Glass Masquerade -casting crowns

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they’ll soon discover
That I don’t belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything’s okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I’ll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the heart again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who’s been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who’s traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

Callista wrote;
10:39 PM

hmm... i woke up early to meet Eliz to collect my BSF notes.. oops.. i am a naughty girl.. i skipped BSF to go to the airport to fetch JJ...

haiz.. why is my neck still so painful when i wake up every morning.. i really dunno.. so i slept in the afternoon again.. hoping that it will improve .. but it didn't.. haiz.. stayed the same.. haha.. maybe i should just thank God that it's not getting worst... (not getting better either =X)..
i spent my late afternoon preparing worship and lesson for net.. today net group only four ppl.. it's good le.. considering the fact that they are all having exams.. had a great time of sharing with the net.. i could sense that they are all growing spiritually.. praise God.. had a great time of worship.. God moved mightily.. when i open my eyes, i am just so encuoraged to see them worshipping the Lord.. God spoke words over us.. Lord, i am back in Your embrace.. Your embrace brought warmth into my winter... I love You, Lord...

am i doing the right thing, Lord? am i loving my friends the way i should? Lord, guide me.. teach me how...

Callista wrote;
11:16 PM

AH!! my guitar capo R.I.P. liao.. spoiled... but i am going to stick it back ... hopefully can still use lah.. haiz.. i only watch about 1 hour of tv this morning.. and my neck pain.. maybe becos my sofa too soft.. then my posture not right.. haiz.. so pathetic lor.. haha, i realised that i cannot live without tiger balm.. the neck and shoulder rub.. i felt so uncomfortable when i found out that i didn't bring it out with me... oops.. but lucky last tuesday, hayley brought hers.. so i take a bit from her lor.. *apply* *ahh... shiok man..*

yay... tonite.. JJ is coming back.. not Lin JunJie.. is my da jie, Jia Jing jie jie.. miss her so much wor.. miss talking to her over the phone.. playing badminton with her, msning each other.. and!! sunday morning's jamming sessions man.. me , yvonne, wendy and hayley decided to buy something stupid for her.. won't tell you all here.. becos we dun want it to be exposed.. hehe... i think she will be really shocked to see wat's inside a big beautiful box... haha something she'll never never expect... muahahahaha..... *mischievious grin*

hmm... school's starting soon... haiz.. when everyone is enjoying their holidays... i'll be studying... but i am still excited.. i have to start building my momentum to study again.. finding back the studying mood.. haha 22 more days!!

oh ya.. today is hayley's first day at work.. hope everything went well for her.. may the Lord be with her all day long.. jia you, jia you, jia you!!

Callista wrote;
2:10 PM

today, a tuesday. started with heavy rain in the morning. spend my whole morning waiting for the telecom technician to come and fix my house phone. while waiting, i surfed the net.. read up on neck pains and the different exercises i can do to recover faster. this morning, is bad.. woke up with pain in my neck.. erm well, i wake up with pain everyday.. today is just one of the not so good days.. now, my arm is aching.. my neck and shoulder too.. probably from running sound.. haiz.. i dunno who is going to run the soundboard tmr and thursday lor.. somemore it's video link.. i really dunno.. i dun think i can tahan... haiz

hmm, relationship with God, relationship with others.. that's wat we prayed about at tonite's prayer meeting.. haiz.. Lord, teach me to relate to others Your way, teach me to put others before myself.

tonite, my friend reminded me about the vision i shared with her two years ago. the one about the feather in a metal box.. it's like a candle relighted in my heart.. and i was sharing to her about my feelings.. i just say i feel like winter.. a colourful season is over and comes a season of fall.. then she told me something very meaningful. when she was studying in england.. a gardener spoke to her during winter. "winter is when i will do the pruning, cutting away the unfruitful branches so that when spring comes, the plants will bear even more fruits and blossom more." this really speaks to my heart.. it assures me that God is preparing me for a time of harvest, a time of blossoms, a time where i will be much more fruitful in the things i do than before.. but before that He is to first cut away the unwanted branches on me. thanx sister for sharing this with me.. i am so encouraged by your words.. thanx also for being so sensitive to the voice of the Holy spirit..

God's wind will come.. yes , it will.. and when it comes, i will soar with Him..

Callista wrote;
9:50 PM

erm, i got my doubts settled with her.. i just need to give each other more time.. just hope that we will both be less judgemental towards each other.. i need to throw this friendship at the feet of Jesus.. allow God to fully take over it..

i decided to call becos i felt that i need to noe where i am in this friendship before i move on.. and i also want to noe whether we are moving towards the same destination... well at least now i noe that we have a common goal.. and we are both trying hard..

i shall wait and see Lord.. I will wait..

i dunno whether it's becos i am silent for most of my time at home that i have began to feel awkward talking a lot in groups of friends.. i noe this is so not me.. but it's exactly wat i am feeling.. Oh no.. wat's wrong with me, Lord?

Callista wrote;
12:23 PM

today, i went for service in the morning... like of course i go for service... haha.. then went for afternoon outreach.. becos i dun want to leave hui chean running the sound borad alone.. so i went.. i dun want ppl to pass bad comments about the sound ministry..

spent the rest of the afternoon at coffee bean with hayley and yvonne.. then after that i went home to sleep... becos my neck was hurting like mad... then after that, i went downstairs to buy some food for dinner..

then i came online lor...

okay, i have decided to tell her. and i will. Lord, please grant me wisdom in speech.

Callista wrote;
10:28 PM