I believe that this particular memory that I'm about to share is one of my most sharpest and memorable images I hold within, because even at this very minute, I can picture it in my mind, and bring that night back as if it was something that happened earlier to me just today...

I just so happened to be in South Beach, Florida for a business trip....This was about 10 years ago last October....It's hard to reconcile that its been that much time since then, because the consequences of that one single night lie at my feet my every waking hour.

So many times I wonder....what would of happened that night if I would of simply gone through another door... just any door, or if I would of gone right instead of left, or if I would of slept in just an hour later that fateful morning....

Looking back I can see that for some reason still unknown to me, I had been put on a road that would take me for the ride of my life.

Did I chose this? Or did it chose me?

I wonder if I really had any say in the matter, because that was was the night that my life began to careen out of control, because that night was the beginning of the end my life as I knew it.

A whole new existence what about to begin as it just yanked me away from the person I had been. I became caught up in the riptide and I had no way to get myself back to where I had come from.

That evening I was walking through one of South Beach's most sheik and high class nightclubs and I remember feeling like things were"happening" all around me, there was sexy lounge music playing, the lighting was dark and sensual, and there were beautiful people everywhere.....

So there I was like Alice in wonderland, twirling around, cruising through the bar....I felt good, I had on a new black leather dress, high black heels, and I was feeling sexy....

And then I saw him....and what I saw has stayed with me since that life changing moment.

He was sitting up on a ledge listening intently to the music....

He had on a navy blue Yankee's baseball cap, and the bill was pulled down low, so that I couldn't see his eyes...What I could see was a guy that had a very distinct jawline, the kind you see on those handsome and rugged models. I could tell that he had a nice physical presence because his shoulders were wide and I could see that they were strong,, just like those guys on the romance novels...he was beautiful, I just knew it.

In that instant, that short short moment in time, I knew that physically, he was my match. Zap...as quick as that, I was a gonner.

What was so amazing to me is that I could feel his aura, because at that moment in time, he touched me as I had never been touched in my life. His presence became seared into my brain and into my being and in that single moment he became apart of me.....forever.

So was I doomed? Some would say so....

Thats it for tonight......Wowser...this is a blast to the past! Until tomorrow...I have to go make up some herbal formulas....