Yesterday when me, Pinky and Daisy went running it was a different sort of day....The trails were devoid of people and it was eerily quiet....except for the sounds of helicopters over head...they were searching for the dead body of this beautiful young girl...who happened to go out running last Thursday afternoon, only to never return back to her loving family...

It was a week ago yesterday...that Daisy Girl was attacked....and I remember it because the horrifying site is as fresh as if it happened yesterday.....

Friday morning was just like every other day...sitting at my computer...working on my third cup of coffee....chatting with my website designers....dogs around me...or so I thought...


All of the sudden from outside I hear the dreaded sounds .......dogs fighting...and I knew immediately that my sweet innocent canines were fighting with the wild coyotes...

There's alot of them around here in our new paradise...every night I hear them as if they are outside my window while they carry on crying and singing their wild tunes...and somehow I never felt threatened by them...until now....and now and forever I will always fear their sounds....

I knew there was big trouble because I could hear Pinky's warning growls and barks..at a hysterical pitch...it was only seconds yet it felt like everything was moving in slow motion....I knew I had to get to them...I knew they were in trouble....Please God...don't let it be true....

I run out of the sliding door and was horrified at the sight that met my eyes....there was Pinky....fighting off one Coytee....and I had to yell...Piiiiiiiiiinnnnnky NOOOOOOOO....

At that second...Pinky looks at me straight in the eye...and I could hear him yelling to me; DO SOMETHING THEY'RE KILLING HER.......this is the second time in my life where me and my dong became of the same mind...we were connected ..we knew what each other was thinking....we knew that we were fighting for Daisy's life.

I looked further down and froze....in horror...as I witnessed my sweet little girl dog being attacked from the rear as that coyote bit her at her hips...as she looked back at the attacker she bared her neck to the the coyote that was coming at her from the front...she had left her neck open to the predator....and he snatched the opportunity and without hesitation....his jaws took her little neck into his mouth...

So many thoughts were running through my head...how dear God...no please God...not Daisy...do I slide down the hill...can I get to her in time....is she going to die?....and then in that minute....with everything I had....

I shouted at the very top of my lungs....STOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT....and at that second...the attacker of her neck...glanced up at me...

And I saw that Daisy was free...I knew we had a split second....Daisy...come on girl....Daisy come on Daisy you can do it...as she ran straight up a vertical hill... to me with Pinky by her side.....

I have two views of a lake this is the view to the left....Me and my pac of dogs run through the hills....the pic really does not do the view justice.....The views are incredible.....

I'm a person of extremes ...if I can't do it all...I don't do it at all...this includes dieting.....why diet if I can't starve myself....This is my second day of eating clean..carb restrictions...and it hurts when you take them out of your diet! Ouch!

I look okay...average right now...but I have done body building and I know that feeling of when your body is lean and toned...average does not do it for me...

So I live in a state of being completely unsatisfied with myself.....so finally have decided to go back to my roots and get back to where I was two years ago..and do it over the next six months...so by summer time watch out....

I was looking at my body building pictures...o boy...How far I have fallen...not to worry...only takes three weeks to start showing a clean diet...

My problem! Jose ! He loves to cook and loves to tempt me...and I admit it..I have been weak! But no more damn it...I will be strong....

Laat time I cut down...I video blogged it...Ha! Wouldn't be caught dead...well maybe I should do it..I could do it and only me see it....Okay...that;'s what I am going to do..THEN in three weeks...I will post it with the progress....

This is a commitment to ME!!!! Yes I CAN!

I have been think'en a lot lately about feebleness, or dementia, or the loss of will to live....

When exactly is that defining moment that takes us from a young person to an old person.....

I write this because of Patty...a once charming, charismatic human being who at one time was beloved by all and admired for her intellect...has become today... A shadow of who she once was, as she sits alone watching endless cable news, while living in social exile....

Did she make this choice to begin the walk towards the other side?...

The inevitable decline..more towards death than life?

Do we all at some single defining moment during our own time make this a conscious decision...which is to just let go?

And I just wonder....will that be me some day?

I shudder to think that it could be me....God I hope not....

I finally did it...I completed my masters.....and then after hundreds of study hours....I took the license exam and passed and I am now a state of California licensed acupuncturist.

I am officially;

Holly Mead L.Ac and Pet Herbalist....

I took the exam Aug 5th 2009...its now Jan 2010.....and what next?

Lots of options...I interned to jump right into a Phd program...but ugggggg the thought of studying again is still repugnant.....but its something I want to do...so...

As far as business goes...it goes great....we are the fastest growing website of our type...I watch all of those sites that compare growths of different companies.

ahhhhhh...I did lose my house....made a great offer to the bank on a loan modification and they did not even consider it....so I let go...I thought it was the end of the world at the time...but things have worked out so much better...

Tomorrow I will post pics of the new house...Im renting now but it is a beautiful house..I could not ask for a better environment.

Hello blog....sorry I have not visited for awhile...but I know your always here...waiting for my next entry...

I wish I could post more often...but every key stoke is a drop of energy that I have not had available to share with you.

This is an important time for me...I am a graduate and hold my masters degree in Traditional Chinese Medicine.

How odd it is for me to be at the end of the road...I can turn my head to the side and see where I was...I can now face forward and see where I am going to.

What an exhilarating time...to have finished such a long term goal.

However, I am not quite done. I am studying for those state board exams Aug 5th. I have not even been to the gym....its all about getting completed. This exam is extraordinarily difficult and takes hundreds of hours to to prepare for it.

I also have to feel very proud of PawHealer. I now have three employees and getting ready for the fourth.

Once I finish my exam, I can then dedicate full time to my labor of love...and make PawHealer what it is meant to be!

Bye blog...I will be back soon...I promise.

This is our PawHealer Chart....its so interesting because I attract a group of 50+ women that are highly educated....

I wonder if its because I am 50+ and a woman that this occurs....

I have learned about internet marketing...that you just really never have a clue.

For instance, I recently made a change to my website, and I didn't think anything about it...but for a few weeks after that, the on line sales dropped dramatically....then one night I was sitting there and thinking about it...and it dawned on me that the drop had been since I made that change to the navigation.

I changed it the other day...and wahmmmm....the e-sales popped right up again.

The internet is such a weird phenomena

O my.......this morning I start taking my finals for graduation. Sometimes I feel like crying....

Between working on PawHealer, and trying to wrap up school, I feel overwhelmed. But I seem to be making my way through it all.

This morning I go take the first of several exams...the good news about this one is that I can retake portions of whatever I don't pass...But still...

So how about some laughs? Here is a new diet that I am following because my butt continues to expand!