I picked you out
Of a crowd and talked to you
Said I liked your shoes
You said thanks can I follow you?
So it's up the stairs
And out of view
No prying eyes
I poured some wine
I asked your name you asked the time
Now it's two o'clock,
the club is closed we're up the block
Your hands on me
I'm pressing hard against your jeans
Your tongue in my mouth
Trying to keep the words from coming out
You didn't care to know
Who else may have been you before

I want a lover I don't have to love
I want a girl who's too sad to give a fuck
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I thought he said to meet me here but I'm not sure
I got the money if you got the time
You said it feels good I said I'll give it a try
Then my mind went dark
We both forgot where your car was parked
Let's just take the train
I'll meet up with the band in the morning
Bad actors with bad habits
Some sad singers
They just play tragic
And the phone's ringing
And the van's leaving
Let's just keep touching
Let's just keep keep singing

I want a lover I don't have to love
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk
Where's the kid with the chemicals
I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full
I need some meaning I can memorize
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind
But you but you
You write such pretty words
But life's no story book
Love's an excuse to get hurt
And to hurt
"Do you like to hurt?"
"I do! I do!"
"Then hurt me."

bringiton.

Today I learnt the progression of my Mixed Team Captain's Level of Intensity.

He always wears a cap, so the progression goes like this:

(Lowest Intensity) Cap -> Wear cap the other way round (like a Kid Rapper) -> Throw the cap on the ground (Mega Intense + Aggressive )

I shall find my level of intensity and aggression like his too. With my books, for my exams.

Maybe I'll start with filling up my pencil case. So the fatter it is, the more intense I am with studying =)

HEHEHEHE.

Rockmelt is so confusing!

Yesterday, someone insulted the person I was talking to (not a friend of mine, thankfully) and said that in response to her conversation, I should've just said "Sorry. I don't talk to ugly people."

Then I looked at the person who said that and wondered,
"Are you very good looking yourself?"

Hmm. Mankind.

Goodnight, whoever still comes here!

Haha

June and December are such sacred months, and nothing academic should EVER fall onto these months.

They should be untouchable, fully dedicated for recuperating and resting.

I hate it, hate it that I have to spend my December as a slave to my books, slogging to study.

"All that glitters is not gold,

and not all who wander are lost."

This space is tight, I’m running out of air
And for the moment, you all can fit
This frenzied state has almost finished me
And I won’t bide my time to see it blow

Driving now against the flow of lights and I can see the fault in every home
They can try to hold to creatures in at night
And My response will be angry fist and teeth

I’ll fight you all

We’ll tear down this place, she told it to him softly
Don’t use your heart, it only makes you slow
I’ll tear down this place, I’ve known it since she told me
Make sure to take everything they have

I’ll fight you all
I’ll fight you

*

"Well, if you haven't already heard, exactly a week ago, we were defeated.
Yes, we lost S.unig and we took home a silver medal last night.
First, and hopefully the last."

-Sunday October 11 2009 [link here]

FML IT WASN'T THE LAST.

It's like you suck everything out of me.

I can't quite place a finger on it.

Sometimes it's good, sometimes it's bad.

Can't quite figure which.

Let me breathe again.

♥

"Chuck Bass, I love you. I love you so much, it consumes me. I love you. And I know you love me too. Tell me you love me and everything we’ve done - all the gossip, and the lies, and the hurt, will have been for something. Tell me it was for something.."

- Blair Waldorf

Happy Things.

=)

G once mentioned that the amount of work she has to do/catch up on has reached her eyeball level.

I never thought of it in such an exaggerated way but the backlogging has never-endlessly accumulated for me. Well not vertically like G, but horizontally ahead of me.

Like the tiles of a long road leading to Neverland.

OHMYGOD. Thinking about it freaks me out.

On a lighter note, rejoice for the 2 weeks break off training. I can finally go home on Friday! =)

Lovin' it.

Never quite believed in Luck, but having it on your side isn't that bad either.

Maybe it's time to practice superstition and rituals for better luck.

hellogodforsakenplace.

L.

"Love isn't blind.

It sees, but it doesn't mind."

+

The unreal is more powerful than the real. Because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. Because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. Stone crumbles. Wood rots. People, well, they die. But things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on. If you can change the way people think. The way they see themselves. The way they see the world. You can change the way people live their lives. That’s the only lasting thing you can create.
—
Chuck Palahniuk

_

Have I mentioned?
I'm 22,
and for once,
I actually feel my age.

Lesser Things

She has told you what she’d bring
You’re entertained by lesser things
You’ve got to step it up a bit step it a bit more until
You’re sure there’s nothing left inside to hurt this pretty mind
Cause pretty eyes will see right through you

She’ll find out
She’ll break down
Stop this now

If you make it out alright
If you make it up for air
I promise you I won’t go
Before the sun gets to rise
I’ll ask this one more time
Will you have me in spite of her?

You’re barely breathing,
You're barely breathing tonight.


-Barcelona.

Pleasant Surprise

Today over dinner:
(while G was cutting her birthday cake after blowing out the candles)
G: "why is it so hard?"
Meng: "cos you just blow it."
Everyone: "wth.........."

****
conversations like this, it's so us. Like how Yuhong and Wanting were sharing their exchange experiences,
which led to musuem visits,
which led to Sex musuem,
which led to animal sex, the evolution of condoms, and the list continues.

Oh dear. This is US. 3 years and it hasn't changed.
But you know, I'm glad it hasn't. I love us like that.
I love Trojan. ((((:

Time

thenotebookdoodles.com

DESARU!

Pictures from Desaru that I'm too lazy to reorganise and arrange in chrono order.

Anyhow, it was a good trip. A last minute pangseh which turned out to be a blessing in disguise cos it made everything easier with an even number.

Also, a table only has 4 corners right?

First trip together but definitely not the last.

And it is getaways like this that help you take a breather, allows you to brace yourself for reality when you return.

Like in my case, where I was brutally thrown into the sea of truth with no float, no life jacket, no way out.

Parachute.

I don't tell anyone about the way you hold my hand
I don't tell anyone about the things that we have planned
I won't tell anybody
Won't tell anybody
They want to push me down
They want to see you fall (Down)

Won't tell anybody how you turn my world around
I won't tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound
I won't tell anybody
Won't tell anybody
They want to see us fall
They want to see us fall

--

Catch me when I fall.

Spinning Drama.

Road rice & I in a spankin' new white Beetle(:

Took two medals home on Saturday from W.antoks awards night and it has to be the First time I'm ever taking something back in 3 years =)

Coach caught me just before I left and said some really touching words of encouragement that left me close to tears.

+ the long anticipated milkshake from OE with two of my favourit teammies in the club made my Saturday really lovely despite running low on the S. (sleep)

Hectic weekend at V.olkswagen and I'm back to being jobless again =)

Oh life is good when all I need to do is meet up with pals and train.

Only until I break it down into the nittygritty that my head throbs and my eyebrows meet to form a frown.

Life is not that good when you have to worry about 12 other people, and plan ahead into the future.

Consider: Semester 1 vs Semester 2, External Fyp, Hall rooming issues, Tournaments, Goals, Dynamics, Priorities, Choices, etc.

Mommy's finally back, together with my lovely grandparents from Penang so I'm currently kicked outta my bedroom. Am crashing with the brother tonight! Should I sleep on the floor? Or should I just make him sleep on the floor since he's the guy anyway.

HAHA

And Happy Birthday, Daddy! We hope you like the wallet and ohsoyummy dinner!

We never had to request for a 10-people table but it was soooo fun :D

Innocence.

The nephew and his Auntie.

Aww, so much love!

The Future Freaks Me Out.

It suddenly dawned on me that this could be the future.

A glimpse of what things could be like; when Sis is married and Mommy gone (touch wood please).

It's just been two days (?) without my mom and things are already different, people already feeling empty. It's scary how Daddy seems so crippled without Mommy. He seems lifeless, hence he tries to keep himself busy. It isn't that he didn't trust me with the responsibility of bringing The Brother to dental, I (only just) figured that he didn't want to head back to an empty home, and be alone. So he insisted on sending us there and accompanying us through dental.

And then being the insensitive, too-busy-for-anything-else daughter, I didn't have dinner with Daddy. We bought food back though, but maybe he missed the company of Mommy, faithfully at the dining table every night, so he gave sitting there alone a miss and skipped dinner altogether.

At 8:48pm, he told me he was tired and headed straight to bed. The food still in its container, still in the plastic bag, still on the table.

Then I continued spending ME time- doing my nails (sorry, sounds so bimbo), clearing my emails, that I forgot about the clothes in the wash so he came to tell me they are done. I nodded and said "later" and only remembered while eating my grass jelly longan, over Bolt on Disney Channel. There was sooo much clothes to wash that I had to separate them into two bundles. And while hanging them did it occur to me that maybe Daddy doesn't have clothes to wear to work anymore. But even if I wanted to iron them NOW, I can't cos he is asleep. So how?

Even joining Trojan at prawning later seems kinda wrong right now.

:(

loss.

"Everyone of us is losing something precious to us. Lost opportunities, lost possibilities, feelings we can never get back again. That’s part of what it means to be alive. But inside our heads—at least that’s where I imagine it—there’s a little room where we store those memories. A room like the stacks in this library. And to understand the workings of our own heart we have to keep on making new reference cards. We have to dust things off every once in a while, let in fresh air, change the water in the flower vases. In other words, you’ll live forever in your own little private library."

-Haruki murakami

What a Weekend.

Quick one before I go.

Double champs over S.TL Finals and TouchAttack 2010 a success!

Thank you my wonderful NTUteammies and Clubpals and participants of TouchAttack.

I'm sunburnt and exhausted but I'm really thankful and glad =)

Halfway.

I don't deal very well with losses, I admit. Be it temporary, permanent, or forever.

These words, I heard on repeat: "A brother I never had", "sincere", "filial", "more than a friend", "cheerful", "friendly", "always a fighter", "never knew the true meaning of 'giving up' ". To you, these are just words. To those who spoke them, they are memories, lessons learnt, values they aspire to achieve.

There were just 3.5 of us, 0.5 being the Jien who wanted to be there but got caught up with unpredictable stuff at home. Sad to say, it is always the wrong reasons that bring people together: Graduation (after which we will go our separate ways), Farewells for friends leaving on exchange, Bereavement. They are barely reasons for celebration, yet get-togethers are more successful than a "Reunion". Have to admit, am utterly disappointed with the turnout from the Sixth. We are a 26-man huge comm, yet the attendance was just three. What?!

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And on second chances: How often are we given the privilege of that. For redemption, for convincing, for proving.

Over brunch with Yanns, we HAD to bring up the fragility and vulnerability of life.

Naturally, every mankind wants to be in control of something; be it in our lives, or simple things like Plans. I for one, plan ahead and hate uncertainties. I hate it when something not within my control crops up and calls for plan B. Here's my loophole: I always plan ahead but I never have a backup plan. Sometimes I wonder if it's because I'm being an alpha female; and these uncertainties leave me crippled without the empowerment of control.

But as the saying goes, we learn things best the hard way. And I'm slowly getting it.

I've effectively gotten upset with someone/myself once a day this entire week, and it's really tiring. But sometimes you don't really have anyone to blame but yourself.

*

"I'm not angry, I'm just saying,

Sometimes goodbye is a second chance."

Different

Tell myself on the ride home.
Getting tired, hating all I've known.
Holding on like it's all I have.
Count me out when it's clear that I
find it hard to say.
And you find it hard to care.

I wanted to see something that's different,
something you said would change in me.
Wanted to be anything different,
everything you would change in me.

Got this way, up front but never true.
God, I'm wrong, it's just the way I am.
Crashing down any chance you'll hear.
Caving in any chance that you,
could see inside of me.
And I, I'll know what to say,
It's fine, this isn't Hollywood.
So fine, getting in your way.

I wanted to see something that's different,
something you said would change in me.
Wanted to be anything different,
everything you would change in me.

I'm taking a chance,
this could be different.
This could be all I'm waiting for.
Taking a chance,
this could be different.
This could be all I'm waiting for.

I wanted to see something that's different,
something you said would change in me.
Wanted to be anything different,
everything you would change in me.

Something that's different

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Yumcha at Sgoon Gardens Countryclub with Bao just now. It was almost like we've been doing it for years, and we possibly will. Well at least until Ames shifts to The Duxton or something yes? (: haha
It feels like grown ups taking a break from their worklife/family catching up over a pseudo Sunday brunch and tea. Talking abt good old times, prospective futures, and current affairs.

Today I also broke my blackbird in the morning in a furious attempt to rewind and eject the film roll to develop. And by doing so I've exposed almost the entire roll of film and had no idea what I was doing/trying to do. I got so mad I broke the film door while trying to force it open. Then I got so helpless I forced everyth shut, shoved it in a black bag and taped it up. Seef, I hope you revive it.

Heartaches and Headaches.

Hello World,

I've been busy lately. But not quite.

You know like how time flies and you don't even realise it,

yet you can't quite point a finger on what you've been spending the time doing.

Just last night I realised that it was already, 27th MAY.

So I missed one of my dearestest friend's birthday on the 24th. Completely slipped my mind and I have no excuse. And thank you Dearest Yanns for being ever understanding and forgiving. =)

And still having 100% faith in the friendship we have, despite this big disappointment from me.

I love you!

And then there's many little things I need to deal with: Love, Loss, Stress, Friends, Performance, Expectations, Needs, Duties, Responsibilities, etc.

Yeah, IA has ended but it seems like the other avenues are taxing on me.

And last night I was talking to The Dongdong and I really wanted to cry. I don't know if it was because of how I felt; that I'm slowly becoming selfish, or because of how I'm falling short of the expectations of many, or I'm just simply stretched.

Then the latter will lead into the former: that I'm just selfish, how I only see that people need a part of me but I don't offer that helping hand or listening ear. And with that I am falling short of expectations. It's a sick cycle.

And I am not like that.

But anyway, Thank YOU for listening and assuring me.

You make me feel like a better person altogether. Love you(:

+

Abit overdued but

I'VE SUBMITTED MY IA REPORTTT!

And abit premature but,

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

Three months! :D Cheers!

Of Celebrations, Wisdom, Love, and Get-togethers.

Finally a picture post! (:

Yesterday was Jiel's 23rd Surprise Picnic (but she already kinda knew.....) at S.entosa(:
And Alisa's 22nd Surprise Dinner (she ALSO already kinda knew....) at H.atched!
Yay, many happy pictures. :D

Our very own Hammock :DJiel, your handstands FAIL.Jump shot!We're so brilliant, we bought a cake and forgot about forks and paper plates.Jiel's new f21 dress! Makeover! :D

*wolf whistles

*******

Aww, loves!

Alpha-Kenny-Body!

Ashybaby!

Ready, Set, Go! Grid girl style.

Birthday girl.Statue of Liberty, Hatched style.Team LooooveeeeeeInsane chaotic shots."Let's take another chaotic picture!"Love.

Sometimes we forget and lose ourselves,

and hurt the ones we love.

Everyday, I have this long list of To-Dos and To-Remembers.
They run so long that I never end up crossing out every single point.
Then I'll say, "Never mind that, let's leave it for tmr."
And the sick cycle continues.

Then I find myself rushing to wait and waiting to rush. It's like a delayed sense of urgency.
Not that I'm procrastinating (contrary to the first point) but, I don't know.
It's like I'm a mess. Not like emotional wreck but like I'm in pieces. I leave a part of me here, there, everywhere and I forget. Well I'm not really complaining, it's a change. And change is the only constant. Amidst everything in life, change is sometimes good too.

For now,
I need to remember all I've done at work (which, by the way, I've severely underestimated) so I can phrase them into my report.
Bearing in mind the deadline as well.
Oh, the end is near! And the end is where I begin. Can't wait :)


And I'm not being emo. That's so yesteryear.

All Time.

Last night,

I watched The Notebook (again),

and cried (again).

It is what I'd say a Beautiful Tragedy.

FOREVER

In my heart is where you are, it's where you'll always be

Staring out across the stars, a perfect memory

It brings me back to your arms, I feel the warm embrace

Of everything that you were, you're everything to me

And if I leave you here forever, forever I would stay
Cause I've been feeling so much better, with every single day
And if I could control the weather, the clouds and the rain

I know you're part of something deeper, you're better off this way

You can predict you can't become, lost in your ways
I miss you most now you're gone, I'll never be the same
I can hold back whene it shows, I'm breaking down to say
I won't forget who you were, you're everything to me

And if I leave you here forever, forever I would stay
Cause I've been feeling so much better, with every single day
And if I could control the weather, the clouds and the rain
I know you're part of something deeper, you're better off this way

And now you left me here forever, forever I will wait
I know someday we'll be together

/Amber Pacific

*

There are certain lines that cannot be crossed,

certain boundaries that should not be challenged.

Like a one-way street, there is no other way out. You can't say; Stop! Reverse. Exit.

There is only one-way out, and the way out is in.

Not now, I'm busy.

My life has been shortened by one and a half weeks: 17 may 2010.

OMGBREATHE.

A gazilliontrillionmegamillion reports to write.

Aimless bus rides,
Endless cab rides (with or without you),
Breathless long strides.

Gets me home.

Home is where the Heart is.

Omg you didn't.

I can literally hear the sound of it shattering.

Somehow.

WADDUP Blogger!!!

Took me forever to log in now I've lost every sense to blog.

PS: Date night was awesome but I thought it was slightly inappropriate for a primary school boy to be watching it.

PPS: HAPPY FOOOOOOOD

We found a plastic strip within my ice cream :(

So we got two new scoops. =)

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OMGIFORGOTIMSUPPOSEDTOBEONAHEALTHYDIET.

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Blame it on the uncertainties.

An itch I can't scratch,
A fever I can't sweat,
A habit I can't kick.

HI EVERYBODY,

Diet starts tonight.

Too much fast food/ milkshakes/ bubble tea/ chocolate/ ice cream/ irregular meals over the past week.

PS: ClashoftheTitans was really bad.

PPS: TheManwhoStaresatGoats was pretty awesome. =)

-sayingimages

You say that Love goes Anywhere.

Could it be that everything goes 'round by chance?
Or only one way that it was always meant to be
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away

So go on love
Leave while there's still hope for escape

Breathe.

It's never simple, never easy.

Retrace

Oh, how I've tried to get you out of my head.
And I lied, broken words I said.
Never thought I'd walk on this street again.
Standing where it all began.

Tried to forget when I left this town,
But it takes me right back when I come back around.

Retrace the steps we took on that long summer night.
I'm right there by your side.
Retrace the steps we took when we met worlds away.
Counting backwards while the stars are falling.

Oh, how I find every subtle thing screams your name.
It reminds me of places of times we shared.
Couldn't live locked in these memories.
Now I'm chained to my thoughts again.

And I tried to forget when I left this town,
But I'll take you right back if you come back around.

Retrace the steps we took on that long summer night.
I'm right there by your side.
Retrace the steps we took when we met worlds away.
Counting backwards while the stars are falling.

I need some shelter, I need some safety.
Photographs, they haunt me lately.
Chasing shadows as the evening takes me.
I'm still searching, but the picture's fading.

Retrace the steps we took on that long summer night.
I'm right there by your side.
Retrace the steps we took when we met worlds away.
Counting backwards, still counting backwards.

And no where else has ever felt like home.
And I can't fall asleep when I'm lying here alone.
I replay your voice, it's like you're here.
You move the earth, but now the sky is falling.

Retrace the steps we took on that long summer night.
In my mind, I'm back by your side.
Retrace the steps we took when we met worlds away.
Counting backwards while the stars are falling.


Anberlin.

AWW. =)

ME:
*hahaha
*hows your broken heart

D:
*still breaking.. ):
*hahahahha

ME:
*HAHAHAHA
*seriously....
*no redemption booth?

D:
*no leh
*wont get to redeem anyth i guesssss
*Sigh Sigh Sigh

ME:
*HAHAHAHHA
*hug]
*you can redeem me

D:
*i thought i've alr redeemed you?
*no?

ME:
*HAHAHAHAHAHAA
*AWWW so sweeet!

D:
((((:

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So sweet ah.

55, 56.

I always try to make the best out of every situation,

World peace: compromise and give in.

But you can't please everybody all the time.

At some point, something's gotta give.

Someone's gotta lose out.

The question is: Who?

The Fates Have Spoken

TGIF(:

And it's Easter tomorrow.

Spent the Good Friday with the it's-been-too-long extended jc pals at Juls.

Reliving the days with food, drinks, tv, and pool.

No dunking as usual, but last night involved more action: Rugby boys wrestling, Sailors ripping shorts, How-you-use-a-Toilet-bowl talk, Mermaid by the pool.

Also watched Lovely Bones on Thurs and When in Rome on Friday after service(:

Never ate so much popcorn in the past year compared to the past two days. HAHA.

No touch on a Saturday feels funny. Though I'm enjoying the weekend off, I don't get to exercise =(

So I'm gonna head down to SA for some touch with the boys. IF it doesn't rain =)

"A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous."

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

:)

Yay!
With easier access now and 3gb to spare, I promise I'll start piecing my life together once I gather the scattered pieces.

Midnight Confessions

It's getting harder to piece my thoughts together when I can condense them into 140 characters which I have much easier access to.

On another note, I've got myself a new plaything, yay! :D

I love all technical gadgets black. Mmhmm.

Question of the day: They say people speak the truth when they're drunk. What about when they're sleep texting semi concious?

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ALICEINWONDERLAND IN3D: CHECKED

And I never had SO much fun playing Pictionary.

Old skool but just as entertaining.

We dethroned the defending champs!

Another Again.

Extracted the wisdomSS on my right side on Tuesday!

It was scary, and I was shaking from the time I got onto the dentist chair and even til after when I was waiting for my prescription.

So what they say is true: DON'T EVER DO YOUR EXTRACTION IN SCHOOL!

I always thought it was over exaggerated but it IS true.

He told me I'd have a more traumatic post recovery when removing those on my right (the bottom one was growing out horizontally) but so far so good =)

Plus the painkillers are so much better.

With that, I'm on MC for the rest of the week so I get to rest =)

Need to finish up FIVE logbook entries in time for my supervisor's visit next week =\

And I've also decided to do my FYPee in I.MRE (:

Totally following the footsteps of Daddypig Ongjunx. Heheh.

It's Over!

Officially PANG GANG from ihg 09/10!

Track was awesome today, despite finishing in a disappointing 8th position for 4*1 relay.

Our hope for the day became false in a matter of minutes. Disappointing! :(

But we also jumped up three positions to finish 2nd in 4*4. Way above our expectations but that was some awesome shit. =)

Here comes another week of the same-old-stuff.

ZZZZZ

Give me More.

We ran at the stroke of midnight, illegally.

Under the stars, under the moonlit sky.

Against the wind, against all rules.

It felt good, to get my legs moving again.

They feel heavier with the additional gain from the Festive binging,

but better to get them started before Saturday and Sunday.

=)

I talked to G last night, and she said one thing that was so right.

Keep your cool. The player musn't get played.

PS: Am at work now. Awesome pawsome yo!

Breaking Point.

I'm getting another (unofficial) week off work, and I'm starting to wonder if my grades will be as slack as my work is. I'm wondering how on earth would it be possible to fill up those blank pages in my Logbook and what I can tell my supervisor about work.

There are things I could do, but I'm not sure if I should because I'm not allowed to use the equipment unsupervised. Initiative or Safety?

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That apart, CNY this year has been just like every other year. Day1 with family then Day2 with S' side. This year, we get an extra holiday. Doesn't make that much of a difference when you're older. CNY was only fun when you're below 12.

So yeah, last week I felt like I was on top of a roller coaster: I'm exhilarated, I'm high on adrenaline, I'm anticipating. But I'm also scared, I'm nervous about what is ahead for me, I'm waiting for the big drop (but I just don't know when), and I don't know how long this drop will last.

And this week, I'm finally riding down. It's scary, I'm out of control. My heart sinks as I fall toward the bottom. I wait for it to pass but it's a downward spiral. It's spinning faster than I can reach for support.

Of course, with momentum, you're definitely able to get up from that drop, but that point will never be higher than the one you just came down from.

+

Today, I won six bucks from Blackjack, which contributed to almost half the cab fare home. Yay(:

Happy Cny (again!)

Percy Jackson's pretty good! :D

Kajiao, kajiao.

Really love the picture, but the background's a mess.

Love you eileenkhooyiling!

*****

Sooo,

Happy CNY and Valentine's everybody(:

To start, I really dislike CNY if not for the goodies to eat.

Had to last min shop for clothes cos I wasn't done and most of my new clothes are BLACK. Not a good colour to wear on Day1, especially to the granny's. >=(

Thank you Yanns for accompanying meee :D And I'm glad you like the purple belt! (:

Next, Valentine's. Never a big fan of over-commercialised dates that don't mean anything special to me. Why do couples like Valentine's day? What exactly about this day is so unique to you. I'll commemorate it, but won't celebrate it. =)

Heading out to catch a movie later! To be honest I think CNY holds more meaning to S and I than Vday. =)

The End Is Where We Begin

We had our final closure a few hours ago- over sashimi, sushi and too-much-jap food at H.anabi. We reminisced good times: Aussie, Semis, Random bimbo moments; laughed over classic scenarios; talked about our future: Club season, Winter League (so long more), graduation (for some), work, post-season-life.

As cheesy as it is, with the end of this season, a new one awaits us. First it's club, then it's S.Unig again. This team is awesome, and I'm really sad to let it go. That as always, after each season we part and take separate paths: Syl and Ek concentrating on Fypee, Juniors still learning the art of the game, some taking time off to do something else meaningful in life, others going back to their real jobs: being a girlfriend, full-time sailor, full-time soccer player, IAstudent (me!).

Team session always heals. I actually felt more energetic than I usually do after work. =) CaptainEK and I got Mvp which made the season a whole lot more meaningful.

I still can't believe season's over ALREADY.

=(

Anyhow, after dinner, we split up. Five of us detoured to Macs and played some card game with cows. Apparently, if you owe something to anyone sitting at the table, you'll have bad luck and lose. Tested and proven; Ek lost the first round (cos she owed me moolah for drinks). So she paid and I then owe her 5cents change. Then I lost all the subsequent rounds! >=(

Was never that superstitious but I better start believing. :( It's not a coincidence.

On a sidenote: S came down to work for lunch today! (: With a bouquet of roses in hand. (I insist they look identical to the bouquet from last year but he begs to differ, hmm) And I stole an orange care bear from AwPap's car. =)

Then over team dinner, Baby gave me a box of self-made pineapple tarts and almond cookies she baked with Elepig(: It even has "XOXO" written on it. :D

Thank you! I feel so loved. =)

Imma Mommy Over You!

Some doors when closed, will never open again.

Maybe you won't even be able to find that same door a second time.

Rather brain dead but life has been good.

It has been tiring. =)

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Wed: Caught up with Ken Cow Moo and AndreaLesbo at SunsetGrill. It was a disappointment- they forgot A's orders despite a million reminders, got our orders wrong, and the food wasn't that fab either. =( It was only the company that made up for everything gone wrong.

Awesome to see these two after so long, Hongrui you're missed much!

Then we wanted to take pictures with the pretty airplanes but got chased by the security guard. Mmmmgrumbles.

Oh yes and Lindt chocs from Moo with love from France! Favourite! :D

Comeback Kings

I get a week off work this week! Not because I'm trying to skive, but because the equipments aren't available so there's nothing to be done anyway.

I have to backtrack more than a week of events and activities, kinda hard for me to pen them down now actually.

I'm finally coming to terms that season is over; we had an awesome preseason leading up to IVPee and now it's hard to say goodbye. The Aussie trip definitely benefitted us, both in terms of game sense and team bonding. After 11 days, we came back a completely transformed team- we were closer, and stronger.

"Imagine you're in Heaven and you're playing touch." - that's what Coach said before every game in OZ. We were stressless, fearless, got thrased upside down. But we always picked ourselves up and hung on for our lives (we were only playing with 11)

And as always, by tradition, the best games are not caught on camera.

We lost IVPee, but this season was AWESOME. It barely felt like we did, though yes the colour of our medal reflects the team standing. I wasn't upset when the final whistle went- it didn't feel like we lost. Of course there was a tinge of disappointment- I could hardly believe that we lost but we never gave up and I'm so proud of ourselves.

A friend labelled us the "King of Comebacks" after what happened in both semis and finals. In Semis we were down 2-0, then caught up 2-1, equalized 2-2, down 3-2 and eventually equalised 3-3 just before the hooter went. Sudden death til 3v3 and we proceeded to finals. It wasn't a smooth ride up, but we made it.

Then Finals: we were 2-0 down by first half, 3-0 down just as the second half started, then caught back up 3-3. We lost sudden death upon the first tap though. Guess you can never be lucky a second consecutive time.

I told the team I was proud of them; during S.unig we were intimidated and under too much pressure and fear. This time, we played fearlessly, and proven to be mentally strong. S said it doesn't feel like we lost cos we played like a champion team (finally), and I guess he's right.

=)

Apart from Ivpee, I've been spending too much time in Hall. Am officially roomless after the new roomie shifted in last night. Due to all the IH track/road relay (dreads) training, am back with lotsa time to waste.

Hence, I've been room hopping! Attended BabyJ's elective with her on Monday cos I was bored shit, and spend lotsa nights with the successor over ipod games (Rotten apples!!)

Yesterday: Lunch with one of my favourite couples! G.ibby and S.iying at H.all13 (: then wasted time at N.IE library helping with English homework: simple present tense, perfective, progressive, active passive voice, Modal: degree of possibility, statement about the future.

Never knew English could be harder than it already is. =)

Dinnered with Penguin and the Loomies for the last time yesterday over Pizza and chicken wings =) Yums. Took lotsa pictures with the Blackbird =) I've yet to see the first roll of film and I'm already excited about developing my second roll! (:

Need to head down to the Bestie's soon to scan the pictures =)

Went down to Terminal1 to send our dearest CANG SANG the fish aka wongjingyu aka Federer's-nanny-to-be while she departs to the Land of Federer (Swiss!) (:

It was a 1am flight but TEAM LOVE > midnight cab fare so most of us went down anyhow =) Also celebrated Buddy Briggy's birthday while we were there. Team love is the best =)

Then 11 of us squeezed into a van as we embarked on the long journey back from ChangiAirport to PulauNtu. =( It was an achievement. (Y)

Dearest Road Rice also found out her MRI results yesterday: Complete ACL tear and partial MCL tear. Op to be done in March after 6 weeks of intense physio. Fat hugs for you dearest! Stay strong and I'll be here for you =)

Bring A Friend

I finally made it for service this morning after many, many months.

With trainings, leagues, etc on Saturdays, it's impossible to go for Youth so 11am is the next alternative and yes I got my fat ass down today! =)

10 of us had lunch together and we had to open up two tables so that we can sit comfortably and ordered a whole duck to share. Yums =)

And just as I headed home, I got a text to head down for "Bring-A-Friend" Day.

Hmmm, I scrapped initial plans to snooze and left for LowerDeltaRoad to a gathering where I only know ONE person (My #8 successor, haha)

Phil so brave.

Of course, I felt awkward and out of place but I guess it got better as it went.

Plus, there was awesome cheesecake to make up for it so yay =)

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Yesterday:

W.ANTOKS TRAINING!! (: As much as I was lonely without my fellow teammies, it was good to be back. (: Esp to see Captain Khoo! :D

We trained for almost 4 hours under the freaking hot sun, and I left my water bottle there :( :( :(

So Ro and I headed down to get KOI to reward ourselves after training, and I was supposed to head down to Yck from Amk.

Thought I'd take a bus with her though it's just one stop away and saw that 136 will pass by Yck.

Very very long later, I was still travelling on the bus, passing by Kovan and Hougang, I really really needed to pee. Held it in thinking I'd reach soon but eventually realised: I AM ON THE WRONG BUS.

So I spotted an LRT station and quickly alighted. NO TOILET AT THE STATION. :(

And great, I'm stranded somewhere in Sengkang.

Walked towards the bright lights and still couldn't find a washroom anywhere. That was when I had half a mind to just pee at the bushes. But I saw CIVILISATION so I headed towards it. After climbing up and down a few times, I finally found the toilet which the security guard pointed out to me.

Walked to the nearest bus stop (which wasn't exactly near btw) and saw that I've a direct bus home. So I ditched plans to yck and waited for my bus home.

Apparently, 136 goes to yio chu kang ROAD aka Sgoon stadium, not yck. =(

And the best part is: 2.5 hours after leaving Amk, I still wasn't at Yck but S didn't find it weird at all. Texted 4 times and gave a missed call but his phone's screwed so he didn't check?

Boohoo. Mega upset. :(

You're The Direction I follow To Get Home

1)WORK

IA this week's been goodie goodie. (:

Finally starting on experiments: sample prep, gold deposition (unfortunately, I don't have access to the Au otherwise I could steal some and we could all be rich!), lspr measurements, bilayer formation and next week, more molecular testing, more layer by layer depositions and even SEM training!

Okayyyy, I know I sound like a complete nerd now. But I really like it!

I've been working OT the past two days and yes, I've been complaining (though I don't quite deserve to cos I have DAMN slack days too). Just unlucky the OT falls on days I have a tight after-work schedule (non-leisure related)

Lunch breaks have also been awesome with my aN-yoU-aSs pallies, with fellow course mates and the lonely Hub, with my dearest OG mate ongjunx(: , getting used to the way around campus and eating out of school.

Despite the reallyreallyreeeaaalllly low pay, I'm pretty glad I was granted my first choice company. When I'm bored or waiting for results, I can just head over to the Computer Room and I'll always find someone there, or head down to L3 library and disturb Ah Chu. =)

Today, Junx came over while taking a break from his Fyp report and I was showing him the experiment. Also taught him how to use O.rigin to smooth curves (which he still doesn't know how to do after 1 year in Im.re) and he is impressed by me! :D Yay. I also hit my head against a cabinet which has never happened in the past few days but it had to happen when he was around.

J: "Don't worry, I won't tell G you knock your head."

Me: "If you tell her, I'm gonna ask her to 'boxbox' you!!!!"

=)

I win. Heh

2) IVPee

Only 1 game this week instead of the supposed two. Tuesday was our second game against SPee. Anyway, just as I thought I was doing fine, I got sat out TWICE in one game. Apparently I "needed to get out for a while before more possession lost or losing you (me) altogether". In other words, I was being destructive then self destructive/destructed.

We won anyway, 6-2.

Thanks Sugar Fairy for running down from N.us to watch the game! =)

We also caught IVPee Bball girls semis on Tuesday after our game. It was an extremely exciting nerve-wrecking one between us and aN-yoU-aS. From trailing by a-few-points, we caught up to a draw, then to a lead, then gave away free throws and the match ended with a draw. (The coaches of the opposition were so fierce, they even threatened the officials)

So it was extra time of 5 mins where we had a good lead initially until opposition caught up and the aN-Tee-yoU team had to work extra hard to take the lead again.

Eventually we won by two points and it was an awesome, awesome feeling. Plus seeing our fellow (ex) teammie playing so well, leading her team and scoring- we were so proud of her =)

So yesterday was the finals, which we rushed down after training. We were already trailing by a bit, but the bball girls kept trying to catch up. Each time they narrowed the gap, an unexpected (but freaking accurate) 3 point shot will come from the aI-Tee-E girls.

There was a period of time the aN-Tee-yoU team was ON FIRE but it wasn't enough. :(

We lost in the end, by 4 points ( I think?) Cyn still played awesome but it was really sad to see her cry :( She didn't cry when we lost S.UniG and she told us to be strong. So it was really saddd =((

3) FOOD

Been eating way too much fast food, Macs after watching bball on Tues (twister friezzz!), BurgerKing on Thurs and Macs again todayyyyy! :\ Had bubble t on Wed too, and a major frogurt craving due to the insane sun. The BenJerry's at Vivo's closed for renovation too. :(

4) MISC

Work ended early on Monday so I went to fix the oh-so-terrible hair of mine (I snipped my own hair and it was hideous).

Caught Blindside on Wed with liangshit my Curly Hair Friend after lunch with Ahgong and Yanns in campus. =) The show's really really good. =) We both enjoyed it. Shopped for Ahgong's farewell gift before heading down to his place for the (not-so-)surprise farewell party. (:

what will I do without you, Ah gong.

Have a safe flight to London.

Hello from eem-Ray

Nothing to do til 330pm..
Alviniaowyong where are you.

Scissorhand.

More pictures from Aussie(:

Feeding the ONLY white Roo in the zoo, in the rain (explains the Umbrella).

FYI, it DID eat from my hand! (:

Beddie XP and I + Intruder Alisa in the oh-so-messy room on the last day!

It's v messy, I know.

Players' Player ball! :D :D

Thank you all (:

At Dreamworld while queueing for Cyclone, it was damn gooooood! :D

Would've sat again if not for the infinitely long q. :(

Team picture at C.oomera Comets playing ground.

Halfway through the game, the kangaroos from the other side of the field just RANNN across our playing field! (: (: It was beautiful.

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So anyway. I have cut my hair! Both fringe and hair after yesterday's disastrous trial with the scissors in my own hands. Muahaha.

It is still long enough to be tied for IVPee but can't wait to chop it off after season =)

Lab test today was pretty easy, besides the open discussion we had among ourselves, we had another one WITH the coordinator before submission. Teehee.

Ended work at 2pm today (started at 11?) but today marks the last of my half-day-work life.

Finally get to start work in lab and I'm excited! (:

Humble Beginnings

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happy birthday s.

+ First week of work has been rather good so far. Yes I ended work at 1130am on Monday, 10am on Tuesday, no work on Wednesday, 130pm on Thursday and 5 on Friday! By right work is 9-6 but I haven't passed my lab test so I can't get started on research.. don't compare.

+ Spent the entire Monday hanging around N.US - from biz canteen to arts canteen to E.usoff hall to Science canteen, then headed down to S.unset way for ice cream with Yanns only to find out... Dailyscoop is closed (!!!) and so is buttercorn (or is it buttercream? I can't remember!)

+ Surprise xlb buffet on Tues for S where I had to make do with using my knitted sweater as a blindfold, and awpapa totally failed as a cab driver.

+ Then k.uishimbo for lunch on Wed after htht with Jiel, Carcar and Angiebff.

+ Then timbre on Wed night to further celebrate S birthday and welcome Tiancai back! :D "Congratulations on dating a 'Wondergirl'!"

+ First IVPee game on Thursday against NYPee. Went fine, but we can be better. 12-0 to us.

+ Caught "It's Complicated" just now and I like how it's a happy unhappy-ending.