Three Knocks On The Door, But No One Hears.

R: I never knew you were a left hander.
Me: Why? Are you a left hander too?
R: No, but they say that left handers are very talented people. So what's your talent?
Me: HUH! No talent, no talent. My talent is that I have none.

-

Elisa is vaccuum- ing Feiier's hair.

"I am now Halal" (not meant to be racist!)

(:

Promised myself I'd take a photo of this fountain just infront of the Gateway building, before I left. So here goes:

Over the past three days, I've learnt that

• Jason is a really common name,
• Hazels are very sweet people(:
• 24th storey doesn't seem THAT high after all,
• time really flies when you are occupied, no matter what you are doing.

The wind lately (maybe only over at Bugis) has been rather strong. So strong I somewhat feel swayed to a direction each time the wind blows . It's so strong, I can imagine myself being flung off my feet if I were any lighter. Scary, but I finally find peace in my weight. HAHA.

Piuzy is back from Indon, with a box of homemade pineapple tarts that melt in your melt, with L-O-V-E. (:If this entry were to be posted yesterday, I'd be whining about how hard FTT is. Like out of 10 etrials, I think I only passed 4. So naturally, any sane human would be panicking.
BUT I PASSED! =D WHEEEEEEEEEEE! So did Feiiers! So it's another 3, 4 more lessons til we finish Module 2.
And btw, I love my instructor today! =D

And now, Yongrui; Idol & Ken Cow CAN DRIVE!

Saw J****** Tan on the way home today. I'm unbelievable unlucky. And we were standing right infront of each other. OHMYGAWWD.

-

Ohwell, today marks the end of my FREEDOM, SOCIAL LIFE, WEEKLY TRAININGS and FRIENDS.
I look at my schedule, and I feel really helpless, I wish to alter it here to suit everything I have on hand, but I know that would be impossible.
I look at it and find the next best alternative, realising every alternative has its own disadvantages.
Right now, it's a matter of sacrifices, and a leap of faith- that absence shall make the heart grow fonder, and not weaker. And for now, every ounce of strength left will be put to its fullest use. Should relationships fall apart during this course of attachment, I'd know how solid/weak the foundation to what we thought both of us owned is.

Of course, I hope for nothing to change. But that would be as good as the Earth not rotating.
Holding on to whatever's left of every little bit, and every little one is gonna be hard.
More will slip, yet I feel with absence, some will grow stronger.
I think I'm making it sound like I'm migrating or something.
Omg, slap me. For tomorrow shall be the brand new transformation and interaction- with snails, dao kias and hopefully more like me. Hah.

To the many promises I've made, I will try my best to fulfil them.
Esp with D, cos I know how much it'd mean to you. And maybe to Me too, to finally be able to do something for you for all that you've done for me.
I'm writing this down, so that it'd serve as a constant reminder.


Ps: Tiffoos is getting braces! Welcome to the metal mouth world(:
Pps: Dear A (my girl), I hope you know that I'm gonna miss you alot now that I can't go for trainings, aka I can't see you aka I can't laugh AT you. ): Work starts at 5 on Wed for me. BOO.

Traditional, with a Brand New Touch.

My heels didn't give me any problem at prom,
but today they gave me two blisters, only when I was on my way home.
I'm like damn tmd pissed I'm posted to KAMPONG GLAM,
I muttered, wheredafuckisthat, when I was signing my attendance sheet.
I was honestly tempted to appeal for a nearer location, or maybe the one Ame is at,
but I told myself, to trust God and that he'd have something in store for me.
Despite the hostility among co-workers (let's hope it's cos it's the first time we're seeing each other) and terrible first impressions (snail alert), I am staying optimistic and I shall look forward to the hectic weeks of no-life life ahead.
I guess the good news is, I'll still be seeing E, W, and F at OrangeTee, faithfully each week. (maybe except for a few thursdays)
And of course, not forgetting Mr. Intimi-Seanlookalike-dating Ryan Lee.

-

Christabel quit working at Donut Factory just recently.
This officially ends my free donuts (on top of those I get) and queue jumping for ordering/collecting of donuts.
Well, there's still Sheila, but I didn't even remember her when she approached me 2 years ago during some random Touch Tryouts, so I do not deserve her help.
But looking on the brighter side, with CNY around the corner, and Bel now working for some Chinese Tea place, maybe Parents would want to get Chinese Tea (for any random reason) and I might still get privileges.


HAHA, I'm really, just kidding.

Some random photos:

Fireworks we saw right infront of us just before I left for Airport, and US at the airport. Sucky shot. ):

Swensen's.

Hmm.

BALI SONG

One more thing before I go,
A BEAUTIFUL SONG ('s lyrics) FOR YOU:

Your face lights up the sky on the highway.
Someday, you'll share your world with me someday.
You mesmerize me with diamond eyes;
I try to fool myself to think I'll be alright.
But I am losing all control -
My mind, my heart, my body and my soul

Never in my life have I been more sure,
So come on up to me and close the door.
Nobody's made me feel this way before;
You're everything I wanted and more.

To speak or not to; where to begin.
The way dilemmas I'm finding myself in.
For all I know you only see me as a friend.
I try to tell myself wake up fool; this fairy tale's got to end.

"Never in my life have I been more sure,
So come on up to me and close the door.
Nobody's made me feel this way before;
You're everything I wanted (more)."

You're everything I wanted

RIVERMAYA.

Ps: Happy 19th birthday, Chong Peng! I can't believe you yourself can even forget!

PURE ENTERTAINMENT ;

huffs and puffs. says:
ICE CREAM HEADACHES AND SWEEET AVALANCHE -yours. (That's my MSN nick)
huffs and puffs. says:
MILKSHAKE STOMACHACHES AND BITTER (EARTHQUAKES) -mine


PS: Here's a video from Saturday, where we just sang impromptu-ly for Florence. (: We can't believe we're seniors.



(I don't know how to resize it and the sound is laggy!)

We Could Pretend It All The Time.

This is so blog worthy:
In addition to the super sweet message I received last night:

"and i wna add,saying.even we both grow old and turned teethless. i'll still bring my walkg stick along to have dinner with yoo! WOOOOH
wah,sound like im gna marry yoo or someth ah"

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ANYHOW, today I was greeted by warm smiles and sweet sales girls everywhere I went.
Especially the one that went, "Is my hair neat anot?" in the cutest voice, flashing her sweetest smile.
I said, "Yeah, it's nice!" (plus 2 thumbs up) and she started sharing about how she was packing and her hair was so messy, she looked like a mad girl. And how she feels that once you start wearing denim skirts, you won't want to wear denim pants anymore.
I told her I like shorts.
But her Daddy doesn't allow her to wear shorts. Actually, neither does he approve of skirts, but she said "I sell skirts so must wear to promote them!" and he was speechless, so now she always wears denim skirts.

I somewhat felt obliged to get something on top of the skirt my Sis was getting, cos she was really sweet and lovable. But I couldn't find anything eye catching. ): She gave us a 2$ discount but I paid her 10$ less. By accident. Thank God we were just standing outside the shop packing our shopping stuff.

Despite buying 3 pairs of ear rings just yesterday, I got another 6 today. It's not like I'm really in need of them anyway. They're just, really, really pretty.
But I shopped for my brother tooo! (:


Somebody, confiscate my atm card please.
(In half a week, I've splurged at least 100$ away. More than 50% on FOOD though. Why is food so expensive!)
But promise you won't forge my signature.

Sis: "If I stayed at home, I wouldn't have spent so much la!"
Me: "Who was the one who asked me out with her, huh?"

-

And for breakfast, I made my own Oreo Milkshake- soaked my Oreo cookies in milk and crushed them.
By dinner, I could eat hor fun already.
And I don't like HL Milk, it tastes, too creamy..

IQ The Size Of A Ball-point Pen.

Read that off Table For Three, which Hr was reading just yesterday.
That book's rather entertaining, but it's sooo Singaporean.
Wtf does IQ the size of a ball-point pen signify anyway.
Hah.

Anyway, since Elisa has very honestly told me, "Eee your blog is so boring one. Because there are no pictures." (Wle, tmd. So hurtful. HAHA) I shall deliberately post an entry overloaded with photos. Blog worthy ones, of course. Maybe not to you, but to me at least. (Afterall, I'm the owner right! And these are my memories. Haha)

Let me try to organise my thoughts, and arrange the photos in Chronological order: (omgs, they are so messy and my thoughts are just as messed up with 2 different songs playing in the background)

ESTEE'S 19TH SURPRISE AT ICHIBANBOSHI/ESPLANADE; FRIDAY:

#1: Those from SA present
#2: mygirlmygirlmygirlmygirlmygirlmygirlmygirlmygirl!
#3: Because he's leaving for the army in a week's time (then), and he has left already.
#4: Attempted emo shot (Haha, I just forgot to turn on the flash okay!)

**

AMKhub/Fairprice Xtra On Sat with my Parents, plus ....I never ever want to be an Arts student ): It's soooo much work. Tooo much. At the end of the night, I was nearly cockeyed, and my fingers were red and sore from cutting, sticky from glue. Boo ):

No pictures of Sunday, only memories- I vaguely remember making a wasted trip down for a hair cut and cabbing from CTK to J8 (cab fare was 3$, so spoilt) for mini shopping(:
Oh, but I still can't conclude if I've grown or shrunk for the better.

Tues, I had a #^%*&*(%& driving instructor:

Me: "Uh, is it true that we have to pass both FTT and finish module2 before we can book our practical test?"

Him: "Yes, that's true. Because as students of the school, we want .. (all the bull shit)"

(Awhile later),
Him: "I can tell you're very eager to test your practical test.."

Me: "HUH?????? No?? I was ... (just asking for my friend)" [He didn't let me finish >=( ]

--

And, I met FGD too. Finally.

**

Wednesdays have become my favourite days of the week, cos it's TOUCH days! (:

Rushed down to Cityhall after training to meet BAO, where we walked from one Jap Restaurant to another, and Another, and Another before we settled down at Genki Sushi, simply because we were TOOO lazy to walk to Esplanade/ find another. Haha.

#1: Gross Greentea powder :\
#2: We wanted to take a photo of the food we ate/mess we created but the table was already half cleared
#3: (:

**

Thursday was Crabby day, where for old times' sake, we went back to Prince Cafe at Coro. And since it's for old times sake, we should eat the same thing right! So I had Fish & Chips again, Yay. The "old times" refers to the day, I had my braces fully tightened and in place, with all 4 molars extracted. 25rd Nov 2005, I think. Too bad we couldn't gather everyone who was there that day, back with us today.

And we popped by Island Creamery, also for old times' sake/Crabby's craving, but I was too full for anything and my fav flavour wasn't selling anyway. And we walked a few bus stops down instead of sitting down waiting! And guess who suggested to walk? Not meee! (:
(I think old times' sounds so YaKun. Haha)

At the bus stop: (I totally forgot I had my camera before this)

At Orange Tee:Elisa was being irritating that night. She scribbled (a long crappy paragraph) on my leads list but later, I realised I had rough paper so we started scribbling:

Firstly, she wrote LIAR.
Then I cancelled the R, put E before the word, and added an S inbetween the I and A.
That spells ELISA.

Then she wrote Asshole, and tried to be Cheena sooo, it became "en chi pi gu" (phil ass) and I added "de dong = wen bin" ('s hole = elisa)

OMG and I couldn't stop laughing. If you look clearly at the picture, you can see that I wrote, "You lose! Haha."

Oh yeah, I wanted to prank Hr, but something really funny happened. Elisa tried disconnecting the line, but it didn't. I couldn't stop laughing. The phone was ringing.

Hr: "Hello?"
Background: "HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA"

Then she grabs the phone and says, "HELLO! I AM PHIL!"

(Omg, okay, actually I think whatever I'm posting is so not funny, I'm like talking to myself.)

Nights like these are the BEST! When all your Managers (especially Mr. Intimidating Ryan) are absent, and phones are spoilt, AND AND AND, I get to strike off TWO PAGES (!!) of numbers! Woohoo.

So anyway, meet En Chi Pi Gu De Dong, And her new GAP Hoodie. (If you can see it)After work, we decided to go for a (FREEEE!) cable car ride!
(Okay, I have shakey hands ): And I didn't take a proper photo of the (breathtaking, hurhur) view!)

Though I was verysuperduper tired, I still went to help a lazy designer with his soon-to-be-due but no-where-near-completion work. And I am so un-arty la, why did he ask me to help him. )): He was stressed, and so was I, cos I was so scared I'd screw up his work. ):

(guess how much the tattooo costs!)

**

I barely caught any sleep, then I had to wake up for DENTAL (I missed Dr. Choo!)
CNY colours (so lame) this time, PLUS RUBBER BANDS.

I'm back on rubber bands. ): I'm back on rubber bands. ): I'm back on rubber bands. ): I'm back on rubber bands. ): I'm back on rubber bands. ): I'm back on rubber bands. ): I'm back on rubber bands. ): I'm back on rubber bands. ): I'm back on rubber bands. ): I'm back on rubber bands. ): I'm back on rubber bands. ): I'm back on rubber bands. ): I'm back on rubber bands. ):

))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):
OWW OWW OWW OWW OWW OWW.

BUT ANYWAY, before dental, I had to bomb his home phone, and handphone (which was turned off) til he finally woke up. Grr.

He ate donuts,We visited (dearly missed) Ann at work,We changed our (old school) Nets to act cool poseur credit cards, We passed by KAY POH ROAD on the way to Town,
We ran in the rain from Lucky Plaza to Taka back to Paragon for DingTaiFung with the rest (where I had great difficulty eating)

Then we walked everywhere (like, really!) looking for a place to sit down and chill. Settled for Swensen's (there were more of us then) where we waited for a record time of 40 mins (or was it longer?) and we had ice cream. And as STUPID as it sounds, I am convinced cold stuff contract my braces, or rubber bands at least, or maybe my tooth such that it hurts MORE ):

Mr Army boy,

And a BEFORE/AFTER photo, as promised.

**

Today:

Classic moment for the day:
Estee: JACKNIVES! (In the most determined tone you can ever hear from someone lazy)
*Attempts doing one but goes, WAHHHH!!!! (In the most _______ tone)

I can't even find a word for the tone/expression. Not funny to you, but it was like LOL funny to us please. (Haha, Bella, LOL.)

We were itching so badly to play, we played 3 on 2 among ourselves, and dragged Ms. Soh in too. Coach is convinced "I am spoilt" because I am reluctant to come back for training if I were to alone. (grrr)

TANGYUANNN for lunch, where I had to bite it with my lips cos my teeth were obviously too weak, and I had the peanut ooozing out, which "really looks like shit!" (And on the way there, we were laughing about E and her "cry like pangsai" vs A's "cry pang sai") And S, A and I unknowingly sat there, talking for 2hours odd.

Brought A. for Fried Mars Bars and Cheese Sausage after that. We bumped into her dad(: Just as we were talking about him. Yanns met us, A left for home, and we just bumped around, shopping and (OMG ROONEY JUST SCORED A DAMN NICE GOAL!) slacking, catching up.

Dinner was Porridge, like duh.
And then I received the SWEEETEST msg I've ever received in ages, from D. Omg, if I was feeling emo, I would have cried reading it. (I bet you want me to cry right!) But too bad, I didn't. Thank you dear, it was really, really sweet. (:

I realise I didn't take any photos today at all ): Maybe cos my phone was dying.
This entry is so anyhow, I'm posting just for the sake of the photos, I know I'll end up editting this post somehow, someday.

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I don't know if it's the braces, the fatigue, or simply me,
But I've been a little unfriendly, a little rebellious, a little sick, and a little frustrated lately.
My dad's been trying to take away what my mom granted me since I was 13, and of course I don't like the change. But I refuse to surrender it to him, and I do not intend to do anything. Sorry, I'm stubborn, but any attempts will just be futile, leading to more hostility, Dad.

Today, A. mentioned that she thought the older a believer you are, the easier it is to lose faith. Though I thought otherwise, it has hit me that,
it is somehow easier for new friends to become good friends, as compared to old friends becoming good friends again. Maybe it's the unhappy past either cannot forgive, maybe it's the lack of faith and fear of falling short of each other's disappoinment. Afterall, we are only human; once bitten, twice shy.

Cliche as it may sound, it takes two to clap.
But maybe clapping is too noisy, so we opt for silent movies instead.

(I posted this entry at 0327? omg. I neeed my sleep)

Strange faces become familiar.

My favourite flavours.
Yumyum(:

Dear Sweets,

I wish we could talk.
I don't know if you'll see this anyway.
And I don't know if I should hope whether you do or not.
It honestly kills everytime we disregard each other's presence, and conversations are so hostile and forced.
I don't know how to start.

Shake it Off.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESSTEEEE! (:

So Pong, Yanns & I called this girl at 0015 (yeah we were late) and we were so lost in the conversation 4 of us were having, plus the conversation going on in the background. But hope you had fun anyway, dear. And hope you're still basking in the surprise on Friday! Happy, Blessed 19th dearest Pri School Friend! (:

--


Phil says: "I finally cut my hair! (: (:"

Today, I travelled all the way down to Marina Sq, which took about half an hr, just for about 8 minutes????
OMGGGSSSS man. Then I travelled back down to AMK, which on the way, the bus decided to stall at a bus stop because the ez link machine was out of service.

Sooo, my "see you in half an hour" took an additional half an hour.
And not forgetting, my bus didn't stop at the intended bus stop so I had to walk from some other unknown bus stop. HAH.

Finally after weeks of "I WANT TO TRIM/THIN MY HAIR", I got it done. (I went down ystday, but it was closed): )
And yeah, as usual, I CUT my hair, instead of trimming/thin ing it like I said I would. Haha. But I like it. (Can't really see from the photo)

Then, we walked to J8! Whee. Exercise. But we gained it all back with yummy (oily) Pontian Wanton Noodles + Bubble Tea! =\
The Auntie was really nice though. Cos we were sitting down and talking, and she offered us CNY Goodies samples(:

Oh, I bought nail polish at Face Shop and the girl said, thank you to me in Korean. Hmm?
D said I should have said Naandri. (?) [Thank You in Tamil]

Ding, I actually kinda like your hair now! (: Don't touch it (If you have any intention)

Today, I decided to become a TV Junkie, so I sat infront of it from 7-1030pm.
And in that short (?) span of 3half hours, I spotted two familiar faces on TV. One on an Ad (which I really wanna watch again to make sure it's her! Haha)
And another interviewed on Girls Out Loud. Or is it Girls Aloud? Okay, I'm not really good with names. Haha.

--

I think I'm gonna gett Lung Cancer soon or something.
Been breathing in too much second hand smoke.
OMGSS.
But okay, I shouldn't complain.

Ps: The dearly missed EYEVOMIT is coming back home this Thursday! I can't wait! =D
Pps: Our chem teacher gave birth yesterday!

You Give Me Something

WELCOME HOME, MY BRAVE SOLITUDE-EMBRACING CRABBY.

Today, I learnt that Plain milk actually has MORE fats than Chocolate milk! =D
(relative to the Meiji brand)
And YAY, you don't know how happy I am, cos I only drink Chocolate Strawberry Banana or Honeydew milk.
Banana and Honeydew milk only from Dutch Lady.
Everything else only from Meiji please.
I AM SO PICKY.

"We are gong jiao scouts!"

ken says: you walk here damn good game
your actions write the melodies. says: i walk? mai siao
your actions write the melodies. says: ask ken cow to drive!
ken says: or i come and fetch you la?
your actions write the melodies. says: hosei
ken says: personal taxi driver
your actions write the melodies. says: hosei
ken says: hosei
ken says: hosei la.. get caught i also cut botak
ken says: but not go tekong go jail
ken says: then i'll look like what my ic photo looks like
ken says: jailbird

FYI: ken = kencow & liuly


Ps: I am convinced staying home = non stop eating.
Pps: Today, my cheesecake became chewy cheese cookies ):
Pps: CRABBY'S COMING BACK! =D

A Rush Of Blood, To The Foot.

If insulting others made you feel better about yourself,
continue living in denial, but you will never fool others.
For who you are is fact, but what you believe,
is just a biased opinion.

Continue hoaxing yourself into believing- you are the greatest miracle,
while others were just a passing tragedy,
maybe because you need to feel better about your lousy self?

Oh, oops. Am I bringing you down to make myself look good?
Well, maybe.

But at least I know what happened was real, just that happy simply turned ugly.
Which beats any assumption of unhappiness and misery,
anytime.

Gosh, I wish you'd have churned your insides out,
cos firstly, it would have made poor you feel a whole lot better,
and secondly, I'd finally have an excuse to mock you in your face.

The Carpal Tunnel Of Love.

We take sour sips
From life's lush lips
And we shake shake shake the hips
In relationships
Stop by this disaster town
You'll put your eyes to the sun and say "I know"
You're only blinding to keep back what the clouds are hiding
And we might have started singing just a little soon
We're throwing the stones in a glass room

Whoa ah oh we're so miserable and stunning
Whoa ah oh lovesongs so genuinely cunning

We keep the beat,
With your blistered feet
We bullet the words at the mockingbirds, singing
Slept through the weekend
And dream
We're sinking with the melody of the kiss of eternity
Got postcards from my former self, saying "how you been"?
We might have said goodbyes just a little soon
(somehow this disaster town)
Our beliefs of kissing beats over this room

Whoa ah oh we're so miserable and stunning
Whoa ah oh lovesongs so genuinely cunning

It was ice cream headaches and sweet avalanche
When the pearls in our shells came out to dance
You call me a bad tipper of the cradle
But I’m tired yawns for fawns on hunter’s lawns
We’re the has-beens of husbands
Sharpening the knives of young wives
Take two years and call me when you're better
Take teardrops of mine, find yourself wetter

Whoa ah oh we're so miserable and stunning
Whoa ah oh lovesongs so genuinely cunning

-FALL OUT BOY.

Difference of Forever.

-

"My mommy always told me, drink more milk and you'll grow taller.
But I realised- drink more milk and grow fatter."
-Estee

Another random, mindless, worthless entry posted just for the fun of it.

I need 22nd January to come,
so I can watch new episodes of PrisonBreak s2 and Heroes.
But put the rest of January on hold,
cos I don't want to miss more people as they trade their freedom for pride&love for the country,
and I don't want to take my FTT on 31st.


Suddenly posting entries on blogger feels weird,
and different.
HMM?


And,
And,
And,
I hate how my blog looks.
But I'm too lazy to get anything done.

The Goodnight Moon-

No, no, I am not ):

-

*

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net


Oh no, blogger cuts my comic strip. So click on it to see the full thing.

"I don't wanna talk, okay?"

I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep,
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away

And I just realised that there is nothing much for me to read about my past years in PL, or JC. Cos diaryx crashed beginning this year! Ugh. My past 5 years was all stored inside. So now, I only have one year's worth of mindless rantings to serve as a reminder to my poor memory.

Damn alot of things to do now,

and tomorrow's gonna be a damn looong and tiring day- I can foresee.

And I'm not exactly in the best of moods.

Like I said, please pardon my hostility.

The harder you try, the more it backfires.

I'm glad I made the right choice.

On a Diet of HOPE, really.

If waking up at 8:21am when your driving lesson is at 8:30am at Ubi to a morning where your mom says, "I don't have enough" for you to pay for practical fees and blames you for not asking your dad and leaving home to a stretch of congested roads with no empty cabs that prolongs a 10min bus journey to a 25 minutes one and reaching your destination half an hour late and not being able to find your vehicle and your next assigned vehicle coming another 10 minutes into your lesson time and each minute you're wasting costs you 60cents (even more ex than cab) and getting an unsociable instructor compared to the first and spotting your vehicle in the circuit with its hazard lights on (first lesson-ers) and seeing that familiar face next to the student and noticing the student who poached your CAR AND INSTRUCTOR is a XXX wearing PINK and boring practical lessons where you go roundroundround in a silent vehicle and mounting the curb once and ending 10 minutes before the time you should really end (aka cheating your money! haha sorry, i'm giam siap!) and your bank account is shrinking to double digits soon and your $$$ is hitting a one way street (ie. EXIT) and getting stranded, then drenched in the rain on the way home...

is not suay enough for you,

then tell me what is.

So I can prepare myself for the worst.


-


I know, I know.
This is just one of those random days that I can't stop whining about everything and making small misfortunes sound like major tragedies.
But it's also one of those days, I'm hitting rock bottom and realising there's another deeper bottom below.

The (hermit) crab in me is retreating to its shell.

Please pardon my hostility.

)))))):

I am damn bloody shit ass freaking kns sad.
I don't believe there is anyone more suay, or even as suay as me.
Wtf. ):

Deep Blue Something

So I've realised that things have been happening really fast lately.
So fast that I've barely the time to catch my breathe/catch up on my sleep.
I haven't even written my obligatory New Year post! ):
And you know what, I'm not even working yet.
So I really don't know what's all the things that I'm busy with.

-

So from 5-7th, I was isolated with the rest of the class away at one end of Singapore, by the sea (not really), cast away on the second last room on the second storey of Block C. 1335.

Bbq Fire Starters.

We barbecued, ate, and talked all the way past midnight the first night. Catching up on lives, holidays, and even our after-life. That really gave me goosebumps anyway. It was scary la.

Typical activities to survive the night: Talkcocksingsongplaymahjong, cards, we watched Scary Movie 1 and One quarter of Casino Royale on Tc's Apple Notebook (!!!)You can't really see from the picture but there were 6 (of is it 7?) of us on the bed and it was soo squeezy. So some of us left the (freezing) room for McDonalds at 7am where I bumped into Sweets and fell asleep for one hr after drinking HOTMILO. =D

We went back to wake everyone up for breakfast. But in the process, those who went to Mc, fell asleep. But only for 2 hours? Downtown East gives 4 complimentary passes to either Escape or Wildwild Wet each unit. But there were more who wanted to go, so we sent our two most handsome guys (coughcough) to try their luck in getting more tickets. And they came back with 25.

So all of us managed to enter both Wild Wild Wet and Escape for freeeeee where we sat every ride and had the times of our lives under the hot sun leaving us red and burnt:The girls weren't in proper swimwear so we couldn't sit 2 slides cos no tshirts were allowed. And while the guys sat that, we spent our time at the Children's playground sitting every Child slide. Haha. Most of us sat the Samsung U shaped ride twice and OHMYGAWD, the first drop is really freaky shit. Everything else was all right. Sitting a ride with Gary = damn exciting. Cos our float moves exceptionally faster and the thrill factor triples. Whoo!

We went to Escape dripping wet from Wildwild Wet but we didn't really care. I wanted to try the Inverter at Escape but it was closed. We sat everything else. Oh except the flume ride. But that's definitely nothing compared to the Samsung slide. The Haunted House was P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C. To think when we were going in, I was grabbing on to Becca and Gary. But gosh, I think our own guys scared us more than the Haunted House.

& Becca and I sat the Family Roller Coaster 6 times! Hah! And we concluded that Carriage 6 is the most shiok! =D

Dinner sucked cos Subway ran out of bread and we split up. We were too tired to go Night Cycling, so we wasted the night away. Until we concluded there was nothing/no where to go and some of us went downstairs to play "I never". But with water. ThankGod it was water though. Cos if it was Booze, I won't be sitting there anymore. Would probably be standing by the drain since I drank almost everytime someone said, "I never ......" ):

We were dozing off, so slept at 4 and got disturbed at 930 by the management's morning call. Hah. And I had Subway in BK for breakfast (!!) So filling but yummy.

Yup, so do I.

Yesterday, F gave me a morning call but I still fell back asleep til 1235 when I was supposed to meet her at 1230. Here's my travel details for the day:

Home --> Dhoby --> Spore Shopping Centre --> Peace Centre --> Cathay --> Dhoby --> Orchard --> Forum --> Chinatown (Manhattan House) --> Chinatown Point --> People's park Complex --> Orchard --> Far East --> Dhoby --> Peace Centre --> xxx Play ground --> Little India --> Home.

I passed the same stretch of road (The Penang Road - Orchard MRT) at least 3 times yesterday. And I spent a grand total of $6+ solely on transport yesterday.
And I didn't forget to tap my card!

Brought F to make dirt cheap specs where I bumped into GuiHao and was damn tempted to make a new one- Brown and Blue. Damn nice, damn cheap. But damn scared Mom kills me too. ):
Then we walked around and around and started accesory-making shopping. She bought herself a giraffe iron on. So cute =D

I secretly love Chinatown, anyway.
Last time for the food, now for even more reasons.

While on the phone with Y and waiting for Pong after I left F, suddenly among the bustling crowd, I spotted some awfully familiar retard walking up to me with his jaws dropped who squeezed me so tight I couldn't breathe. I was pleasantly shocked but I couldn't scream til I hung up.

Dinnered at the Turkish Restaurant where Sweets & I ate til we could pop then the girls left to shop at XXX (secret!) but I didn't find anything I liked.

They left for chalet, I left for home -insert a million sulks-
Then the retard called and I found myself under the stars feeding mosquitoes. Hah.

Allright, I'm gonna go for driving! =D
It's raining ):

And fuck, I miss school.
At least back then, you have a purpose.


Buy it, use it, break it, fix it,Trash it, change it, melt - upgrade it, Charge it, pawn it, zoom it, press it, Snap it, work it, quick - erase it, Write it, cut it, paste it, save it, Load it, check it, quick - rewrite it, Plug it, play it, burn it, rip it. Technologic.

The hidden playground under the stars.

I made myself my first necklace today,
and made another for my sister at the same time.




And contrary to the new addition,
I broke my scissor butterfly. ):

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I ended my night sitting by a playground,
under the stars,
feeding mosquitoes,
and catching up
with B.

I had fun.

But half my heart was in Aloha Loyang.
Made a wrong decision this time.
I should have been there tonight.
):

But thank you for it anyhow.


She said, "I want to remember you", and sinks a pen knife into her skin.
It spells your name.

HAPPY TWENTIETH, ANGEL.

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY, MINGS.

;

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Lack of sleep + Hungry + Waiting = A very angry irritated impatient Phil.
And more lack of sleep = very easily irritated Phil.


But Hi, I am still awake though I've only had less than 6 hours for the pass 3 days.
So please excuse me.

Mirrors and Fevers.

Hello! I'm back(:
Didn't expect myself to still have energy to come online but I'm here anyhow. Can't really sleep.
Goodbye again tomorrow. Haha.

But anyway, I'm feeling really lazy so I just thought I'd paste this :

thanks u says:
haha cannot help lah i now puberty mah
thanks u says:
lol
on a diet of hope. (czhekaie) says:
funny horrrrr.
thanks u says:
puberty very funny meh
on a diet of hope. (czhekaie) says:
puberty not funny
on a diet of hope. (czhekaie) says:
puberty so late very funny
thanks u says:
...
on a diet of hope. (czhekaie) says:
haha funny what
thanks u says:
ok lah if really now then puberty not funny lor damm sad lor

Another short getaway.

a joyous homecoming.

Be back on the 10th.

I've only had 2 nights with my bed and now I'm bidding it goodbye again.

I hope I'll have the timeS of my life, since it's the last time anyway.

"Eh, your face is really rounder."

))))))))))))))))))=

Another very long (in both ways) overdued post ;

(23rd dec-30th dec)
Sooooooooooo,

We headed straight down to Mama's cos that's where almost everyone is. When I walked in, Aunt M. literally walked past me, and talked to my cousin behind me, "Where's Philicia?". Then I smiled at my Cousin-In-Law-to-be who smiled back rather faintly, and waved to my Godma who took 5 or 6 seconds to wave back.
By then Aunt M. caught up and said Hi to me. And all unanimously said, "You look so different, I can't recognise you!" (Okay, I got that alot during my trip)

Personally, I don't think I look very much different apart from the braces and terrible complexion compared to the CNY of 05, where we last met.
Aunt M. asked S how he could recognise me and he went, "Of course la! She's my cousin you know?" But we've been webcaming and sharing photos la. Haha.

Some cousins changed along the way, like how Shan has become alot fatter and contrary to his expansion, Fat Dennis was anorexic (?) and is now super skinny, Kennieth has cut his hair short and isn't as good looking cos he outbreak-ed but his girlfriend is still constant, unlike Shawn's. Syl got himself braces (yay braces buddy!), Jesper's speech has improved alot, Jesamin jie has given birth again to a Baby Boy (but I didn't see the baby boy), Sherilyn is so pretty and lovely and she can talk now, Sarah bullies Sherilyn and I don't like it.


I remember entering the kitchen to say hi to Aunt Ruby, and she just said Hi in an extremely bo chup manner til Shawn had to ask, "You cannot recognise her ah?"
And she went, "Omg! I thought you were Shawn's new girlfriend!"
Okay, I don't know if being his girlfriend is a compliment or an insult. HAHA.

Though I already ate at the airplane, I love the food at Mama's so I ate again(:
Then we had the mini gathering at Coffee Bean (minus Shan & Ves) and something tragic happened.
Back home, Shan was chased upstairs to sleep, so the remaining 3 of us immediately sprung into a "Com`on, time for updates!" catch up session, which went on for hours until fatasS started falling asleep so Ves & I started experimenting with his finger (cos his laptop is fingerprint protected and guess what, it's orange!)
We stayed up til 3+, 4 where we also witnessed S sleepwalk to the toilet.

Us: "Go back to your room to sleep!"
Him: "Huh? What?" *walks back to the bed and sleeps

And we had one good hard laugh. And the next morning and the next next morning and every other day.

On Christmas eve, I took Shan and Syl out to the nearest shopping plaza (ironic how I'm the visitor but I brought them out cos I had greater authority!) so Syl could shop for his gf's Christmas gift(: Thankfully for Sri, she sent us there cos Shawn went missing so we didn't have to walk there.

Anyway, Sri is the maid, but she's like family. She has worked for 7 or is it 9 years and I've not seen a whole family place so much trust in a maid before. But like Aunt M. says, "She's like family." We all really like her anyway. And she is really given alot of authority in the house.

After shopping, we went for Coffee Bean Session #2 (The starbucks there SUCKS. I don't know why) where Ves & I invented our PHILVESTER drink which consists of Mocha+White Chocolate Dream+ LOTS & LOTS of chocolate, vanilla, cinnamon powder. YUM =D It was extremely chocolateyyy.
And we walked home from Gurney! Along the way, we crossed crazy trafficked roads, met friends (no, not mine), scrutinised the different type of Bengsxz, jumped along the sidewalks as we avoided Cow Dung, screamed at crazy motorists, had our fair share of laughter, and stupid threesome things.

Aunt M. called and said she needed help at the restaurant that night so Ves & I went down. It was all right, though stepping into the kitchen for less than a minute = you stink of all sorts of food.

We headed back to shower then left for Red Box (their version of K box) where we screamed at the top of our lungs to silly/funky/crazy/emo/rock songs. Ves & I joined the crazy squeezing foam spraying crowd at the ground level between 2345-2353 and 0010-0020.
But the real countdown took place in the BIGBOX we were placed in, where we drowned ourselves with Chivas+coke and MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNT VIAN!!! (aka Godma :D) and I LOVE YOU!!! hugs, kisses and party poppers. We had sinful chocolatey chocolate fudge green tea cake from Secret Receipe, Muruku, and Fruit platters and I couldn't stop eating. Pa kept going, "Come Cia, cheers! And finish everything okay?" for at least 4 continuous times and before I knew it, I was drinking water like a thirsty deer to dilute the alcohol rushing through my blood.

Little Jesper and Shan were breakdancing/dancing/acting as hosts throughout the night and with Syl and I laughing and screaming to songs like, next thing i knew she was all over me screaming YEAH! and We're going down down in an earlier round, sugar we're going down swinging! and (yeah you get the idea) gasping for breath and screaming cos it was soo noisy and we thought our mikes were spoilt but I think someone switched it off.

The drinking didn't stop and people got wasted. (Actually only one dude) and then I fell asleep and Ves woke me up with, "Jie, I'm having a headache!"

The semi drunk Uncle sent us home and we walked into the house, frightened by Aunt M's "Why are you all so late?"
But we fell asleep after a bit of talking and Ves woke up with a Hangover! Haha.

Christmas called for a visit to Queensbay Mall! (It's reaaallly similar to our vivocity which is freezing cold and is only about 2/3 levels high but HUGE as has almost everything)

-okay, hi omg. the freakiest thing just happened. my keyboard went haywire and i thougt my laptop has died but anyhow, I'm back!-

We lunched at TGIFRIDAYS where the food took longer to come than the time we took to eat it. Then the Aunt, the MaidS, and the two baby girls split with me and the two boys. Shan threw a tantrum halfway so Ves and I walked on our own with him trailing behind. But there were occasions we secretly sneaked out the shop without him noticing and waiting for him to find us in some other shop. Okay, come to think of it, it was quite mean.

When we left for home, Sarah cried and went, "I don't wanna go home" continuously for 14minutes.

Then Ming-Y --> the new friend I made this trip! came over.
And while waiting for Ma to come pick me up, I webcammed with Kiddo with Sherilyn beside me. That lovely baby was imitating Candice's every move!
Dined at E&O Hotel (apparently the most expensive one in town) where we had BUFFET! And I ate til I wanted to throw up but the food was like #$#^^&^%@ goood.
And there was this balloon sculpturer there, who was reeaallly skilled. Everyone was admiring his skills and his artwork. So in the end, we got him to do a Load Runner (!!! So cool) for Sarah and a snail for Sherilyn. (The photos are with my Uncle and I've no idea how to get them ): )

We left for Momo after dinner, which was just across the road.
We had some exclusive treatment cos Aunt Julie's ex-worker is some big shot there now, but the music sucked. ): We were whining and whining about it and the DJ said he'd slowly change it. And he took an hr + to switch House Music to R&B, and he played R&B for like half an hour , then switched back to Trance. Omg, I wanted to die. I was so bored, I self volunteered to be a photographer with Ying for company. But Irene came later so I got even more bored. Besides, I was being a "bitch" in Shawn's words, who refused to talk to him. --> another long story but it's complicating so I'll give it a miss.

I was toooooo full/bloated from dinner that I didn't drink much either, as compared to the night before. We sang Happy Birthday to Ma again, but I didn't eat the cake this time.
We left around 3+ again, then Supper but I was too full for anything. And I remember being so tired I was falling asleep while everyone was eating.

Oh! Shawn has this friend called Maxx. Maxx has this car which is a land rover. But Maxx converted it to a two seater and had the entire backseats converted into speakers and those stereo stuff that it booms/pounds/vibrates like mad. And sitting in there can really give you a headache the first time, but you'd get used to it anyway. It's cool, but a little too bengsxz.

Anyhow, we detoured to Gurney drive by the sea and sat down, enjoyed the sea breeze, shared our heartfelt emotions and had close to heart conversations about the past year til I was falling asleep with the soothing wind blowing in my face!

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On Tues, I caught a midnight movie- Casino Royale, which before, we went arcading and ate at some Taiwan Food Restaurant that has set meals that fill you up til you can burp pearls from your bubble tea. I think I spent the afternoon spying on the things in Shawn's laptop with Ves. We got caught but he didn't get mad. (thanfully)

I went down to the restaurant to help again on Wed morning before shopping at Prangin where all the guys + Ming-Y joined us. And the boys were our slaves and the girls shopped.

We had yummy oh-so-spicy but super shiok tomyam for dinner. We wanted to go Baskin Robbins for Supper but it was already 12+ so it was closed and we settled for McDonald's for icecream/sundae. And it was the first time I saw 20 nuggets wiped out so quickly.

Thursday called for an early breakfast where we walked for Curry Mee (omg so yummy!) and only Ves and I went to shop while the other two aSses had to accompany Jesper.

And Ves had a noise bleed. And I had the yummiest mushroom sausages and fried jackfruits (cempedak?)!

We got tickets to Night at The Museum midnight movie where almost the whole family went! The queue for food/drinks before the movie was insanely long and we forgot orders along the way. Ves & I shared Popcorn but it was totally wiped out even before we were halfway through the show. It was hilarious, but the storyline was a tad bit too simple.

I watched two movies there, and twice, there's always this Script-writer of the movie sitting behind me, narrating to whoever he's with what's gonna happen next. So frustrating!

Then we talked a little before sleeping (This happens every night, actually)

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In the end, we didn't go Botanical Gardens cos neither of us can wake up despite the couple's countless attempts to wake the 3 logs. We pissed the shit of out S cos Ming-Y came all the way from her place (not very near) and he came back from Maxx's specially at 5am.

Did some last min shopping but I barely got anything, then had dinner at Mama's one last time, and hit the airport with my three asSes, speed raced for one last time til we overshot Ming-Y's.

And then we were caught at some random traffic light, and suddenly, fireworks exploded right in front of us! It was really sudden, shocking, but pretty, surprising, and was a pleasant goodbye.

My flight was at 21:10, but I checked in only at 20:20. And I was so scared they won't let me check in! Cos by right, you must do so within an hour.

Boarding gates close 10 mins before departure time, so I waited til it was 850 before I went in. And M says, "Penang airport is so small. Even if it's the last gate, it's still near."

HAHAHA. We bought overpriced M&Ms and other junk accumulating to almost 40RM and the boys finished it within 3 minutes.

Slacked around, took photos, gave everyone one last fat hug and left. ):

**

The plane back was surprisingly empty, so I got to switch to a window seat when plane doors closed.

I watched another silent movie of Monster House til I returned.

Didn't manage to retrieve every message sent to me while I was away, but thanks for the Christmas wishes, and random messages, even if I didn't get it in the end.

But it was really coincidental how while waiting for my luggage, Brother B. called! =D

Oh yeah, Aunt J. took my favouritest-est-est glitter shorts ):
Now Ago won't complain that he doesn't like it everytime I wear it, cos I won't get to anymore. ): It's really my favourite pair!! ):

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I think my trip was somewhat enriching, cos I grew much more independent and embraceds solitude even more, and am proud to say I flew alone. But I'm definitely not as brave to eat alone yet. Maybe that can be a NY resolution, though I don't quite believe in them. Resolutions are just something we say to make ourselves feel better, or say for the sake of saying cos it's a new beginning? How many of us do keep to it anyway?

But anyhow, I'm glad I managed to meet up with everyone before I left, even if it was for one short minute. Don't know when I'll be back again, and when I'll get to see Shawn again, especially when he's fooling around in UK. Tsk!

And now I can finally add on to the list of things I did as an 18 year old: FLYING ALONE(:


(Finally! This long post is done!)

Postscript: And I forgot about Czhekaie! It's a word, that come out of S's mouth in fit of anger. And we decided that it can replace words like, damn, f***, sh*t, jackass, stupid...
It's just an expression! Heh heh.

!!!!

Today,
a 65cent bus ride became a 1.58$ empty road trip.
Just because I forgot to tap my card! ):

And oops, I accidentally published a draft entry! =\

Mah Homie

Hello, tonight, I will finally get to sleep back on my bed! Though I've been back for quite some time, My Sis' friend from France came to Singapore and stayed here so I was deprived of my bed. Hopefully, going back to my bed will chase those haunting dreams away, and grant me sweet sleep.

A very long (in both ways) overdued post :

On the Saturday of my departure (231206),


I woke up at early 9 in the morning, to screams of my mom that I've yet to pack. So I lazily dug out some fbts and shirts and shorts and jeans and threw them into my luggage, then left for breakfast at Yakun's with CRABBY. [photo #1]

Then L retardly forgot he was supposed to meet me, and it rained, and since Nick stays near, I went down to pass him the stack of Christmas cards. And that's the sleepy, I-just-woke-up Nick for you. [photo #2]

And then I walked home from Nick's and continued packing, and waited for Mr. J to finally call me after manymany hours. I think it was already 3 plus and I had to leave home at 4.

So I left home again to meet Julie with my mom screaming again that I have to leave soon and I told her to give me half an hour. Passed J his card, shirt from Nick and BTT book (you better pass!) [photo #3]


Then I had to rush down to F's to pass her her Christmas card before I left. The weather was seriously playing a joke on me, cos it kept raining, stopping, drizzling, pouring, stopping and yeah. While waiting for the bus, a familiar Golden Hair Monkey stepped out of a car infront of me! I still remember, he was going Candycane shopping. [photo #4]

So I met F and passed her her oh-so-special card, gave her one last hug and felt like I'd never see her again (And I haven't seen her in ages anyway) and rushed home. [photo #5]

If I didn't remember wrongly, I ran all the way back from the bus stop.
And these are the lucky 5 people I met on the day of my departure! Wheee!

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Mom & Sis sent me off to the airport, and I had DURIANPUFFS from Polar before Checking In. I was idling cos I didn't want to be alone but when I finally went in, the TV was flashing GATES CLOSING in red in front of me and I was like, OMG SHIT. And all 3 of us thought my gate was the nearest, but hell no, it was the furthest! ): I still made it in time though, sent my goodbye, I-love-you messages to my loves and boarded my BOEING 777-200.

Haha, and I felt really stupid for a few times cos I reacted really silly-ish and bimboticly.
The funniest I remember is when the officer handed me my Immigration card, asking if I had it:

"Do I need it?"
Then he took it back.

And I stretched my hand to take it.

"Do you have it?"

"Uh, I don't think soo?"

And he hands me the card.

Okay maybe it isn't really very funny but I felt really stupid.


I didn't check in early enough for a window seat, so I got a corridor seat, but I sat next to a really friendly grown woman who was also flying alone.

Since the flight was just a short one, SIA didn't provide earphones so I watched about an hour of silent movie - Little Ms Sunshine. But there were (olden) Chinese Subtitles which I tried verryy hard reading.

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I waited extremely long for my baggage (only one bag lor) and exited to my cousin's spastic face. Instead of a warm greeting like, *hug* "HELLO! I MISSED YOU!", my cousin went "Who told you I was coming back Sunday morning????" --> Okay, another long story. I mixed up my cousin's arrival back from KL so I told my Mom who told my AuntS that he was coming back on Sunday morning though he was supposed to pick me up and they had to get another Uncle to pick me up. And apparently, both AuntS called to scream at him for being irresponsible and blah blah but he was already on his way back from KL. So yeah, comm breakdown; my bad!


Yay, it felt reaaalllyyy good to be back there. Haha.
I love the rush of sitting in the car as S accelerates til 140 and whoozes pass every car. Winding in and out the roads, between the cars, jambreaking and my screaming and him laughing at me and having people race us but us beating them anyhow.

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I've come up with my own philosogy (because it isn't a philosophy) on why people like Holidays.
Don't you think Holidays are just those temporary escape from reality, where you abandon all your burdens and leave for a different land, where you feel different about yourself and the people around you. It's like, a different world with different worries/troubles, or maybe even none at all. If given a choice, we'd want to be at our Holiday location always, because compared to where we are now, it is definitely less tiring, stressful, worrying, and more genuinely happy.

Especially for me, I love Penang so much because I live an entirely different world there. It doesn't bother me that I am travelling to a place that is just an hour away from Singapore and no time difference exists, and things there are roughly the same (except Penang has better food and is less developed) but somehow, I feel a part of me belongs there.

I have another Phil in Penang. Not that I'm saying I'm a different person there, but I have another life of my own there- my own social circle, my own activities, my own hangout, my personal favourites.
Besides my terrible dialect that I can't speak in b(ut am not short of comprehending), there isn't really much of a language barrier since Penang, in my opinion, is more Chinese populated.

I love every bit of Penang- from the Food, to the things to do, to the places, and most importantly, the People. Yes, it's the company that matters in everything you do and it's the company that makes the most boring thing of staying in a room without tv the most fun thing in the world. Or even the least enjoyable job of smelling like all sorts of Nonya food the most enriching times of your lives.

I will post another long retarded entry about Penang another time. There's so much cock to talk I'm too lazy to continue so I'm saving it as a draft.