sunny singapore!

Hello Singapore,

I'm back to Sunny Island. (Well, maybe not anymore considering it has been raining so much)

I am missing the food back there already. Of course, the people too.

But I guess I miss you guys here more ):

So yeah.

Oh well, still can't believe it's the last day of 2006 already.

I'm so not ready for 2007!

It doesn't even feel like the year is ending.

Medium S, Small S, Medium P.

#1: Day 1 (I think I should say Night 1) with Syl in the roooom!
#2: Sexy Shawn.

#3: Ma's second birthday cake on Christmas day.

#4/5: Momo.

#6: Taiwan foood! (But you don't see the food)

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So anyhoo, we didn't go PESTA in the end. It was too crowded and parking was troublesome, so we left for some Baskin' Robbins lovin' and 4 of us ate 87RM worth of ice cream(:

Then we had Lor Mee for dinner at 10. I think that's supper already though.

And we're going botanical gardens at 530 later. Omg, madness. Haha.

3 people in the room.

3 laptops/computers turned on.

3 on MSN.

3 simple rules: No talking, All to communicate via Msn, and I don't know what's the third.

But so funny. Hahahahaha.

Okay, sorry sorry if any of you say, "I MESSAGED YOU LEH!!"

and I didn't reply.

Tomorrow, I will immediately switch on my phone when I touchdown and receive all the love I missed out on okay? (: YAY!

Coming back at 2235 tomorrow! Or should I say today?

bittersweet.

Dear diary,
Today is already Friday!
I am leaving this awkwardly familiar town tomorrow.

Just like how this bitter sweet emotion was running through me before I left,
the same bitter sweet feeling tingles at the thought of having to leave these sheltering walls (omg like pl sch song)
When I left, the thought of travelling alone didn't sound fun at all.
And now that I'm going home, there's so many things to do, and so much that I've missed out on there, I need so much more time to catch up with each and every one, especially those I've failed to meet even before I left.

And more importantly, I need to find myself a bloody job.
Which I think, I shall start finding with my sister! Since Y already got herself a job at GAP.

Anyhow, I just realised that every trip back, I make a new friend.
And right now, I'm using the new friend's laptop. (:
She's an absolute sweetie and we're from the same school! But different nation, yeah.

So in short, my past few days have been nothing short of tiring.
Cos of the late nights and early mornings.
Also, my aunts have decided to set themselves on a mission to get me fat,
and I think they're succeeding.
Because we eat more than 5 meals a day. From breakfast, to lunch, to the in between meals, to dinner and supper and extra meals here and there.

Penang is like such a food haven! (heaven?) and I'm lovin' the food here.
Haha, but yeah I get so lost in the food, I even forget my own name. (No la, I'm kidding)

I haven't been shopping much, especially for my friends.
Cos my aunts aren't free to take me out. ):
I've been working at the restaurant (FREEE LABOURRR) to kill time since they're all busy and Big S was being a bastard the first few days but now things are better. (:

My favourite joke is:
M: "Goodnight Cherry Tart."
S: "I'd rather be a retard."
M: "Goodnight then, strawberRY-TARD"

It's so intelligent! (:

Anyway, we bowled and arcaded our afternoon away today, and ate fruit ice under the trees with some monkeys and bees.
Right now, all 4 of us are in the same room, with 4 different techy savvy products. 2 laptops, 1 desktop and Shan's oh-so-cool PSP. Hahaha.
BOYS. (rolls eyes)

We're going Pesta later! It's some kinda funfair thing. I think. HAHAHA.


Postscript: Guess what! I only watched Casino Royale on Tuesday. Omg, so slow. But I never had the intention to watch it anyway.
Postpostscript: Night at the museum last night! It was funny but disappointing. (:

.

I had the worse bad dream ever in my 18 years of life.
Besides the fact that I saw a couple holding hands,
I dreamt that my Mom called to tell me my dad committed suicide.
And on my way back from Penang, the guard said I'm to be hung and I'm not allowed to go back to Singapore.

Okay, it may not be scary to you, but it was shit frightening to me.

bloody hell

screw 3g.
so much for HIGHER TECHNOLOGY.
bloody hell.
it can't even receive messages in malaysia.
i should have brought my old number! ):

my phone now reads: emergency calls only.

#$*&()**%#!@$%^%&^

I have a malaysian line though.
but it's running low on its bloody credit and i don't even know it's number.

btw, Big S. You're a bloody disappointment.

**

On a more serious note, my arrival called for a mini family gathering at Coffee Bean. Besides a fugly green fly flying into my White Chocolate Dream, we witnessed an accident. Gosh. I don't know if that signifies something bad about this trip but I'd rather not think too much about it. :\


HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIEJIE! (:

-

I'm going to bed.
See you in Penang, blog.

One more thing before I go..

Rock Steady!

Today, Zi and I went on Budget shopping and got earrings for 1$ and 4 hair ties for 2$. I love this girl. (:

Oh and did I mention we met 12 familiar people/groups of people. Each of which alternated between SA and PL? So cool, please.

Omg, I just did 387036 Christmas cards.
And I have another 2975368091 to go. ):
And OMG, my hand is like all red and sore, the floor's a mess, the table's madness!

But anyhow, I like Feiiers one the BEST! (: It's soo cute and special. Okay, biased. :\ Haha.

I can't believe I'm leaving tomorrow! Sigh. Don't really have a very good feeling about this trip. =\


Anyway, don't understand why certain people have this misconception that when they message me they must pay more!
OKAY CLARIFICATION TIME:
The only dude that has to pay more is MEMEME when I reply you.
When you message me, it's to a local number, so DON'T NEED TO PAY MORE.


(Hint: Please message me leh. Tell me you miss me, okay? Haha)


And I will try to reply if I can. Mom got a Malaysian line. WHEEEE!



Well, 'til then, folks.
Doubt I will be online tomorrow cos I HAVEN'T PACKED MY STUFF
And I'm going out til afternoon somemore! HAHAHAHA
SHIATE.
Love you all. MUACKS. (hahaha)

(H, sorrysorry! Very busy!)

Those Yesterday Feelings Will All Be Lost In Time.

Phil says: "I PASSED MY BTT!"
(okay, no big deal la. It's like chicken feet easy)

Okay, yay(: F and I have passed our BTT already. We were late! Ran all the way up to second level and waited for a while and sat down for less than 10 minutes! Hah.
(Hello Juls, I can give you my book already!)


FTT on 31st Jan! And K is having his practical driving test that day too. Faster pass okay! Then I will lose lotsa weight and we can go supper ing. WOOHOO. There'd be someone to send me home next time already. =D

And out of the countless times we've been to CDC, today's the first Feiiers and I are going back on our own. Anyhow, on the bus, she suddenly said, "EH YOU'RE LEAVING TOMORROW ALREADY RIGHT?"
Yeah, shitte. I just realised that tooo. I'm gonna miss F. ): And the party at her house. And her. And her siblings. ): Come to think of it, I'm gonna miss soooooooo many people. In fact, I already miss those away.

But good thing, I talked to P the eye vomit yesterday. And he might come back earlier than planned! WHOOPIE!

I'm waiting for time to pass before I meet Z later.
It's Y's last day at work today! I hope she's having fun! =D

Check this out: (VINTAGE HAHAHAHA)

andysarus (red devils for life) says: si gui
andysarus (red devils for life) says: tao yan si le
andysarus (red devils for life) says: mo fei
andysarus (red devils for life) says: hey, u look like my ex le
andysarus (red devils for life) says: SIAK! RETRO
on a diet of hope. says: HAHAHA
on a diet of hope. says: super retro!
on a diet of hope. says: omg, rmb the nan dao thing
andysarus (red devils for life) says: obviously! i remember every sec spent with u
on a diet of hope. says: hahahahahahaa :\

Ohman. It was the first three months madness.

Swing Life Away.

Note to self: Never, EVER paint stuff with stardust on nails (especially fingers) cos removal is a b*tch. ):

THIS MORNING:
Dad: I'm kinda worried about you flying on your own. How about you don't go?
Me: Huh? Aiya. You already bought the ticket, what can you do?
Dad: How about I just give you the $ to pay for the airport tax to go shop?
Me: Huh, 100+ only shop what. (Okay, apparently he claims I was mumbling)
Dad: #%*&(&*)^&#$$@#$#^%*&^^*&(&
(I can't rmb exactly what he said, but it was about me mumbling to myself and not talking to him properly when he was talking to me)

OMG SO LAME. Then I messaged Mom and said, "I think your husband is mad..." blahblah. But she didn't reply me. Yeah, okay thanks, Mom.


Out of the 5 weekdays, I've been spending 4 with Feiiers. (Including tomorrow)
Today we went for Etrial again, but we left even before one hour's session was up. And we were scheduled for 2. Please let me pass tomorrow! =\

Today, I had Subway for dinner with Y. Omg, sounds so silly but it was like really Yummy(: I haven't had Subway in the longest time.
And yesterday, I had Shih Lin with SF and her siblings. Haven't had that in ages tooo!
So contradicting how Shih Lin and Subway were my "weekly addictions" during Prelim/As.


Yesterday's surprise at Nick's went well! He claims he is surprised though he didn't look like it at all. But I guess that's everyone's expression right? I mean, the cliche "surprised" expression hardly ever occurs cos I remember the last time I was surprised, I didn't look surprised at all. Haha, what an irony.
We met and had to plan a Treasure Hunt on the spot before he reached home! Quite hilarious, cos Sweets and I were wrecking our brains big time to write clues downstairs while the guys settled the upstairs. Heh heh apparently some were quite hard! =D
Glad N liked his present though. (We bought it cos he wanted it anyway)


Number of Christmas cards to do: Too Lazy to Count.
Number of Christmas cards done: Six. (OMGZ)
Number of very urgent Christmas cards: Ten
Number of not very urgent Christmas cards: Too lazy to Count.


And this has to be the most hurtful conversation ever:
come come paradise says:i think **** lose you la
come come paradise says:but the rest shud win
come come paradise says:you're a guy anyway--> WTF. HAHA.
WLETMDIDONTWANNAGIVEYOUYOURCHRISTMASCARDALR!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIRLEY (:

Ps: We saw a full rainbow yesterday. It was beautiful(:
Pps: If you've gotten my Christmas card already, lucky you! If you haven't, be patient. You should get it soon. If you don't at all, I'm sorry ah! (Majorly) Running short of time!
Pps: I STILL WANT MY DURIAN PUFFS. EVEN BETTER IF FROM GOODWOOD PARK HOTEL. I WILL GIVE YOU A KISS. AHAHAA

Mom, are you finally coming home, yet?

Some days I can't believe, others I'm on my knees.

I'm so disappointed with my mom, who extended her trip but failed to notify me. Initially, I was really excited about her return but now it's "oh yeah, okay.."



On Tuesday, I thought, 5 days to Christmas.

Sounds so near! Yet Saturday seems so far away.

Today is Thursday already.




As much as I can't wait to leave the country for this short getaway, this little uncertainty stings the heart. Especially the whole idea of flying on my own, checking in on my own, waiting on my own (Omg, can you imagine if my flight delays?), what's gonna happen, how I'd cope, what I'll be occupied with, how I'll be treated, whether S is gonna keep his promise(s)- it all scares me.


Plus, I'm gonna be missing out on so damn much, all the Christmas parties with the different cliques. I wish I could be in both places at the same time this Christmas.





Anyhow, contrary to the disappointment I felt on Tuesday, I felt like I received all the love in the world at night. D and W came over, with strawberry taohuay all the way from ChompChomp despite the heavy thunderstorm. They came over to cheer me up, knowing I was upset (with both Daddy and Mommy) and was craving for tao huay(:




Though we sat at the void deck/Mc Donald's and fall short in comparison to the liansxz (that look no younger than 16 but were smoking) and bengsz (who were playing water bombs in the rain) around us, we had our fair share of fun, laughing at W's stupidity, my poor Chinese and embarrassing attempts to be gangstasxz and attempts to hit on some girls. HAH.

Thank God though, for W's umbrella that kept the (fat) three of us (sorta) dry.


But I totally crashed my healthy diet plans with FRENCH FRIES for supper. Like, omgz fat oil carbs alert please. And W just couldn't stop eating- Double Cheeseburger, Fries, Ice cream! Temptations! Tsktsk.

W attempting a raindance. Hah, I'm kidding.

Anyhow, thank you D. For always being here. Be it silently, or overtly. But I know you're this GINORMOUS cotton-stuffed pillow that cushions every single fall of mine.

Even when you're at the troughs of your life, you never fail to catch me, or twist my lips.

You deserve to be so happy, so much more than anyone should be. And I'm sorry most of the time, I'm so self-absorbed in my own world, and fail to offer you the shoulder you need. Yet you still stand there for me.

I love you sooooo much, D. And I wish I could smuggle you along in a huge luggage but I can't. Those 7 days will pass fast fast and you'll be strong, I know that. Love you plenty okay? (: (:



On a more random note: More random dreams! About The S and The B. Haha, it's freakily unpleasant and awkwardly haunting. No idea why I keep having these kinda random weird dreams, but maybe God is trying to tell me something.



Fine, I believe everything happens for a reason and each action has a reaction. Most of the time impulsive decisions I make lead to regrets. And I'm half as sure that this stubborn decision I am making might lead to regrets but I highly doubt it'd matter much to both parties involved.



At least I didn't promise I would tell you,

unlike you promising everything but fulfulling nothing.



"Flames to Dust, Lovers to Friends; Why do all good things come to an end?"

"With you baby, it was never number one."

Anyway,

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY ANDY LAU HANDSOME! HAHA.

And on the 20th:

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY NICK WOMAN! (must give you a shit colour)
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY KELLY!
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY KIDDO MIDDO CANDICE!

SUNNYSUNSHINEYDAY!

Today's a happy day! Cos it's finally sunny! (:
It hasn't been sunny for ages! And I love the sun!
So everyone, come on out and let's go soak up some sun(: (:

Okay, I'm really bored lately. Like everyone's overseas. Almost everyone la. But those aren't overseas are like working?
So I decided to come over to Feiiers and disturb her as she packs her room and gets ready to shift house! (I dreamt she msged me to tell me the guy moving her stuff is HOT. Like how random is that?)

Anyway, I'm supposed to be making Christmas cards but I'm damn lazy la, huh? Haha. We're going Bishan later and Fiona's sending us there! YAY =D

Softly, we tremble tonight.

Oh am gee,

it has been raining and raining and raining the entire day since yesterday and it's getting on my nerves. Where did all the water come from man. Yesterday, the route home was flooded my Birks was squishing water by the time I got home. Arrrgghh.

But it's all right, I am hiding under my covers and spending my afternoon watching heroes today. Shiok!

Ohyes, I need drawing block/A3 construction paper!

UGH.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOM! (:

All right, since my IE was cocked up last night.

Here's the pictures: (YAY! I brought my camera, so now my blogposts aren't boring. LOL)

I wore my MONDAY tee shirt and wanted to make sure it could be seen in my photos but no, all of them cannot full see the MONDAY word. This is the best.

Anyhoo, we met for BTT ETrial. And we manged to finish all 6 papers within the time frame allocated for 2. Now, what do we do the next trial? Out of the 6, I freaking failed one. (82%?) But I got 100% for another. Cool shit.

It rained so we cabbed down to Kovan and trained down to Hf and lunched at FoodRepublic and the laksa is omg, yummy! Though it's really fattening cos I think it's yummy cos of the excess coconut milk.

The night before, J was so excited about watching a movie so he already checked the slots for The Holiday but when we were there, I saw the "Nightmare Before Christmas (Disney Digital)" and suggested if we could watch it instead. And J said yes, thinking it was a horror show. :\

We paid 8$ for a 80min 3d movie. But I thought it was cool shit. Abit short la. But I like Nightmare Before Christmas anyway(: (You guys should know! Hah) And yeah, we got to keep the 3d spectacles and they kinda look like shades. But it does not have any UV protection!
We left for B&J and had a MERLIONSTER- 6 scoops of icecream (AMERICAN PIE! It's new, but disappointing; Choc chip cookie dough, Phish Food, VeryBerry, New York Super Fudge, Peanut Butter), one banana, one brownie and two toppings (Hot Fudge and Nuts). Shiok to the max!
Meet the all time Ah Beng from *** Secondary school and (yuck) jc. AHAHA. He'd say, blame it on his Sec Sch. Okay he's soo gonna poison my dinner next time IF he sees this. IF!

Left for Orchard to meet Yanns (who ran in the rain for me!) and shopped (for ourselves and the birthday boy) after meeting Qh & J. This is while waiting for the other two. We didn't take a group shot after that though.

I'm losing my faith in this. Friendship, if you can even call it that.

Ps: I just ate bread that is 3days past expiry date. :\

Pps: I WANT JURIAN PUFFS FROM GOODWOOD PARK HOTEL!

Naar Kuneh Kutu Veh!

3D NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS IS THE DEAL.
MERLIONSTER FROM BEN & JERRY'S IS THE SECOND DEAL.

screwedupinternetdoesntallowmetosendphotosorpostimagesdamnit.

Ps: Dear H, I hope you know that I'm in a really sian diao mood and I totally didn't want to be on the phone but for you, I stayed on for 35mins just to make sure you'll be less confused.

So fix your eyes and get up.

I decided to change my template! If you realized.
I have given up on editing it to be anywhere near my previous colourful one.
And I shall leave it looking like a blogger idiot, or like Yanns says, a beginner blogger's blog.
Haha. Old is cool! Simplicity is supremacy! Whooo.

Okay. Anyway, Amelia says my blog entries have no head and no tail so I'm gonna post a got-head-got-tail post today. (:

**

Yeah, okay my past few days have been DAMN packed with FUN FUN FUN and SIN SIN SIN. Gosh, think the "DIET STARTS TOMORROW" shirt Pong & I saw at Bugis is sooo right. Too bad the colour didn't go with my skin.


Back to training on Wed, under the bright sun, where it felt like home. (: The green green (muddy) grass, odd shaped balls (we've got new green ones!), familiar moves like WINDOW (which we could never agree on), the same old muddy sticky smelly sweaty feeling. Gosh, I miss it soo much. Too bad it was only 3 of us- Annabella, SinWen and Me.

Lunch at AdamRoad! (: So nostalgic cos the team has been there a few times. Yanns came to join us. And we had a LINKS&WINGERS meal time. And the 2 pairs made the partners-in-crime on pitch too. Cool stuff.

Dinner was spent laughing at G instead of his (not funny) jokes that he made up on the spot.

Then Pong & I became certified liansxz cos we played DDR (twice! After failing the first one at Stage 2 no thanks to Herngs) and we got C okay. So we are C class lianxzss.

The 4 girls left for Devils bar for free drinks where we downed them fast and mad like nobody's business. And the dancefloor there was empty. Heh heh. Met the rest at Zouk and had lotsa foot stepping, high pitched laughing, hysterical screaming, crazy bouncing/shaking/dancing, insane swearing, disgusting shoulder rubbing, unimaginable squeezing, etc. BUT IT WAS DAMN FUN.

A few hours at Zong's with Butter Cookies(: And Pam sharing her "maggi mee with soup and eggs" craving then home.

Where I woke up to "maggi mee with soup and eggs" LOL

I spent the afternoon with my sis, before she departed. We had Popeyes for dinner(: And I snacked on a freaking Mars bar. (OMG FATS ALERT) Then I brought D for ice cream at Island Creamery(: But my craving wasn't satified, since there was no apple pie.

Okay, now I miss D as I'm typing this. ):

I slept early, since I barely slept. And got woken up by a phonecall at 2+am, which lasted rather long but felt like 2 blinks of the eye. It was a struggle between sentimental and nostalgic. Oh wait. Or are they the same thing?

Had to wake up early for Alicia's birthday surprise but we all overslept! Gees.
Lunched at Vila'ge. Okay, I am not gonna take part in the debate in whether it's VEE-LA-JAY or VEEE-LAYGE okay. HAHAHA. I shall just call it, the Marche substitute. Peace.

Class bbq was after, but I had a piece of LANA chocolate cake. Or should I say, NANA? (Inside joke) It was like OMG HEAVENLY anyway.

Then I talked to the one in Canada using Hr's account (who has very obviously blocked and deleted me off the list) and like went offline immediately when I said it was me. OMFG. Like seriously, whatever. If this is your way of dealing with things, suit yourself all right. Now, I will really not care, like you claim I did all along. __

And I ate at the BBQ til I could explode. It felt more like a buffet than a bbq, with the never ending amount of food.

CHARLIE'S ANGEL (in black) + CHARLIE (in pink!) went shopping on Saturday! (:
Coincidentally, Pong, Sweets & I were in Black. (And according to Pong, Y was in Black too!)
We went from Gas Haus to Bugis Village to The Edge.
And OHAMGEE, Bugis Village was ridiculously crowded, we left after a while. And crossing the road was madness.
Anyhoo, Pong & I got ourselves a WEDNESDAY/MONDAY shirt. It's way cool. Yay(:

Then I had dinner with my Dad at Adam Road (again). Dude, I'm like filial yo! Hah.
Then there was rather last min plans to go Momo. And the bouncer hates Hr. Cos all of us got through but he couldn't, cos he had to be 21. Like, huh? And some of us didn't get checked anyway. After downing Vodka 7up that tasted like 7up only, we went to The Clinic! Since we had free invites. Cool place, but boring shit. Like the people were O-L-D. And they were playing House music. Haha. We were so out of place.
THEN, I suggested we go crash MoS, which Woohoo, we managed to successfully.
That's the good thing about crowds. (Hah)

Okay and I forgot. THANK YOU M, my STALKER, for getting our bags and treating me a drink! LOLS!

Angel you stupid shit. (OKAY I'M KIDDING) Why of all days get a headache that day! Missed seeing him by a teeny wee bit, but it's all right. YOU STILL OWE ME MY TREAT. I WANT CHRISTMAS PRESENT + DINNER ALSO. ):


Today, I went PERFUME shopping eh! I smelt so nice la. I became the testing thingy instead of that strip of paper. Hah. And then, there's this limited ed CK scent for females. It's so prettily pink with stardust. (And I don't like Pink so for me to say it's really pretty in pink, it's really pretty! Hah)
And believe it or not, I spent my entire day ONLY in- Far east for lunch, then DFS, and Isetan then TANGS. Not bad huh(:
Was pretty excited for the YUMMY durian jurian puffs at Goodwood but they didn't accept Nets. WTH MAN!

I had dinner with the Dad again!
And I was writing this rather long note using Photofiltre just now. And my index finger nearly crammed since I was using it to "write" the note. (I don't use a mouse! STOP ANIMAL ABUSE! haha okay kidding)

Oh, and just now, I was digging through my many boxes of stuff to get scrap materials to make my Christmas cards (I can't get them done in time, confirm! SULKS) and I found lotsa lotsa stuff! From my compass, to my thermometer, to my Vj invitation card, to all the "love" letters exchanged in Secondary School, to the envelope given to us during Orientation 1 to give our handphone etc with my name and OG EIGHTEEN written across it, to the Life Concert 05 tickets, to many others (you get the idea). Dude, never knew I had so much junk. But guess what? I love junk. (:

So Amelia, my life exciting enough not! Haha.

IT'S MY LAST WEEK IN SINGAPORE BEFORE I GOOO.

Wah shit I'm gonna start bringing my camera around. All the photos aren't with me and my blog posts are like BLEAH boring.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MY GIRL! (12th dec!)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALICIA PARTNER! (16th dec!)
(today):
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TUDI!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LESBO!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR GOH!

losing a whole year.


Ps: I updated my photowall today! YAY!

mommymommy

My mom just called me from Malaysia and I miss her soo much):
I wish I was there too. Boo.

FROM TIFFO'S:

THIS IS A SHOUTOUT TO MY CRABBY

Wow oh wow, I haven't been online in ages!
Thursday's online session isn't really counted because it wasn't even my computer and I was just watching HEROES (which Starworld is gonna show soon! WHEEEE)
And the entry before that was by retard shit so yeah, it's as retarded as it looks.

Anyway, the main purpose of this entry, is for CRABBY!
Hello!
I am very sorry for all the crazy moodswings and sudden realisations which may not be realisations afterall and stupid tantrums. (however you spell it)
Anyway, let's meet up soon please.
Because to prove your point of sportmen being escapists,
I have decided to spend Christmas elsewhere this year, with a whole new company.

And I'll be leaving on a jet plane on 23rd decemeber, don't know when I'll be back again!
Haha, okay kidding. But I'll only be back on 30th.




I don't know if I'm going to regret this decision (which wasn't even entirely made by me)
Cos suddenly everyone's asking me out on Christmas eve/day when I thought there'd be no plans with friends cos everyone's busy with family and church.
(My family doesn't celebrate Christmas except me and my sis but it's her birthday anyway)



In conclusion,
I am sorry,
and please meet this escaping crabby, before she goes.
I love you. (:

+

JULIUS TAN AND TAY YEW WEI-

you two still owe me sweets!
I wasn't drunk, I know what I was saying! >=(

+

As much as I refuse to forgive you,
for all the empty promises,
unaccounted actions,
lousy lies,


I'm always here for you.

But what do these 5 words mean to you anymore, right?

!!!!!

GOODNIGHT AND GOODBYE
LONELY.. I AM SO LONELY.. IM AM SO LONELYYYYYYYYYY ALL ON MY OWNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

THIS IS SO DAMN RIDICULOUS

STUPID SHIT

IF YOU'RE HAPPY AND YOU KNOW CLAP YOUR HANDS!!

"Think of all the calories you are burning!"

Actually I wanted to quote something intelligently funny from JJ today,
but I guess all the running kinda burnt up every memory of the conversations we had.

So anyhow, I went jogging today.
Initial plans were, for an hour.
But hell no.
Running with the First Runner Up for 800m and 6th placed 1500m is not an easy job at all man.

Had a hard time catching up. PLUS, we were talking while running. (I really don't advice it, and I normally don't do it) so it just made things a whole lot more tiring.

Eventually, I gave up after half an hour.
Not really the time, but because the road ahead was UP HILL.
Like ^%$&^(*$; how to endure!

Then we walked home instead.
(For half an hour, I think)

Haha. So hilarious.

And right now, I can't believe I'm trying to matchmake L.
HAHAA IT'S SHIT FUNNY.

My day tomorrow is gonna be exciting.
At least I hope it is. And that no one will affect/spoil my mood.

First up- TRAINING(:
I can't wait! =D


To keep up with the festive season, I've got festive braces too!


I need to make a decision. HELP :\

removals and ends.

And I forgot to say- I'm off my rubber bands.
And Z's removing his braces today.






Looking at how things are going,
maybe I really, should just take flight tmr night instead.


I can't believe you forgot.
I can't believe I am so stupid.
Waste of my time.
And hopes.

It is like a fullstop trying to be an exclamation mark.

"Today's such a fated day."

I bumped into Tasha over lunch today, who joined us after her lunch.
And I also bumped into S today. =D
Verns bumped into her mr. D
(:
What a happy bumping day.

We caught Dejavu.
Well, I liked it. (: (:This is my favourite photo for now. I love the background! (And ofcourse the people inside. But I just realised Yanns isn't in it! ): )


I haven't felt like this.
In quite a while.

This is the Best I can go.

I got myself IE7.
And damn, it's screwing every shit up.
I screwed my blog template.
I screwed my night too. (No, not because of the blog template)

Anyhow, today I cooked myself two sunny side up eggs.
And for dinner, I had toast with Kaya, and Peanut Butter.
So ironic how I'm (crazily) addicted to Toasts now.
When I don't even like bread and eggs to start with.

~

(I can't rmb what I did last Friday, or Saturday, so let's start with Sunday)


# Accompanied Yanns for Manicure, together with Sweets.
# Down to Cheryl's for House Farewell, which we were so very terribly late for.

And Glenn (not in picture) says: "On behalf of the 6th House Council, I'd like to..."
Us: "Seventh!!!"
Glenn: "Huh? Oh okay.. On behalf of the 6th House Council, ..."
Us: "Seventh!!!!"

That was really funny.
We left for Prata then home.

***

Tuesday was Prom already! (:
I am not gonna post any photos because I don't really like how I looked. It was DRASTIC man.

(it rained ): But we had Herngs to the rescue!)

Criticise the lashes all you want but it was really, not a self choice okay. Haha.
And everyone couldn't recognise me. ): Not even damn good friends. The only person who could recognise me was TAY YEW WEI! (and I love his Bart Simpson tie)

I think eventually, it reached a point where I was kinda tired of saying, "It's Phil." so I stopped going round to take photos. No wonder I only have so little photos. ):

We crashed back into the lovely Gallery Hotel after only like, 2 hours in Attica? BOO!!

And this hotel, has some sorta see through glass separators between the toilet (or should I say, Bath tub!) and the bed.
Sexy stuff, cos it's meant to be a couple room anyway.

I barely slept, cos I couldn't.
I made L go down alone, across the road to SPC to get breakfast for us. And stupid him, wore the hotel slippers (or whatever they're called)


We decided to go down to the pool after breakfast.
It was so shallow, 0.4m only! (The shallow part)

Then we laid down on the chairs, and admired the scenary- construction site please.
But L was observing how often the crane rotates and all.
Then we were talking and talking.....
.
.
.
Til I fell asleep on him. (Sorry L.)

And the freaky thing-
When I woke up,
IT WASN'T L NEXT TO ME ANYMORE!
It was someone else. Gosh. Shock of my life.

Z came down later, then L came back with Yanns& Annabella. And we sat around til 10+ and headed back up to wake everyone up.

We left for PS for breakfast/lunch/brunch,
But Yanns, A and I settled for toastbox, while the rest went up.

And I left for home. Which, I couldn't sleep!

***

THURSDAY, totally felt like Wednesday. After half a day of agency registering and short interview ing and typing test ing, we decided that it would be a day of "I-haven't-done-this-before!" so we went to Vivo cos Y hasn't been there. And we ate at Food Republic cos L hasn't eaten there. (And I bumped into Lesbo!) And we watched HAPPYFEET cos neither of us have watched it, nor caught a movie in Vivo.


Then after that I met ZOE and PING for dinner at Chompchomp(:

And we slacked around Coffeebean for a while.



I got home, and Hr wanted to come over. That drunken bastard. We made last minute plans to go over to K's instead and I had to lug him all the way there.

And he's so hard to get out of bed too. Rah.
I wasn't trying to act superstarxz. I just had dark eye rings to hide. ):

And we woke up early at 5! No, actually K & I didn't even sleep. Rushed to the airport but in the end, K's dad volunteered to send us there.

Denise is leaving for Canada, for further studies. Though I wasn't really close to her, she was always a joy to have man. She's really sweet la!

We had BK breakfast cos stupid WangJiao was inside the departure halls. And Jm, Cali and I accompanied Becca for Ban Mian. And I was falling asleep then already. Was trying very very hard to keep awake.

I got home and crashed, oblivious to everything man.

**

Ding dearest willingly accompanied me everywhere on Saturday, where we walked along the same stretch of roads along Raffles Place at least twice. And both job interviews were FOS and crappy and a waste of my (and Ding's) time.

By the time we got down to town, it was almost 6 already. We went Food Republic for dinner (again!) cos I kinda wanted Toast (again!) but I didn't in the end. I got Yuanyang (?) drink, which totally sucked and I was unhappy with it! >=(

We walked to *Scape, thinking we were early but the performance already started. And we saw Tanny(:

Strikeforce and their drums. Jon leong. Hady was there too. I have photos of him too. But I can't be bothered to put them up.
No. This is not my boyfriend. Lol.

**

Is this what They call Indifference?

Ps: I created my own MSN smiley! Yay!
Pps: If you happen to know how to save my blog template, please tell me.

>=(

omfg please don't ask me what happened to my blog.
i'm trying to revive it.
but it's getting on my nerves.

Until the world.

I lose myself to find in me
The way it really ought to be
It's hard to say I love you
It's hard to say I need you
If all is well it's hard to tell
It hurts to think of someone else
It's hard to say I'll be there
It's hard to say I really, really care

Until the world won't turn
'Till the planets burn
Until the sun dies I'll be there
Until the heavens come
'Til this lie is done
Until the world dies I'll be there

I can't see outside myself
How can I love for someone else
It's hard to say I'm sorry
It's hard to say forgive me
I can't believe you're here with me
Into the future I can't see
It's hard to say forever
It's hard to say I'll never ever go

(THEAFTERS)

I was spinning free, with a little sweet and simple numbing me.

Teehee. Okay. I'm going to bed(:
Tomorrow is STAYHOMEANDLAZEALLDAY- day.
And if I decide not to be lazy, I might pop by Feiiers! WHEEEEE

(: (: (: (:

Ps: My Mom's alarm clock just rang. She's waking up but I haven't even slept! Okay. Goodnight.

Check this out.

#1: Weiyarnie took a photo of us taking a photo and that is the photo we took. (:
#2: I took a photo of Hash taking a photo of me taking a photo of him.

COOL STUFF.

~

As Hr says, "Tonight is a good night."
Damn right it is.
Guess who's talking to me.
Check out the time too please.

Mommy, I don't ever want to go to bed tonight anymore. *BEAMS*

Ain't another woman that can take your spot my-

You got my temperature rising like-

(haha. yeah okay, whatever phil)

Ben&Jerry's.

You Are Cherry Garcia Ice Cream

You're the coolest cat around, but too laid back to let it get to your head

What Flavor Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream Are You?

How does entering just your name, let the system know which Ben & Jerry's ice cream you are, man?

You Are Chubby Hubby Ice Cream

So there's more of you to love... a whole lot more!

What Flavor Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream Are You?

Okay, The first is with Phil, and the second with the full one.

**

Anyway, you know, everytime you post an entry,
there'll be this little box that says:

"What's cooler than a box of crayons?
Customising your blog with Layouts."

I think that's absolutely hilarious. Like, HUH? Hahahaha.

Breeze.

Okay, so now I spent my whole night trying to upload and exchange photos.
Even long overdued ones like Rapture. :\
Tsktsk.

There's so much to blog about, but I'm like really lazy, for now.
More importantly, Prom's over. (And I can't believe it just passed like that)
Pius has left. ))))): For many months man.
So has Denise, who left this morning. )):

And there will be many more to come. Friends going overseas to study, the guys leaving for Army.

Also, I've been losing out on lots and lots of sleep!
Yanns has concluded this week as my ton/thon/don ing week. (I never knew the right way to spell that word. But I don't really use it anyway)

When it was Thursday, it felt like Wednesday.
And on Friday, it still feels like Thursday.

I watched my first movie at Vivo's GV MAX on Thursday though.
And I still can't believe I gave up a future career opportunity to pay 7$ to watch a show about penguins. Okay, it wasn't exactly stupid but it kinda got boring and L was so restless throughout the show. Gosh.

And just last night, we had an impromptu stay over. And I had CHEESECAKE at 2+am together with Baileys(:
Cheesecake from Hilton hotel okay. It was damn good though.
(Becca says: So did Paris bake it for you?
Phil: Yeah and I found chipped fingernails inside!")

Was accompanied by Just Like Heaven, and Honey through the mornings.
I love Honey(:

Ohyes, I learnt how heavy PHR can get. growl.

(will post photos some other time)

More Than A Memory.

WHOA I REALISE THAT IT'S BEEN AGES SINCE I LAST SIGNED IN TO IMAGESTATION OR EVEN UPLOADED PHOTOS THERE.
HOHOHO.

sorry so random.


[EDIT]
Updated albums: 05s78 , crabby pathy

New albums! : Rapture
House farewell
Bao
Zi / Feiiers 18th
[\EDIT]

+

bye bye tai tai. ):

B, BaBy.

B is for Bestie.
B is for Bitch.
B is for Bloody marthaf*cker.
B is for Boyfriend.
B is for Bastard.
B is for Blissful marriage.
.
.
.

Fly, Time, Fly!

Sometimes (Or rather most of the times),
When I'm hungry,
I'd secretly wish for time to pass faster so that it'd be breakfast/lunch/dinner time.

Right now, I'm secretly hoping time would past so fast, it's breakfast.
Cos I'm really hungry.






MAKEUP WORKS WONDERS!
I really believe in that.
I hope it can cover up my spots/patches/yucky peels tmr.


i really hate you. PITA!!

"wuo pu che tau"

Hash, you are so cute. (:

Anyway,
my greatest nightmare has come true.
hoho.
peels on my shoulder.
I bumped into Tiffos and showed them to her. ):

Accompanied Seef to get her dress today and it's lovely(: (:
We managed to get her shoes and ear rings (super last minute right) within 3 hours. (we are goood!)

And then I met my Mom & Sis at Bugis (Like again)
My sis got the new sony ericsson z610i. or something like that.
the pink one. Like omg, bimbo alert. HAHA. But it's a nice phone(:

Anyhow,
after tmr, I'm staying off Far East and Bugis for a week.
I've been there at least once is 2 days the past few weeks.

"But also, clubbing damn ex la. Once in a while is alright. If not, not only is my skin burnt, my pocket also burnt until nth left."
-Ken cow

And omg, it may not be funny to you, but it cracked me and Seef up like mad.

+

Fergalicious definition make them boys go loco
They want my treasure so they get their pleasures from my photo.
You could see me, you can't squeeze me.
I ain't easy, I ain't sleazy.
I got reasons why I tease 'em.
Boys just come and go like seasons.

Okay, sorry la. This song is just stuck in my head.
Anyway it's one day to prom and I AM PEELING.
LIKE @#$%&*%*%$%#$%$^%$ ROAR

anyway glenteoh! XIEXIENI. you made phil a very very happy girl.
but she must watch slowly. or else she'll be like grace who has to wait for one episode of prison break each week.
it's too much of an agony to bare. or is it bear?
I never really quite figured that out. HAHAHAHAA.

(My labels are like always prison break la! So boring)

(cheap thrill)

says:
anyway i'm talking to tricia
says:
den she was like
says:
hey i saw you and ly at heeren that day with a girl!!
says:
who is she HUH
misguided roses. says:
OMG HAHAHAHAHAAHA
misguided roses. says:
when
says:
den i'm like
says:
phil?
says:
haha
misguided roses. says:
omfg.
misguided roses. says:
what was i wearing huh
misguided roses. says:
cannot tell is me meh
says:
she say you look short with us
says:
and she only saw your back
says:
so cant really tell
misguided roses. says:
ohhh
misguided roses. says:
yeah ofcourse i am short with you all la
says:
exactly
says:
in her view you're quite tall mah


so hilarious. hahaha.
sorry cheap thrill la.

Stories And Alibis.

When you come home, baby.

I know somehow that your eyes, have gone, astray.

And when you come back, lady

You just look back and say,

"I want You."

~

When you come home, baby.
I know somehow that your eyes, have gone, astray.
And when you come back, lady
You just look back and say,
"I want You." "Ahh, Fuck You."

**

Been bloody shit ass down on luck lately.
And they say the only way back is UP.

But let me tell you that's cock and bulls.
Cos I'm still going down and there's many other worse things that can happen.

Let's list the worse: a fucking car knocks me over and I lie in coma then wake up not remembering anything.

But enough of the drama mama exaggeration. The next worse thing that can happen is that I start peeling only on Sunday/Monday.
Right now, I'm experiencing paradoxical emotions cos I can't decide if I should force my skin to peel or prevent it from peeling.

But on a brighter note: I have two dates for prom! My Mrs Darcy (How can She not be my date, right?) And My Girl. (:
Oh my, I sound like a play boy.

Oh, do you happen to be one too? Haaaah.

my two pretty ladies!

Postscript: I can't wait for 18 dec. Or maybe 17 is fine too.

mmmmmmmmmmm(:

Happy 18th birthday, Cheryl Ah ma(:
Happy 18th birthday, Yi ling

I'm gonna sleep after 3 episodes of prison break! =D It's really late!

peel banana, peel peel banana.

I spent my day whining and ranting and screaming and roaring to four people, all of which, very nicely, tried to calm me down and was ultimately patient and sweet.

#1: LLL.
#2: My Mrs Darcy Silly Duck ILOVEYOUSOMUCH Yanns
#3: ahtannnnnnn!
#4: Mommy dearest. (But she was abit mean ah)

Luling's the best! She was super calm throughout the day though I was so flustered and frustrated.
Especially when you see a girl buying the ONLY pair of shoes that you've been wanting RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU.

LIKE OMFGGOANDDIEOMGIWANTTOSCREAMANDCRY

Okay, that was so bimbotic, but anyway. YEAH
On Monday, I was super suay, my 3 pairs of unfated shoes and bags.
But somehow today when I went back to the same SHOPS, they had the shoes.
But damnit the girl bought the OHSOPERFECT BLOODYNICE brown shoes before my VERY EYES, I swear I wanted to cry.

So I settled for the other pair.
And the brown bag I wanted,
it got stolen.
??????
Stolen?
WTH.

OKAY I SHOULD QUIT RANTING/BEING SO BIMBOTIC.

Anyway, My aunt from Penang's out. =D
So I met them (Her+My Sis) at Vivo after a day with LLL.
And we shopped more (but I didn't get anything) while waiting for my parents.
AND WE SPENT 55$ at Candy Empire, cos my Aunt is mad.
She spent 30.60$ on Pick And Mix.

Okay, nvm. Time to chant:
Peel Banana, Peel Peel, Banana
Peel Banana, Peel Peel, Banana
Peel Banana, Peel Peel, Banana
Peel Banana, Peel Peel, Banana

Oh I mean.
Peel Banana Face & Shoulders, Peel Peel, Banana Face & Shoulders

Ps: I bumped into ZOE and Candice Kiddo today! Yay so exciting =D

I love you, WENTWORTH MILLER.

SUNKISSED, SUNBAKED, SUNROASTED, SUNBURNT.

I LOVE YOU GLEN! YAY!
BUT I LOVE YOU MORE GRACIE! =D
MY PRISON BREAK MARATHON CONTINUES!!!
(die already, don't need to sleep liaosxz!)
I'M ON A HIGH. WHEEEE.

that faithful night.

I remember, long time ago, on the night of 3rd Aug (or rather, morning of 4th Aug),
I woke up from a nightmare, crying.
I was so traumatized, it felt so real.
I messaged crabs and somehow she called me upon reading the message.
I think it was only 4+, 5am then. And it was so coincidental that she suddenly woke up and heard her phone.

It felt too real.
And I can never forget how haunted I was.

And right now it is coming true.
A nightmare for me,
but a fairytale for another.

Luling once told me dreams will only happen opposite to what you remembered.
Since this isn't a dream, but a nightmare.
It's happening exactly how I remembered it would, right?

~

Bring some change up to the bridge
Bring some alcohol
There we'll make a final wish
Just before the fall

Watch the sunrise all alone
Sitting on the tracks
Hear the train come roaring in
Never coming back

Laying quiet in the grass
Everything is still
River stones and broken bones
Scattered on the hill

"Are you locals?"

ooooh, just like the dessert my life is made colourful with them. (: Christmas is coming! The Sun was so hot we thought the Snowmen were gonna melt!



Today, we spent HALF the day travelling. Journey to the West! Again!

I met Feiiers to go down to Ubi (Thank God her mommy sent us there!), where we think we got cheated of 152$ cos we DON'T WANT theory lessons but the lady said it's all inclusive in REGISTRATION fees but Ken koh didn't have to pay for them? Which school has registration fees as high as 152$ ANYWAY?
And on top of that, it's $58.80 per practical, and that's OFF PEAK you know.
Meaning, when we start work, we probably have to attend PEAK lessons which are like $64+. How costly is driving, man?
And the worse thing is, if you wanna pass fast, better take final theory and practical concurrently, and to book your slots early, but the earliest is next year already, and we are STILL clueless about our jobs! >=( ROAR.

Sooo, we (the directionless idiots) nearly got lost on our way to Eunos Mrt but we still managed to find our way! And we travelled allllll the way down to BOONLAY (like OMG)

And by the time we had lunch, took an unexpectedly long bus ride to DISCOVERY CENTRE, it was already 4pm and the place closes at SIX. Boo, so we didn't go la. We only took photos outside (as seen from above) and we were so disappointed. ):

We wanted to go Night Safari okay! (that's how desperate we were on acting like TOURISTS since we barely travel to the other end of the world)
And the lady asked if we were local? (And I thought it was obvious)
Then she asked if we were on some "Tourists-wannabe day"
HAHAHAHA. And she suggested we could try the Science centre.

But nah, we headed back to Serangoon Garden (Like OMG again)
And bowled. YAY =D

Okay, my score sucked though. It was good enough for an A but not as good as normal. We concluded there was something wrong with the lanes! Yes, it must be the lane's fault.

Dinner at Chompchomp to wrap the day up!
Next time, we're DEFINITELY going to Discovery Centre. We're gonna meet bright and early at ten am!

[Edit]
Oh yeah, I forgot to mention about Seefei's FREAKY encounter and spooky fate with the number "4".
Initially, we were just joking about how everything related to her was 4 this, 4 that, or factors and multiples of 4, but then it started to get a little freaky.

While bowling, I jokingly said, "eh sekarli at the end of the game, your score is 44."
And it really was.

Then at dinner, we managed to get a table quite easily. So lucky right.
Then Amelia said, "eh guess what's the table no."
IT WAS 44.
OMGS.

So freaky.
[/Edit]

Oh no, after getting my Theory test date, I gotta push Penang retreat plans back by a week.
Mommy's gonna kill me.
Shawn's gonna kill me.

Ps: Yesterday was my most UNfated day where every shoe/bag I wanted either ran out of sizes, ran out. I'm still so sore about it.

"Phil, I think you're becoming cynical."

Gone so young.

WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.WHATEVER.
WHATEVER.



I don't know what to say.
Or feel.
Or how to act.
anymore.



contradictions.
choices.
priorities.
importance.
neglecting.
insecurities.
preferences.
irritation.
trust.
hopes.
frustrations.
confusion.
unfairness.
"I don't deserve this"
misunderstandings.
failure to comprehend
impatience.
insensitivity.
shoved aside.

Thanks Juls, if you see this.

Don't wake me up.

I was reading through my mail box, and I chanced upon this,

From a really long time ago:

Hold my heart, memories are still singing, even if i have no voice.
Sing without you, I'll sing without you,
can't you feel my pain, there's nothing I can do.
I still have a longing for your memory, even if the memory is only pain.
I won't let my feelings show.
Now, I don't want to be alone.
In the pouring rain, it all must be a dream, from tomorrow on...

(translated from Longing, X japan.)

**

Anyway,

(okay meet the bastard that robbed me of my juice.)

Christmas is coming and Crabs made me that! (:

Today, I've been struck by lotsa waves.

Heat wave, shopping wave, terror wave..

Wave of emotions, simply.

I felt totally swept off my feet, and slammed to the ground by this strong current.

I was rudely awoken to this harsh, cold, reality.

I was cruelly punished- slowly and painfully. And I still choose to believe it's unfair.

Anyhow, I told Crabby.

"Not worth keeping."

Really.

And truth hurts.

And it stinks too.

HAHAHAHA.

This is late,

But Happy FGMD, my dear.