-=Limit=-

Life hasn't been going that smoothly for me, my only Joy is my son. Everyday i wake up & see his cute little chubby face, makes me feel that everything is worth it coz its for him. I control my temper & attitude nowadays but people seems to be taking advantage of it. When keys are not found, wallets left at places not by me but the owner, i get all the shit. Come on, I'm a lifetime partner to share joy & saddness with, not a punching bag for anyone.
I respect those who give me my respect & deserve it. There are many things that people don't know that I've been going through, I need some breathing space. God please give me the strength to overcome odds & let me get a job that I deserve soon.
I'm just inches away from erupting, maybe this is retribution for being too playful in the past. Any housewife who is being treated badly deserves to be helped, staying at home taking care of the childeren,doing the household chores and devoting her life to her family is a very huge sarcifice to her family. I dunnoe why these husbands out there cant think straight. Bringing the bread home is important but what will the family become without these housewives?
I had my fortune read once and i'm slowly withnessing the unfolding of my life as much as i wish that it will not happen. Well, the world still revolves and we still have to continue on with our lives, enough said lets just see how things go. Don't worry God will punish those who bully the weak. Amen.

i am a FAILURE..

I feel like a total failure. I thought I was the happiest bride,it turns out diff. I'm torn,shattered. I love my son, i'll love him even if he's not with me. I'll work hard and fight for him, God help me to get a job soon and give me the strength to stay strong. I dunnoe hw long more I can take this stress, I no longer hope to come hm to face anyone but my son. He's my only joy & worry nw.
Blamed for the things i've not done, i love my mum althought she said mean things abt me. It pains me to see her cry still. I need a break from everything, i might just become a nut.

Family, what does it mean to you? I've no1 but myself, its sad to say after living for 25yrs tt I'm actually all alone. Maybe thats what God has planned for me. Who am i? I'm just an insignificant person who everyone hates. I tried, tried to make pple around me happy. Sometimes i wish to just end it all, once and for all. I'm only a human, i've got a heart and feelings too.
God please show me the light, i really need you nw.

-=Graduation=-

Finally Graduation is over after almost half a yr of wait. It wasnt as fantastic as i though, the ceremony. The ''Hungry Ghost'' (parents of Grads) were stoving as much food as possible onto their plates & mouth. I was utterly ashame & disguisted by them, even the fathers are so horrible. Paying only for the ticket of 2, students brought their whole clan to wipe out the buffet! I'm glad my mum & husband isnt the same.

I'm g0nna return my gown & stuff today, 1week after the ceremony. Time really flies. Love bought a pair of really expensive ear rings for me, I'm so touched & i love them!! We were @ nearby island with good company over the weekend & I'm glad we enjoyed ourselves. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that Love & I will be always this loving and that our lil family will be a forever happy one. I'm lo0king 4ward to our nx trip which will b coming soon. weeeeeeeeeeeee

Thanks for everything love, I know U're doing ur best.

-=See no evil, hear no evil, feel no evil=-

Today is a huge turning point in my life. I've learnt that I can only count on myself, I must stay strong & sane. I've been acting alil insane I think, I'm going to enjoy my life & not to be so sensative on things or rather just let things go with e flow. I've learnt tt expectations can be harmful,or lets say expectations from pple. I'll just set expectations 4 myself nw. My goal now is to get bk to my weight be4 preg. That's my goal & i expect myself to loss about 10kg in 2months. There after I'm going to get a job and enjoy some time with the babes. I really miss e good old times with them. There were lesser worries, at least much lesser than now.
I maybe stubborn but peopla around me are not much better. Setting my piorities right, I'll try not to be envious of th0se loving couples. I'll dream about being in one loving marriage tonight & every other night since reality isnt tis way.
Secrets will be kept deep within myself for now, lessons learnt everyday.
I have to stay strong, DO NOT RELY ON ANYONE.

-=Unappericated=-

I'm pissed off, bored & overweight. I've been stuck @ hm since June, i'm bored. I've been wanting to go on a holiday but I keep thinking that the money shld be spent on e baby instead. Now i really want to go on a holiday!! I've not even g0ne f0r my honeymoon & my husband doesn't even b0ther. All he cares about is hving to save the money for the baby. Come on, I didnt give birth 2 my boy to end up this way, having n0thing for myself.
I'm pissed off that he spends so much time on the psp that he doesnt even bother planning for our 1st year anni. It seems like nothing to him, it doesnt matter, all these dates doesnt matter. 1st it was bad planning for my birthday and now, no planning for our wedding anni. I've to keep asking n searching around for somewhere to go or something special to do,wtf i'm sick of doing it everytime. This is just e 1st yr of our marriage, I wonder hw e rest of e years will be like. If he's going to continue this way, I'm not gonna bother either. It feels as if I've wasted my life & i've lots of regrets. Is this my marriage or our marriage? Whats marriage? To me now it just means routine and been unappericated.

-=M0r0ns=-

TGIF. Mr Teo will be back from Shanghai t0day. It'll be midnight by then. He could be much earlier but some freaking Cols just cant get their act t0gether properly causing him to miss the earlier flight & nearly missing the one he is on now.

I'm disappointed in the way tis Co. do their things, they are no where near the previous Co. Well, s0metimes changes might not be positive. Lets hope things get better if not i'll hope a new n better opp will appear soon *finger's cross*

Lil Raph is getting more n more aborable as the days go by. He loves it when pple talks to him, his smile is priceless. When our country cel her b'day, he'll be 2months old =)

-=25 ALREADY=-

I'm offically 25. Wow, it feels weird tt I'm so old n its scary hw time flies when we hit e 20's. I cant think of e 30's or more. I'm glad tt i've still gt several gd friends @ tis age, hopefully they wun be too caught up with their 0wn family in future .

I was kinda disappointed with Mr Teo for my b'day, i felt tt it wasn't planned properly & stuff. He managed 2 savage it with a lil surprise luckily n the b'day gift was really costly. I'm looking forward to our 1yr wedding anni in e nx month, hopefully he'll give me a wonderful surprise.
Time to go now.