平安夜

过了平安夜后，就得迎接圣诞节。


然后，就是等待2010年的到来。


2010=回母校领o水准成绩单+NP prepartory programme

一提到要领成绩，心脏就似乎停止了跳动，手掌也开始冒汗，心中产生了一种莫名的恐惧感。

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之前，还对母校有所留念，有着依依不舍的感觉。

但日子久了，就渐渐发现其实离开也未必是件坏事。

记得四年前，刚毕业于小六的我有多么开心。

因为我能离开，去一个无人认识我的学校，想重新开始，重新出发。并且把那一向保护自己的保护壳扔掉，寻找另一方面的自己。

四年后，我突然觉得我仿佛又回到从前的我。

现在抱着和往年同样的心态迎接新的学习生涯。准备捡回昔日所扔掉的保护壳，维护自己。

很想在新的环境中改变，无论在造型，或是思想，甚至性格。

但不致于失去了原始的自己。

在那儿发奋图强，结识新朋友，也要做很多到目前现在还不能做的事！

原本说12月要办一次小学的同学聚会，到我级任老师的家开BBQ，唉， 放狗屁啦。

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天底下真地会有BFF吗？

当年的死党 , 都没联络了。

那现年的死党...

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2010's Jan-April events:

1.NPP

2.Krabi+Hadyai+Bangkok(?) TRIP!!!:D

3.A Brand New Start

'09最令我难忘的日子 :

1.graduation.

2.prom(once a life time)

3.The O level examinations.

'09对我来说最佳的影片 :

1.C+侦探（由郭富城主演的）

2.BTS love

3.ORPHAN(thanks yoanne)

'09最喜爱的歌 :

Time to love by T-ara and supernova

'09对我来说最具代表性的照片:

'09最喜爱的照片:

'09最喜欢去的地方:

Starbucks@Jurong Point

'09最爱读的书:

Marley And Me

平安夜快乐

CHOP

CHOP CHOP CHOP.

I'm going to chop off most of my hair later!

Hope it turns out fine.

*Pray hard

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I'm totally stressed out.with my job.

can I QUIT?!?!?

BUT.

I know I can't give up so easily!

AHHHHHHH.

I feel like doing a million things now.

1.Go Library.

2.SHOPPING!
3.watch a decent movie

4.go to the beach

5.Have a serious workout

And blah blah blah.

IF not for the workk!>:(

P.S I'm totally in love with this thai movie-BTS!!!

(the movie trailer is shown on my playlist)

It's SUPER NICEEEEEEEEEE:DD

This whole week has been a very hectic week for me.
And it was like ages since I went out with my friends
!
GAH.
Trainings were fun,and interesting,all thanks to MR TOK!
But the actual cashiering work was way tougher than I thought.
You've got to check prices of fruits before work,count the float,greet customers,do the bagging of their shopping,thanks them,entertain to their questions,and deal with tough customers.
By the end of the day,you've got to count the total earnings(which can total up to thousands..)
declare the money,allow the chief cashier to acknowldge that the amount u counted is correct,before you can go home.
It's seriously not easy.
BUT,I will never give up.


HWAITINGGGG!!!

A very cute thai ad on smart purse card that I would like to share:) I love the dog to bits!

nuts over donuts

Ever since watching the thai advertisment on youtube,I have been craving for Dunkin Dounuts!
And finally!I had my fill at the Dunkin outlet at ion yesterday:)
It was seriously very nice..and god,watching all those thai commercials make me feel like flying back to Thailand instantly.
I miss miss Thailand to the CORE!
How I wish the flood didn't occur,and I didn't how to work..then I'll be there,enjoying my holiday,shopping with aunt,learning how to drive,playing with my cousins.
Yeah,it's all a WISH.

Still...I MISS THAILAND!

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Strangely,I found myself devoting my time to watching TEMPTATION OF WIFE!
Yes,it's another korean drama,but the genre of this drama's not the usual genre that I like to watch,which's-comedy and,romance.
Yet,it's appealing :) and I totally love the twist and turn of it!

P.S new moon wasn't as bad as I expected.It was pretty exciting after all.

Chop.
I'm going to chop off those feelings.(and my hair too)
I'm not going to think of that issue anymore.because the more I think,the more it hurts.
I had been hurt once,and I had enough.
Those feelings are NOT going to hurt me any more.
Just let go.

updates

Suprising,I'm really enjoying my holidays right now,and I don't want to end!
It's a pretty meaningful holiday,and I'm savouring every minute and second of it.
Well,the outings with my buddies included:
1.our exercise day at hort park and basketball.
2.picnic at marina barrage(which was a fiasco)
3.Karaoke at Party World KTV
4.Movie Marathon(not exactly,because we only watched like 2 movies..and one even cried while watching horror film--ORPHAN)
5.Window shopping and dine at Seoul Garden--SUCKS!

But, all these fun are going to end!
BECAUSE..
I'm starting work next Monday!
I know it'll be missing out all the fun and outings with my friends,but it'll be a totally new experience for me!
Gohonzon,I must enjoy it.




找谁？


我要找的人是你！

空空的

你问在我心中

是否还苦恼

那次受伤 否决了爱的好

谢谢你的关照

我一切都好

一个人 不算困扰

爱虽然很美妙

却不能为了寂寞又陷了泥沼

爱要耐心等待

仔细寻找

感觉很重要宁可空白了手

等候一次

真心的拥抱

我相信在这个世界上 一定会遇到对的人出现 在眼角

那次流过的泪 让我学习到

如何祝福 如何转身不要

在眼泪体会到 与自己拥抱

爱不是一种需要 是一种对照

爱虽然很美妙

却不能为了寂寞又陷了泥沼

爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找 感觉很重要宁可空白了手 等候一次 真心的拥抱

我相信在这个世界上 一定会遇到对的人出现

能愿意为了一份爱付出去多少然后得到多少 并不计较

当我想清楚的时候我就算已经准备好

放手去爱 海阔天高

-戴爱玲，对的人。

有时真得很想去接受也很像不管这么多，放手去做心里头很想做的事。

但是往往，事情没我想象的单纯。

况且，我们也得顾虑到身旁人的感受。

怎么说，做人不要那么自私嘛。

但是，回想起来，我如果现在不做，将来就必定会后悔。

那我该怎么做才好？

放心，我只的并不是伤天害人或犯法的事。

desperate

I'd got nothing to blog about.
Still,I just feel like blogging.

I am so confuse that I don't even know what's happening inside me.
I got a very mixed feeling that I never had before.
说真的，我真得很乱，巴不得想让自己放个假。

好想念泰国的亲人，即那儿的空气和美食。

恨不得马上飞回那里。远离新加坡这繁华的都市，这个让人空虚的的城市。

有时，做梦都会梦见婆婆煮的咖喱呢~

can't stop we won't stop

i'm so happy right now

because,

it's finally heading somewhere

(18th nov)
2 days before was my prom.And suprisingly,it turned out to be okay.Though things were unplanned,and I didn't get to take enough pictures with my buddies,I wan't feeling that moody that I thought I would.
I arrived late,in fact,very late from the expected time for prom comm members.Besides,I seriously felt that I didn't even deserve to sit with the comittee members,given the extreme minute of work produced from me.I am nothing,as compared to the others.

The food was okay,the games were great,and the programmers didn't screw up,but i wan't really enjoying myself until the last part-where the dance floor opened.At that moment,I really wished yanni and yoanne were here.Then yoanne will dance like crazy!hahas:)
But still I was glad to have hyper meiling with me,and kim too!:D
However,it was disappointing to hear that my buddies were going home so soon.
I didn't want the night to end!
So si en and I went to take pictures with other friends and classmates.
si en!thanks for the company:)
It was really memorable.
Running after the bus in my 3 inch heels.
Walking along Clark Quay in the wee hours(though I was really afraid).
Eating at mac at 1 plus.
Detaching from the disappointment that there was no K box in cathay.
Those were the memories that I'll never forget.
The day would be even more perfect if we got to sing K, or catching 2012.
But still,I'm satisfied enough:)
Thanks mum for allowing me to stay up so late.
Reached home at 2,slept at 4.45


p.s how I wished that the particular moment would last, forever.

PROM

Actually,I'm not looking forward to prom at all.
There's so many last minute things going on,and things arn't going the way I planned.
And I don't like last minute stuff.

But,life's like that,full of little ironies.

FRESH

The letters were here.
Letters that are suppposed to inform me about the NPP.
Though I excited,but I'm feeling jittery all over.
what will it be like entering an unknown land without your friends?
what will I do if I got detest by other people?and they gang up againest me?
I don't have yanni by my side,speaking up for me,neither do I have yoanne to defend me.
YY will not be there to slap high five with me,instead I have to be all alone by myself.

I'm afraid.

The feelings is really 依依不舍.
Unlike the feelings I had when I was leaving primary school.
I can't bear to leave clementi primary then,because I felt out of place,I felt that I'm so fat and ugly that nobody likes me.In short,I just had no self esteem.
But now,it's different.I felt that I belong to Queenway,I belong to my group of friends,and they are my backbone.Talk about leaving the school,leaving my friends.

CHALET:

3 days 2 night was actually meant to be set aside for chalet.
But instead, we left earlier than intended.(we meaning yanni, yoanne, si en and I)
The class wan't really bonded as expected,with guys indulging themselves in games and majhong while girls playing with UNO card games.
Besides,the BBQs turned out to be kind of like a total disaster.
(Shall not elaborate further)
But the second day did got a bit better:)
Had breakfast at mac(and deep inside I was praying so hard that I'll get sentosa cove,but of course I......didn't,if not I won't be blogging here but sitting on a JET plane flying to Dubai or some other place!)
After rounds of UNO games,I went to bathe.AND had a great time singing in the bathroom:D
We cooped ourselves in the room,chatting:)
UNTIL,xinghao,mahe and amrit invite us to their game of water bomb:D
It was pretty fun,grouping with ligui amrit xinghao mahe and si en:) , though the water bombs are really disgusting.
Imagine milo with marigold orange juice, and teriyaki sauce as bombs><
But i think the greatest part of the day was the times at K BOX!!!!
Thanks to my zi high-ing while shouting the lyrics to one of mayday's song,
I got a sorethroat-.-

Pictures on facebook.
Will upload pictures of yoanne in blog:D

BUSYYY

God I can't wait to rest.

I'm sooooooooo tired!

I need a rest.i need a rest.

I NEED A REST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FINALLY

soka FD meeting:)

I FINALLY got my prom dress,after what it seems like ages!
I think the feeling is magic,when you first spotted it,and you can feel like "YES!that is the one!"
yeah,and I got mine at OG,after going to vivo,ion,jurong point.
So, i left a clutch,shoes and accessories to shop for.


Sometimes i really wonder if it's all worth it.
Paying $60 to enter the raffles town club,$84 for the dress,and there's still going to be more cash escaping out my piggy bank,and to spend all this for prom night.Not to mention the time spent looking around for my prom dress too.

Cross my fingers and tell myself that i'll enjoy the night to the maximum!



p.s happy birthday MICHELLE and AGNES!!!

it's all coming to an end

Very soon,only memories will be left.Years down the road, I'm afraid I'll never see them again.Okay okay,it's getting negative.But somehow,I'm really afraid.We are all going in our own paths in life,after prom,after chalet.Yoanne going to some faraway land,yanni,yinyi and other friends going to a complete different course from me,sabrina going to jc..And I really doubt if we will wave a friendly 'hi' when meet along the streets.Sometimes,you wish to reconnect with the person,but they just seemed to erase all the memories they had with you and move on.

Alrights,away from those negative thoughts.

The most important now is-I NEED TO GET MY PROM DRESS!!

GAHH.There's like so much to do):