Last night I lost my best friend in the world.
She has been the most consistent relationship in my whole life, I have
lived with her longer than any one person – even my Mum. She has always been
such a character I would talk to her and she would answer back. She would cuddle
me like a small child, nestling under my chin, and the harder I squeezed her the
louder she would purr.
She was always a very sweet natured and cuddly cat. Right up to the end she
would be sitting beside me occasionally pawing at me for pats and remained to
the end very headstrong and very determined if she wanted to do something or be
somewhere! We had a very close relationship.
For a while now she has had a cancerous tumour growing in her nose. It
became apparent a few weeks ago and her symptoms for the last 6-8 months now
make some sense.
So yesterday I had to make THAT decision, the one I NEVER wanted to have to make
- the decision to let her go. So many people told me “you’ll know when”. Well I
didn’t really know when but I suspected she was in pain and I could not let that
go on.
This was –so– not the way I wanted us to part - not that I would ever be
ready to say goodbye. I would have another 19 years gladly.
I feel so empty inside, I feel like I have lost a limb.
It was such a privilege to have you in my life Miss J, I love you to the
moon and back sweet girl and you will live on in my heart forever, XXX
