Giving Up?

Its not that I have anything that important to say anyway? Or that I have any amount of time to write anything that important? I thought when I started this adventure that it would be so much easier to use the computer to put my thoughts on, but I was wrong...I think that it is much harder than it looks.

It is not that I am afraid of writing its just that it isn't the easiest way for me to use because the computer is in the bonus room, which is constantly being used by the rest of the family. Its loud and hard to concentrate..most of the time everyone is in there, I am distracted and things just don't keep my train of thought. I know that it doesn't take anything special to keep up, but I have kept a journal forever...and this I could use as a journal but its not the same thing?

I think until I have a better feel for this...I am going to take a little break from writing here..actually I already have, its been how long since I have written .. since march??? anyway...it just confirms that my skills aren't up to what my expectations of myself are and until I have improved in all the areas I want to it seems pointless for me to keep this up. Everyone here at home keeps laughing at my attemps to use this anyway...maybe its best to stop this now..and learn a little more before I try this again. Thanks for listening to me..going on an on about everything and nothing...

Where have I been?

I know its been since forever since I have blogged! I guess that is what I have been calling this? I have been doing tons of stuff just not this however. I am so bogged down with the every day stuff that I have been mostly shut off from the extra things like this blog( they just don't happen) I am sorry to say? I am trying to catch up now with some of things that I really like to do but its like everything you do, one day at a time.

One of my very best friends called me shortly after the new year with some very bad news. She is one of the most wonderful,strong, dedicated, talented and beautiful women I know and have been privileged to have in my life. She has always been there for me and I really want to be there for her, but she is one of those people that makes it almost impossible for you to do anything for them. Aside from the fact that she lives in Arizona which also makes it harder to be with her, she seems to at least be accepting help from some of the other people in her life, which makes me feel like she is making some improvements. And I know that it is hard on her and she has written to me and told me of her struggling with the whole of it, and that it is as much a trial to her as well. We are keeping in touch as much as possible now, and every time I hear from her so far the news seems to be OK, but so far that is all that they know? And that is how it will be for a time to come. It is a game of patience, and that is something she has to learn, She thinks it is something that God is making her go through for her own good. I don't know if that is why? I 'm not sure if that is the way we are suppose to learn these things. But I do know that God loves us and he is there for us. I want to be there for her and I know that she knows I am ,when she needs me she will call me, and I will come.

IT IS SPRING.....and the weather is great! I love it when the sun is out and the sky is blue not necessarily when it is burning hot, but just nice! I love to be out in the yard, planting flowers and sitting in the swing, reading a book. Or going to the beach sitting out on the sand, and listening to the water and reading a book. It is awesome when the clock moves ahead an hour and we pick up the hour of more light and I love it when we can have light later into the evening. For some reason we seem to get more done. Or at least I do. Bring it On!!!! It won't be long and Summer will be here. I'm not sure I want it to be hot just yet but I sure love sunny California!!!!

looking ahead

With christmas behind me I am starting to feel like a new person...I can actually take a breath! But not for long, I am sure that there will be something else for me to do. There is always something else...I can't believe that its been so long since I have been able to sit down and just relax and actually I am not really relaxing I am just pretending to relax. 

Just before Christmas our newest addition to the family was born. Raechal and Toby had a baby boy which they named Abram Edwin Carron, he weighed in at 10 lbs. 1 oz. and was 21 inches long. He has dark hair and is a really good baby so far. Raechal is doing really good and things are getting back to normal around here...well about as normal as can be expected I suppose. 

The whirlwind of things came as Christmas was just around the corner from when we brought little Abram home...Scott and Ashley got here from Flagstaff  two days before Christmas and it was so fun to have them around and enjoy their company. Christmas was very fun watching the kids open all their gifts, I always get a kick out of seeing them go from  gift to gift not really looking at anything that they are opening. I think Christmas makes me kind of sad too, maybe its because I wish that I was still a kid and I could still have that same feeling when I open things up? I have this let down thing that always happens to me at the end of the day...that makes me feel like I wish that we didn't have to have Christmas?? and I really hate that feeling...We invited Ashley's family over for Christmas dinner again, that was a really fun afternoon, it seems like they are becoming more and more comfortable with us now. I am glad about that! We really like them. Scott & Ashley had to leave for Flagstaff on Monday however, something about a  job? Darn that reality check! The food was way to good and there was way to much of it, I know that the first of the year is coming and those new year resolutions that we all make are really going to have to stick this year!! 

We are looking forward to our other Rachel having her baby in the next few weeks! And she is wishing that it would just come as fast as possible? I wish that it was here so she would already be holding that sweet little boy, but he will be here before we know it.

  The time has gone by so quickly...Shelby will be returning to school on the 9th of Jan. I am already missing her and she hasn't left yet? It has really been fun to have her home for awhile. I know that she is doing well at school and that she is liking it in Flagstaff it still makes me a little sad when she leaves? Guess thats 'cuz she is still my last one at home? Oh well...I still have 12 more days...she's not gone yet! 

With New Years just a few days away I am thinking of all the things I want to do in 2010! Start making your lists....hoping that it will be better for everyone!

I hate Daylight savings time

Not that I am a complainer or anything but daylight savings time..yuk!!! I think why does it have to happen anyway??? Why can't we do it like Arizona does it. Like they don't do it!! I have never ever understood the reason why we do it in the first place. It seems to me that we get sun either in the morning hours or we get sun in the afternoon hours and when would you rather have more of the sun? I would much rather have them in the afternoon hours. When I feel like I can get more out of my day. The last little bit of light that makes me feel like I can accomplish just a little bit more . That's what I would want. But no.... we have to turn the clock back and loose that extra hour of light. I just hate it. It makes the day seem so short and dark before it needs to be. It makes every one grumpy! Don't you feel like that. It makes you feel like you can't do as much??I hate it!! I like that we are already into November though and the days and the nights are getting much more tolerable. I love the coolness and the fall colors. The subtle changes that make it nice to be in California in the winter. It doesn't snow here but it does have its winter and we like it that way. Although we could use some rain. I do love the rain. And I want to have a nice rainy season so next year we won't have to worry about the drought situation. But you never know in California when it will rain or how much? So we can only hope it will!

Shelby will be coming home for Thanksgiving soon, yippee!!! I love Thanksgiving, all the family comes over and the food and fun we all have is just wonderful. WE all enjoy it so much. And we look forward to each year. Not everyone will be home for the holiday and we will miss them but  we understand that not everyone can come for different reasons. WE still love them and send them our love and best wishes for the holiday. 

We were just in Utah for our granddaughter Raeley's baptism. She was so excited and we were so excited for her. She looked so beautiful in her white dress and we were so proud of her as she took this great responsibility on to become a member of our church. She is a great example to her younger sister and brothers and  a great helper to her mom and dad. They are very proud of her too! 

While in Utah we had a chance to reunite with some dear friends of ours. It is always fun to meet up with friends you haven't seem for some time and talk about the good'ole days. I'm not so sure the restaurant we were in totally appreciated the time and the tables we were taking up but they didn't seem to notice and we didn't care either. We did learn one thing while we were in Utah and that is that it had been way too long since we had seen our friends and that we should do it more often. I totally agree!

Fall is in the Air

Finally the air is starting to feel cooler, thank goodness! I was starting to think we were going to just skip fall and go straight to winter. Is that possible? Anyway...glad that the evenings are colder and the days seem to be not as hot. I can finally start to get more things done. That hot weather just takes it out of me. I can't seem to fight through it like I used to be able to do. Plus, the air conditioning is just too hard to leave and go into a super hot garage and work. Yuk! 

I have a bizzillion things on my list, which usually means that I won't be able to get everything done that I want to, but I will have to start somewhere, and if the list is long it somehow makes it easier for me to pick and choose the things that need to get done first? That probably only makes sense to me?

 Oh well..October is not usually my favorite month. Halloween always is a hard holiday for me to enjoy for some reason. Maybe as a child my mother didn't let me have the candy or something , I 'm not really sure why its never been a fave, but I never look forward to it. This year we will be leaving a few days before and going to Utah for our first Granddaughter's(Raeley) Baptism.Which will be on Halloween day in the morning. She will definitely remember her Baptism day for the rest of her life! Funny that it has to be on that day? But it is. So it will be a different Halloween for us this year than it the past.We'd better take all our warm clothes though its already snowed in Utah, it could be an early winter? We will be in Utah so all the cousins will be trick or treating together, which will be a first. That will be really fun for them, they don't get to see each other that often. It will also be fun for me because Shelby will be coming up to it also. We will be missing Scott& Ashley though due to them not being able to get off work. But working is good. I haven't seen Shelby since we dropped her off in August and it will be nice to give her a hug. I know thats just a mom thing. Hard when those babies leave home no matter how old they are, it still takes some time to get used too!

 I love Fall, the leaves turn color (although here in Ca not very many trees turn color) the weather changes, it gets dark earlier(which I hate) Things slow down a bit. I love the fall because I can start making soups again. I love a good bowl of soup. And trying new recipes is fun...especially on Sundays when we have the family over. I'm not sure that they always appreciate my skills as a chef, although I haven't heard much from them on the whole dislike thing, they could do the cooking?

what do Dr's Know?

   We just thought Josh & Rachel were having a girl....they are really having a BOY

now....updating the ultra-sound yesterday. Wow...someone had that one way wrong and it was kind of sad because once you start to think about that tiny little baby growing inside of you ...you start to like who he or she is? Its not like they have a choice or anything.... they are having a boy!! And Josh is very excited that he will now have 3 boys. I am still in shock about the whole thing. I never really gave it much thought. It is kind of funny that Josh will have all boys!! Not that boys are just the best to raise or anything, but he will definitely get a run for his money. Now that is something that just warms my heart. The one that I really feel sorry for is Sydney...she will be the only girl for a long while around here amongst all these little boys. We will all have to make sure she doesn't get beat up on too much. Or she will have to learn how to defend herself one or the other.

       The end of the summer is fast appproaching and school is starting for everyone. We

 finally got Shelby up to Flagstaff. I think it was traumatic more for me than it was for her.

 I am sure she will do just fine and will love being in a beautiful new place. I on the other

 hand will have to get used to the fact that now that all my children are raised my life is not over? I only thought that we would be empty nesters, but no sooner had we moved Shelby 

out the door when Raechal & Toby and Kids moved in. We are happy to have them it actually makes things not so quiet around here. A lot not so quiet!!! But really...they will be with us for awhile until things turn around financially for them and for us. Times are tight right now for everyone and we felt it was a good time to combine households and see if we could help each other out for a time. Sacrifices on both sides have been made and we will all make the best of this together. So far....So good!!! 

       We were just saying that the summer didn't seem to be as hot as it usually is? And what happpens??  The heat is on!!!!  It is just crazy how hot it has been this last week and it seems

 no end is in sight? I can't wait to see the electric bill this month? Yikes!!!! I really hate it when it gets this hot, I feel physically sick. It makes me not want to do anything but lay down. I know that sounds silly but...its really does make me feel like that. I am trying to ignore it but I am not doing so good at it. I find myself wishing for fall. The only thing I don't like about that is the loss of light so early in the evening. I just wish that we didn't have to turn back the clocks. I think that is the dumbest rule. 

Why not?

Time just goes by way too fast! I have decided that it would just be a lot easier if I just didn't try as hard to find the time to keep up with everything then maybe I wouldn't get so far behind with everything I am trying so hard to keep up with? Wow!! Did that make any sense? Probably not

 I am still recovering from the fact that its July and its already half way over. I haven't even started feeling like I have accomplished much this month and the list is growing in leaps and bounds for next month. Soon company will be knocking at our doors and the list of things to do will go on the back burner. Oh well....I would gladly squeeze my grandchildren than work on those lists of things anyway. Except that I have to send Shelby off to college at some point and she would probably like to have a few things when she goes? Oh...we still have August I suppose but it will be here before we can blink. We are going to  have to be very efficient once the company leaves or we will be in big trouble. 

The results are in...Raechal is having a boy...and Rachel is having a girl...or at least that is what the ultra-sounds are telling us? And the have moved Rachel's due date up to mid January. Well...we will be seeing blue and pink how fun is this going to be. And what a shock that is going to be for Josh? He will get used to it(and love being the daddy of a little girl)! He just doesn't know it yet. We are excited for both of them. 

My sister and I have been doing a little genealogy work lately. It has been fun getting back into it I must admit. Although it does take hours and hours. That is why I stopped doing it along time ago. It is such a commitment. And I started doing other stuff. I just need to do alittle here and there so I don't get burned out this time. That's the key I think. I still like scrapbooking and  all the other stuff that I do. Its just finding time to do it all!