I don't like injections

Have never liked injections, and will never be calm in the face of the needle....

Went for a biopsy few days ago at National Skin Centre, to find out the cause of my rash...had to be injected before the surgery and boy was it painful. Guess the doc was trying to calm me when she said it wouldn't be painful.

ok, it wasn't painful when the needle went in but seconds later it was super hot and painful ok!!!! and the injection took about 10 seconds, so long!!! All the while I was looking at the clock above just to countdown to when the pain would stop.....freaking scary.

Now I have a 5mm scar on my thigh....sigh.....no more mini skirts for me, damn!

30th November 2006

Thanks dear for the beautiful Tulip. You managed to surprise me, good job, well done! haha..

And Happy 7th Monthlyversary! Love ya..

If you know me....

Was reading all my Friendster testimonials just now....realised a "trend" in them. Those who know me really well will start off saying that at first they thought I was a gentle and sweet gal, BUT after knowing me for some time.....they realised I was actually not quite the gentle and demure deer. Rather, they found me quite CHATTY, CRAZY, 38, FIERCE....etc etc..to go on with the list will only serve to deter any potential suitors from messaging me...keke joking la Eric.... =)

Well, they are RIGHT! haha....I don't know why but I tend to be GENTLE AND SWEET ONLY TO STRANGERS OR ACCQUAINTANCES. To close friends, I can't help but be myself, the chatty and 38 gal.

So, the next time you get to know me better, please don't be too shocked when I show you the other side of me. It only goes to show that you have upgraded yourself to be my close friend! =)



Gentle and sweet when posing for pictures...











































Crazy when shopping.....Eric next time don't let you hold on to the camera liao...only take ugly pics of me!!!

SEXPO

Got a call from Clio at the last minute yesterday, asking me if I wanna work at Suntec's Sexpo. For those who are not familiar, Sexpo is a SEX Exhibition, a 3-day event that is educational and entertaining.

Being super broke and super free after exams, I agreed to take on the job...just wished that I did not have to give out condoms! Luckily, my job was just to station at the "Changing Room" where people pay to change into different kinky costumes and take pictures! Cool rite...haha...plus I can get to see some bods!

Maybe because it was a Friday, so there was not much crowd at my station...but nonetheless, there were some pretty interesting characters* (pun not intended) which showed up at the Changing Room.

For a start, it's hard to get people to come into the Changing Room. Once you approach couples and tell them they can change into costumes to take pictures, the following scenarios could happen:

1. The gal will take 2 steps back and say "no no no" while the guy lets out a cheeky laugh.

2. The guy will take 2 steps back and say "no no no" while the gal lets out a cheeky laugh.

3. The gal will ask the guy "you want anot?" while flashing her cutest smile....

4. The guy will ask the gal "you want anot? while giving her a horny look....

OR, you could get uncles standing outside the Changing Room, hoping to get a glance at any exposed flesh. For these people, I adopted a matter-of-fact attitude.

"Uncle, want take photo? Can wear sexy costume to take. Must pay $5. Want? Come la."

Sounds crude, but usually this will make them go away. I did say usually....some just don't give up, they will actually go inside and take a look at the costumes! Goodness....If my dad is like that I will ask my mom to divorce him!!!

Wanna go into the details of the different couples who came into the Changing Room, some were really hilarious...but I scared kenna defamation suit la so better not write here. If you wanna know come ask me haha!

Or ask any of my colleagues: Ivy, Hong Ming and Roger

By the way, wanna know which station has the longest queue? Pole dancing room.....pay $5 go inside see gals dance for 3 min also shiok....haiz....

Sexpo is on for 3 days, starting on the 24th of Nov 2006. Can get free condoms! While stocks last!

KTV after exams!

Yo yo see her face is smaller than her palm! keke...

Taking a break from singing...

Outside toilet oso must take pics!

My act cute buddies haha...

Here she goes again...


Where is PQ? How to have perfect pic without you?? Too bad Huiqun not around....still mugging for her exams!

Thanks gals for a great night out! And Happy Birthday to Huiting!! Please go KTV with me more often, I need more trainings....

Eric! Please brush up on your Mandarin! Can't even read the characters on screen how to sing!

Eric, Check this out!

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself You're the perfect blend of independent and caring You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

Glad I'm not Angelina Jolie

You Are Jennifer Aniston

Girl next door with a free spirit.You're low key and naturally sexy.Sweet and approachable, people are attracted to your upbeat attitude.And even when life doesn't go your way, you always eventually turn things around.

Are You More Like Jennifer or Angelina?

I am more mild than wild

You Are More Mild Than Wild

You're confident, and you really aren't concerned with how "hot" you are.Other people's ideas of what's sexy don't concern you. And this is exactly what makes you attractive.

Are You Hot?

Oops..my secrets revealed!

What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You

You are a very considerate person, but that doesn't mean you let people walk all over you. You spend a lot on clothes, and you tend to be a very dresser. However, it's hard for you to throw away trendy clothes when they go out of style. You have the perfect blend of confidence and class. You're proud of who you are - but you don't broadcast it. In relationships, you tend to be very romantic and demanding. You'll treat your partner like gold, but you expect a lot in return.

What Do Your Bathroom Habits Say About You?

Fighting for my last paper

Finally down to just one paper before I can free myself from the ulu NTU hostel! Although I can't wait for the 22nd to come, I'm fighting to finish all the lecture notes and readings.....

Alone studying in hostel on a rainy Sunday night, suddenly reminds me of a chinese idiom, or proverb-whatever.

十年寒窗无人哓 ,

Literally, it means nobody cares when you study alone beside a cold window for 10 years. The next line goes...

一举成名天下知。

But when you become successful, everyone knows.

I don't really care if no one knows I am studying (whether I put in enough effort into my studies is a different matter haha), but I hope I will be successful in future. Don't have to let everyone know when that happens though, not at all important.

So here I am, taking a break from my notes...now time to get back to that cold window. Just a few more days...not 10 years...so hang on Pam!

Easy vs Difficult

Easy is to judge the mistakes of others
Difficult is to recognize our own mistakes

Easy is to talk without thinking
Difficult is to refrain the tongue

Easy is to hurt someone who loves us.
Difficult is to heal the wound...

Easy is to ask for forgiveness
Difficult is to forgive & forget

Easy is to set rules.
Difficult is to follow them...

Easy is to dream every night.
Difficult is to fight for a dream...

Easy is to show victory.
Difficult is to assume defeat with dignity...

Easy is to admire others.
Difficult is to content with ourselves...

Easy is to stumble with a stone.
Difficult is to get up...

Easy is to enjoy life every day.
Difficult is to give its real value...

Easy is to promise something to someone.
Difficult is to fulfill that promise...

Easy is to say we love.
Difficult is to show it every day...

Easy is to criticize others.
Difficult is to improve oneself...

Easy is to make mistakes.
Difficult is to learn from them...

Easy is to weep for a lost love.
Difficult is to cherish it when it is around.

Easy is to think about improving.
Difficult is to put it into action...

Easy is to think bad of others
Difficult is to give them the benefit of the doubt...

Easy is to receive
Difficult is to give

Easy to read this
Difficult to follow

Easy is keep the friendship with words
Difficult is to keep it with actions

How many easy things have you done today?

Sleepless nights

It's 4 am and I'm sitting here wondering what I can do to pass time....ended up blogging. Have nothing to blog about though, just typing my way to lala land....

My dear is soundly asleep, watching him in deep sleep is kinda comforting....and watching him scratch himself is simply amusing keke....I know you gonna get me for this! keke...

Dear is tossing and turning in his sleep...must be because he is sleeping on a dreadfully thin mattress, causing his extremely generous and sexy butt to hurt badly wahaha....xin ku ni le dear! Just one more semester and you don't have to sleep in my hostel anymore!!

I cannot sleep!!!!!! and I don't wanna read my textbook at this freaking hour!! Save me....

What would you be doing now if you were me?

What's your definition of happiness?

Many people find happiness in friends, in the work they do, in their family, in their extravagant lifestyle, in toto and 4D, in scoring As for exams, in getting the latest handphones, in chasing after brands, in supporting their idols...the list goes on...

Then what's your definition of happiness?

Been in kinda deep thoughts lately, again missing the days when my grandma was around, being forced to stay up with me as I mug for the exams, oh ya and forced to caress me to sleep....keke...evil...

And was thinking of my definition of happiness. Realised I had it, yes I am truly happy! It's been quite awhile since I felt truly happy, and be glad for me now because I have found happiness- something everyone seeks after but few have grasped. I also realised that I can lose my grasp on it.

So difficult to find, yet too easy to lose. That's happiness.

What's my source of happiness you ask? Well, it's simply realising I have so many people who loves me and so many people I could show love for. My family, my friends (you know who you are....my true friends, those who will miss me and stick on my side no matter what...) and most of all, my dearest boyfriend.

My dearest boyfriend....it's happiness for me when I see you fall deeper and deeper in love with me. You might not say it, but your actions show. Yes, I see it love, and I'm blushing with happiness. Thank you for loving me the way you do. We might not be in the ideal world right now, but things could only get better. ;)

So difficult to find, yet too easy to lose. That's happiness.

I'm so afraid of losing my grasp on it one day. It is simply too easy. One consolation though, I'm in control. I can choose to lose it, or I can do my best everyday to hold on to it.

But for now, I'm glad to be holding on to it. You should too, if you have found happiness that is.

Love is when...

Love is when you run your fingers through my hair just b4 I doze off to sleep
Love is when you talk to me in the softest tone you’ve ever known
Love is when you tidy my room while I’m away for lessons
Love is when you comfort me every time I have Monday blues
Love is when you let me have my nonsense on those days
Love is when you spend a whole day making my birthday card
Love is when you give me massages even though you needed them more
Love is when you left Doraemon on my desk
Love is when we laugh at our own jokes
Love is when we watch Liverpool vs Man U
Love is when we play netball together
Love is when we go Bangkok together
Love is when we talk about joining Amazing Race together
Love is when we stick to each other everyday and night
Love is when every time we go clubbing, you hug me so tight
Love is when everything I do, you say I’m cute!

Love is when I love you the way I’ve never loved anyone before

How do I spell love?
Eric.

You learn something new everyday

keke...I learnt something new today in CS401 lecture!

"Tea-bagging" Go check it out if you do not know what it means. Hint Hint: Related to sex

haha my media ethics lecture is getting more and more interesting...

You know there is this 'humming vote' in the lecture, which originated from Harvard University, according to my Prof who studied there. So instead of raising your hands to vote when you are asked a question, everyone will just hum. Cool rite..haha

More on my results...

wahahahaha....seems like my results ain't so bad afterall. My score was the same as the mean score! Phew....at least now I have the motivation to study for the finals.

Wish me luck!

Results.....

The dreaded result is out. My mid-term paper. (What were u thinking of?)

Didn't do well. Tricky MCQs. Hmm...but the result seemed fair, considering I only studied for it in 2 days and I went clubbing that weekend before! Haha...no choice, since the paper fell on my birthday!

Oh I have a name for my theory- Pamelogy.

Mr. Bartender is now taking a degree in Pamelogy. Let's just say he will graduate in....6 years time? haha..hopefully he does so with 1st class honours!

And I forgot to reference my theory. Here it is:

Testicality. 10 August, 2006, from http://mydivineintervention.blogspot.com, Suresh Nair et al.

oops!

OOPS!

Sorry dear, I mistook your surprise. Didn't expect the hand-made card from you, it's absolutely beautiful and sweet. I love it a lot and promise you I'll treasure it. Thanks for the ice-cream cake too, though it melted away in the fridge haha!

Been a great birthday, with my closest friends celebrating it with me at The Mind Cafe. Great place. You can play board games and have fun all night long over there. It's a great place to catch up too, because all ice will be broken as soon as the games start! Looking forward to another session there gals!

This will be the last time

Let me make things clear- If you still do not know, I have absolutely no patience with people who do not/attempt to do what they promised they would do. If you do not bother to fulfill your promises, don't even make them in the first place!

If you cannot make it on time, let me know early. Don't give me false hopes and take it away at the 11th hour.

If you want me to trust you, prove it to me that you are dependable.

Pam's Theory- Can anyone help think of a name for it?

After reading Suresh's blog on his theory of "Neuro-Testicality", I have decided to come up with my own theory too. Unlike him, I am not going to patent it because I think it is important to share this theory with everyone- especially clueless guys, because this simple theory of mine can make this world a happier place.

My theory posits that it is possible to get out of an ugly situation with your girlfriend, with the right moves.

This theory works only on girls, so guys listen up!

This theory assumes the following:

1. Your girlfriend is 100% of the female species.

2. Your girlfriend is truly in love with you.

3. Your girlfriend likes to eat ice-cream. (yes, you read correctly...it is ice-cream)

4. You are truly in love with your girlfriend, if not- don't bother trying out this theory.

5. Your girlfriend is not a hard-core spoilt brat/ princess.

Ok, done with all the assumptions. Here goes my theory:

Say you are in the midst of a quarrel with your gf. You say sorry (and I assume you are truly sorry!), but she is still seething with anger. She refuses to look at you, talk to you nicely, or even let you touch her.

Feel like killing yourself? (You should be feeling this way if you fulfill assumption number 4.)

Fret not. There is a way out of this situation.

Next time this situation pops up (hopefully not, but you know, these things do happen quite often in a relationship), try the following line:

"Dear, Please don't get angry anymore, ok? I buy you your favorite ice-cream ok? Which flavour do you want?"

Important Note: Do not leave out any word from the above sentence. All the words have been carefully chosen for this theory of mine. All of them have a significant reason for being there. Do not question their usefulness.

Don't believe? Let me give you an example of the usefulness of the last sentence, "which flavour do you want?"

If you do not include this sentence, you essentially cut off the possible interactions with your gf. She could simply say "not ok!" when you say "I buy you your favourite ice-cream ok?"

By including the last sentence, you are in fact forcing her to accept your deal. Get it? Simple as that.

My theory posits that you have to find a way to allow your girlfriend a chance to show that she is not angry with you anymore. By simply saying "sorry" will not work because it would seem that she has to smile at you and be nice immediately after. In reality, this doesn't work because everyone needs time to cool off. Even though she might not be angry with you anymore, she does not know a way to show that to you. Hence, by simply using the above mentioned 3 sentences, you should be outta that ugly situation.....and happily licking ever after!

Good Luck.

Mid term exam on my Birthday!!

No happy birthday for me I guess.....I know it's gonna be a hard test, hopefully I won't flunk it. Otherwise would have to work doubly hard for the finals.

Shucks, no mood to study for it even though today is probaby the only day I have to study for it! Someone please heeelllppp me......why do I feel so tired and worn out? It's only the 6th week!

When you fall in love with Mr. Bartender

Ever wondered what will happen if you fall in love with Mr. Bartender? Well, this happened to me and I'll tell you what happens when Mr. Bartender becomes my boyfriend.

1. You'll get SMSes in the middle of the night telling you how much he misses you at work.

2. You'll get free entry into the club he works at. No need to Queue, woohoo!

3. You'll see how he lights up for a pretty lady as soon as she takes the cigarette out. Cool, yet professional.

4. You'll learn which genre songs fall into. I couldn't tell Trance from Euro Trash until Mr. Bartender came along.

5. You'll hear juicy stories about the things celebs do when they visit the club. Interesting.

Now here comes the most interesting part of the story....This is what happens when Mr. Bartender quits his job...

You'll get SMSes in the middle of the night---from a lady telling him how sad she is because she no longer gets free lychees from cute Mr. Bartender.

Can someone please tell the lady that she can get a big can of lychees in syrup from the supermarket at just a fraction of what she pays in the club for a glass of lychee martini.

Thank you. End of story.




I still love Mr. Bartender.

I still love the Tissue Flower he made for me.

I still love the way he loves me.

Whatever that will go wrong, WILL GO WRONG!

Remember last week Denise and I had to go down to SRC to book court for netball training last night? Remember how we had to coordinate everyone's timing to settle on wed (last night) to have a netball session.

Remember how heavy it rained last night.

Murphy's law thus stands.

Pam Pam's Birthday Wishlist

Wahaha...my time of the year is here again! September 18! Mark that on your calendar!

Here's a list of what I NEED. (Read: Need, not want! They are neccessities!!)

1. Ear rings stand/ holder ( I found one ear rings stand at Jurong Point, $29 only! Cheap Cheap!)
2. Jewellery box ( Alternative to no. 1)
3. Wallet ( I don't want long wallets...and no Renoma pls!)
4. A nice bag that I can bring to school or town
5. Laniege moisturiser/ essence
6. Burberry's Baby Touch perfume
7. A bracelet watch
8. A new Handphone (preferably Nokia's slide phone)
9. Dinner at Chijmes
10. Choinging session at MOS/Zouk
11. A birthday cake/ handmade card
12. A bouquet of Tulips!

Not too much to ask for right.....wahahaha...

If all the above does not work well for your wallet, all I need is just a "Happy Birthday Pam!", either via sms, email or best, face to face. I'm cool with that, REALLY.

If you have it, flaunt it!

If you happen to view Yahoo's webpage today, you would not miss this headline: No modesty for Paris

It went on to read: The reality star says she loves her new album: "I, like, cry when I listen to it, it's so good."

My first reaction, like many others I would think, was to diss her off as acting like a bimbo again.

But hey! On second thoughts....her latest album sounds not bad, at least it is radio friendly! And there is nothing wrong in admitting that she likes her own album. If even she herself doesn't think it's nice, who would?! What I'm trying to get is: If you have it, flaunt it!

It's time to be proud of who you are or what you are capable of!
(Hmmm....feel kinda slim these days....maybe I'll wear that mini skirt to school tomorrow! haha!)

My legs- the best form of transport

Know what's the best form of transport now in NTU? My legs. They will not fail me. They will not make me wait at the bus stop (that is full of mosquitoes and god knows what kind of weird insects) for 30mins. They will not bring me one big round just to get to my destination.

Stupid shuttle bus service, changed so many times still result in the same inefficiency.

Anyway, I walked to Popular this afternoon. Mind you, I walked from Hall 14 under the hot sun! In the end, the textbook that I wanted to buy was out of stock! What the hell, and the guy who told me that didn't seem sympathetic at all! I guess he must be used to all the "what the hell"s that people "unknowingly" said out loud.

Went to SRC just now with Denise to book netball court for training. *Sigh* So troublesome, have to ask everyone which days are free for them to come down and play a game of netball. Why can't we have over-zealous netball gals in Hall 14? Poor me and Denise....hope it is all worth it in the end. (translate: hope all of them turn up for training!)

The person at SRC whom we booked the court with asked if I was the sports sec. (only sports sec can book SRC facilities.) I said "yes" without a blink of an eye (as usual...liar liar! hah!) But Denise, who was standing beside me, nudged me.

"Ke yi meh?" she asked.

Please la...those fat asses sitting in air con room at SRC are only there to enjoy the air con! Do you think they will really check my ID for confirmation?? Hell no! Besides...I look sporty enough to be a sport sec right? haha...

Haven't touched my readings at all today....should I go NUS later for netball? Hee..

Bangkok woes

On our way to Bangkok! Comfy seats on Tiger airways? Noooooooo....



Sick on the first night...haiz! This gave me a chance to "display" my nursing skills haha!




He was very excited at first...







Then he began to panic...














He surrenders.














A satisfied shopper...hehe..but this is just the beginning!











On our way to 2nd day of shopping.....
























Yes, you better eat more


Told you to eat more....haha



Yay! Bags and Bags of satisfaction laid out




Dead Dead Dead


and broke! wahahahhaa












This is only the 2nd day. I am not done yet! HAHA

To be continued...

Anyone wanna join me for a game of Netball?

Been awhile since I played Netball- my all time favourite ball game. Recently got into it again, thanks to my boyfriend cum Netball coach cum Netball umpire. Yea you might wonder if I got it wrong- is he my boyfriend or galfriend?? He is 100% testosterone-charged, I assure you! How did a guy like my boyfriend get into the Holy Netball Trinity (Player, Coach and Umpire) you ask? Well, that's another long story.....to be continued in another entry!

Back to me for now! Yes, I am finally back into the game. Feels great. Nothing can compare to the adrenalin rush I get from throwing good passes and making fake moves that leaves the defender wishing she had eyes behind her too! And, I simply love the "swooshing" sounds when I take long shots in the goal circle.

Happy as I may be, but I yearn for more than just recreational games every Thursday. My boyfriend has asked me to go for his club training in Tampines. CLUB Training?! The people there run faster than me, jump higher than me, throw better than me. In short, THEY are much better players. Much as I would like to "succumb" to my bf's persuasion that I could also train with THEM, I simply dread the idea of playing under such stressful situations where everyone else seems to be two notches above me!

Already I could feel the stress of playing alongside my bf on Thursdays. The speed he requires of me, the mental alertness, the strength and agility I should possess to keep up with his game...the list goes on. Phew!

Guess what I can do now is to brush up my skills on Thursdays...until I feel the time is right for me to join THEM.