yeah.. finally got back in Singapore.. man did i have a good time.. but while i'm having my splendid breather.. i didn't realise that the world is still turning.. that things are colliding.. that people are suffering...
it came as a shocker to me that the death tolls of that catastrophobic earthquake had caused... such a holler ! was really taken aback... i mean... you don't even know when you're going to die.. so... live life to the blardy fullest.. be it with whoever you love or so... just live it...

Cameron Highlands to me.. is like paradise..
freewheeling.. no worries... no plans or whatsoever.. just loafing.. haha... MY KINDA LIFE....
i'll be there again... memories abound.. but again my deepest condolescences to the dead and their family.

Black black christmas...

Oh yes ! by the next 24 hours i will not be in Singapore...
wheeeeeee this is part of my christmas getaway ! haha... never liked spending christmas in singapore. too much for me to take. it once occured to one of my brothers that if you see that someone walking with a bastard along orchard during christmas eve, can you take it ? so might as well evade !

well.. i guess it's a treat well deserved... for mugging so hard... for getting a considerably 'presentable' result... for.. for... staying alive... well... whatever... i mean...

this emotional part of me has settled down.. i'm no longer so romantically inclined to having an ideal sweetheart... instead.... i'm more like reluctant to even be bothered about such things anymore.... i'll just concentrate on what's there and whatever... friendship to me is eternal. while girls are indeed only bitches.

WhhEhEee

SmashiNg pumpkins ( MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE BAND )
ZeRO

whheee.. morrows gonna be a fun day.. or so i hope..
i'll be setting foot on pulau ubin.. for the first blardy time in 22 years... heh really would like to thank ryan and all those who organised this trip thingie... you guys rocks ! hah

ohh i've just turned 23.. yeah another step closer to my tomb.. anyway the idea of mass suicide really appeals to me... now any takers?
For all who wished me a happy birthday... thanks for remembering.. its so sweettt..
muacks to all of you, bihao, yuxian, felicia, yinyin, alicia, huiling xinpeng... and yeah
tseying of course..

finally all complications regarding the trip have been resolved, and i do look forward to the 23rd ! finally our annual trip thingie is back on track !

smiles...
Shawn Colvin - Sunny came home

yeah.. finally done with my exams.. in fact its been almost a fortnight since my last paper..
and i am here again...

been really doing nothing... and hell it sucks.. watched like don't know how many movies everyday.. heh thanks to my precious downloads....

hell.. life is you know kinda meaningless.. and i'm really looking forward to my cameron trip at the end of next month.. a big breather just before my hectic term starts again..

a big big shoutout to all those who knows me.. who treasures me as a friend or whatever... to all those i'd let down... I'm really sorry. To my mum.. i love you.
To tseying, hope you're doing really well now.. will try to message you again someday..

Smoochies and huggies..
Fear of the dark..

my my, what did i say ? didn't i say i won't be back till at least after 19 ? and its not even close.. in fact my exams hasn't even start !
for crying out loud, i am really perplexed. can someone tell me is there any really value in clinging onto a promise that the someone you made the promise to doesn't even care if you're still keeping it ? if its about principle hell yeah... but i don't know how should i relate it into words...

any missy cupid or mr love advisors around ? although i know its all craps and such but hey... soemtimes i do need a laugh or something.... i don't have the mood to mug let alone do many other things.. seriously speaking who in the world are we living for... or what are to living towards ? have you ever done anything in life to make yourself so proud that you can actually say h ey man i live this life once and its one hell of it.. catch any balla ? well ditto...

avoidance is just a mean of not falling for you. i've said it like so many times, until i myself can untie myself from this knot. this embargo will always be there. i know my actions have hurt you. I know i'm not right in doing so, but do you know how I feel ? it might be me playing puppet alone but its just me.. you know what i mean?

I don't wish to feel that piercing pain in me again, nor do i wish anyone to experience it. so let it go will I. cowardice maybe. images of you keep conjuring in my mind, but the past lives on. Peeping at you, hoping to see you around and sound just somewhat settles me abit. Fretting over your well-being when i don't see you around and frantically seaching for an answer to delude that unncertain mind... is that aKa love ? well, at least the images aren't as clear, i can see i'm letting it go. If things never get started, it'll never leave a mark. So why not we just don't start it.

at least yZ came up with an album, thats the very least of consolation i got from recent events.

I need to get back to my books soon. like plain staring at greeks or arabics help at all.
Well... only the lonely....

WwWEeee... its coming to t he end of the month again..
and guess what ! its some festive season again... and.... everyone's celebrating it !
itsssssssssssssssssssssss mUgFEST !

durh.... that was so pretty lame right ? o'right.. i apologise.

anyway... this would be the very last entry i'm gonna make prior to my exams... i'll be back probably after my exams... that'll be counting down.. about 3 weeks or so from now. just hanging on... STOP GRINDING THAT TEETHIE !

wosssh.. can someone please pull this lame jackarse outta me...
errr... subconsciously or so... everyone IS childish.. everyday i'm learning.. and i do learn even though its some very plain-jane comment. it made hell lotsa sense to me.
being childish at the right time is termed playful, and at the wrong time.. childish.. hah
sounds silly right? but just dig abit more into it... .it fully illustrates my personality...
^^

just gotten my confirmation of a study grant, no idea how much exactly i'll be getting, but it's certainly gonna tide me til at least next semester. and of course ERS i'm comming for ya... ^^
been hooked onto this ^^ thingie nowadays, because if you'd noticed me that is if you actually bothered, I'm not really into colloquials nor short hands, not to mention those smiley thingies, but hey... this ^^ thing is really cool.. my 2 cents only

i'm bored.. was thinking of penning a chronicle for the seven stars... gotten some inspiration.. but still saearching.... guess it'll take some time... well... ^^

rceently , i think i did my group of friends some wrong... i mean i am in a wrong.. but i know they do not mind it but it's boggling me... its just my gooky personality... i don't liek to explain things. and i do not rebutt any false accusations thrown onto me... maybe it's just my fantasy... my idea of friends are someone who knows me... someone you know with some ceertain degree of telepathy.. that even with a fart.. you know who i'm driving that at... i don't know what i'm blabbering about... but thats just me.

i once told a friend.. i can't really recall.. that as a person.. you DON'T change yourself to suit the environment, rather you change the environment to suit yourself. think about it.. think i've stress on this point to some of my friends more than once.

this point about being self-centred, i'd pointed out... everyone is self-centred.... now you might argue... " i only care about my friends, i do things for my friends because i really care about what they think of me." or whatever..... noticee the big ME behind? slapping your own blardy face ? no offense to you if you read my blog... but you should know.. i AM THAT STRAIGHT.

one final thing to all you nothing better to do niggers.
PLEASE FOR FUCK'S SAKE, WHEN I SAY YOU DON'T NEED TO KNOW, OR SIMPLY WHEN I TELL YOU I DON'T WANNA FUCKING TELL YOU, please stop pestering me.
if there's a need for you to know. i WILL TELL YOU. goooks.

signing off,
I apologise

its the end of the month AGAIN ! as promised i've returned to try to vandalise to woeful blog again. but hey.. its MINE and its my choice. wasn't really very keen on writing but a promise is always golden. no one reads it anyway.. but me alone ? but heeck... it doesn't bother me now.. does it ?

woooosh... can't really recall what happened for the past month.. just that i've managed to pulled past it.. you know... i really hope the incident will come to a naught now. i've got a 6 points demerit, and a fine of 200. do they really want me to pay for the god damnn fucking tree ? don't drive me up the wall please.. you mofos..

nothing happened to irks me that much.. that i wanna spill it out here...
but again GOD BLESS to all who helped me through this tide....

everyone, minna-san, da jia.... WO AI NEEEEEEEEEE

exams nearing and quizzes abound... i'll strive hard now... i'll stop warcraft. i'll stop playing for wcX... ^^

till i see you again.... ciao next month.

Velvet revolver... SLItHHheR

Counting down.. its already the end of the month. And as I looked back.. my last post was actually wow.. exactly on the first day of the month. Seemed long.. 29 days to be exact.. but time flies.. who doesn't admit that ? Perhaps its just me alone? but hell it ain't gonna bother me anyway. As i'd said... time flies.. a month has passed.. and so i would say a month since that fricking crash. I've been mugging endlessly.. trying to catch up... time's never enough to do things...
and yet people are still sleeping...
and why ? i love to sleep.. i'll trade anything for a good night's sleep now. waking up at seven for lectures isn't a fun thing to do. but i have to make up for lost ground. everything is really in my hands. i shan't disappoint anyone again.
Without fail.. lotsa happenings again.. probably why i refused to blog nowdays was perhaps.. i had nothing to write.. or maybe i'd prefer to write everything down in a go.
Lets see ... maybe i'll hit a top ten lists for month of august.
1) Yuxian's class 3 got revoked.
2) Yuan's no longer an evil man again.
3) The guys are finally going to dive !
4) Andy got married...
5) Walter's back in Singapore.
..... 1000000000 ) I still miss tseying...

Its hard really... I mean... Why in the world would she call me up again... when i think i'm really slowly forgetting her... does the world always have to be such a bitch.
Then again... I think i was resolute enough.. though its true.. that.... my heart melted...
I have to prioritise things.. but i'm really glad she actually asked for my well-being..
touched really.... for i thought she would errrrr ignore me forever... she still has my number... GOODNESS !

i'm still trying my utmost to buck up on my studies.. Its really tough in the university. And for the first time in my whole fucking life.. i'm struggling with Mathematics. Yeah... with integers like 0s and inifinities... its driving me crazy... try proving 1 + 1 = 2 and tell me how it feels...

Life has been great ! got to know a bunch of good pals in school as well.. All of them are reallly helpful... with my work or whatever... bless all of you....I mean God will bless you....
I've mellowed... or so I guess... since the van accident... i really wished for everything to be well...
stone age would be nice...

Really love whining about here.. sometimes pouring out what I really truely feel... you know... sometimes its hard to tell someone something... or everyone one thing.... or is it just me ?

Life in hall would be nice... seriously I'm not looking for the so-called 'happening' lifestyles.. but what I truly seek is the convenience. I really dread waking up at 7 everyday.... Its horrid ! Maybe i'll just have to overturn my purse to see if somehow... i could find a way around the money thingie...

Cash-strapped now... really... lost 1.5 K to the repair costs took EVERYThinG outta me... I still have my fees to worry about. Got so many things that I wanna get.. but I can't.... I really wished that i could work part-time.. but I know... i definitely won't be able to handle this work load. Perhaps.. studying in uni isn't a good blardy idea at all. NOT that i've regretted. Benefits still largely overweigh my negated thoughts.

my piggy bank is getting lighter nowadays. was full of 1 dollar coins like a month ago... but now i think i almost emptied it. how much longer can i go on.. i really have no fucking clue....

my whines are getting endless and nowhere. crossing my fingers again. chancing upon ying ? eternity... i'll choose to forget then to regret. Smiles...

She will be loved - maroon 5

she's a good girl.

will time really wash away all the pain ? the hurt ? the memories ?
a friend of mine once told me, time doesn't do that.. it just merely make you get used to the pain that it no longer becomes dreadful. its only like say a week.. and i'm slowly forgetting it... but somehow when i venture further on this track... every crossroad seem to lie a sign... every folk seems to hum the same tune... even the scarecrows seem oblivious that

"i'm a fucking wussy burden... "

i've got great friends around me to help me to my feet.. and i truly reckoned that i'll be able to do that... i'll get over it.. i'll do just that ! but right in my god-damn face... if i fucking swear to myself in the mirror.. i have no guts... i know.. because i know the only person in this world i cannot lie to other than GOD almighty is of course me myself.

words as i've always spoken... words as i've always emphasised dictates how well and what a whole fucked faced personality a bugger possesses... words merely are letters concatenated to form something thats meaningful... and i can tell you.. its a fucking killer... even though it might be a silent hush... a brush... or even a hiss of cynic in words spoken out.. its meant to inscribed deep into the heart...

its not that I cannot take it... i seriously know i have to... and for fuck sake i'm not gonna whine like a loser... because i already am... trustworthiness is what brings out a person... but i'm not even reaching it... its slowly fading away...

in fucking life.. things just don't go the way its suppose to go... i told myself.. i'll get up after a bump... yeah i'll get up... and i've hardened... but wounds are still wounds... they hurt... the pierced... and sometimes they leave scars... and scars are for eternity...

and of course love is for eternity... and i really wonder.. how would someone forget someone so readily... maybe i'm still hoping and praying.. like my signature suggests..

lovers don't finally meet somehow or somewhere... they're with each other all along.

if its meant to be.. it'll be..

QUE SERA SERA

day 2 sinced the crash..

the back of my neck still hurt.. perhaps from the impact...
despite all the mess, still attended F.I.R's gig at ntu nanyang's auditorium.. hell was is a nice one.. was tapping my camera's capture button so frequently.. my hair  was loose..

i was chirpy on the outside.. mellowed and hurt on the inside.

James Iha - Take me down

and yah.. uploaded some pics on my fotopages.. fucking can't be bothered to upload all of it.

holy fuck shit.. do you all know what its like to go headlong onto a trunk travelling at say bout' 30 - 40 KM/H ? well I do.. and hell its not something worth trying... met with a brutal accident just now... 26th July 23.42... along jalan teck whye.. as i was making my way to xian's house from hao's... a right turn on a t-junction and i was on the extreme right lane... i think i turned too early too much resulting in my back wheels bumping onto the kerbsite... the van riocochet off the kerb due to the worn-out grooves and slippery roads.. i lost control of the damn steering completely and all i know and did was to stamp on the brakes... it failed me badly.. the vision of the tree got so fucking big... "HOLY FUCK SHIT I'M GONNA DIE!" was what i thought and the next thing i heard was shattering glasses and horns sounding off..... I was dazed... still conscious... but utterly devastated.. i had no injuries at all..  just a cut on my lips... but it scared me.. traumatised... perhaps you'd call it dejavu... i had my seat belt on.. had i not have it on.. i would have kissed the windscreen.. and the world a sweet good bye .....

special thanks to the indian guy + either your friends or family... you guys are great.. let me know that t here's actually warmth in singaporeans' hearts.. stopped and actually helped me with alot.. calmed me down.. taught me what to do and such... sweet..

rick, kev and xin... I AM FUckING SORRY ! I guess youo guys don't know how apologetic I am but I am telling you.. i am fucking fucking fucking sorry about the whole fucked-up incident.. i shouldn't have drove.. i shouldn't have even got the fucking license.. i know for god's sake that you guys trusted me thats why you handed me the keys to your mode of transport.. and hell did i terrorised it.... you guys will say.. its hey okay.. but NO.. I WON'T FUckiNG FORGIVE MYSELF.. like what I'd told rick... its not something that money can settle.. to me its a betrayal of friends' trusts.. and i fucking hate this feeling... this is gonna bug me forever i can assure... its so fucking helpless that i created all the fuck shit.. and i had to ask someone else to clear it up for me... IT MADE ME LIKE A FUCKING USELESS WUSS... i mean.. hell.. only wimps wriggle outta their problems.. and me ? i am not even given any chance to deal with it... so what makes me ?

if its only money.. it's a small issue.. you guys may not understand.. but hey.. its something fucking emotionally depressing... it made me really fucking small fucking helpless... but for fuck's sake... rick, xian, hao.. thanks for being with me... i might and never be able to repay such indebtedness... in kind or in any other forms...... ngor hai burden..

Pearl Jam - Last Kiss
this song totally sums up my story...

shuucks !
in a matter of hours, school's gonna start ! yeah yeah yeah.. and i'm panicky..
darn man.. another new phase of life..
another fresh new start..
another new environment...

starting is always difficult.. and i'm all alone.. again..
will try to make myself more amiable..
will try to socialise..
will try to attend lectures..

well.. for as far as I'm concecrn.. there's no such thing as trying.. trying is a word for wuss..
i'll do it.. and yeah i'm gonna do it..

always find it hard to sleep whenever i had a big day ahead..
was thinking.. just prayed.. hoping... everythings' gonna be alright..
somehow.. i've got the sudden urge to call ying.. just feel like confiding in her..
but she's already so far away..... time for me to move on...
gladly i will..

Linkin Park - NUMB

howdie.. haven't been blogging for quite some time le..
not that i'm busy or whatever.. just pretty lazy and lame argh whatever..
in any case.. was down with Naruto syndrome.. woooOoshh its one hell of an anime.. it really is nice.. anyone should just watch it...
 
just matriculated online and guess.. my timetable's rather cheesy..
tuesday and friday ... i've got a wholesome 4 hours of break.. saddening man.. but yada yada.. just need to find something to do...
anyway... chill...
tomorrow's the english exam.. or rather later on.. shall see.. didn't even prepare for it.
geeZ... till then..
 
Switchfoot - Meant to Live

geeez.. been slacking too much already.. no work thats why..
probably try to work more on my fitness.. heh

really feeling bored at times..
chill and maybe laters....

see ya..

travis - otherside

Woot ! long long long... bike trip down to sentosa.. wooo those bikini babes..
like what we retorted.. nice beach (bitch) ... haha
anyway was nice but my legs are really numb now.. blast it man..

smiles.. another day gone.. counting down..

Lit - Ziplock

finally got my NIKE sandals !
yeah went so many places before i finally got it..
its nice its nice.. and yuan got it with me.. heh.. companionship.

well spent the whole day trying to figure out if redhat 6.2 has plug and play, guess it didn't.. heh.. borrowed a dummy guide to linux.. i wanna learn to be a power user of it.

i'm gonna do it. got to work towards my dream rig. so guess i needa work.

cheers.

Smashing Pumpkins - the end is the beginning is the end.

went NTU for my medical today, was nice to be at my future school. some place i'm gonna spend my next 4 years. sigh.. what a long span of time.. but its good.. its good..

pretty boring day in fact, well everyday it is.. just hoping for something to blog.
maybe yah maybe, on sunday where we'll have a dim sum buffet.. thats if everything turns out well.

good thing now is robanne's up ! yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah man !
just some fine tuning and robanne can perform better than vitrioL.
robanne's running at default 133 * 12.5
would love to have it running at 166 but my pathetic ddr 266 won't be able to tahan..
just my bad...

good grievance..
smile aways
Counting Cows - Accidentally in LOVE

robanne is dead again despite feeding it with a fully charged 300 w HEC psu. Well, i guess the mobo must be faulty, if not WHY? I simply cannot comprehend, and i'm really losing my patience over this shitty thing.

anyway I'm dwelling into some IBM laptop distro shit, if you happen to need an IBM laptop do let me know, I can simply get it for you cheap.

Rather tired, just worked my socks off the catalogue. Good day, and cheers.

I finally found what's wrong with robanne.
its been power hungry and the psu could not provide ample power for it.
so thats what causing the damn blardy problems that i had. i promise you i'll
get a new fsp 300 baby for you. +12v rails no more fear !
just hopefully i'm crossing my fingers that it'll satisfy your hunger.

been working on alot of things, which sadly includes my fedora installation. its failing damn badly.
yeah later on will be driving to danny's house. been almost a year or perhaps longer since i last met him. feels nice about having to meet him and catch up abit; while enjoying soccer.

yah man.. i'm loving it.

3 Doors Down - Kryptonite.

first blardy time i'm losing sleep because of a guy.

BIHAO, if you fucking see this; I WANNA FUCKING TELL YOU I AM FUCKING WORRIED ABOUT YOU. I REASSURE YOU, I WILL DO WHATEVER I CAN TO STOP ANY CALAMITY.

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
PONDER UPON THIS, WHAT IF YOUR MOST LOVED WOMAN IS WITH YOUR BEST FRIEND.

just how fucking much can a man take?

KTV ongoing last night. Bi, rick, xian, keth, fei, lei, hao and me. 8 of us, been so long since i last went out with such a big group. Suppose to be err happening but somehow i noticed something's just amiss.

i realised the mood had dampened. instead i guess only I'd realised it. Rick and bi were exchanging messages, not like i didn't know. in any blardy case; i could have guessed your content. and please, do not think too much. I do see what you saw. And i know how you fucking felt.

you guys have been reading my blog, but hell i can tell you only hao knows the most part of the me + tseying tilogy that you guys are so interested in. well, i can for sure tell you, you can make someone happy, for a moment or two but that aint any big deal. however, it'll be good if you can make that someone happy for life. how to go about doing that, its the hard part.

please do not be so uber shallow and superficial. look blardy far. like what i'm doing now.

kidrock + sheryl crow pIcTuRe

hoLy fuck shit, yeah man. sunday. and sunday rocks.
sunday is definitely a time to wind down. to escape from all work. to rest. to sleep. but hell.

yesterday was one helluva night. went to kulai with bi, rick and xp. on both their gsx baybehs, omfg first time in my life, i'd to leave my life to a friend of mine. riding at almost 200 km/h is no joke. it was a holler ! an experience! but like what bi said, memories do flash back. plus my visor failed me, it was flapping continuosly against my helmet, it is a freaking discomfort. anyway, i survived ah duh. guess the so call need-for-speed wannabes are really retards. once is enough, its not about me having a small testicle or a lobsided one, but hell it really is stupid. just a small debri can send you looking for atlantis.

nice food there at kulai. definitely ttired, got hell lotsa rest the week oncoming. no work, no jibes. smiles as always.

Strrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeet spirits ~ fade out RADIOHEAD

INtel introduce their new Celeron D. Wooo Intel haters now have something more to hate about. finally intel introduces something that's worthy of buying. Price/Performance ratio definitely beats XP. Great D Chip, and who says prescott is useless.

Yesterday tseying messaged me; and guess what she asked me. She asked me to buy her. I was so pissed, why must she only come to me whenever she needs money/help. I used to think at least she knows I'm willing to help her + she trusts me.. but now i finally realised she's just treating me like a tool. I need to get out of this pit. I odn't wanna dwell onto this futile relationship any longer. i told her bluntly. you wanna get out of 'whatever' fix you are in, please do it yourself. you need to live independently, i can help you once, twice, alot of times. but i cannot be there forever. I realised I love her too much, cannot let her keep ruining herself again. i know she'll go back to her old path, i know, it hurts, but i have to let her know that life is not all about cheating others' off their feelings. guess she's really hurt by my words. I can't believe i said that to her. I did, and i seriously think SHE + ME = impossible from now on. she's still the sweetest girl i'd known. and i guess she'll always be. care tseying.

Nine Inch Nails - Broken

FrIDAY ! finally the long awaited day has arrived ! last day at work.. yeahhhhhhhhhhhh.. my colleauges are all very supportive of me.. i really thank them. Needa jot them them.. in case I forget. really thank them for the help/guidance/lessons learnt. I learnt alot, and I hell do like this job. Hopefully i will have a chance to work with them again.

Jianwei - WooOO my talk kork bud ! without him, life in CSA would be so yadaa boring. broke the ice as well. good luck in your future endeavours.

Seh Choi - came in at almost the same time as me, from BizLink also. Glad you're so happy with you girlfriend, heh.. use protection when the two of you go bangkok okay? take good care, and do get a degree soon. it really helps.

Ryan + Weijie + Ah Teck - helped me alot, thanks guys, you have been great ! good luck yeah..

Kevin - MY MENTOR ! He has tons of knowledge under him, i truly learnt alot alot alot under his guidance. Has the same craze with me over F1. AND MCLAREN WILL RISE AGAIN ! take good care you...

Kengleng - wooohooo love your nissan, brings me almost to about anywhere in the island.. heh great to have you as my immediate superior, no gaps at all. all the best in leading the IC team.. LOG MORE CALLS ! and i don't want to be your unlucky charm no more, always tio alot of daiji when both of us go on call.

Damian - Love working with ya, your mCSE mcP heh.. great guy.. but really am sorry about your plight. I offer my condolescence more than once but its never enough. Be strong K. And your charade with the chiong WRX bodykit really works ! sparco interior abit fugly though..

Hwee Yi + aziz - Great working pal, just nice working with you.

Marcus - my initial superior, hell great to know your have 'promoted', good luck in your new solutions team. do well... and thanks for bringing me into this family.

argh will the list go on? sorry if i hadn't mentioned your name. everyone treats me so well here. But i've got to move on yah...

MADNESS ! TOTAL MADNESS! TOTAL ANIHILATION!
GOODNESS ! HOW IN THE HELL DID DICK-FACE PORTUGAL BEAT SPAIN.
WHY? BECAUSE ITS THEIR FUCKING HOME AND THATS WHY THEY HAVE TO AT LEAST ADVANCE TO THE SECOND ROUND. GOMES IS A WHITE FACE PALE SHIT NIGGER. OBVIOUSLY HE IS TAKING DRUGS, OBVIOUSLY HE'S A KEPT PROPERTY. ALL OF HIS ACTIONS MAKES HIS A TOTAL FAGGOT.

DAMN FIA ! DAMN FIFA !
DAMN FIA FOR RUNINING MONTOYA'S RUN.
DAMN FIFA FOR BEING SO UNCONTROVERSIAL IN NOT SENIDNG PORTUGAL HOME FROM HOME.
NOT THAT I DON'T SUPPORT THE PORTUGUESE. JUST THAT THEY DON'T DESERVE THE FUCKING PLACE.

despite all the anger, yesterday's race + match was nice. at least my kimi finished the race despite 3 pit stops. if schumi were to retire, was really hoping he'll cross over to ferrari. i like montoya too, but too bad he's a colombian. and colombians are either drug traffickers or mafias. yaya talking about escobar? or perhaps valderama, that lion-hair crossed-eyed fag.

well its still a good game schumi; although it was damn blardy obvious ferrari wanted you to win more than barrichello. schumi, no doubt your driving skill has reached its peak, you can still be beaten, just that ferrari's just portecting your arse.

Team WeSt ! Team Mclaren ! Clan heXen !
GoGoGoGoOGGoGoGOgO !

bitching at just about all fuck things in the world.

shuttup biatches.

3rd Eye Blind - Semi-Charmed LIfe.

Doooo Dooo DOoo wooTie baby !

rigiTie.. sunday again..
a week later i'll be taking a week's break from mundane duties. then i'll have to go back to school.
meanwhile i'll try to write some articles. err might be writing. I'll first have to pack up some stuffs. do some rearrangement of my CDs. they are wholesomely messy. then fulfill some promises that I have yet to fulfill.

well dur.. really really got much sleep during this weekend and here i am ready to wack euro glory again.

in any case, I am really cash-strapped now. anyway heard a song from Jolin Tsai yesters, well have to say it rock.. err so should know...
Jolin Tsai - Podium of Prague

and don't ask me what's it in chinese, I have no blardy idea. I got it in this way.

smiLes.. thats like what I'm doing now.
because you know. if there's a thing thats worth smiling over. Smile.
it'll make you lighter, anyhow.

well.. till date.. then I'd realise what is job satisfaction. First time in my entire life was I praised with a work well done. Looking at the smiles of satisfaction really brightens me. Its true. Its really rewarding to see your hard work pay off. So, don't think its unnecessary. Give compliments to those who deserves. A simple 'good job' really would heighten the morale.

coooL. I need to undergo a major self improvision. Think i'm still very flawed in my character. What speaks for itself, speaks for itself. I will do it. I trust myself.

4 years, after I repaid my debts. I will give my family a good life after.

Lighthouse - High.

bored.. seems like i have so much to write..
but just seem too tired..
well mayb laters..

crossing my fingers... hope england wins.

bLur - parklife.

God dammit.. spent my whole day at BP. Yeah.. only got home at about 7 Plus.. and damn... I'm shag... didn't sleep very well last night too..

sigh.. think i'm gonna skip euro and catch up some sleep. cheers..

Night

Bon Jovi - all bout' loving you.

I feel so damn shag. yeah i am. perhaps chasing the euro glory was way too tough for me. not easy to gather strength when at work. can even doze off while i am standing. not very nice you know. tomorrow i'll be going to tampinese again. why is BP singapore so rich? why did they buy so many servers? worth 100 Ks... and i have to slog for 6 an hour while the company earns so much. ahh well.. life's a bitch.
Comparison never ends.

and yah. fuck the new defence minister. fuck him for shortening the ns liability term. and yah.. why must it happen after I ord. geeeez..

no idea what got onto me. why the sudden angst. well... i cannot sleep. or i can't get up to watch the game. yeah... good riddance.

chill out.

Elvis Presley - Blue Suede Shoes

OmG.. didn't I just say yesternight I would change the outlook? well ain't I fast? At least now it look alot more pleasant, well to me for all it matters. Just some cheesy CSS, which for about 4 years since I'd last touched it. No graphics or whatsoever, just meddling and playing with code. Well, try to really redocorate it; still feel somehow it lacks something. Well.. at least thats not too bad for a start ah?

Anyway, have to flip through my html books to actually try to utilise the blank space on the right side. Or maybe I'll have to use some authorware to get it. Still buggy nonetheless but hell, its already so downright simple and i'm not gonna care more anymore.

Well slept at like 4.30 this morning, was chasing Euro 04 glory. YawNz.. woke up at 730. Some simple arithmetic will show you how much I'd slept. But then.. for the fantastic match last night.. it's err well worth it..

Maybe now i'll work back to improvise again.. since i've like nothing to do.

Smiles.

Listening to Aerosmith - Hole in the soul.

Yesh.. its true damn true. I don't blog unless i'm working.. yah.. just that sometimes when i'm at home. i do find other things more meaningful. like playing warcraft. Hah.. and of course play with my internetwork.

just a sad piece of news. Robanne (my number 2 rig) is officially down. Despite surviving 1x AGP transfer graphics, it couldn't survive the hugh toment of 1.7 Volts. Ahhh well... till i get my XP 2400+. I shall temporary comemorate robanne's heroics.

I promise. Somehow, I'll come up with a new look to this blog, I seriously hate the outlook. Just the plain old lazy me. Yah.. as i'm writing i'm stinking.. think i'm going to take a shower. Sigh..

cheerios.
98 Degrees - Invisible Man
this song really really is nice i must say. despite my hatred for boybands. this song never fails to wrench my heart. You know. Ying.. song's for you.
muuuackks..

smiles again..

OmG! I'm dead..................................

clock 1.623 Ghz last night using my tbird. but that spells the death of my tBird. Its smoking now. And darn is it gonna burn my pocket. Should have just resisted the temptation to overclock and just stayed with the 1.4 Ghz. Now......

well trigger happy last night.. snapped like almost 10 blardy shots of my aquarium. uhhur.. the blardy hermit looks damn nice.. and now then i KNow i do have a flair for photography. YeAH... maybe i'll up it as a SIG coming semester.

Hao.. when can I see my guitar back.. you bitch...

kinda tired... still missing my aluminium bottle that i left on bibi's car...
talking about missing. girl i still miss you. been like a couple of months or so since we last contacted each other.
not harbouring anymore thoughts now. just hope you'll be happy... smiles.....

Famous quote from my friend...
Xiang de kai then pcc xiang bu kai go shu qi
LIteral translation would be...
Put it aside, you still can masturbate, cannot cast it, go be a monk.

Hahha.. how true..

Friends friends... immaculate.

Song of the day: Humpbak Oak - Livonia

GOD WHAT AN OLDIE !

smiles always..

10 June. 2 more days to Euro 04 ! don't really anticipate it.. but nevertheless its better than nothing to watch. beats having to watch f1 once a week.

okay.. being able to input basically speaks so much about how free I am. Last night watched the stupid bai liu li bai show. Luckily i caught it at Empress for only 6. would have killed myself if i watched it at 6.50. Haha like there's that mucha difference. Well I should say the show started off well, bursting the theatre with laughter. As the plot grows, my eyelids got heavier. Nevertheless its worth paying 6 to have a full preview of the bai liu li bai soundtrack.. you know there's a hip-hop version + a rock version to it. Come on.. doesn't that really irritate?
bai liu li baiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~~~~~~~~~~
hui bu hui kaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

boring... Palomino vCore for 85 bucks ?

serioously considering..

just might take the chance to advertise.
well... Amd 1.4 + ecs kvta3 v1.2b going for 120 any takers?

and again... gone... !

geee... another souless day at work. how am i going to take this anymore? hhe.. hell yeah.. at least i will only be working here till the end of the month. yeah yeah ! then here i com NTU CE !

in any case, i made an appeal to ntu. hoping to change my course to computer science. but then again, i didn't realise thats its a new course. which is to say, if my appeal is successful, and i'm aggreable i'll start school term next year? becase its a new course and i'm given credit into second year immediate. err.. new course, so no second year? and maybe i'll be the only one? haha in any case, GOD i can't wait any longer.. just wanna get in.

was browsing hwz, when i bump across a brudder selling an AMD XP 1700+ Palomino COre. Gee, was like so tempted to get it.. you know it can clock up to 2.2 Ghz safely? which utterly beat my so call No.1 Rig of Jacko's hands down. anyway just a thought, where am I gonna find the cash. Gotta like scrooge for my Uni already. Got to resists such temptations.. but.... hai... just sometimes wonder why ain't I rich enough.

Posted some questions on hwz about my frequent crashes on my Win 2k Pro. Got to get it sorted out damn quickly. Maybe i'll migrate to fedora red hat. Oh yarh.. just another thought... downloaded all the ISO's already.

My wewa Mp3 Player rocks! precious acquisition from PC Show 2004.

And my greatest sympathy to cyh2003, someone who's living in my vicinity. I thank you for being a noob, and of course letting me tap your wireless router. Haha.. you know having 2 1500 MOL bandwidth is really good. Haha.. well shouldn't be such a bastard anymore. I promise I won't tap your wireless again.

Well browse through my mp3s collection. and realise i have so little mp3s. I think i've got to start collecting again.

Well my song of the day. Splender - Whatever makes you happy.

Smiles and cheers !

Gosh..
its been really long since i last blogged. you know. err with regards to my last entry from as far as i can remember its errrr... 2 months ?! Kinda like from as far as i had worked; i'd stopped blogging. Well... nonetheless i'm back again.. but then again who knows how long this temperament's gonna last...

chilll... and till then

been long since i last blogged.. GAWD ! anyway i don't know whats there to write now.. life is like always so... errrmmm imbalance ? hah really it is...
been spending quite some time developing the new ourdays... well... hmm beta's like already out.. just need some final testing and verifications... URL will probably be out kinda soon... migration is a headache.. anyways as soon as my forum is up.. i'll wind up this thing... everything will be there..
well maybe... just really kinda into programming lately... hah

my future's a dilemma.. yet to receive confirmation from UNI... and i'm starting to waver... i mean i have to spend another 3 years to get my degree.. ? while choking up precious experience... + getting a not-so-recognised degree part time... doesn't that sound more ideal ? maybe rejection from uni will probably make me become firmer... well.. maybe i'm running. run away...

cheers... i'll see how.. probably decide by next month... well smiles always...
be waiting... muacks for my precious forUm !

first lesson in life; i learnt to cry
to breathe and to feel..
love which i learnt... happiness.. possesion
but concern left me with fear...
alas the day you said goodbye to me
i've learnt that love is imperfect

i'm beginning to realise this world, let every day be a new beginning..
i'll trample on, never going back to the regrets of yesterday

the pain of separation i've learnt, from loving you
the pain of regrets i've learnt, from my mistakes of loving you
after my tears, i've learnt to forgive.
being loved, you should feel appreciated
leaving you was a painfully sweet break
against all odds, i took off
i've learnt... my things

finally i've concluded something todya. that is 0.9999 ~ is indeed equals to 1.
here is my proof.

let x = 0.9999 ~
10x = 9.9999 ~
10x - x = 9.999~ - 0.999~
9x = 9
x = 1

sounds logical ? bet it does.

wOOootie agains ! well yeah.. guess i'm rather disturbed... or maybe its flabbergasted ! heh anyway why in the hell can a priest be SOooOoo rich ? hai.. he has millions okay... who would not put it to their own gain ? and again... such a holller !

hmm somehow or another i'm beginning to wonder again... or maybe just let my mind stray off.. its been really long since i last sat down and drift into cyberspace... been long since i last threaded to labrador... enjoying the breeze... well anyway... i'm just a loser why don't you kill me.

maybe just once again.. i still miss you.

wOoot.. kinda getting really sleazy nowadays... maybe i find no meaning in life.. hah
anyway last sunday was the holy matrimony of my cousin and of course his wife.. yeah.. as i was saying..it wasn't as glamourous as it churned out. in fact it sucks.. the ligiting was poor.. t he ambience was poor.. the sound was poor.. what a holler ! but it turns out to be a 5 star hotel hosting the event.. pan pacific.. you gotta buck up...
a supposed joyous moment.. till my cousin reminded everyone of the demise of my granny.. gosh.. you can see the change immediately.. the faces of the first few table ... well well.. not that i'm skeptical... but i think him trying to show off his so-call fillial piety really didn't pay off... i mean everyone was suppose to be smiling.. must he spoil everything...argh.. anyway he's the male lead.. he dictates...

i got a job... 22/march i'll be starting.. that'll be like 1 month after i ord.. heh i'm maybe right.. just get a job... and maybe just tide over my crisis..hope the job isn't really all that bad.. though the pay sucks.. well what else is more important when you're looking for a job...

anyway... and hai...
nothings... smiles always..

ah duh... walter is leaving singapore tomorrow.. wish him all the best... hope he really get use to the condition over there in china..though i don't think you'll be seeing this.. or will you... i sincerely wish you all the best in your endeavours...
whatever friction we used to have... its all the past... you're still the nicest friend i have known in the army... really no qualms about that...
might just give you a call later... remember do keep in touch !
smiles... as you're always doing....
stop boozing okay ? don't drown to your sorrows.. like i do... haha...
kinda sad to say you're going to leave.. i seriously am going to miss you...
maybe the next in-camp.. i'll be seeing you.... i hope i do... remember to contact me when you're back in singapore...
cheeeeeeeeeeeeers....

bravo platoon 6 forever !

well well well... i've finally packed up all my stuffs on my desk.. yeah looks so real neat now.. heh.. i saw through alot of craps that i have... i threw away alot of things.. yeah... and saw something that sent a smile to me.. heh.. photos.. letters... heh.. wow... and all the birthday cards i've got from you guys ! heh.. i still kept it okay... everytime i looked at it... it never fails to bring that smile onto me...

err i'm still jobless.. it really really suck... loafing around... heh i think i needa do something... just really hope my application for uni can be heard out soon... well.. i came upon some jobs which requires contract... and i'm in no mind to sign it yet...
gosh... i'm smiling...

all the nothings that i have been doing.. its making me a PIG ! gawd.. my tp is coming soon.. goodie luck... muacks...

Disarm you with a smile... ")

3rd Mar. today's tseying's birthday. Nothing much to do. just hope that she'll be really happy. good day everyone.

went for an interview as a web developer. wah.. the interviewer bombarded me with hell lotsa question. well was i dumbstruck. it was so darn long ago dey.. that i learnt all these.. gosh.. even a simple query of an asp page took an hour out of me. guess its gonna be no hoper for that job. well.. at least i prefer that to the technical support from pac net.. whichever comes i'll take which..

good day. happy birthday tseying.

well.. i guess my blog has been under close scrutiny of late.. i mean suddenly everyone is coming to me.. hey.. not going to write anything anymore eh ? well i guess... i'm just assembling my thoughts.. yeah.. that blurt it all out.. yappers...

my grandma is a great great great women... we talked alot about her during the wake.. and it was then i realise i had such great affinity with her... i came to realise too.. my tears gland are actually faulty.. i wailed at the absence of her... i will not see her again...

she has gone through lots... born in 1920.. she witnessed the chaos post-era of world war one.. well okay she might be young then ... though she registered her birth as 1917... some screwed ups that was done on purpose because of the japanese occupation.. and yah of course she has been through world war 2.... plunders, pillages, massarcres.... you name it she's seen it.... she grew up with singapore... even singapore was a tiny sprout beside her....the communisms... the racial riots.. the whats hot and whats not... even when lee kuan yew cried.... she must be making sinister remarks... from exploding hair to extreme side parting to the now punky mohican's hair style... bell bottoms baggy fit boot cut straight cut... wow whimsical....

my grandpa died at 1959... my mum's only a primary 6 kid... and granny was only 39... for more than half a century... she has been raising her six children.. by washing clothes for everyone in the kampong... painstakingly she did... saw them grew up.. getting married... gave birth to my cousins and me.... everything she saw.. she put her hands in it... i hail her.. i salute her... half a century of being a widow... suffering the pain of losing her husband... the pain of losing a shoulder to lean on and cry on... she buffed up... without and complaints.... now enjoying the bliss of having her granchildren calling her 'dou dou'... well thats what we called in hainanese for great granny... bet it must be sweet...

to console myself i would say... she has already lived past the age of what normal singaporeans do.. and of course most of us was fillial to her... her latter years was rather an enjoyment... but how much can i convince myself... the grieves of losing my granny... who took care of me.. till i am what i am now....

i cried i wailed... maybe thats all i can do ... i really regret not spending more time with her... its already too late for regrets... its always the case... when i saw the priest closing up her coffin.. asking us to see her for the last time.... tears just refused to stop rolling... i shouted out once 'por'.... that made everyone cry.... and at that very moment her coffin was thrown beyond the gantry for cremation....... i was lost... for the ffirst fucking time... i saw my brother cry... he must have felt the pain as well..... but its all gone... i'm trying to make a collage of her in remembrance... and of course.. i do have a set of her usual wear in my wardrobe...

guys... i thank you for offering your condolences and all... especially rick.. i really do appreciate it... although all of you didn't come... i really wish you all had... it would be so much better.... walter i thank you for helping me collect 'bai jin' ... it was really sweet... really really sweet...

last of all i would like to blast Tan Tock Seng Hospital. Nothing against the nurses... they have been excellent... its the doctor... we weren't informed at all about the seriousness of her.... we tried to seek audience with her... left our numbers.. went numeral times to try to speak to her... and damn she was so busy.... though we do know she might go anytime... but AS A FUCKING DOCTOR YOU HAVE TO AT LEAST EXPLAIN HER CONDITION TO US ! nothing was heard... not even a thing like hey... please try to spend more time with her... her condition is critical... all was heard was her condition hasn't bettered... hasn't worsen... anyone in the right frame of mind would not think she would go in just three days in hospital... alot of us are complaining that we couldn't see the last of her... who did ? in the whole family only 2 saw her passed away... what etiquette ? i had wanted to write to forums in straits.. but i didn't want to blow the matter... she's already dead.. but guys... its just a stern warning to everyone... doctors might not know anything......

cheers.. i'm still living my life... i got my pink ic..hah i still remember ahmad saying.. ehhh jack how come you're still so sad.. you got your ic already leh... its obvious.. he doesn't know...

Dust thou art till dust returnest.
20 Feb 02 1728.
Muacks I love you.

argh.. my granny... she's so frail.. she can't even open up her eyes... gosh... really horrendous...
even her look breaks me...

gosh.. my granny was warded last night... i was petrified.. she has been with me ever since i was born.. i mean she's like the best granny one can ever have... i know she's so old and frail now... even though i have to face the reality.. but i don't want...i just can't... things just keep hitting onto me... i just want to keep my fingers cross.. and guys.. please help me pray for her..... thanks ....

sometimes i'm made to wonder. why people have different conception of things ? like what rick always say ? is the colour yellow really yellow.... the yellow i'm seeing.. is it the same yellow you are seeing ...its just because we are brought up this way... saying this is yellow... and we have to blindly accept it. and that comes to another thing. why is yellow call yellow ? and not green ? who in the world gave it the name. and how did he unify everyone to agree to it being yellow. humans are really a wonder. the creator of language is a blardy genius.

it just make you wonder... things get so preordained. what about life ? is it just another template? well it has to be ... man are born to die. and everyone follows the template. like the so often talk about e=mc². how did the blardy einstein derive this... and how in the world he can measure the speed of light. maybe i may sound noobish... but its just einstein thats why people trust him ? i don't know... maybe i just have to read up. some nuclear shittos i am thoroughly not into.

talking about light. anyone has any idea how to make light travel in circles. please enlighten me.
circles ... brings me to another query... how many sides to a circle ? infinite or 1 ? its really up to you to debate. it definitely isn't 1 because thats not the definition of a side. well crack your head maybe. i really wish to know. maybe too much rhetorical questions will make people bonkers. try not to think so much... perhaps just accept everything ... since everything is a template. THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NO ONE WHO CAN ESCAPE FROM BEING MOULD. blast the world... blast life... and blast osama.

i am probably in a state of hoo-ahh now. it just felt so strong. particularly on this day. to be loved. heh
to those idiots who actually broke off. good grievance, or maybe good riddance ? whoever is at fault is not at fault. love is selfish. there is no perfect lovers, don't mould your partner to become like how you want her/he to be, instead treasure how she/he is like. love her/him because its her/him; and not the blardy dreamlover you have conjured. if not, parting is the best solution. smiles and look ahead.

couples who only till today got together. i'm not trying to pour cold water. but look ... is it better to have someone who loves you more or have someone that you love to be your partner. its really worth a debate, i personally will only be with a girl whom i love and not a girl who loves me. sounds contradicting but its not. why trample on someone else's life, making everyone miserable. well it has to be mutual. in a relationship someone just got to suffer.

if you're a kind of blardy joker that is actually trying to 'tide' over this day ... get a life. you need to be more mature. my guess is people in irc must be advertising themselves to get a date. heh its really saddening to know that these people exist. its worst to know that there are people who actually go for this kinda people. whichever the case. smiles. do what you deem fit. live to regrets.

well... i'm really nonsensical. what else would i say ?

right now.. at this very blardy moment.. i do have alot to say... i mean hey its Valentines. wow... a day some fucker came up with so that couples can show appreciation to one another? or is it just a day to compensate for negligence... as some would say ... if true love lies... everyday is valentines...
i'm biting bittergourd maybe... but gosh ... being single isn't sinful... but why does it hurt so much... you know... people who are already firmly holding another's hand would always wished they had the space and liberty of being single .... its hurting... may not be sarcasm but it does pierce .... who in the blardy world doesn't wish to enjoy the bliss of being loved... you can give all you want to those you love... but whether that will be reciprocated is another matter... imagine how will you feel... the girl you really wish and love to be with.... is with another guy ... heh the worst thing; right at the very moment you are really longing for her presence beside you; she in actual fact is having a redezvours with another guy... to put it crudely.. she's being fucked by someone else.... heh the thoughts of being with her so much mixed with the thought of your very loved one being fucked by someone else... what a concotion of toxic ! whats the precipitate ? yah a whole bunch of unsound words and whines.... so what does that make v-day ?
i know she must be with him... but what can i do ? i'm no longer the one... or i will never be the one... not that i wanna delude myself again... but i was never the one she loved.... right at this moment.. i shout out ... i wanna live life to the fullest .... and of course pray that she's happy.

geee.. don't really like to write in here anymore... because its like... hai... used to think this is my hiding place such that i can shout out here... but... my laziness is actually getting the better of me... well... dyed my hair today.. haha... actually wanted blue.... turns out that i have to settle for ash brown... because blue can't be found... duh.... anyway the end-effect really sucked... guess my hair colour... its actually kinda like golden brown... gEe.. so blardy stupid...

yuanhao ar... why did you become so blardy cheehong? i don't know how much longer can i defend you anymore... heh... actually like errr... i don't know what to say... but chill.. don't get to upset over sufei... life's still a bitch... don't have to follow her footsteps.. be yourself okay?

oh my god.. i didn't know its feb already... and geee 20 more days. well.. kinda lost really... its not really a good thing to leave the army after all... i mean its paying me when i'm sleeping... whats better than that ! guess i'm really going to miss everyone in camp... and sweet kisses to all of you going abroad to study... well keep in touch...
had my longest ever gunbound session yesterday... geee i played from 1 to 10... its 1 am to 10 am ! hah.. i'm astounded as well... anyway its nothing about playing the game actually... i don't know w hy... but i just played it for so long...
and its been 10 days since i last errr quarrelled with ying.. i don't know why i flared up at her... maybe everything's heating up... dur... i think she's really really really mad at me... but then again... i don't know... its like a never ending affair... i am not going to wait forever ain't i... she thanked me for loving her so much... she knows but can't reciprocate... what the heck... !but i never forget the things she said to me on my birthday... well... i'm getting gibberrish.. tata

to babiegrl : - life's a bitch yah... don't get too close to me.. haha
to wakey : - mr. nice guy yah? i actually pissed you off... good job

what's happening.. so unlike myself... i am going bOooNNkkKKErrrS !

we are drained off our colours. we used to love ourselves. we used to love one another.

yah man... guess what... another happening on the 3rd day of chinese new year.. our dear armskoteman eddie quek actually lost the key to the arms from the bunch of keys.... he was really scared as can see...went around looking for it and yet can't find it... leaving the shift that waas suppose to take over wondering why.... i can't possibly let this go on... and quick wittedly asked him to let the guys draw out spare arms... taking over all the arms from shift 1 so that the shift won't be cocked up...at least can cover up a while.... heh later the keys were found... to be with benny... shucks... nevertheless nice...
nothing much to write about other then i'm really tired... well nothing else... laters...

alrightie... happy chinese new year... oh wait i said happy... holy shit...
hah didn't really enjoyed my lunar new year...
lotsa crappy happenings here and there... arghhh that kinda suck...

well.... here goes...
on the blardy eve... due to my own carelessness... i actually lost a 5.56 frangible... can it be explained? oh yeah due to my eagerness to let them have their 'reunion' dinner fast... i forgo the rules and let them send in the rounds without unloading... and i didn't even counter check... until bong told me... haha rather suay i would say.... the moment he said that i went to check and dur... the round went misssing... hahahah... but luckily its the same old story again of the sar21 magazine... unable to secure... dropped into denis's webbing.. and a lar di dar.. solved...

on the first day... blardy lotsa sai kang.. with all the blardy decors i have to make... its a hassle ! anyway its done up and hope everything went fine for clarkos... i mean he just have to be there.. or so i thought... heh... then came the stupiest thing... hao's plot...
this idiot actually wanted to plot bi... making him dulan... ended up make himself dulan... hahah so darn hilarious... he actually lied to bi he's going to chiong with elaine instead of being with us... initially i was like what the hell... its our reunion dinnner ! but then of course we didn't doubt him... and let him go lor and proceed with our dinner and our later movie watching sesssion... but hey.. he's actually lying... and said we didn't jio him... i mean how'd we know he's joking... and he blamed us and we blamed him... all the shit came out.... luckily everything went okay after we pacify him....
talking bout'' the reunion dinner... i sent out invitations to all the seven stars but only 5 turned up... i still remember the message... it was like... hey... read the papers today? the states that the seven stars will reunite at anne's place at 5 tonight... response waAS sucky.... yindou didn't even wanna reply... i have to call him personally... i mean... he's really segregated now.... and reunion dinner... wasn't as nice...

second day ! hmm... went to granny's house... she's so frail now... it really breaks my heart... hai....just the same old routine pai nian thingie... and i slept there for like forever ! and at night we went to xian's house... actually our intention was to go fetch him for supper... ended up rick suggested we go to his house to pai nian.... durh... but a good plan actually haha... been there done that but xian's parents weren't around... actually kinda expected that too... but rick had a premonition... that they'll be back soon... back they were... and we went to pai nian... rick actually had 2 oranges all prepared.... after that we left... but we forgot to take the oranges back... another customary shit... who knows xian's mum took it so seriously that we have to take back... and called rick too ! made him kinda paiseh also... but then... hai... all of us were too lazy to go up.... plus the call from xian's mum... he got really pissed with everyone... yeah another bohliao incident... heh.... durh.... another plot that fails...

never plot... 2004 doesn't bode a very good year for us...

cheerios... smiles... third day.. and nothing happened... as yet...

ohh yah.. another beginning at sembawang wharves.. i would say this feeling sucks... much as i would like to say i do not celebrate chinese new year... but its still an heartache to see a holiday so nice... 3 - 4 days burnt.. because of fucking ops... oh well.. not to mention anything anymore... i'll be jobless soon... guess i really need the 850 per month... gosh.. i haven't even paid my 2 months m1 bills... guess its any moment that it'll get cut off.. haha

well i won't be around till the first blardy day.. till then... happy chinese new year... may it be a year of many returns...

god bless... tseying i still love you....
the seven stars... stick together team..
army pals... tough luck ahead.. nice to have all of you around...
secondary school pals... meet up someday ya? really miss all of you...

muacks..
ta ta..

uh yarh... been long since i'd last blogged.. heh... well i guess there's really nothing to write about... life's like a bitch.. heh anyway glad to know actually some of my army mates have found themselves jobs... and those that are studying.. i really wish them all the best from the bottom of my heart....

heh... tseying smsed me yesterday... i was like so overjoyed... but then again... it was rather funny.. though happy i didn't reply her.... maybe i'm just being cynical... as in... maybe make her kan chiong for a while... that i am not always around for her... but hey.... aren't i suppose to be her supporting pillar? ah lar di dar... ohh what the heck...

dunckie brought a parrot in... wooshh got some shot of it... its really really cute... hehe an african grey... i didn't know i had an affection for birds till dunckie brought 'ash' in... durh.... maybe somedays i'll upload ash to fotopages...

was at sispec then bmtc on saturday.. heh... nice reminisces.. though the place looks foreign now... it brings back an uncanny feel... or should i say... fear? i don't know... when ah bi calls out the current 4026 from taurus 4.. i was like so stoned.. haha.... 4206.. that bugger better take good care of my bed.. he greeted me... ah well... sergeant wong... heh... or was i expecting... PS wong.. mawahah.. in anycase... havent had anyone greeted me like this before... for a long time maybe...

hmm.. was thinking of teaching ash how to fly... fly? hehe throw it into the air and maybe hope out of desperation it'll get its wings to work... ah well... learn to fly....

ohh yeah.. what a time at NIE. super zhuo boh lan session... haha shouldn't have went there... now i will have a torrid time next week... arghhh.. not a really good trade off i will say.... gosh... anyways i got to see EE XIANG.. haha he still looks the same... and he's still a blardy cock-eye... too bad we don't hit it off as well now... anyways nice seeing him and dar... got to know that lots of my ex-classmates are actually at NIE... oh come on... they will be teachers? gosh... i'm like really worried about the future generations' education... i mean.... i don't know.. perhaps they have changed....

oh yeahh... nothing much to blog about... but there's this girl... hahah... by the name of hazel... sweet looking sunshine girl... she don't really possess the kind of princess charming face... nor does she possess a voluptuous figure... but her tann... and her 'i don't know what' makes me... i mean me and bi... took another(s) look at her... oh well... hazel be it? or be it hazel... thats like the last time i'm ever going to see her again...

cracked a joke on SITI... she asked us to send her back home... err bedok...freaking far and really off from where we are going... though bi said he has the intention of sending her home... they played a joke on her... saying they can't send her home... which INSTEAD right in front of her and serene said they will be sending serene home... right to her block... though i don't have a good impression of siti... she still deserves our pity... she's like so pissed... and kevin didn't side with her... which he of course shouldn't.... but worst case has got to be serene... she's like so innocent... and yet because of that joke... she must be feeling damn awkward in front of siti... well immaturity don't speak they show....

well its late... and its really nice to blog with my new 17 inch LCD... its soooooooooooo coOol ! but damn it ! there are 2 dead pixels... its suppose to have only OneE ! guess i'll just go on poking... one day.. maybe one day... i can get 4 out and have it changed...

' ohhh what a waste '

14 Jan ! whoohoo... finally the long awaited trip to NIE is fulfilled... heh can't believe i actually can be part of this stupid bazaar team.. oh well.. just got to wait and see how nice can this bazaar be...heh go go !
laters baybehs..

well I just got to drag my blardy feet down sembawang wharves again... dang... the feeling really sucks... luckily this will be my only duty... till the end of the week... so its a rather long break for me yeh... heh

anyway tseying sent me a really funny message.... haha will we be together 5 years from now? yeah.. i was really astounded by that message... heh its so damn blardy meaningful i logged it down.... guess my reply...
: "nope... because your heart don't and will never belong to me.... "
yah yah thats the end of it all.... she didn't reply me thereafter... so i guess.... i struck the jackpot...
hmm.. anyways still thinking... do i still love her or is it called 'can't let go'...

*smiles*

oh where oh where can my baby be?

Oh yeah... this is up finally after so many people kept asking me to put up a blog. Alrightie, I don't really know how this bloody thing work but then hey... after 27th Jan or something I'll have alot of time to really check out things that I have been missing out since so long back. Well then laters....