yeah.. finally got back in Singapore.. man did i have a good time.. but while i'm having my splendid breather.. i didn't realise that the world is still turning.. that things are colliding.. that people are suffering...
it came as a shocker to me that the death tolls of that catastrophobic earthquake had caused... such a holler ! was really taken aback... i mean... you don't even know when you're going to die.. so... live life to the blardy fullest.. be it with whoever you love or so... just live it...

Cameron Highlands to me.. is like paradise..
freewheeling.. no worries... no plans or whatsoever.. just loafing.. haha... MY KINDA LIFE....
i'll be there again... memories abound.. but again my deepest condolescences to the dead and their family.

Black black christmas...

Oh yes ! by the next 24 hours i will not be in Singapore...
wheeeeeee this is part of my christmas getaway ! haha... never liked spending christmas in singapore. too much for me to take. it once occured to one of my brothers that if you see that someone walking with a bastard along orchard during christmas eve, can you take it ? so might as well evade !

well.. i guess it's a treat well deserved... for mugging so hard... for getting a considerably 'presentable' result... for.. for... staying alive... well... whatever... i mean...

this emotional part of me has settled down.. i'm no longer so romantically inclined to having an ideal sweetheart... instead.... i'm more like reluctant to even be bothered about such things anymore.... i'll just concentrate on what's there and whatever... friendship to me is eternal. while girls are indeed only bitches.

WhhEhEee

SmashiNg pumpkins ( MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE BAND )
ZeRO

whheee.. morrows gonna be a fun day.. or so i hope..
i'll be setting foot on pulau ubin.. for the first blardy time in 22 years... heh really would like to thank ryan and all those who organised this trip thingie... you guys rocks ! hah

ohh i've just turned 23.. yeah another step closer to my tomb.. anyway the idea of mass suicide really appeals to me... now any takers?
For all who wished me a happy birthday... thanks for remembering.. its so sweettt..
muacks to all of you, bihao, yuxian, felicia, yinyin, alicia, huiling xinpeng... and yeah
tseying of course..

finally all complications regarding the trip have been resolved, and i do look forward to the 23rd ! finally our annual trip thingie is back on track !

smiles...
Shawn Colvin - Sunny came home

yeah.. finally done with my exams.. in fact its been almost a fortnight since my last paper..
and i am here again...

been really doing nothing... and hell it sucks.. watched like don't know how many movies everyday.. heh thanks to my precious downloads....

hell.. life is you know kinda meaningless.. and i'm really looking forward to my cameron trip at the end of next month.. a big breather just before my hectic term starts again..

a big big shoutout to all those who knows me.. who treasures me as a friend or whatever... to all those i'd let down... I'm really sorry. To my mum.. i love you.
To tseying, hope you're doing really well now.. will try to message you again someday..

Smoochies and huggies..
Fear of the dark..

my my, what did i say ? didn't i say i won't be back till at least after 19 ? and its not even close.. in fact my exams hasn't even start !
for crying out loud, i am really perplexed. can someone tell me is there any really value in clinging onto a promise that the someone you made the promise to doesn't even care if you're still keeping it ? if its about principle hell yeah... but i don't know how should i relate it into words...

any missy cupid or mr love advisors around ? although i know its all craps and such but hey... soemtimes i do need a laugh or something.... i don't have the mood to mug let alone do many other things.. seriously speaking who in the world are we living for... or what are to living towards ? have you ever done anything in life to make yourself so proud that you can actually say h ey man i live this life once and its one hell of it.. catch any balla ? well ditto...

avoidance is just a mean of not falling for you. i've said it like so many times, until i myself can untie myself from this knot. this embargo will always be there. i know my actions have hurt you. I know i'm not right in doing so, but do you know how I feel ? it might be me playing puppet alone but its just me.. you know what i mean?

I don't wish to feel that piercing pain in me again, nor do i wish anyone to experience it. so let it go will I. cowardice maybe. images of you keep conjuring in my mind, but the past lives on. Peeping at you, hoping to see you around and sound just somewhat settles me abit. Fretting over your well-being when i don't see you around and frantically seaching for an answer to delude that unncertain mind... is that aKa love ? well, at least the images aren't as clear, i can see i'm letting it go. If things never get started, it'll never leave a mark. So why not we just don't start it.

at least yZ came up with an album, thats the very least of consolation i got from recent events.

I need to get back to my books soon. like plain staring at greeks or arabics help at all.
Well... only the lonely....

WwWEeee... its coming to t he end of the month again..
and guess what ! its some festive season again... and.... everyone's celebrating it !
itsssssssssssssssssssssss mUgFEST !

durh.... that was so pretty lame right ? o'right.. i apologise.

anyway... this would be the very last entry i'm gonna make prior to my exams... i'll be back probably after my exams... that'll be counting down.. about 3 weeks or so from now. just hanging on... STOP GRINDING THAT TEETHIE !

wosssh.. can someone please pull this lame jackarse outta me...
errr... subconsciously or so... everyone IS childish.. everyday i'm learning.. and i do learn even though its some very plain-jane comment. it made hell lotsa sense to me.
being childish at the right time is termed playful, and at the wrong time.. childish.. hah
sounds silly right? but just dig abit more into it... .it fully illustrates my personality...
^^

just gotten my confirmation of a study grant, no idea how much exactly i'll be getting, but it's certainly gonna tide me til at least next semester. and of course ERS i'm comming for ya... ^^
been hooked onto this ^^ thingie nowadays, because if you'd noticed me that is if you actually bothered, I'm not really into colloquials nor short hands, not to mention those smiley thingies, but hey... this ^^ thing is really cool.. my 2 cents only

i'm bored.. was thinking of penning a chronicle for the seven stars... gotten some inspiration.. but still saearching.... guess it'll take some time... well... ^^

rceently , i think i did my group of friends some wrong... i mean i am in a wrong.. but i know they do not mind it but it's boggling me... its just my gooky personality... i don't liek to explain things. and i do not rebutt any false accusations thrown onto me... maybe it's just my fantasy... my idea of friends are someone who knows me... someone you know with some ceertain degree of telepathy.. that even with a fart.. you know who i'm driving that at... i don't know what i'm blabbering about... but thats just me.

i once told a friend.. i can't really recall.. that as a person.. you DON'T change yourself to suit the environment, rather you change the environment to suit yourself. think about it.. think i've stress on this point to some of my friends more than once.

this point about being self-centred, i'd pointed out... everyone is self-centred.... now you might argue... " i only care about my friends, i do things for my friends because i really care about what they think of me." or whatever..... noticee the big ME behind? slapping your own blardy face ? no offense to you if you read my blog... but you should know.. i AM THAT STRAIGHT.

one final thing to all you nothing better to do niggers.
PLEASE FOR FUCK'S SAKE, WHEN I SAY YOU DON'T NEED TO KNOW, OR SIMPLY WHEN I TELL YOU I DON'T WANNA FUCKING TELL YOU, please stop pestering me.
if there's a need for you to know. i WILL TELL YOU. goooks.

signing off,
I apologise

its the end of the month AGAIN ! as promised i've returned to try to vandalise to woeful blog again. but hey.. its MINE and its my choice. wasn't really very keen on writing but a promise is always golden. no one reads it anyway.. but me alone ? but heeck... it doesn't bother me now.. does it ?

woooosh... can't really recall what happened for the past month.. just that i've managed to pulled past it.. you know... i really hope the incident will come to a naught now. i've got a 6 points demerit, and a fine of 200. do they really want me to pay for the god damnn fucking tree ? don't drive me up the wall please.. you mofos..

nothing happened to irks me that much.. that i wanna spill it out here...
but again GOD BLESS to all who helped me through this tide....

everyone, minna-san, da jia.... WO AI NEEEEEEEEEE

exams nearing and quizzes abound... i'll strive hard now... i'll stop warcraft. i'll stop playing for wcX... ^^

till i see you again.... ciao next month.

Velvet revolver... SLItHHheR