WHEW! July was one heck of a month for us. It feels like it lasted 2 days and 2 years all at the same time.
Lando:
Friday he was the only Anesthesiologist in the operating room all day. He did great--kept his patients alive :). He sent me a text on Thursday that said, "I feel stupid today." There is such an emotional and mental stress that cant fully be described but is very real. I can't speak for any other career path but Landon goes from feeling confident, to weary, to scared, to overwhelmed, to stupid, to excited all in one minute. And that may be more exhausting than working for 12 hours a day. I don't know. But I see it on his face when he comes home. And it makes me even more grateful when he puts that aside for an hour and is Daddy to his boys. I'm filled with joy and gratitude every time I watch it.
For date night Landon took me to the movie Dunkirk. It was good. Humbling. I think our parents and grandparents learned incredible incredible lessons from war. I hope I can learn the lessons I need to without ever having to go through something like Dunkirk.
It was also Landon's resident party on Saturday night. I was in the pool 95% of the time with the boys. But from the pool everyone seemed nice. He really loves the people he works with. He loves the program. He feels so confident that they will take good care of him and teach him everything he needs to know to get into a good fellowship. Its a really comforting feeling.
Becs:
I'm happy and good! I really like so many things about life right now. I love our apartment. I love how close we are to everything. I love that Landon is happy. I love that my boys have transitioned SOOO much better than they did in Spokane. I love that we found someone that will watch out boys every week for date night/temple for me. I love that we can afford that. I'm grateful for the beautiful weather we've had. I love that we are so close to so much church history.
Landon and I got called to be primary teachers of the 7&8 year olds. There are 12 kids in our primary total. We have 6 of the kids--3 active, 3 inactive. I know some people love primary. Primary definitely stretches me more than other callings. It feels more like a sacrifice than anything else. I am working on my attitude about that and Landon is really excited about it. I'm excited I can be with him for 3 hours.
I'm also trying hard not to think about the fact that Jax has 3 weeks left under my watch 100% of the time. It makes me sad. It also makes me really sad that i'm going to be going back to being a mom of 1 child most of the time. I just wanted lots and lots of babies--and I can't seem to make that happen. I'm sad about that. And I know that Jax going to school will be hard for me. All that being said, I know i'm blessed. I think its okay to feel sad and feel grateful at the same time. Right?
Jax:
He can ride a two wheeler now. He swan in the pool on Saturday evening without a life jacket for most of the time. Now I just need to teach him to tie his shoes and a few more reading lessons and he will be ready for kindergarten. Hahaha, if you've ever watched Gilmore Girls there is a part at the end of the show where Lorelai kind of starts panicking that she hasn't taught Rory enough. So she just starts to word vomit a bunch of advice. Thats how I feel right now. Im trying to get in all the things I think Jax should be able to do before he heads into school. I know deep down that all he really needs is stability, family, love. He has all of those things. Gosh I love him. I feel like I stare at him more lately than normal. I can't believe his mine. I can't believe he's almost 6. I can't believe who he is. He is so great! I love him so much.
Ty:
He's started sucking on his fingers. GAHHHHH!!!! I need to stop this asap. He loves to jump in the pool over and over and over again. All by himself. We ended up getting Ty a bike and helmet because being a younger sibling is rough and you can't hold off on things like you could when there is only one of them. He can't stop talking about his "geeen bi orrrg ha" that is coming (green bike, orange hat). Ty is extremely shy and extremely adventurous. He is really good at shooting basketballs in the hoop. He is still taking great naps and sleeping awesome at night. I just look at this picture below of my three boys and my heart swells. Honestly, six months ago I couldn't have said that. I was depressed and could not feel those genuine emotions. I'm so happy i'm not in that place anymore. These three boys bring me so much joy and I love them to pieces.
Thats a wrap. Bring. On. August!!!
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| I helped hand out water for the Pioneer Day marathon. Coolest running shirt i've ever received. |
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| Ward breakfast ENSIGN PEAK for FHE   |
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| Journal #28 or #29 i'm not sure!!!! I love the new journal I got!! Thanks Brittney Maxwell for this journal. I love you!! |
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| I ran 4 miles, Jax ran 2 miles, Ty napped. #teamwork |
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| These are some of the families in our complex/ward. We love them! I also wish I spoke spanish so I could know them more |
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| LIZZY AND JACOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Indiana friends forever. So proud of these two and love them so much! |
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| Landon's CA-1 team |
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| And the CA-1 babies, minus 1 shy one and 1 baby :). Also, the red headed boys, aren't siblings :). |
