I'm bored to death!! Why must my monitor break down wif distorted pixels when I'm having my unofficial holiday!! Life realli stinks~ Luckily I still can see a little wif this distorted screen I have here, or else I guess the next blog would be like more than 1 month later...

Yup.. unoffical holiday, declared by me, myself and I. Like CW and PJ, didnt go school since last Wed, 23/2/2005. Was at CW's house since Wed till Fri. Paiseh sia CW, go ur house so often until ur mom pissed le... But I cant help myself... It's too quiet and lifeless here in my house le... need some activities lor. PJ got his own busy schedule everyday le, so only can find u sia... ~.~

As for tomorrow, finally the O's results coming out. I appear a little too calm. Perhaps I should be worried. Wat if my results come out worse than my prelims? Like wat happen to my PSLE... Guess I'm too over-confident le bah... crap... everytime I get a little too arrogant, I'll get thrashed in everything. Oh well~ Tomorrow then start getting nervous and worried bah... now worry like siao oso useless... so everyone, don't dwell too much now it k?? Cheer up! :D

Anyway, to everyone I know, goooood luck to ur O's and to be able to get into the JCs of ur choice. Though cant bear to part wif all of you, as a chinese saying, wat wat "tian xia wu bu shan zhi yan xi". Shit, My chinese's deteriorating... Cant remember izit like that not.. If I made a mistake plz correct me... Time to pick up my chinese dictionary and read le...

Blast it!!! I actually came down wif a fever... Yet I didnt noe till I consulted the doctor... I thought I was juz having normal running nose and cough only... Well, at least my fever earned me a MC for today HAHA!

At first after the whole Polyclinic thing, I wanted to go Causeway Point to meet my frens... Instead, they went all the way to Lucky Plaza in Orchard, so I have to make a detour from Woodlands back home, since by the time I reached there they'd have gone home already...

Today's Yishun JC's Value's Day. I doubt there's any crowd there except YJCians >.< Who bothers to visit YJC anyway... It rained juz now in the afternoon... Poor thing! Wonder how my class's Dunking game goes hahaz. Well, I look forward to Tmr's SAJC Funfair though... Want to go but my illness's killing me... I'll see if my frens goin first b4 I make my decision.

Extra: Please Visit Choon Wee's blog, the link's at my link section below the tagboard. Help to solve that math quiz plz... (or should I say word quiz??)

Finally there's time for me to switch on my computer, after several times of com hang and jam, and write a new blog today... Well, last 2 days had quite alot of events already... Played like crazy. Yesterday we went to Kbox and sang till 7pm b4 leaving... I didnt realli enjoy due to such reason honestly, but I'll juz put it aside since SOMEONE's complaining I only write sad stuffs, well, this one should be quite good enough :D at least it's not depressing rite!? Cant realli remember what I did 2 days ago that caused me to neglect my computer on that day, Guess it's bowling... but I know today we juz played another 2 hrs of it. Man... not my day... couldn't score a 'turkey' LOLZ *HA~CHOO!*

Guess I enjoy myself too much recently... always goin home after 7pm... School ends at 5pm yet I've no mood to go home at all... So always try to go here or there wif my fellow mates juz to waste time... What's the opportunity cost?? my money!! ARGH!!! Goin penniless!! I don't wanna declare bankrupt!! Should have cut down my expediture long ago... Yet I cant resist the temptation... Bowling, Pool, Kbox... they're so incredible! Makes me wanna go crazy all day~

Well.. not realli in a mood to write blog now cuz i'm quite sick... serious flu, cough, sorethroat(Kbox...) and a little stomach pain... Not goin school tmr(again...) I'll juz go Polyclinic to get my MC again... Hope tmr's Value's Day would be enjoyable for them... but I won't urge anyone to go at all... Think SAJC's funfair 2 days later would be more spectacular than ours...

Gtg sleep now, cannot take it anymore... sneezing like hell in front of the monitor *HACHOO!*

P.S. Don't ask the reason why I don't realli enjoy my day in Kbox yesterday, I'll say when I want to...

My heart runs cold... No beat has been made. I feel no happiness, no sadness, no anxiety, no love, and most importantly, no life in me. I creep thru the days like a soulless living dead, with neither the aim nor purpose in reality. Seeking remedies along the way, yet without any traces of hint nor clue. My life... Numb and Grey...

Intimidating vexations and tribulations agglomerate around me. Tried my very best to banish them from my thoughts, yet they still linger around the atmosphere, sneering and ostricising me like an empty can discarded on the streets. And even undergoes heartless thrustings and kickings from countless approaching passerby, each sending me a similar message thru their cruel pair of discriminating glare, "thrash! how dirty!" My life... Numb and Grey....

Shrouded by freezing darkness, I witness my bleak future sinking deeper into desolation. I can see myself plunging deep down into a world of no return. A world never once experienced in my whole life b4. A world far more tormenting than anything I've been thru. Trapped far below, I'm still searching for the way up and out, but I need someone's help. Someone to show or give me the ropes. So far... No one's around. My life... Numb and Grey...



Time slowly pass away. I restlessly fade away.
Time removes all in its way. I'm terribly drained, as always .
Time never leaves a trace. I'm lost in my forsaken space.
Time spares? no way. My life... Numb and Grey...

Great.. One day before V day... I've finally plucked up all my courage to go steady wif her. How wonderful. Rejected. I've already spent 15 yrs of my life alone during V day. Guess it's goin to be my 16th this year. How pathetic. Luckily I have Choon Wee to spend my day wif...

See those couples on the roads and streets. How loving. I've always wondered when I'll ever become one of them. Maybe it'll not happen at all. Why.. I've never encountered love b4. Perhaps I had, but I've no idea how love is like. How it comes about. How it works. How does it feel to love and be loved. My heart's somehow dead... It shows no symptons of being in love. Thus I can't trust my heart at all.. I only rely on my instinct and that feeling I have on others......

All this while I've beening look for someone whom I can realli share my troubles and problems with... Someone I can realli spend my life with... Someone I can realli rely on.. Someone I can realli show all my love to and be loved conversely... Someone I can realli give up everything I have for.. Yet my heart never once given me me respond.. Not even a hint... Dead as ever! But I do noe, I have the feeling for her... The feeling of longliness wif her... Sadly. Rejected.

I actually have another paragraph of vulgarities to say, but for the sake of no anti-climax, I'll leave it to tmr... Well.. I've endured a day... No diffierence if I endure for another 24hrs...

Great. Firstly, I've no idea where to go today... If I'm not wrong, Pa, sis and I are goin to my mom's restaurant for lunch, then later I should be goin down to sun plaza, hoping to see her there... Then, maybe I'll be goin down to Suntec wif my fren cuz he needs moral support for something he's goin to do there... Dumb but I understand... As for Tmr, I'll get to play badminton again~ yay~! And if everything goes well, I'll get to go buy something for her after the whole thing, but then she's mad at me now. Hope that doesn't affect our schedule for tmr... I should have just kept quiet.. well.. My fault... sorry... I'm paranoid these few weeks, already have no control over wat i'm doin or thinking... Perhaps that's why I offended you, but I hope u can forgive me k??

P.S. Hey cheer up, Don't be mad... You're making me feel annoyed and scared too. It wasn't the usual you I noe... No idea how to react when I see you like this, I'll definitely change. Give me some time... I'm willing to change. If you ever find me acting idiotic or childish again, juz remind or vent it out on me, but don't block me k?? Nothing beats getting dao by someone... As promised, here's another 2 pics of Jessica Alba just for you... :D

Well... Firstly I didn't go to school. Went to get a MC early in the morning instead, and that already wasted my whole morning -.-" Next I had to waste another 2 hours or so with Andre to go to Somerset just to play Pool... Was quite fun actually, started off with thrashing Andre by 4 rounds LOL... But after that I lost my tyconess, lost to him like 3 rounds b4 heading for Great World City.

By the time we reached GWC it was already like 3pm, but Andre and I still have the time to go have KFC cuz that couple's not there yet... even worse, we have to play another hour of Photo Hunt juz to wait for their arrival. (PJ, You owe Andre and I one explanation) Then the most funniest thing happen. This was only my 3rd time playing Bowling, yet I did miraculously well! Hmm... First round, I scored 4 strikes, but not turkey(triple consecutive strikes) and won all of them :) Second, I became the runner-up, losing to PJ by 2 points. Third, I thrash everyone by having a turkey in the first 3 frames lolz! Ended up having over 100 points within 5 frames! o.O Fourth, which is the last. I juz anyhow play, and at first was like all of us didnt even pass 100... but that's when the miracle came... I actually went 3 strikes in the last frame! Lame rite!? A turkey in the last frame! (reminds me of xXx lolz) Well.. Of cuz I'm the only one who scored over 100 points in the end... My fault for being so pro? Wat rubbish.. This is juz my 3rd time playing Bowling -.-" Never felt so successful in my life b4 HAHA!

P.S. PJ, next time we go play bowling or pool again, I can be ur coach le hahaz, cuz ur way of playing juz like mine, only a little diff in bowling la, but we use the same ball(11), so can try to coach you on how to throw well.. But for hook, find someone else like Andre, Me sux at it.

Fuck! Even blog's making fun of me! What's wrong wif me!? or I should say, Wat's wrong wif everyone around me! I juz typed a nice blog for today, but the only thing that appeared on my screen when I publish it is "Cannot find server." Don't let me publish!? Well, I wont let you have your way, FATE!
Already I'm experiencing something that's been seen in my title, yet I have to press on wif this stupid retyping... What did I begin wif juz now?? Oh yeah~Don't ask me why I'm experiencing that. Me may not know the reason why... So many things happen within the past few weeks, it juz keeps on revolving around my brain and I'm trying so hard to absorb every bit of it. Chinese New Year's juz over, yet I've no idea what I did. Valentine day's coming, yet I've no one to turn to. Loneliness? Abandoned? Neglected? Well.. Neither, It's emptiness I'm feeling... Luckily I have Choon Wee's Da Vinci Code to accompany me. However I long for something more better than a lifeless novel. I need more life, more spirit in me. What should I do? I'm turning too emotional~ Perhaps I should go out wif my frens more often to calm myself down... No, wait, that's the origin, my emptiness. I guess I'll juz lock myself up in my room and cry my heart out in despair instead. That way I think I'll feel much better. I've bottled too much in me.. I need someone reliable and trustworthy to confide in, or else sooner or later I'll juz go bonkers or insane. Now. I need some time. Alone.
P.S. Don't piss me, unless you realli care for me... What I need is a companion if you do not understand what my whole long page of bullshit means...

W00t! It's already Chinese New Year!? This year's celebration and ambience sure seems more boring than any of the previous ones... Y?? What else is there to do for CNY NOW!? Fireworks? Firecrackers? Lion Dance? it's all done before! What spectacular events are there left to make CNY more unforgetable?? Still... I don't mind having CNY lolz~ Other than having to visit both known and unfamiliar relatives, there's Hong Baos, free food, public holidays etc well that's good enough isnt it? it's late now, gtg sleep, have to go "bai nian" this morning...

Alright! Finally Chinese New Year Eve... First day writing a blog too.. Hope My blog site's not too bad, but I'm gonna change it sooner or later, It sure looks weird enough. First Post... Juz goin to keep it short, but I promised someone to upload some pics here... Take a look :)

Hehe... All jessica Alba!! This is wat I promised u Hui~ U're gonna like it! :D
oh btw, comment about my blog site in the tagboard k?? thnx~