i have shifted! so erm if any of you actually still see this and want to know my new blog add, please DO NOT HESITATE to contact me LOL. :)

this is the official statement informing any soul who still visits this that i have moved. drop me an msn msg/ sms/ email wadever if u want to know my new blog url. good day! :)

i need to find another place to unload and express. find it i will! haha.

i've been having dreams at night these days. never used to dream when i sleep... at least not for a long time. but the dreams are all incoherent and illogical, thus amusing in their own way. :P

influenced by fang and mp to notice beetles. the car, that is. and really, singapore has quite a few of them! they must be relatively affordable perhaps? so cute. a unique shape. i dont particularly get excited when i see them around, but that day i saw a really gorgeous one! in kembangan too. it was BLUE. a very striking colour. cool :) cool blue beatle!

was very touched to receive a present from over the seas... its exquisite, and more than that, the thoughts behind it. so so precious. dont know if i'll ever see them again, but they will never be forgotten... and the present will hang here in my room, a reminder of that special period of time.

came to terms with mistakes made.

i counted, stars, 100 of them. pretty... again, its the thought. =)

why do we torment ourselves? cos we are, right?

actually this is all NO BIG DEAL (capslock to emphasize hahaha) why are we burdened by it... why cant it be released...

but after the emotional outburst comes the acceptance, at least temporarily. there is a reason for everything. only some things will make me run to Him. why do i not run then?

i want to express it, yet i know some things cannot be, and must never be expressed. what is this weird game that we all play, albeit reluctantly? i can never enjoy this. i will prob never understand how some can come to terms with it. why do we indulge in it? its all our fault. we all wear that mask, do we not. we all pretend, we want not the upsetting of the status quo.

is understanding better or not

"it depends"

and then i shrug it off again, and because i know not what i should do, i do nothing.

actually, i think i can understand to a crtain extent.. but i dunno what kind of feelings that leaves me with... how to respond/react

some things just make u feel like weeping. and you know you cant share that indescribable feelings inside with anyone. and no one can relate to it. good thing the sun is shining outside... if it was gloomy, i might really just flood my room.

some things are not meant to be understood. you're just supposed to accept and live your life henceforth. not like there's anything you can do anyway, or is there

mixed and ambivalent feelings.

very proud of her, for being so brave, for being so strong, able to put on a laughing cheerful face in spite of the emotional strain and the physical weariness. to still present her usual self so that others around her will not worry. when i heard her sing the song, i couldn't help but tear, it was all too touching, so genuine, that love for her beloved sister; so meaningful, the lyrics of the song. And it was evident from her voice how hard it was not to break down and cry as she sang, all the while face to face with her sister, even as tears rolled down her sister's cheeks..

just pray that God will bless and strengthen the union.

남 자 친 구 잇 다! =)

사 랑 해 요! =)

tick tick tick... i'm just -very- boredly waiting for time to pass so that i can zao... its a countdown. this countdown is in minutes. another countdown in days... after today 11 more days!!! hur hur hur :P

another very important countdown till reunion again =)

my dears are coming home, soon soon soon.

just remembered that iris has gone off to china, yunnan, xiangbi. wonder how it would feel to be back there, surrounded by all the kids if i had gone with her. will i ever see them again? my favourites... zhi guo, guo bao, de yue, zhu ming jie, his adorable sister whom everyone loves, and especially xiao po!!! gosh. would really really really want to see them again... cute cute xiao po...

haha. dont we all just love to walk down memory lane.

chocolates (with liquor) and ice cream... mmm...
*smacks lips*

red apples, guava (!!!), lychees (!!!!!!!), papaya, banana, kiwi, orange...

my favourite 'staple' - mee sua!

vege... hur hur. broccoli, xiao bai cai etc etc

fish! garoupa and the rest

and MEat :) pork ribs!

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off goes rixin to Mongolia - wow :D
off goes ah pui to europe - bring me there too!!!