2008!!!

YAY!!! 2008 is HERE!!!!
A new 2008 list!

I'm so sorry for your people man~!

I stumbled upon this blog entry and I must say its simply wicked! ROTFL!!!!






As a French i've strong feeling for people in New-Orlean. A city which name came from à very pretty french city : Orléan. As an american i feel very guilty for what happen to them.

So yesturday i had been walking on the street when i saw a black men, he was wearing a suit, and looked a little like Colin Powell. Immediatly i spoke to him, trying to have a strong facial expression of kindness. I spoke very loud, because whit my french accent, its difficult to understand what i say.

That was something like that :

-Me : "Hello. I want to say i'm sorry for what happen to your people"
-Black men "Excuse me ?"

-Me : "You had suffered a lot in the History, and now your contry is hit by the nature. And nobody helps you, your are dying like blacks rats traps in sewers."
-Black men : "I beg you pardon ?"

-Me : "You people have so many childrens ... I dont blame you. It's so difficult to controle births when you can't read the contraceptive notice".
-Black men : "I have to go to work, have a nice day"

-Me : "Wet a minute ... i mean WAIT a minute brother ( i laughted - humour is good to brake ice) ! I really wont you understand me are with you. You no more alone, you a free man !
-Black men (giving me $5) : "Here is for your lunch, leave me alone please now"

-Me : "Come on dont be shy bro', come in my place we can have something to drink ... i mean no watter, sorry, hu ... some watermelon and chicken ? Yo ! What do you think about that ?
-Black men : "I think now i will become more rude mister"

-Me : "C'mon, i know blacks people, i'm french. Some people in my family use to travel with many black people from africa to america. And i love jazz, you are so good at that with you big lips. You know you dont have to be ashame of your culture, your are almost as good as the whites. .... Take this $10 for Katrina !"
-Black men ( just slapped my face and leaved)

WHAT UNGRATFULL ARE THIS PEOPLE !

icky!

I better stop heading straight to bed after work! Nowadaes, I'm so worn out after coming back to work that I change straight to my home clothes and str8 to bed!

I MUST BATHE FIRST! I dont care how tired i am but i must at least BATHE!

*i'm very disgusted with myself! ick!

The Solar Vatican!

Another score for Gaia! The Vatican has gone SOLAR!
Now when are they going to install solar domed mosques and synagogues ey?

Science/Technology + Religion/Compassion = Priceless!

Cheers to you Sir Pope!~

Vatican to build solar panel roof

The Vatican is considering solar panels on other buildings

Pope Benedict XVI is to become the first pontiff to harness solar power to provide energy for the Vatican, engineers say.

The deteriorating cement roof tiles of the Paul VI auditorium will be replaced next year with photovoltaic cells to convert sunlight into electricity.

The cells will generate enough power to light, heat or cool the hall, the Vatican engineers say.

Last year the Pope urged Christians not to squander the world's resources.

The BBC's David Willey in Rome says the Vatican is now setting an example to the rest of Italy, which has been slow in harnessing solar.

Surplus power

Pope Benedict has criticised "the unbalanced use of energy" in the world.

Last year he said environmental damage was making "the lives of poor people on earth especially unbearable".

The Paul VI auditorium was designed by architect Pier Luigi Nervi and built in 1969.

The cement panels on its roof have deteriorated and were due to be replaced anyway, said Vatican engineer Pier Carlo Cuscianna.

When the 6,000-seat hall is not in use, the surplus energy will be fed into the Vatican power network.

The Vatican is considering placing solar panels on other buildings although St Peter's Basilica and other historical landmarks will not be touched.

Adoption

"I don't want to bring another kid into this world but how do you argue against loving one who’s already here?" - from the movie, Martian Child

To all those who aren't able to have children of their own and are concerned about the menace of population growth that's threatening our planet.

Infertile couples, gay couples, couples who have plenty of love to give; you can exercise this beautiful, awesome choice of taking in the children of poverty, the abandoned, the orphaned.

Take the honour of being stewards of their lives, share with them the blessings you've been given and turn them into individuals with a sense of meaning and purpose. Let them know that the challenges and the darkest moments of their lives are not to last.

Humanity's saving grace might just be our compassion towards our fellow brothers and sisters.

Slow down population growth! Spread the love!

Bushy bUsh BuSH

I was reading the BBC online news website and came across an article on President George W. Bush proposing a framework for tackling climate change bringing together 15 leading nations of carbon emitters including China and India.

Excuse me? The man who refused to rectify the Kyoto Protocols, opposing reducing carbon emmissions altogether wants the nations of the world to actually believe him? Absolute rubbish! It is most likely the man wants us to follow his idea/version of a global battle on climate change just as he wants us to follow his lead in his fantastic battle on the war on terror. Oh really, I think he did a wonderful job in Iraq so I'm sure he'd make a composed and intelligent assesment on the state of the planet. He's so full of it its unbelievable! I do not believe he's an environmentalist at all and to think that he is capable of leading the world's nations in battling climate change is inconceivable!

This messy state of world affairs of course cannot be attributed to one man of course but never before have I witnessed a warmongerer and deceitful man as with the likes of Hitler!

I would say that he has failed to demonstrate in being capable to lead a great nation as the United States.

I bear witness to your sins Mr Bush along with the rest of the world

June Read

Picked this up at Kinokuniya with Raf while looking for In Cold Blood. Mel encouraged me to read Murakami's works. Metamorphical, fleeting, philosophical......

<---------Kafka on the Shore : Haruki Murakami------------>

Off dae!!!

* it feels good to stay snug in bed in the morns

Hey, you know I dont think I'm not going to think so much. I'm not about to have a verbal diarroea on how to please the world, i please myself and the world should please me. so bow down to ME! The emperor of purple Sphinxes!

Anyways Matt just messaged me in the morning informing me that Mum has touched down in Dallas safe and sound. I got the whole house to maself and my brother of course for a whole month! tee hee!

*sloshing ard in bed and meow meowing in bed.... i feel like a cat in a basket

Todae's highlight is the movie INFAMOUS!



It looks smashing! meeting Raf later in the afternoon. But not before i head to Cali!

Here's cheers to a chill out wednesdae! HUZZA!

grrrrr!

Dear D,

Seriously, I shouldn't be bothered but unfortunately it does. I believe there is a reason for this. I will take stock of the nature of people and how I shall conduct my future relations with them and I should also do plenty of self reflecting on how much of this is the result of my doing.

Before thinking about how ugly the outside world is, I should first turn inward and contemplate my inner world and how the connections and interactions between the two condition my state of mind.

I used to be brash, angry and unruly but I know full well the price I have to pay for it and in some ways, perhaps I still am. Life is indeed the greatest teacher and for that I am greatful for the providence that has been bestowed upon me.

How do I be a gentleman in the midst of betrayal and deceit? How do I face my darkest fears without rebelling with hate and anger behind the veil of denial? I cannot and will not walk away from this. This is my Jihad.

Mondae yippie yippie!

Got good news from Raf in the morning; he has informed me that I'm able to get discounts on the play, Asian Boys Volume 3 with Alfian's help. It was nice to know that :)

HAPPY ENDINGS: ASIAN BOYS VOL. 3

Opens 11 July 2007
Drama Centre Theatre @ National Library, Level 3

In this much anticipated final instalment of the Asian Boys Trilogy, Alfian Sa’at adapts Johann S Lee’s Peculiar Chris, Singapore’s first gay novel, for the stage.

1992. In their final year at Junior College, Christopher Han and his best friends – Sylvia, Kenneth and Nicholas, discover the ecstasy and pain of falling in love. Later, while serving his National Service, Chris has a relationship with his army officer, Samuel, before leaving for London for further studies.

2007. After 15 years abroad, Chris returns to a Singapore that he barely recognises. The city has become a veritable gay wonderland, while repressive attitudes remain as entrenched as ever. Sylvia has become part of the leading vanguard for change. Kenneth has renounced his past, refashioning himself as a voice for conservatism. And Nicholas is partying like there’s no tomorrow.

Haunted by the ghosts of the past, and yet enchanted by the spectres of the present, Chris is torn between nostalgia for a more innocent decade, and hope for a wiser future. Timely, urgent and moving, Happy Endings asks what it means for a society to come of age.

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As for the schedule this week, my off days are Wed and Sat both of which will be occupied.

I'll be meeting Raf this Wed after morning gym and after that tuition; apparently my kids didnt do well in their mid year exams so the mum wants me to aggresively torture them! muahahaha! I was very very disappointed when i heard about their results. sigh.... am i a bad mentor? I will need to reschedule my meetin with Nisa to Saturday but I need to take Karl and my gang into account. I dont think I can squeeze all three outings in one day! or maybe: Nisa> short breakfast, Karl> afternoon movie, Gang> evening shopping and movie. Ish! macam tak betul aja! Cmon Min! be realistic!

I'm getting my BIG FAT CHECK SOON!!! WOOT!

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THIS IS TOTALLY GRUESOME! Read this on BBC online, this is one GUTSY SNAKE! >

Snake bursts after gobbling gator

The predators died in the clash Enlarge Image

An unusual clash between a 6-foot (1.8m) alligator and a 13-foot (3.9m) python has left two of the deadliest predators dead in Florida's swamps.

The Burmese python tried to swallow its fearsome rival whole but then exploded.

The remains of the two giant reptiles were found by astonished rangers in the Everglades National Park.

The rangers say the find suggests that non-native Burmese pythons might even challenge alligators' leading position in the food chain in the swamps.

Clearly, if they can kill an alligator they can kill other species Prof Frank Mazzotti

The python's remains were found with the victim's tail protruding from its burst midsection. The head of the python was missing.

"Encounters like that are almost never seen in the wild... And here we are," Frank Mazzotti, a University of Florida wildlife professor, was quoted as saying by the Associated Press news agency.

"They were probably evenly matched in size. If the python got a good grip on the alligator before the alligator got a good grip on him, he could win," Professor Mazzotti said.

He said the alligator may have clawed at the python's stomach, leading it to burst.

"Clearly, if they can kill an alligator they can kill other species," Prof Mazzotti said.

He said that there had been four known encounters between the two species in the past. In the other cases, the alligator won or the battle was an apparent draw.

Burmese pythons - many of whom have been dumped by their owners - have thrived in the wet and hot climate of Florida's swamps over the past 20 years.

the grudge

I have received news from Senator Kwon through Intel that Tashrik has already sought to discredit and malign the Republic for sometime now. I have already long anticipated this....

I hear that that Tamerlene is in Siam for now after which, he will be proceeding on a campaign in Honlus in the coming autumn months.

I wonder how long I can withhold my offensive streaks. It has been a long time since I held back in pursuit of peace but apparently trashing out at the Tal Chine's office has turned into a boil in my butt.

I have not heard anything from Val Rasha but I will keep up my guard.

Aye aye! You think the Emperor will twitch at the sight of a plebian?

As for other matters, I have already consulted with the Council of Elders to formulate and embark on the Levantine campaign which I will propose to the next Senate gathering in Suldannesselar.

I will aggressively build up the photon shields, all 4 contingents of the AS 5's and the Osirian fleet as well as initiate diplomatic clout.

dizzy...

Went to see Alex off for a short while at the airport in the morning. I was thinking of heading to the gym straight after that but had a headache which progressively got worse. Luckily i didnt bring my gym stuff with me and decided to head home first and rest for a bit before going out again.
On the bus ride home, Uffs called me to blew off some steam. I was sad to hear that she's decided to end it with Es. I thought things were going really well between them and especially so when its a relationship that her family will approve of since heaps of the previous ones were scorched. Coming from a family who is spiritual and conservative is a wonderful thing however, I still dont understand why religion has to be an issue when it comes to relations between two people. so ok there are standard codes of behaviour between the two sexes, which on some levels I agree in the name of decent interaction but its just too much when it comes to the point where women are being on the loosing end. Using religion to subject women into submission, condemn the "politically wayward", define the "other" as an antithesis to morality and doctrine is just plain disgusting. Religion was created to serve mankind, not the other way around.
I would not say that I'm a religious person myself but I do keep on pushing myself to be cognizant of the value systems that are inherent in every culture and nation. It is so easy to confuse religion and cultural practices. Social interactions are defined by the geo-cultural contigencies that shape them and as religion spreads across many geographical boundaries, it is inevitable that culture and religion are intertwined giving rise to different shades of those religions.
As for Uffs, I hope she finds someone whom she'll be happy with without having to be suffocated by archaic cultural norms (not religion).

On a lighter note, I can't wait to get pressies for the birthday babies next month! woohoo!
Han just got back from Bangkok yesterday and it was his first time. From the thrills he was tellin me about, seems like somebody had a whale of a time. hehe!

I got my exam results yesterday and thankfully my CAP score was pulled up! YAYness! But still I still have plenty room to make it to my ideal score. As for now, I'm able to do Honours but honestly I'm getting tired of what I'm studying. I'd like to take up something more practical and ambitious. I do not know what lies ahead but as for now I'm keeping an eye on working in banking and finance which is totally unrelated to what I'm reading. I gotta read up on the investment stuff very soon. I don't have much time.

TGIF

The moment opposed to planning. The practical against the impractical. That moment is a start. Leave planning in fate's hands. The certain against uncertainty.
The most beautiful thing in life is subtle. Subtly present. Not a piece of anything which states something. The mark of his words. Its volume.
Secret affection. Can it be unstated for long. Can it hold. Can it not hurt. Fulfilling it 'all' yet still falling short. Passed the mark but missing it.
Life should be fair. But fairness crushes. Yet it should hold. Because it should be.
Distance is not an excuse. Distance is factor. Why does it yield. Because distance is manmade. And 'it' is surely deeper in the veins. Going round with words and going round in life. The people loved most are the people hurt most. The work of life's defense mechanisms.

min min sick sick

*sniffles.... had been sick since yesterday. leaky nose, sore husky throat, aching joints, feverish....
been quite sometimes since I last fell sick. hope that the glasses of orange juice, water, panadol, fish oil, vitamin c pill and plenty of sleep helps.

Went clubbing with Uffy, Shariffah and Mohd at Saint James and then Meqz later and partied till 6 am WOOT! very rare occasion to stay up to 24 hrs awake and even a rarer occassion for Uffy to club since her parents are out of town in Malaysia this week. Uffy was the star of the nights, packing in her signature "Shakira" bobbing, vibrating hips. GELEK girl GELEK!~ (urgh! i need a camera!!!) Apparently, it grabbed the attention of two Israelis, a Hindi and a Brazilian! but nope; no hanky panky on the dance floor; just good clean fun!

Indeed it was the first time for me entering an Indian bhangra joint. Its amazing how they can squeeze a club into a shophouse by Clarke Quay. The dancefloor was just limited to a square podium and can accomodate up to ten people at a time~ so cramped! I didnt know how to dance to Indian retro so whilst the peeps jiggied their Bollywood moves I..... did...... what it seemed to be a...................... LINDY JAZZ NUMBER!!!! hahahaha! Dont know if I did it right teehee! but the gang and I had a BLAST!

Salsa, Bhangra, House and R&B was the order of the night. Worked out a sweat!

I think it's the smoke that got to me eventually. It conjured a sore throat which then graduated into fever and aching joints. crapz. Yea they oughtta ban smoking there.... uuuuhh i dont feel so good.... I'm not sure if I'm able to Mezraq later for lunch and flicks...



J Lo's Que Hiciste.

Gymrius Rattus

I think I'm in love with the Ab Adductor machine.... It feels good....
Should I should keep track of the machines, repetitions and duration of workouts in a notebook?
Heard of doing this from a trainer who was coaching his client beside me. Is there point?
aiiyeerrr mah fahn lei. So long as I feel good, would that be good enuff? tsk.....

Am sad that the wallet Nita bought me for my birthday present has already torn at the coin pouch... sobz... i need a much more durable/heavy duty wallet. didnt know i'm rough with the merchandaise. Yikes! I'm so sorry Nita! *whimpers

visitations

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Places I have visited:
Malaysia (Johor, KL)
Indonesia (Jakarta, Bali, Bogor)
Australia (Brisbane)
Thailand (Bangkok)

Wishing to visit:
Japan (Tokyo, Kobe, Osaka, Kyoto)
USA (Texas; Plano)
Lebanon (Beirut, Sidon)
Turkey (Istanbul, Edrine, Diyarbakir)
Israel/Palestine (Tel Aviv, Ashqelon, Haifa, Palestinian Territories)
Canada (Vancouver, Toronto)
Czech Republic (Prague)
Hungary (Budapest)
Italy (Rome)
Sweden (Stockholm)
UAE (Dubai)
Egypt (Cairo, Alexandria)
Iran (Tehran, Isfahan, Shiraz)
Brazil (Rio De Jeneiro)
Tibet (Lhasa)
South Korea (Seoul; Itaewon, Busan, Jedu-do)
China (Hong Kong)
Peru (Manchu Pichu)
Puerto Rico (San Juan)

Before I expire:
Saudi Arabia (Mecca, Medina)

Am in SERIOUS need of a DIGITAL CAMERA!!! ~ deprived of cam whoring ~
It'll be the first thing I'll buy once I get my paycheck! hehehe!

Aspiring globe trotterer signing off!!!

Life's the greatest teacher

Lessons which I have learnt ~ The HARD way:

1) DON'T mix business with pleasure
2) DON'T trust ANYONE
3) DON'T help just anyone. Know darn well who is making use of you. I'd rather help a nobody begging on the streets
4) Take time to contemplate on situations, ANY situation. It'll pay off.... If not able to make any decisions, just make no comment or do anything
5) Do not look too kindly on the confused. The weak do NOT prosper!

Whats dat you say? Lindy???

You know, ever since Alex told me about 'Lindy Jazz'/'Lindy Hip Hop' or something (a dance ~ I hope I got it spelt right) I've been itching to get my legs to jiggy! There is a certain vivaciousness to the whole dance fiesta. Bet it'll feel silly in the first few tries but ummm I think it's BRILLIANT!!!





God BLESS LINDY!!!!

Current read:

Sweeping us into scenes rich with drama, conjuring a world on the brink of destruction-Iran before the revolution-this haunting and passionate novel tells the story of a doomed love affair.

Mahastee grew up in the privileged inner circles of Teheran's aristocracy. Reza, whose father once worked for Mahastee's family, has become a revolutionary leading clandestine meetings in the city's shadowy underworld. When they meet again for the first time in twenty years, their volatile love takes on new and threatening implications as the political situation in Teheran becomes increasingly explosive.

Anahita Firouz belongs to the last generation in Iran who witnessed an entire way of life fall apart. In the Walled Gardens is her evocation of that complex and glittering world-a compelling portrait of a now vanished era, and an unforgettable, revolutionary love story.

The dust of many crumbled cities
settles over us like a forgetful doze,
but we're older than those cities.
..........................................................
and always we have forgotten our former states.....

Maulana Jalaluddin Rumi

A compelling read on my long train rides and moments of solace.....

siong ah

Yesterday had been particularly exhausting.

Got up early in the morning to meet Karl at Cali at 9 am. Pumped, treadmilled, climbed, crunched and steamed as if I was trying to make up for all those lost days at the gym and went on and on till 1pm. Was invited for breakfast by him and his other half. Hehe! I declined, slipping an inaudible excuse. He seemed very disappointed somewhat but I know well that I dont like to be a gooseberry. So it be wise. Instead I gobbled down a hotdog in between the workouts and boy it was GOOD!

Stopped by Al Falah Mosque for Friday prayers before heading to work. It wasn't when Faisal called me later that I found out that he was there as well. Alas we weren't meant to meet. lol! Happy to know that he's found holyday job. I wonder if Raf had called Wing Tai.... hmmmzz

The last customer came in at 8.30pm and had to entertain till 10pm. Was shagged tired as Friday drew to an end. I wish I didnt have to stay to close the place late at night. It was quite eerie with the silence and dark corners and sometimes I thought I heard creaking at the staircases. And to my surprise, when I changed back to my clothes I smelled perfume on my shirt. I dont recall spraying anything on my shirt and neither could I point my finger as to what fragrance it was. (Hugo Boss? Bvlgari? Tommy Hilfiger?) Anyway I think its Bosch who did it before he left. The boy has this penchant for spraying fragrances so I gather he'd thought it'll be nice to share it with me. lol! Well, could be either be that or some pontianak came to leave her imprint on my shirt in an attempt to draw me in.
(you know how they make their presence known through sweet smells) > well if that's the case it aint working on me so take your claws and fangs and main jauh jauh (malay euphemism for 'get lost') muahahaha!

Boss called me as I made my way home in the cab asking me if I could come tommorrow. Haha no sir-ree! Have already told him that my off days are Wed and Sat and I'm off limits! Dont you touch this teng teng teng! I've already given into him before and I dont think its worth it cus I need my own time. My social life takes precedence as I deem it. lol

Having tuition and meeting Alex later in the afternoon for lunch. It'll be cool. I really need a good day's rest. Speaking of which, I better get heaps of zzzz's for now.

Looking forward to a new day!

flabbergasted!

dear dee,
I had fun with my tutee. (hey rhyme!) he's a crazy lil brat. strangely enuff the sunkist amusement comes from him not doing his work and making faces, calling his lil' sister names and how he keeps on going talking about 'ketiak busuk, ketiak kering, ketiak kuning, ketiak basah, hidung berbulu' (smelly, dry, yellow, wet armpitts and hairy nostrils).

It's perpetually irritating and adorable at the same time and .....i can't believe i just said that.... Contemplated many times to strangle him but only managed to pinch his cheeks. His cheeks are flawless, poreless, pimpleless! he'd be the envy of Gong Li! LOL! alas the skins of primary school children! Wait till you get real hair you munchkin!

Finally got my pay from the mum and I'm intending to convert some of it to Yen. and then part if it for transport and savings. Returned Karl's sms with a call and turned out that he wanted to confirm with me abt the Bangkok trip. He's got two other blokes coming along. I dont know them but he's arranging fer us to meet up for coffee just so we'd get aquainted and be pals.

Well, I'm okay with it. Its just that I've been meeting new people all the time and I'm afraid I'm growing out of the novelty of the experience. *shrugs.

Friends ask how have I established such a wide network? how do I meet these people? Well, I just do. But seriously I dont have a network as wide as many would like to believe. I subconsciouly filter out who are for keeps and who are out. Potential troublemakers, vindictive ones, and those who dont give much thought to words. That way, I suppose, I avoid complications in life. Simple? seems like so. Realistic? ~ who am I kiddin' ??? LOL

Alex sent me this article about duck's phallu's. Didnt know their 'johns' curl up and detach themselves and grow new ones every year. hyuk hyuk! >>> Ducky Dickie

yawnzer....

Date: 02 May 2007
Time: 10.23 am
Location: Home in cozy bed
Weather: Rained last night (weee!!)
Stomach status: Empty and growling

I love waking up late mornings not having to worry about schedules, projects, being late for lectures (good riddence!). What would really complete my morning is the sweet taste of Cadbury chocolate...

Surfed youtube and was glad to know that Sonique's "It feels so good" music video is still up. This number has haunted me since my secondary school days. I dont know what it is about this song that made me remember its every beat and groove. Would I say its a classic? in my books it is!




Thanks to Fauzi who's a big fan of Ken Hirai, that I've been downloading all of this songs onto my ipod. Now seeing him how he really looks like on youtube, I must say that I have grown to be a fan. :P He's really puts his soul into his songs. Ayumi told me that he's pure Japanese. I thought he was mixed pan Asian or something. But nonetheless, he's great to listen to on beautiful mornings:









Just slippin in a Lee Hyori ~ She's beautiful! :D

Who needs James Bond when you've got WENG WENG!

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! I cant stand it ANYMORE!!!!



Those were the glory days for the vertically challenged LOL! My toes are laughing!



hmmmm.... I wonder what mood Walter is in right now???

Mood ah

Planning to stay at home todae before heading out tonight. Still waiting for the peeps to finish the papers. As for now, just like to sit and relax in ma comfy abode before doing some weights. Messaged Nitasya and was told of Zouking this wed~! perfect! Its been ages since I've stepped my partying toes on that dance floor since they renovated the place. I wonder how Phuture looks like now... hmmzzz

Headed down to Plaza Sing yesterday for a evening out with Raf after a long hiatus. Nothing thrilling but simple nonetheless. Apparently the bloke is a big fan of shiny shirts tsk >



It was by coincidence I was wearing the Superman shirt the gang bought for me back on my birthday. Good taste I must say *winks

We watched "The Hills Have Eyes" > and no, this has nothing to do with the land of Tellytubbies or PeeWee's World. I have never been so stressed watching a movie!



FREAKSHOW!!!


Lately, I still encounter some people who haven't shed off the bad habit of disclosing private information or secrets especially to strangers/aquaintences or whatever. For me, it is an issue which I dont find surprising but it is a lesson which I am glad to be reminded of over and over again. It makes me wonder if it indicates one's social inaptness or was it really intentional? (expecting me to taddle) Either way, looking at what I've been through, I'm leaning towards the latter. I dont like the way I think about how people have some ulterior motive in telling me things which I'm not supposed not know or should necessarily know.

I ask in my heart: "Why are you telling me this?" " So what?" "Am I supposed to do anything about it?"

Simply put, it's mind games which I have no intention of getting myself into. But nonetheless, if I do seem simple minded on the outside, then I think I'd stick that way cus it'll be an eye opener for me to see the hearts of people.

Trust is indeed an issue worthy of contention. How do you know you can trust someone? How well do you know of a friend whom you can pour your heart's content? If you know of a person whom you just met and he/she tells you stuff which are of no consequence to you but you know it is sensitive and private nonetheless would you still want to be friends?

I think it has become increasingly difficult to trust people these days. Even though your closest friends and family are your pillars of support, can you truly count on them not to bail out on you even on the tiniest of issues like love, sex, life etcetera....?

I know its very ugly but I still do have faith in people. Would it be a weakness to trust?
Yes, I do agree that when you trust someone with your secrets or private information you make yourself very very vulnerable. But if human relations are to be given any measure of worth, it is important to know whom you can or cannot trust or what sort of things you should or should not disclose. Ultimately we are answerable to ourselves.

Consider the foolishness of loose tongues and hope wisdom will come to light.

Yikes!

Alright munchkin! Here's what I've got planned for a fantastic dawn for MAY! MAYDAY MAYDAY!!!

1) Refix my buffet with Raline on the 30th, Mondae at Shang Ri La Hotel (not exactly May :P)
2) First orientation training date with Azhar at Cali at 1 pm, 1st Maybefore heading down to work at 3.3opm. (Schedule with Faisal and probably Q)
3) Headown to town to watch Spiderman 3 with Donnie buddy, Viv and Mel and a bunch of people I dont know from his church cell (yay more peeps!)
4) Routine trainings on Mondays, Wednesdays, Fridays and Sundays.
5) Embark on sheeshah sessions @ Al Majlis with Yasmine
6) Japanese DIY lessons (tsk!)
7) Try dabbling and making sense of Adobe
8) God forbid if I ever touch Sim City.... (pls dont let that happen)
9) Revive chill out session with Hanom and her mum (must get that coleslaw and shabsouka receipie!)
10) Tanning sessions with Michelle!!! (clubbing with her butch possies! YIKES!)

Deliriousness! > I need a hobby.... NOT! :P

Huzza!

Farewell Ayumi!!!

The exams have come to an end HURRAYS!!! Feels like a whole burden has been lifted from ma shoulders! Looking forward to the holidays and I aint gonna sit idling by baby!

Boss called me to ask me to come back to work on Labour Day and honestly i couldn't be happier to do so. Its kinda odd that I'm actually looking forward to work so I'm pretty glad that I've found a job that I enjoy doing in a working environment that is welcoming and absent of politics. Ease is such a breeze!

As soon as I finished the last paper, I rushed to Changi Airport to see Ayumi off. Boon Hock couldn't come :( San and Shanhu had their bags in tow with presents each for birthday parties they had to go to.

I can't help but feel glad to meet a sweet, soft spoken Japanese girl. She works hard for what she wants and the same time Ayumi has this calm aura which betrays her underlying industriousness. Hmmm I can learn a thing or two from that. Ahakz! She said I could come visit her in Kobe when in transit from Tokyo to Osaka on the Shinkensen! so exciting!




She left each of us with a scented sachet from Kyoto. SWEET!

Singapore will miss her dearly! Until then JA NE!!!

Majestic Istanbul

Blessed be the nations who stand for the bastion of cultures and religions

It's Earth Day!

Oh cheezlebums! My first paper is TOMORROW!!! OH MY GAWD!!!!
First up : Methods and Practices in Geography
Deux : Environmental Change in the Tropics
Tiga : Principles in Communications Management
Si : Leisure, Recreation and Tourism
Five : Cultural Astronomy

I'm really dreading this Astronomy module. This will teach me to choose modules carefully next time. ahakz!

I must say that I feel pretty relaxed about this round of exams. I dont know why. All I'm thinking about is the holidays. I'm gonna work ma butt off to save up to pay off the gym membership, the laptop loan and save up for my trip to Tokyo next year! As for this coming holidays its all set with Karl that I'm heading to Bangkok again this August. hehe! gotta make sure that I spend more time at Chatuchak (sic) Market!!! It'll be a riot I tell ya!

Yesterday was Earth Day. A time for reflection, a time to slap our faces. Spent most of the day watching National Geographic. You know it's really disheartening how barbaric humans can get.... Despite our intelligence, greatest achievements and power, we have let our arrogance and greed to desecrate the very foundations of life. We have seemingly been so confident of our lordship over earth. I am very worried about the state we have put our planet in. Hopefully, I can make the difference... I'll reach out to the heavens and pray for God to have mercy on this planet. We have stained this earth with blood, blackened the skies with lies, putrified the oceans with hate, let our hearts be consumed with lust, and be seduced with greed! How magnificent are your abominations, sons of Adam! I wonder how long how this loving planet can contain the sins of mankind...... I await whilst God's hand yield our fates to an uncertain destiny.

For every beginning there is an end, for every act of compassion there is a garden, for every sin there is fire

Just came across the Sony Ericsson website and fell in love with the K550i! : http://www.sonyericsson.com/capturingitlive/Singapore/



I loike! I absolutely LOIKE! HECK! I LOVE IT! ...... my pocket! my pocket!!! AAAAAAHHHHH!

Well, lets look on the bright side, at least it'll replace that digital camera. I miss taking pictures... sobz....

Wish me all the best! (back to mugggzzz)

another one....

dear slog
Didnt it ever occur to you that project assignment tasks can be pushed around? well now you know. here's one more. enjoy your sundae.

I'm Asian. I can do this hahahahaha! ~

Good Fridae / Bad Fridae

Yesterday after work, I headed down to Al Majlis to join Yasmin for dinner and hopefully to get some studying. hmmmm studying.... outside?/..... with Yasmin?? haha very very unlikely. My attention span on my notes wont last! tee hee!

As I was sitting there, I was saddened by the news that she had argued with a very close friend and I'm afraid that she might have already lost a jewel in her life. I can't help but think twice about the stability of friendships. You can just invest a lot of effort and emotions into a friendship, thinking that things are going to be peachy and lasting till you grow old but no..... Things and issues can just suddenly come in between you two and then all bonds seems to melt/snap away just because of some stupid little arguement/misunderstanding - bah humbug!

However, thinking back on the things that has been going on in my life, I asked myself if I had dumped friends or people whom I thought I cared about. The truth that I wont deny is that I had indeed. I get selectful with the people whom I mix with but that goes against my ideals of being and open person and accepting the flaws of humans. But no, I am actually selfish and I got to realise this only now. If turn this issue on its head, yes, there have been people who have dumped me out of their lives. Sometimes its my fault, sometimes I dunno why.

But the crux of the matter is, I can't judge Yasmin's friend cus I'm just the same. What I can do now is NOT to do it again. What goes around comes around and if my social life were to resemble some measure of diplomacy and respect, I have to be tolerant. And even if I dont like the person, I need to control my ego and not let it make things unpleasant or anybody at the very least. In the beggining of this year, I made it my life's mission to maintain the "Kibbun" which is the Korean philosophy of maintaining good relations with the people around us. Hopefully, the seeds of paradise will bear fruit in my heart.

Plenty of reasons to be happy todae :
1) Banking in ma paycheck later
2) Ma date this afternoon
3) My California Fitness Membership!!!!
4) Not only did I found my ipod shuffle, I also had my ipod nano repaired!

*watching KBS channel now. they've got these lil' funny programmes. now they are showing "From Housewives To Rock Stars" hehehe its like this karaoke thingy on stage complete with backup dancers! cool beans!

Salaam

OOOOOOOOOOHhhhhhh YeAhh!!!

I've finished the bulk of ma projects!!!! AHAKZ! KAHAKZ! RABAKZ! *cough cough...

I happy can? hehe! gosh i feel so relieved i finishing them and the feeling of submitting to the lecturers is so HIGH! hehe! Now at least i can catch up on the lecture's i've missed on webcast and do up the readings at full speed tho i have one more project to go.

Yesterday, before heading for ma tutee's i stopped by California Fitness and Fitness First Gym to try do some comparison. Found out that the monthly membership between the two are a vast diff > $58 versus $133....... so Cali wins handsdown. You know its such a shame i could have gone for Fitness First @ the AMK Hub, one of the rare gyms in the HDB heartlands. I've been waiting for one that is NOT in the city districts. I mean why would i wanna travel so far right? But in any case i like hanging out in busy surburbia as well - people rushing here and there, the neon lights, the buzzz > city life gives me an upbeat mood, the hustle and bustle of humanity. I have to choose whether I want to go for Cali. But ummmmm, there's the NUM offer.... I gotta make choices baybeh.

I came across this article in an email and it has woke me up to the issue of re-using mineral water bottles. And for being the eco-green, all for recycling person that i am, i can't help but feel distressed cus if i cant re-use them, then what what will happen if i just keep on adding to this toxic plastic trash to the millions of tonnes of rubbish? well they'd better provide more "plastic recycle" bins! I know its kinda blur but click on it to see a clear view of the text.




Off to jogging now! after a very very LOOOOOONNNNGGG time!!!

Of group projects

i dont have to be reminded time and again about why i dread doing project groups. the co-ordination is a massive headache! i just dont know what to say to my groupmate who-shall-not-be named.

but it depends if you have a really swell bunch of peeps whom you can click well, joke around and actually get things done!!! had that two semesters ago with Supei and Lyana. i miss those babeS!

sitting at the desk in the central library, after being told that there wasn't any meeting (the excuse being, it was tentative) just doesn't cut it. thankfully i had a canned milo in hand soothe the temporal annoyance. at least now i can try to concentrate on my other assignmentS.

met ana on the bus. talked about our plans for the holidays.
she's goin to australia this june then asked me if i would like to go perhentian island in may. i declined. figured that i'd work in these three months so i can pay off the laptop loan, next year's accomodation fees as well as save for my fabulous trip to japan with uffY!!!!

the call of landslides summons mE!

huzza!

endurE

mondae: Fillet and Bjork

the week's not goin to be peachy. got environmental change, communications management and methods assignment to go, plus that naggging reaction paper > I'll swirl them around in a tonardo!

Admission

I'm not as strong as i think i'd like to be
I'm not as happy as i think i am
I'm not as humble as i like to be
I'm not okay as i hope i am as always
I'm not as friendly as many people think
I'm not as disciplined as i strive to be
I cannot wait for things to happen
I'm not always sure of the things I want
I have strayed so far away that i could hardly see the path

I have to admit I have a problem

Dear God, please dont me go.

In moments of weakness i turn to you
In moments of anger i was blind to you
In moments of happiness i've embraced you
In moments of sadness i long for you
I'm very afraid

I have a problem
It feels so painful it feels like death.
Please make it stop. I cannot cave in. Please make it stop....

Sunday, Sundae, Sanday, Saenday

well as far as a dawns of new days go, i'll begin my week with orange juice, bread smacked kaya and beethoven.

ever since taryn introduced me to christina this past week, i find myself reminicing about jean yeow. lol. still remembered the time when i spilled milo on my uniform as i passed her by back in jc. *teehee!
Its good to know she's married with a child in italy.

christina's quirks and brimming bubbles sends my mantle pulsating with glee!!!! i forsee good times to come!

The trip to Hong Kong with Serene hasn't been confirmed yet. Am looking forward to meeting Pui Ki. mish her bunches! hmmm speaking of holidays, it hasn't started yet. lol! gonna be a long day ahead with three more assignments to go!!! Jia Yu!!! I pray to be productive!!!!