You love orange, still

Monday, February 06, 2012

I was so happy, nothing can explain how i feel.
Even the grass that I stepped on probably can feel my happiness.

Grinning from ear to ear, I know then, only you can make me the happiest girl in this world.

From asking me to acc you for eye review, to pacifying me when i was throwing tantrums at JP, to coming all the way down from home to AMK just to acc me for lunch, to having simple dinners at clementi or melben, to braving the fear and see my parents, to missing me so much when i was away to genting and to everything that you have tolerated me for, I shld have realise the love was true.

5 weeks down the road of my foolish mistake, i realise i have not smiled truly.
I feel emptiness even when i twisted my lips upward, even when you can hear me laugh, i dont feel happy at all.

I didnt cherish your love for me, I couldnt trust your love for me and i was adjusting that.
Sorry that i didnt trusted the love we had.

Nothing can be further explained, im deeply sorry a zillion million times. But i guess it doesnt work anymore...

Will you be my Loverboy for the one last time? Forever.

f lu t t er ing @ 7:20 PM :)

MIA

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

For the past 2 years, I have a LOVERBOY.
Now after 23 months of dependent, i need to learn to be independent once again...

I never know falling in love and falling out of love would have such an excruciating pain.

Wanting to go back how i used to be, im supressing my love for you.
Its saddening when he dont need my companion anymore
Its saddening when he cant love me anymore
Its saddening when he dont have the urge for me anymore
Its saddening when he said all those hurtful things
Its really saddening we have to part our ways...

Two years ago, we started happily
Two years later, we parted silently

Two years ago, I had a family holiday and you cannot go cos we just started. I really missed you so much that we even called each other for half an hour despite the expensive bills.
Two years later, I have a family holiday once again and I thought you would be there for me...

There are so many happy memories I remember
There are so many cheerful moments I cherish
There are many pissed times which I have forgotten, I didnt know you remember...

I might have been too demanding and selfish, but one thing for sure, my love for you has grow so intensely that it is hard to be contained anymore.

Do we really have to part? I miss you, I want you, I love you still...

(I guess no one will read this, I just need a spot to relief, please allow me...)

f lu t t er ing @ 5:40 PM :)

Secrets everywhere

Friday, December 17, 2010

Hi Everybody, I realise everyone else has been actively blogging. Like really every single fren i know of... unless they are alr shut down.

and i have got no single idea what am i so freaking busy with these few years my last post was in 2008! oh goshhhh~ so long sinceee i shld start this active once again.

but serious, juggling school and work is really stressful till max! the tense of not knowing if you can do all the questions sux, the tense of not knowing if you hit the sales target this month yet sux too, lastly, the idea of being these tense sux totally!

hmmmm moving on to happier stuff, its CHRISTMAS!!! YIPIEE~ lets cheers!

and lomo looks so fun!!! =)

f lu t t er ing @ 5:18 PM :)

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

♥

f lu t t er ing @ 3:02 AM :)

I WANT TO GO ON A HOLIDAY

f lu t t er ing @ 2:58 AM :)

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Ruth~ here you goes. hmmm so long sooo long since i haven had fun. soooo long since i haven really enjoyed myself. soooo long since i haven smile widely every single day. soooo long since i haven stopped working. sooooo long since i feel like quitting immediate, tender tmr and tmrs my last day.

Well~ so there's this day when gl and i met up and we got nothing to do so we played shi zhi lu kou.

Nasi lemak (Ye jiang fan)
Sushi roll (fan tuan)
shisamo
moji
Chicken mee sua (ji si mee sua)

KENNY LOVES PARSLEY!!!

f lu t t er ing @ 1:29 AM :)

31 Aug 2009: cocoavantchanel

Its being 2 mths since all these happen. well well, i was suppose to post this like 2 mths back. but oh wells~ haa and i hasent had the time and energy to do so.

WORK IS LIKE SHITTING SUCKS

Alrights im done, too tired to write lengthy stuff.

f lu t t er ing @ 1:17 AM :)