Dear diary,

 

A day without the sun makes people feel so emo. Boohoo. And there goes without me, emo day today for suh. Boohoo =( 

Homework not done, no money on pay day, no time to shop, not enough sleep, lack of exercise all the more makes suh want to shout, "BOOHOOHOO!~~~(echo)"

 

Despite homework is starting to pile up to as high as Bukit Timah hill, and Suh knows that she desperately need to start on something more concrete, but still she went to watch the Ambience IV video instead. And now she's starting to miss her french horn. SIGH. But watching the video brings back good memories, remembered the days as a junior player, innocent looking, whole day getting scolded by either Ruth or Joshua or Mr Lim, dashing to the band room after lessons like nobody's business, pumpings, muscle training sessions every Monday in the canteen by shifting benches, and basketball playing after band practices, they just make me...smile.

 

Reminisce.

 

Music is such a beautiful thing on earth.

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Dear dairy,

Multitasking is seriously an ART. Was in school waiting for my audition for samba to start together with hongwei, that was when i realized how slow i can actually be. I took 1 whole hour to clear emails ONLY, while hongwei did a lot of things in the same timeframe, played game, chat, do homework. He sure is a multitasker. I felt really slow, really.

 

Was thinking about that when I was on the train, on the secrets to successful multitasking:

(Perhaps these might be true)

1. Do not procrastinate.

2. Finish up what you are supposed to do before the amount of tasks keeps increasing.

3. Have an UPDATED to do list.

4. Do not stone too much in front of the com! (Very applicable to me)

The list is non-exhaustive, at least to me.

Okay suh shall have a trial period of one week.

 

Later part of second week of university life was better as compared to the first week, it passed rather quickly, so quick until I cannot recall what exactly happened on which day. Perhaps it is because I'm getting used to the life where textbooks, laptops, pen, pencil, notebook, etc are essential. Perhaps.

 

Math for Econs was mind triggering as usual. Differentiations, provings, young's theorem, and the list goes on... They just leave me with a huge question mark on my head when lessons end.

IntroStats was surprisingly engaging, everyone in the class actually started listening to Larry's lesson. Was on the topic on probability, binomial distribution. I seriously do not like graphic calculator, though convenient, but the amount of functions it have just turns you off. I could not remember what command to press for what question on the graphic calculator. And on top of that, the fact that i realised that is when I was doing a graded quiz just makes me felt even more sian-ed. Woot that means one more "homejoy" for the weekends.

Now its time to say HIP HIP HOORAY to suh! Her class participation for Business Society and Government, and Creative Thinking is no longer zero marks! The feeling was really great. The satisfaction from no fear is really good! Though the feeling of raising your hand up high and at the same time panicking what if the prof chose you and your mind MIGHT blank out was not very good, for it feels like your heart is on the verge of jumping out from your chest. But when things are over, the feeling when you felt relieved was good, I like. HIP HIP HOORAY for suh!

Creativity Class was so nice! Next week i hope we get to watch more videos, i hope the professor will let us watch some documentary on nature or animals.

Samba Masala audition was really fun, hopefully i can get in and play the snare drum. Percussion is such a cool section, why did I retaliated that section so many years ago? Disclaimer: I still LOVE french horns +). Oh by the way a French Horn player is a "hornist", not "horny".

 

(Graduation Songs comes in)

Hectic Hectic!

 

 

"Never be afraid to make mistakes". ".~Dewitt Jones, National Geographic photographer.                                                                                                            For mistakes help you to realise new opportunities and to learn better. That's when you can make a difference.

I felt so brainwashed by CT class, prof yong reminds me of Adam Khoo workshop that I went during sec3. Motivational. But its a  good thing afterall i suppose?  =)

My mind is as open as how you open durian shells to get the fruits.

 

Sleeping time.

Bye

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Dear diary,

2nd week today, starting to feel the pressure. Homework, catching up on areas where question marks aggregate, preparation for classes, research, AND on top of that, tuition, mugging sessions at library, CCA try outs, overseas CIP talks, late night chatting with friends on MSN. I'm starting to get what the president of Students' Union told us on convocation, "SMU has plenty of opportunities, its just that you do not have enough time." 24h seemed so little for me nowadays, and I'm already eating into my sleeping time.I need like 96h a day to finish what I aim to finish for the day. How can people multi-task so effectively?! How can a person open sooo many windows with no relation to the subject during lesson other than the lecture notes, and YET still understand what is the professor talking and worse still, answer the professor's question CORRECTLY?!?! I cant for nuts. Sigh. These people must have eaten the computer processors to make them able to multitask SO effectively! Handling over 8 MSN conversation windows is my limits, no matter how fast I typed at lightning speed, the word ''DAO" never fails to appear in at least one of the windows. Multi-taskers, tsk maybe we should consider blaming them for making this world so fast paced. SIGH.

Went to the library to do Analytical Skills worksheet with Siow Yun, we tried the whole afternoon to come up with rhetorical questions, determine which sentences are reasoning or non-reasoning, determining statements and non-statements. What can i say, English is just not my cup of tea. Siow Yun and Owen are really the pros, they can come up with questions that never in my entire life will I think of it, and i doubt will I ever thought of it in the future. A 4 pages worksheet can take us 2h to complete. Blah. I feel so useless.

Hmm...just came back from tuition at around 10 plus and I feel so shagged. My eye bags are growing to be bigger than my eyes, cries, I don want that to happen..=(

If there's ever someone who discovered the secret to Multitasking, I swear I'll spent my entire savings(as if I have a lot haha) to buy the secret. I feel so slow!

 

"Turn win-lose situation into win-learn situation".~Dewitt Jones, National Geographic photographer.

Our dear Suh has to start thinking about how to do that, she must get out of her comfort zone really. Think suh think! Don't stone already!

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Dear diary,


First day of my official university life yesterday, I got a culture shock.

Math for econs was really a torture, differentiation, level curves, concave convex curve all cramped up in a 3h session. I cant take it really. Question marks all the way...But the professor was really funny, kept emphasising on spirit of military. It was funny initially but nearing the end, it kinda became awkward silence. Hmm..when profs are too boring, we complain, when profs are too enthusiatic, we complain that they are lame. Oh wells.

First lesson and i caught a cold, it was really malu. Haiz..

Second day was a hectic day. Two back to back 3h session, rushed from one end of the school (business) to school of econs, like some 500m sprint like that, with a laptop and two textbooks on hand. I bet my hand muscles will be well toned after this semester. Toned muscles..haha.

Business Government and Society is fun, i really like prof Raj, he's a really knowledgeble man. Though e cracks jokes, they are really funny. For example he commented when we were discussing about vegetarian and non-vegetarian, " If you comment on how cruel it is to slaughter an animal, how bout plants, you can hear the plants SQUEAKs when you chop them off, and it has been scientifically proven,isnt it cruel too?" I cant help but to stop laughing. I think i'm going to like his class, give me luck to score well in class participation. LOL. And we were spilt into groups for team projects, my teammates looks okay, they don't look like that kind who will free ride, so hopefully things will go on well. Wish me luck for class part! +D

Introductory Statistic is the lesson where you go in, you really feel like doing your own stuff. Because the prof is really slack, he did not even bother to bring a laptop, and spents 30min to set up PC, and then for the entire 2.5h of lesson, he only used the computer for 15min. His lessons are basically just reading off from the textbook. Seems like suh has alot of catching up to do...

First two days only and i'm already so tired. =.=

Daniel's tuition session today, went at the wrong timing. Daniel was being scolded by his mum for lying to her bout tuition AGAIN. Actually i felt quite bad about it because I was really feeling unwell yesterday and the probability of me not going for tuition today is not zero, he's somehow telling the truth but...He jus conveniently assumed that i wont be coming for tuition today and told his mother about tt. Hmm...this student of mine really gave me alot of headache but he's also the one that makes me think and reflect upon my lesson. Lesson learnt: Think in the shoes of student/mother/tutor and try to balance. I admit i was a little selfish to insist on going simply because my bank account is depleting at a rate faster than how many trees are being cut down at this very second.

Okay i'm seriously tired

Bye.

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Dear diary,

Its 3am now and you must be wondering what the heck is this girl blogging instead of sleeping. Well suh just got back from thumper(Goodwoord hotel) and is waiting for her hair to dry, hence she's blogging now.

Today's a really hectic day for suh. Afternoon there's convocation at suntec, the ceremony was damn nice, the effects, the stage, the lights, the screen, blah blah, is so professionally done. Its hard to believe that the brains behind are actually dudes and dudettes who are just one or two years older than suh. The power of university i suppose. After watching the CCA display, suh is now more determined to join samba masala!, photographic society, horseriding, dragonboating, tennis(recrea). Band is really attractive, the horns were really good. But tts exactly the same point tt detered me from joining, for the skills of the people are TOO good for me, i'll feel inferior.
One thing i've learnt from convocation is to be UNconventional. And SMU ppl really likes to club alot. They even have a post party to let people dance.lol. i just moved my hands, to "dance".

I seriously LOVE my econs group to bits.

Evening was econs bash at thumper (Goodwood hotel). For the past 19 years, suh has never knew that Goodwood park is actually so near far east plaza, its actually just BESIDE far east. First time to pub for suh too! Hahah, you can see how ignorant I am. Sigh. Entering a pub really broadened my horizon, i learnt how to dance (thanks to zhijian, adrea and kris, left right left right, hand action!), how to choose drinks(cola plus vodka is my fav), how far can i go before i'm on the verge of being drunken (max 5 cups), how camwhor-ish we were (by looking at the amount of pictures we took when they have been uploaded to facebook), how gentlemanly my group guys are (they were really concerned for the girls when all of us went alittle high, serious, and all girls hav a usher home each! Aww), how dangerous it is for a girl to be in the wrong company at pub (this is serious, there were like 4 guys who were practically dragging a girl to one dark corner and taking turns to kiss the girl.o.O I wonder how is the girl now, hope that she wasnt being taken advantage of), how comfortable it is to shout your lungs out the lyrics of the songs playing with your friends and most importantly, how fortunate i am to have such a good OG. =) Actually suh drank not alot of alcohol, but nearing the end she ended up in the stage of 'high', the more she shakes, the more giddy she feels, and the more she wants to shake to the super tempting blusting loud music. Thats when i got all scared, did not experience the feeling before. So that is how people describe pub music as "addictive", you practically just shake with the music, unknowingly.

Suh wants to thank so many people, thanks Dominic for lending me his shoulders to lean when i was feeling really giddy and the call of concern, Justin for helping me walk down the stairs and ensuring i never fall and his consistent messages of concern, ZhiJian for ensuring that I am always with the others and not get lost in pub lingos and his message of concern, Ken for walking me to my house door and ended up spending almost 30min walking back to his house, Kristin and Melissa for being such good sisters to me.

I seriously love my econs group =))

Okay time to sleep, the giddy syndrome is back again.






"Plenty of opportunities are available, and you have limited time. Choose wisely."



CHOICE.

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Dear diary,

Imgaine you are one who always have to take the losing end of battle, how will you feel? Being engaged in a battle that you know the word "win" will never have connection with your name, its a tiring experience. Why am i always be the one who has to take the silent end of the battle? You can make a big hoo-ha over minor little things,why cant i do that too? I tried my best to do things silently, on my own, but why must you always drag me into this battle? You think you are the only one who's sick of all these thing, I am too. So many years, I'm really tired. Why is suting such a nice person? I hate this me, I dont like this thing in me.

You think you are the only one who's suffering, and you just conveniently forgot about the people around you. My heart hurts alot, dont you know?

I'll not cry, for i think crying is useless.

One day, i'll make sure you are wrong about me.

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