New friends n old friends

Been awhile since I have showed my face. Vexed and waiting impatiently this week...

Expectations

Even till the very last min I was expecting something.. What was I hoping for? Hoping to make myself madder? I can't even expect the minimum next time. Pointless...

Changing Attitudes

These few weeks have been a rather emotional one for me. I thought I was very good at keeping my coolness but I was wrong. It seemed like I had a lot of pent up frustrations and grievances that I am trying so hard to hide and mask it all.


My boss was asking me how things are liked and before that I had told myself to be strong and phrase my sentences correctly and carefully. However, I go so caught up with pouring out my displeasure at work such that I used wrong words. I hate myself for getting so overwhelmed so easily. Words when are not used carefully can be as sharp as a knife!

I see success as being happy at work and this means getting satisfaction and enjoying the work I do. However, this doesn’t seem to be the case. Therefore, I engage in lots of mini activities after work in hoping to mitigate my unhappiness in work. This helped a lot and I am pretty glad that those small activities make me a slightly happier person. However, happier isn’t enough! And then the whole vicious cycle of me being unhappy starts all over and over again.

Yesterday, the moody me just resurfaced again. I told myself that I am not going to wallow in self pity and perhaps I just need to correct this stupid habit of bringing in unhappiness to myself. I shall (hopefully) start a day with a smile. Plan my activities and list down the task I hope to achieve for the day. The usual saying always goes like this, “if you fail to plan, you plan to fail”. Changing attitude is probably all I will ever need. “if I plan to be happy, I will be happy” Comparing myself to many other people other there, i am grateful for what i have now!

I promise to use my time to do productive work and not be unhappy. Changing the frown to a smile isn’t that all difficult right?

Sidenotes:

Received an e-mail today and got so delighted! It has been awhile since I am so excited about something.

Fickle Minded Me

After liking orange for sometime and as age changes up. Preference changes as well...I am proud to announce that my fav colour is turquoise! Don't ask me why but it seems that my colour preference has shifted to the greenish-blue section or the blueish green where some people may call it.


Life goes on...
Been busy with art work, volunteer work, part time work and everything else except my full time work. Heh, what an irony. Seems like the sprinkles in my life is sweeter than the cake itself.
I have an 18km run coming up and i haven't been training for it. Well, i am sure i will be able to walk it off!

Ever positive and hoping for a BIG change ahead!

Unbalanced

夜里传来雨的声音 轻轻拨动心的旋律


情不自禁想到你 那些甜蜜的回忆

总是不小心就淋湿了我的眼睛

爱情需要一些呼吸 偶尔保持一点距离

回到朋友的关系 任你自由的来去

从此想念你只能放在我心里

你还爱我吗 一直好想问你这句话

却又怕 听到你真实的回答

你还爱我吗 为何你总是不说话

眼看我为爱不爱挣扎

你爱我吗 好久没有你的消息

心里还惦记著你

在这冷冷的夜里 感觉那么的熟悉

好想再见你想听听你的声音

敢情的路总让人好无助 我会学著面对独处

给深爱的你祝福

你还爱我吗 一直好想问你这句话

却又怕 听到你真实的回答

你还爱我吗 这是我唯一的牵挂

不管你会有什么回答

我会一直等你 你还爱我吗

Bonus of working

When work sucks, you money earned to make it up. When pay sucks, you use work fulfillment to make it up. When work and pay suck.. Time to move on a change a job. There's no bonus working when no bonus is given..
Side note: seems like I am getting weird presents for my birthday this year. Am I turning weirder or what? Well.. Different groups of people have skewed impressions of me I guess? Hehe!
Side side note: going to pick up a new hobby.. Hopefully, I will be able to seek inner peace within. Blogging through my phone instead of typing through the keyboard is weird. I don't really know how to explain it. But it's just not that therapeutic already...

Running

Haven't been running much this week as I am busy with my volunteer work. I have signed up for a trail run but my friend deserted me for an overseas trip. Guess I gonna run alone then!

Side notes: I am thinking of picking up a new hobby. Should I? I am so fickle minded!

Blogging through my phone

Now that I've downloaded the blogger app. I shall blog diligently! I wonder if anyone even reads my blog? Signing off with a picture of me and cute ball..

Emotions

Feeling so overwhelmed by everything...