dunno why but the cny spirit is getting into me. especially so when i've been going to chinatown more often then ever. i see people selling ox decorations already. i really felt like getting some and hanging in my room. lol. i insist on celebrating cny!!! this song is out to irritate my room mates. haha.

sidenotes: if you often visit people's park complex and you'll notice that there is this particular money charger that always have a long queue. i'm always puzzled to why the queue is especially long... the money changer gives extra money is it? now i managed to unravel the mystery! hx and i needed to change money so we just joined in the queue for the fun of it. (personally i don't like the idea of queueing) kaypo me ask the auntie behind to why the queue of this particular money changer being so long. now i got the answer! haha!

e-mailed over to tu/e to check about the status of my visa application. about less than a month before i'm going over. then i got this out of office reply.

"Tu/e will be closed from 24th December till 5 January.Merry Christmans and a Happy New Year!"

12 days of holiday?! wth..bunch of slackers. now i understand why my term dragged so long, coz there're seriously lots of holidays in between..

i used to think that the flyer was an eye sore in the city. but now that is not operating and the lights are off, it's worst! at least switch on the lights when it's not working lah.. sidenotes: i've been feasting like hell this month. i really had enough of buffets and steamboats. it's not helping when i'm having supper nearly every night. it's high time for me to cut down on my eating habits so i can loosen up my clothes. i need to fit myself into my clothes when i get over to holland!

i cant believe that it's only a few more days to a new year. and i recalled some random stuff. seems like the last few month of the year always sucked.

Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.

Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will...

day by day i start to realise that alot of things are not beyond our control and that's quite sad..

sometimes i wonder whether there's such a thing as 命中注定...

was surfing my friend's blog..then heard this song. brings back fond memories. i dont understand why i like this show so much. it's quite dumb but yet so true. the lyrics is really meaningful..

一张双人床 两个人的剧场
快乐和感伤 同一时间亮相
他不够浪漫 她又太多幻想
当恨起对方 所有的好全都遗忘

相爱的双方 向海洋和沙滩
不能完全占有 却更离不开对方
他渴望温柔 她需要宽厚肩膀
虽然有时想得太理所当然

幸福并不只有单一的答案
争吵可能是其中必备的一项
爱如潮汐涨落中 惊喜不断
关键在你怎么去欣赏

别让双人床中间隔着孤单
多想想换成对方有什么期盼
没有人天生就对爱情 擅长
幸福双人床 两个人才温暖

i wanna curse and swear! the dumb dumb school lost my bank statement. argh! bank statements are NOT CHEAP u know! and i have to mail it myself..express mail is freaking exs too! dont tell me i cant enter in your country k!

i think i subconsciously and unknowingly fall in love with city sky scrappers. getting off raffles place, walking through the high rise buildings, looking afar at the esplanade, Singapore flyer..sometimes I'll take a different route and walk pass raffles quay, down towards one Fullerton. i now declare uob building and one raffles quay as one of my fave sky scrappers in sg. this is weird..
i thought i loved the nature. waterfall, forest, caves, mountains, valleys and even the deep blue sea...
i guess i just love big stuff..like airbus a380. ha!

side talks: walked from esplanade down to One Fullerton, heard this song at the outdoor theatre. heh..such coincidence, the acapella choir was singing to my fave xmas song. i havent grown up. another thing to take note is that i got to realised that bert's eyebrows are joined together! i still love the bert and ernie version of this song. they're like..so simply happy.

i realised that i'm much a neighbourhood person. afterall, i live in a neighbourhood district, studied in a neighbourhood pri, sec and jc. i wonder whether is this something good or bad?
i really envy those who get to dine in high class restaurant, whereby they drink wine like though wine is water. those who can just flash out their card without hesitating.. those who lived in big spacious houses. dance to jazzy music in the ball room. enjoy valet services when they drive their flashy, luxurious cars..
then again, i get to see people who mix with gangsters. smoke, heavily tatoo-ed and have parents who are either bookie or runners. their parents are even involved in racing..seriously, racing in singapore whereby they drive up to a speed of 260kmh.
my life is so confusing...i mix with all sorts of people that i get culture shocked everyday.
ps: i know whatever i've written is so incoherent, but it's like 3am now...zzz

sad. why do people say that i look like a smoker? seriously... i hate those glowing sticks lah. is it my hair or my face that relates me to smoking? i feel like dying my hair. the colour is fading off.

just when i wanna start my exercising....
i got quite sick.. bah!
i wasted far too much tissue paper..
my back hurts really bad and i have no idea why did it happened!
hope that i'll be able to recover really quick. else i cant get to work.

幸福如履薄冰。。

i'm slack. really. i'm left with 1 day to study for manufacturing. just when i thought everyone was in the same situation as me..then i realised that i was WRONG! there're people out there who read the book through infinite times. seriously, think i'm going to take up the lower percentile of the bell curve...those who are going to get A for that module please thank me. (you can compensate by donating to my sep fund) i shant assume that people will be as slack as me anymore...

sidenotes: my phone hasnt been ringing for quite awhile. as in, receiving voice calls. i have lots of smses but i miss hearing voices through the phone. i enjoy chatting on the phone. beats sms! coz i cant express myself in words for nuts! i express through pitch and tone. those of you who are having sleepness nights or have nothing better to do, do give me a ring! we can bitch things out..i'm good at chatting about anything. it's in my dna! dont forget that taxi drivers are freaking good crappers. a taxi driver's daughter is darn good at crapping.

after that lousy paper..i'm totally demoralized. no motivation to study for the next few paper..boo to myself! reading through the papers and usually i'll skip the horoscope section. dont know what came into my mind and i actually went to read it. here's what it says, " you're pretty confused about someone's behaviour, but that does not mean that you cannot get along with him just fine. Do not bother trying to figure him out now, though- save it for later" okay..i shall heed this advice for once.

i'm going to list down some stuff that i'll intend to do after my exams..and the list will go on and on and on and on and on and on...
1)pack my files and books
2)iron my clothes
3)find cheer chen's album (i'm more motivated to find it after listening to her song played on radio today)
4)practise cheer chen's song on my dusty guitar
5)exercise (i didnt exercise during this sems, so unhealthy!)
6)visit marina barrage

p/s: i'm currently craving for lana cake..can someone help me order it? i can eat the whole cake myself. really...

sometimes i do hope people just dont remind me about what has happened.. it's tiring to talk about unhappy events.




to keep myself happy..i found this! can any1 out there get me a set of orange mahjong tiles! i'll be very happy! xmas is coming up u know...lala!

dumb dumb me...what the hell was i thinking when i'm doing the paper! must be the stupid air con..

this is the video for our design robot. i dont think any1 will go and kope our idea. haha..and i think this video is funny! s.e.x.y..r.o.b.o.t! i'm not looking forward to design 2.

k. i need everyone's help..what should i do! is person is always bugging me..ah!!!

爱太痛

吃不能吃 睡不能睡
没有了你 全都不对
我都学不会 把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
笑不能笑 哭不敢哭
人不像人 鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这 不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯
能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了 爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把爱割舍
我不能睡
吃不能吃 睡不能睡
没有了你 全都不对
我都学不会 把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了 爱情它太痛了
我不能够 不能够不爱了
能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了 却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了 爱情它太痛了
我不能够 不能够不爱了
吃不能吃 睡不能睡

my friend was telling me that there were alot of discussions going on in the forum. usually forums are very quiet..but this sems is different! you can see many people posing questions with regards to past year papers. i am even surprised to see some ppl putting in the effort to draw out a free body diagram! win lor.. and even the manufacturing process forum is active! as you can see the one who is constantly posting qns is some XXX. hmm..i think he's abit weird. i shall attempt to go find out who the heck this person is! forum is awake during examination periods!

okay..coe for 1600 cc and below dropped to $2 only! win lor..if only i had the money i'll go grab a car immediately! sing dollar is weakening!! boo..i hope the IR will release some positive news so STI can go up! or maybe i hope some bank in europe declares bankrupt or something. i'm a mean girl.
puiyee asked me this qn, how does it feels to be in a relationship? dunno why but i gave a smart answer. i think it's smart lah..when u are in a relationship everything just doubles lor. when u are happy, double happiness. when r/s sucks, sadness doubles..that's all.

read a suicidal behaviour book. 20 paracetamol and sufficient amount of alcohol is certain death. interesting! anyway, other than the much talked about financial crisis there's also a big hooha about the change in HOTA. and maybe euthanasia..
if one day i'm comatised and land myself into vegetation, just try keeping me alive for 1 year. and if i still refuse to wake up..pls pull the plug out. i believe the money spent feeding me through the tube can be used for better purpose. really... no point lying on the bed and being unproductive. i'd rather die... yeah. i wrote this so maybe if such a situation arises, you can send my body to switzerland or netherlands where euthanasia is legalized. pls dont waste time trying to keep me alive.

Yeah! Got to watch avenue Q and it's really good! Ruv it.. If it's going to stage another show in Europe, i fly over to watch it. I think i really love musicals...If you asked me what's my fav songs throughout the show would be "for now". can anyone out there find the musical ost for me??anyway, you gonna be an adult to understand it. hehe..it's quite erm erm.. for now, heck studying!!!

doing anything but studying.
from poker to magic

from mythbusters to poker
i'm going to cheat all their money off to fund for my sep after the exams..

more mythbusters! love it!

i'm going to cycle near big vehicles next time!

this is funny! where to get sulphur hexafluoride???

oooh..so that's non-newtonian fluid..i finally see it!

waves waves..waves

Frank Sinatra-High Hopes
Next time your found, with your chin on the ground
There a lot to be learned, so look around

Just what makes that little old ant
Think he’ll move that rubber tree plant
Anyone knows an ant, can’t
Move a rubber tree plant

But he’s got high hopes, he’s got high hopes
He’s got high apple pie, in the sky hopes

So any time your gettin’ low
’stead of lettin’ go
Just remember that ant
Oops there goes another rubber tree plant

When troubles call, and your back’s to the wall
There a lot to be learned, that wall could fall

Once there was a silly old ram
Thought he’d punch a hole in a dam
No one could make that ram, scram
He kept buttin’ that dam

’cause he had high hopes, he had high hopes
He had high apple pie, in the sky hopes

So any time your feelin’ bad
’stead of feelin’ sad
Just remember that ram
Oops there goes a billion kilowatt dam

All problems just a toy balloon
They’ll be bursted soon
They’re just bound to go pop
Oops there goes another problem kerplop

cute song..i feel really hopeful and motivated! this song has been looping and looping..

studied nucleation during materials lecture. didnt know it occurs when mentos is added to coke!
embedding is disabled for dunno what reason..mythbusters is nice!
currently watching mythbuster james bond special. it's quite amusing!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kMXPOqovSBs

day to day, i may be feeling sad or bored. but little silly things do help brighten up my day. things like this! really amuses me..k. some of u may not get the joke. but it's funny lah. i wanted to post up the e-mails that we shoot one another too..but it's too silly.

ps: i think my design grp rocks! shhh...

back to listening to lush 99.5, especially during afternoons..loved the jazz music that they play. it's been some time since i listened to jazz. was clicking through the jazz albums that i have in my comp..heard this songs. it lightens my heart..decided to upload it onto imeem since i couldnt find the particular version that i wanna to let u guys know. busy finding george benson songs now..nice!

oh my..there's this interesting focus group survey. they're looking for 30 outspoken participants to try out new ice cream flavours. discount vouchers will be given by the ice cream company.
i sooo wanna go for it lah! i shld be outspoken enough right? and i love ice cream! especially NEW ice cream flavours! however, boo to the timeslot..i cant make it for any sessions.
anyway, during one lesson of hr, the lecturer asked this. if you won alot of money in a lottery. the money is able to provide u for confortably for let's say 10 years? will you still work? quite a number of them raised their hands, saying that working is for self development, to pass time, to get knowledge..blah blah. i wouldnt work lah! for what...i'll just set aside some money for investments and use the other part of money for travelling. heh.

i have the habit of recording songs when i listen to the radio, especially the ones i like..shuffled through my recorded songs then heard this.hmm..brings back fond memories..it's nice..

你是如此难以忘记

早已知道爱情是难舍难离
早已知道爱一个人不该死心塌地
早已不再相信所谓天长地久的结局

所以我习惯了一个人的孤寂
所以我习惯在人来人去中保持清醒
所以我习惯戴上面具
不再为谁付出真心

但为何还是把你放在心里
为什么还是等着你的消息
我怎能告诉自己说我一点都不在意

你是如此的难以忘记
浮浮沉沉的在我心里
你的笑容你的一动一举
都是我所有的记忆

你是如此的难以忘记
浮浮沉沉的在我心里
改变自己需要多少勇气
翻腾的心情该如何平静

早已知道爱情是难舍难离
早已知道爱一个人不该死心塌地
早已不再相信所谓天长地久的结局

但为何还是把你藏在心里
为什么还是等着你的消息
我怎能告诉自己说我一点都不在意

你是如此的难以忘记
浮浮沉沉的在我心里
你的笑容你的一动一举
都是我所有的记忆

你是如此的难以忘记
浮浮沉沉的在我心里
改变自己需要多少勇气
翻腾的心情该如何平静

你是如此的难以忘记
浮浮沉沉的在我心里
你的笑容你的一动一举
都是我所有的记忆

你是如此的难以忘记
浮浮沉沉的在我心里
改变自己需要多少勇气
翻腾的心情该如何平静

会呼吸的痛
在东京铁塔第一次眺望
看灯火模仿坠落的星光
我终於到达但却更悲伤
一个人完成我们的梦想

你总说时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上张扬过哀伤
那是种多么寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙让我去流浪
在原地等我把自己捆绑

你没说你也会软弱
需要依赖我
我就装不晓得
自由移动自我地过

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

i was at dbl o some day back. then saw this stunt which was quite cool and didnt know what the heck it was. then i realised that it was jager bomb. Jagbomb is a cocktail combining one shot of Jägermeister dropped into a glass of Red Bull. i'm going to try it the next time! it's as cool as tequila pop.

life has been a bore..basically nothing to do. the last thing on my mind is studying. spent alot of time camping at home and keeping to myself, which is so unlike me.
having some morbid thoughts.
if one day, i'm faced with a super major crisis and decide to kill myself. i'm going to.. first save up a sum of money, get outta singapore, trek up the highest mountains and just throw myself down the valley. at least i die in a beautiful place with no regrets!

sidetalks:
the world is going crazy everyday. with the dumb melamine hooha that stopped the sales of my fav white rabbit sweet. good luck to obama on the upcoming elections, saw the debate, not bad! and i do hope the economy recover soon so that my parents will not hold on to their stocks and sell them off! so i can have more $$ for my sep! oh yah, gd luck to those who brought structured products, be it high notes, minibonds watever...i doubt mas will help much lah!

had design meeting and lenny mentioned about the new macbook. he said that the machining process was impressive..i went to youtube it. true enough, i'm impressed! really an engineering breakthrough. i want the new macbook! anyone rich enough to give it to me as my 21st bday gift? haha



sidetalks
just received a mail from the manufacturer about fabricating our base,platform and gripper of our robot. i thought some acrylic plates wont be that expensive. u know wat price they quoted me. $380! #@!^&*#^#@!$!@^& and i've got a budget of $400 only. go rob the bank man!

Redefinition & Change: Our individual identities are always developing, we are continually negotiating, defining, and redefining the internal coherence of our original values, our new experiences and our multiple identities.
Individual or group identities are not static. If we remain aware of our own process of self definition which involves a continual reconciliation of the multiple aspects of our identities, we can be more open to the same process. We need not be "frozen" in a single role or stance, nor need we "freeze" others.

i think this 周杰伦 song came in at the right time..he sang well, 真的.

说好的幸福呢。。


你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
继续莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心依稀数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢


怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得
为什么这时候忍心离我而去

seriously..since that day... everything hasnt been going the right way. damn it! so much problems and stuff that are stuck and unresolved. decisions, decisions... ARG!

南拳妈妈-下雨天

下雨天了怎么办
我好想你
不敢打给你
我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景
做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

zzzz...lots of ppl have been spying on my blog. i know it coz i've got an invisible counter on my blog. hate it.
for now, my entries are going to be drafted and save in blogger itself only.
u can try hacking in, that's if u know my password..

time has been passing by very slowly..
sleeping late and waking up early..
something is missing and my phone is not ringing..
spending my night times alone is lonely indeed..
hmm..so many more nights to go..
studying isnt easy..
drifting minds and low motivation..
irregular heart beats..

蔡健雅-当你离开的时候

我只能低着头发呆
让回忆渗透脑袋渐渐变空白

我把它当做个意外
但内心还想不开
因为我明白其实你都还在
我想起了你给我的感动
想起我们之间的温柔
我想起了我们第一次牵手
我闭上眼想起当时你许下的承诺
把你整个心都叫给我
然而到后来我什么都没有
当你离开的时候

我可以当作已释怀
他对我也算关怀他看不出来

我知道这样不应该
在他身上找依赖
算不算是种出卖因为你一直在
我想起了你给我的感动
想起我们之间的温柔
我想起了我们第一次牵手
我闭上眼想起当时你许下的承诺
把你整个心都叫给我
然而到后来我什么都没有
当你离开的时候

我想起了你给我的感动
想起我们之间的温柔
我想起了我们第一次牵手
我闭上眼想起当时你许下的承诺
把你整个心都叫给我
然而到后来我什么都没有

越是没用力越是心痛
我想起了你给我的感动
想起我们之间的温柔
我想起了我们第一次牵手
我闭上眼想起当时你许下的承诺
把你整个心都叫给我
然而到后来我什么都没有
当你离开的时候

感情是那么的脆弱，淡了，变了。。
勉强也真的没有幸福反而辛苦
我不相信天长地久
我相信我们曾经拥有
我拥有一段快乐的时光
虽然短暂，但是很难忘。。
谢谢你的爱，
至少我知道我付出的一切都是值得的
我爱你很深，
你为什么让我伤好深？

i'm sorry if i had irritated you in one way or another
i really didnt mean it.
it's just that i tried whatever i could already
i really felt useless, seems like everything in going the wrong way
i'm sure i'll be able to make everything right and put things back in place..
i'm just happy to be by your side
and i really love you dearly...

i wouldnt say i'm someone very hard to please
i easily get contented
all i need is daily shower of care and concern which are sincere
for now..i'm contented with what i have and i really treasure it

p/s: design and hr project are getting abit too much

i dont know
it scares me so when i hear this
it's such a vague word
i dont know whether you're trying to hide things from me
i dont know what you're thinking of
or it is that you dont know what you really want
what are you thinking
when can things get clearer?
i need answers.

i was googling trying to spy out someone's blog add. happen to see that she's in the dean's list. good for her. then was bored enough to go check out me's dean list. i realised one of my proj grp mate was on dean's list and then again i saw my intern friend happens to be on the dean's list too. another aquitance friend was there on the list too. what the heck! seems like i've got alot of dean lister friends...

i'm sorry that i irritated you.
sorry for making you so fed-up.
i just cant help it coz i really felt insecure
when you said that " told you that this wont work out", it really hurt me
please dont hurt me anymore
i really cant take it
i'll take a step back and give you some space
i hope you'll feel better

who am i to you now?

I love you, say we're together baby, you and me

I can only give my life and show you all I am
in the breath I breathe
I will promise you my heart
and give you all you need if it takes some time
and if you tell me you don't need me anymore
that our love won't last forever
I will ask you for a chance to try again
to make our love a little better,
ooh...

I love you, say we're together baby,
say we're together, oh
I need you, I need you forever baby, you and me

You say you hardly know exactly who I am
so hard to understand
But I knew right from the start, the way I felt inside,
if you read my mind
and if you tell you don't need me anymore
that our love won't last forever, no
I will ask you for a chance to try again
to make our love a little better

I love you, say we're together baby,
say we're together, oh
I need you, I need you forever baby, you and me

Remember when you used to hold me,
remember when you made me cry
You said you loved me, oh, you did, yes you did

I love you, say we're together, baby, say we're together, oh
I need you, I need you forever, baby, you and me.

money for sep
should i try to earn more money or save more?
i think earning more works better for me. it's quite hard for me to save.
just walked ard the bazzaar and spent money.
not on clothing or accessories..
but on japanese titbit!
seriously, i've a weak spot for food.

my current life

studying
mahjong
poker
board games/ card games
movie
tv
internet
jogging
tuition

i need to inject more excitments!

sidenotes: good luck to lehmann brothers and the other i banks. lucky that engineering companies are not subjected to such risks. investors out there, think twice! and cheers to singapore's paralympics gold medal!

when i complain, it means that i just wanted something more or something different
i'll just nag, nag and nag but eventually if things goes back to square one, it doesnt really matters!
i just needa release some air
need someone to listen to what i have to say and perhaps say something encouraging or motivating
i dont expect much..

bee bee is brought back to her boring life once again..regretting but contented.

i remember reading the papers a few weeks ago that talks about how your spending habits reflects one's happiness level.

to contray belief, those who spend lavishly and indulge themselves in branded stuff are not very happy people afterall. those who are stingy and hold their wallets tightly are not very happy people too. whereas, the happiest consumers are those who spend willingly on "experiences". "experiences" are like food, travelling, leisure activities as such..activities that you get to experience. heh! sounds so like me! i won't say that i'm a spendtrift, but if i have extra cash to spare, it's usually spent on food and trekking! though now i'm trying very hard to save...of course for an experience again!

and i was reading through some forums on how to lose weight. not that i'm trying very hard to lose weight lah. it's just that i need to get rid of my fat thighs so i can fit into slim pants. then i saw this post about body fat percentage. i remembered mentioning to xiao hui and bryan that my body fat percentage was 21% and they were quite surprise. i was quite puzzled coz i tot it was 'normal', but xiao hui told me that hers was like 10 plus percent only. am i that fat??? then i went to wiki..see! i'm fitness k!

DescriptionWomenMenEssential fat12–15%2–5%Athletes16–20%6–13%Fitness21–24%14–17%Acceptable25–31%18–25%Obese32%+25%+

we all have different roles to play.
and for that i kindda hate it.
it's tough to behave "appropiately" at certain times.
i just wanna be myself

doing things together.

i always enjoy the company of others.

makes me feel that i'm not alone.

even though there will be quarrels and squabble, at least there's 2.

maybe that's another reason why i like the number 2.

when someone puts in the effort to call u, do try to accompany even though you're not interested.

you never know whether you'll enjoy it in the end.

i just wanna go through the process, i ignore the outcome.

i need to put my hands into the fire to know that it's hot.

and i need to taste the ice cream to know that it's sweet.

i never like to predict or forsee.

everyday is a surprise coz u never know what lies already for you.

sometimes dutifully predicting and planning can be a chore

and this bores me...

was supposed to study for my heat transfer quiz. but then i couldnt really stay still...
was thinking of what i wanna do about the subsequent years of my life.
i'm 21 already, omg..about 1/5 of my life is gone. that's if i get to live till 100.
some people will have short term goals of studying hard to get that piece of paper. get the class of hons that they want, then end up with an ideal job earning big bucks.
seriously, if u ask me what kindda job i want...i may not be able to give u a very certain answer. i'm not certain about what i wanna be. engineer? maybe...
however, i do have a dream though. i wanna sink down the deepest ocean, climb the highest mountain and walk across every patch of land. i really wanna see the world.

if only i have the money.....

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Language is Words of Affirmation

My Detailed Results:
Words of Affirmation:	8
Quality Time:	7
Acts of Service:	6
Receiving Gifts:	5
Physical Touch:	4

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is.

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fireworks were beautiful...and so were you. thank you for everything

*UCK it! stupid clothes stealer... i'm so damn gonna catch you!

all i want now is lots lots lots of denim skirts!

I HATE THAT EVIL PERSON!!!

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compare between the editted and the uneditted one. especially my eye bags... do notice that yihui has a sharp face and bigger eyes. that's why i love photoshop..

yippee! i've finally got my CS3 working! i can start editing my photos to make myself look more decent (not that i'm not decent). yeah..i need to sort to such tricks to please myself. i'm not so free to edit all my photos k! 99.99999% of my photos are orginal, fresh and raw..
anyway, my cs3 is used mainly for designing and self entertainment purposes.
i've been fiddling around with autocad recently. i thought it was quite easy...but i was so wrong about it. it's super user unfriendly. however, pro ppl can do stuff very quickly. i think i forgot how to use soildworks already...
2 more weeks to the end of my VIP, i'm so looking forward to it! i cant wait for school to start! at least, i'll get to see students. beats, looking at banglas and indians for 3 months. i know how to differentiate them already. i'm sooo proud of myself. hahah... it's just that working is so boring. each and everyday, everyone is wasting time and waiting for the day to end. i'd really much prefer studying (or maybe just going to school and not studying). haha...

autocad is so unfriendly towards me..=(

我知道我变漂亮了 - 《一切完美》主题曲
过去的批评嘲讽 (Let it go Let it go)
过去的轻蔑冷落 (Let it go Let it go)
有些人口不饶人 却忘了瞧瞧自己 又有什么资格
时刻都善良待人 (Let’s move on Let’s move on)
时刻都做好本分 (Let’s move on Let’s move on)
有些人心思浅薄 绝不是宽容 自暴自弃的理由
也许 确实也受过言语打击
也许 从来也没什么好际遇
但千万别将勇气深锁在阴影里我们又不会妨碍这世界（的）美丽
我知道我变漂亮了
我知道我被注意了
曾难过 失落
微笑一下就过
外在的美貌容易戳破
内在的美好细水长流
我知道我变漂亮了
我知道我也豁达了
不自卑 不埋怨
就算还差一点点用内涵
弥补一切缺陷
内在的美 迷住每个人的眼
用内涵弥补一切缺陷
内在的美 迷住每个人的眼

2 years later..i'm going to graduate. what should i do? hmm..this year's job market isnt that promising... should i be an engineer?

trapped!
trapped and enclosed in an invisible boundary.
limited things that can be done.
detached momentarily from the real world.
friends are becoming more distant.
what else are you left with but a cold and heavy heart.

life has been mundane so far. working, tuition, going out with friends etc. i'm quite bored actually. i need to inject more excitment and fun into my life. was msning with seng chiew just now and chatted with him about his exchange in japan. sounds like his having so much fun. was surfing facebook and it seems like lots of my guy frenz are enjoying themselves in camp. while here i am waiting for time to whizz by...
i think i'm too obesessed with materialistic stuff, earning more money for myself so i can spend more and have more for my exchange. i'm starting to lose life...i wonder whether is this worth it at all. slogging myself so i can have 5mths of fun?

holidays...

1 more month to go after the end of the holidays...and what have i done?
seeing all my friends involve in camps and orientations, i do get very jealous. having all the fun, basking in the sun. while here i'm, stoning and bored in the office trying very hard to get down to work.
i'm wondering whether this holiday is well spent..since i didnt managed to get enough fun out of it. i recalled what i did last year and realised that it was much more fulfilling. 1 month of trek, 1 month of work, 1 month of camps..so exciting! while this year, i had only 3 months of work...so dull. then again, working is much better than slacking at home. i shall grab as much money and work the ass out of me to save enough for my trip next year.

silly me with scarecrow

wided-eye me with bicycle

act hiao me with bamboos

fat me at alexandar arch

taking things for granted. we take alot of stuff for granted without realising it until it is taken away from you or when things dont go the way it supposed to be. i dont deny that i belong to one of those people..
but i'm the kind who doesnt know that the fire is hot until i put my hands into it. i have to get scalded by the burning flames to know that it is wrong and it's not supposed to be done this way.
think i've got to make myself more conscious and considerate. think of others, appreciate their efforts, reconigize their significance and importance.

i wonder if there are still people reading my blog? i doubt so..since i've already said that i'm not going to blog anytime soon. haha...
anyway, i really like lu guang zhong album. gonna find it and buy it. it's so cute! not the guy, but his songs.
temper...is something that i believe can be controlled. dont think you can raise your voice at someone just becoz you're angry and pissed. you should speak in a proper manner to get your point through and treat the person with respect. if you can explain yourself in a cool manner, i believe the other party will cool down and apologize or whatever...haha. yeah, that how i feel. temper and manners can definitely be cultivated!

it's very hard to please others. sometimes you do it so often that the person takes it for granted. then it came to one point when you cant do what the person wants u to do..you just get scolded and told off. maybe too much pampering is bad. the person becomes spoilt.

nevertheless, you cant help but want to pamper that person...
just pray that you'll be able to do the right thing...


went to explore southern ridges! so fun...good to walk around natural places. especially so when they are scares in sg. will upload photos soon! i'm so bored at work...

the next place that i wanna go!

there's more!!!

bee bee is so broke. why? coz most of her money are spent on her friend's bday present. all the 21st birthdays!!! it's never ending.

hmm..just went to vee's bday party last sat. this coming sat going to attend another one. this month is crazy, too many 21st! sometimes, i wished i had lesser friends. haha! i'm quite envious to those who had 21st bday parties, it seemed so fun. to see all your friends gathered together, giving you well wishes. haiz, if i wasnt that lazy, i should have organized one! in fact, i really loved to have a 21st party. i enjoy hanging out with my friends, especially so when there's so many at one go! if i'd have time to organize one more again, i write out a whole list of friends that i'm going to invite!
but then again..you celebrate birthdays annually. yah..so it didnt really mattered lah! haha..just allow me to whine and rant on my blog!

read this on chop chop's blog. touching story..if u have the time..read it.

你爱的，只是我爱你的感觉
他跟她在一起三年，她精心呵护着他的一切，甚至每天他的牙膏都是她为他挤好，皮鞋必定是她晚上帮他擦好，只有一点，她几乎从不下厨，即便是下厨也是从超市买速冻食品，吃起来索然无味。于是，渐渐地他练就了一手好的厨艺，因为他看到她吃自己做的菜，一副享受的表情，他就觉得很幸福。
　　后来为了有更好的发展，他开始了拼命地打拼，然而，每当他一身疲惫地回来，等待他的永远是一碗白米粥。看着她纯净的眼睛，到嘴边的话，他又咽了下去。
　　终于有一天，他的母亲要来看他们，其实是看她这个准儿媳，指明了要吃一顿她做的饭。她请求他：你能不能留下来，帮我做这顿饭?
　　他低下头，公司有个重要的合同，假如顺利签订了，他们就可以有自己的小窝了。其实，他的皮包里已经装着新房的钥匙，他是想给她一个长大的机会，然后他的母亲才能放心地把自己交给她。他是家里的独子，他必须要让母亲知道，他娶了一个爱他的女人，即便不善厨艺，也愿意为他做饭。
　　他看到她眼里一闪而过的失望与破碎的惊慌，终于狠下心走了出去。
　　然而，等他下班回来，看到的却是冰锅冷灶，还有母亲阴沉的脸。她看到他回来，迎上去说，亲爱的，你先洗洗，我们出去吃饭，我已经订好座位了。
　　他强忍着不满，沉默着走进卫生间，很长时间没有出来。他心里既愤怒又委屈，平时都是他做给她吃，今天母亲来了，哪怕她只表现一下，也应该亲自去做呀，这也好让他对母亲有个交代。
　　果然，饭桌上母亲态度鲜明地表示对她的不满，他在一旁如坐针毡，抬眼看她，却发现她一脸坦然地将那盘最咸的咸菜吃了个精光。
　　 母亲终于忍不住了，将筷子一扔，拂袖而去。他脸色尴尬，追了出去。
　　 在他甩上门的瞬间，她趴在桌上，瘦削的肩膀剧烈地抖动。
　　 他们终于还是分手了。但是，他再没有遇到像她那样对自己好的女子，他心里明白，她的那些好，宠坏了自己，让别的女人再难入他的眼。
　　 在陌生的城市陌生的街头，他们就那样猝不及防地再度相遇了。在咖啡厅里，他意外地发现，她居然一脸淡然地喝那种苦涩的黑咖啡，如同无味的白开水。
　　一瞬间，一道电光石火在他脑袋里炸开，他颤抖着问她：你没有味觉?　　她一愣，手里的咖啡荡出来。你终于发现了?
　　他紧紧地握住她的手，手心却被一件硬物硌得生疼，低头一看，是一枚刺眼的钻戒戴在她手上。
　　他的心开始痛，想到那些曾经的日子。那时他们才从学校毕业，没有任何积蓄。冬夜里，她总是等他熟睡后，起身洗他的衣服，然后在炉子上慢慢地烘干。一双手长满了丑陋的冻疮，让她难受得龇牙咧嘴。他想起，他做的第一顿饭，她吃得一脸平静。
　　而整整三年，他却对她的种种异常，视而不见，连她没有味觉，都不知道。他却因为，她没有单独为母亲做一顿饭而放弃了她。
　　她告诉他，现在的他，在遇到她的第一个月，就发现她的味觉不正常，于是她放心地告诉他，自己在8岁那年，生过一场大病。
　　他虚弱地说，我也是爱你的。
　　她对他笑笑，不，你爱的，只是我爱你的感觉。爱一个人，必定有着贴肤的温暖与疼痛，而你，竟然感觉不到。
　　他们在最近的时候，本该心无间隙的时候，也是咫尺天涯的距离。所幸，她醒悟得还不晚，还有机会去寻找自己的那一份贴心的暖。

dear all,
i've decided to stop blogging for some time. how long? i don't know. maybe when i've got the mood. meanwhile, i'm still alive and kicking. don't worry, nothing tragic has happen to me. just that life aint exciting anymore, it's just simpler. yeah.. =)

lake kenyir trip photos are so long overdued!

hello all. i know many of you have been regularly checking out my blog and persistently see no new updates. not that i'm too busy to update or whatsoever. just that i'm so reluctant to blog. life has been quite boring compared to the past few years. but it's good that i'm starting to take things so.. moreover, much of my time is supposed to use for other purposes. yah..so there goes my blog. kk..

exams are finally over. verdict: i think i'm going to jeopardize my cap again. wth. i'm praying for an 0.000001 drop. haha. something that tends to 0.

after exams, rest and more rest. played mahjong, watched movie,kbox and read a book.

currently, doing internship which isnt very exciting. 12 more weeks for it to end!

anyway, check out my blog soon. i'm going to post pictures for my lake kenyir. i think this is the only highlight of the holidays. hopefully i'll be able to squeeze in time for 1 more holiday! i wanna get outta sg.

trying very hard to study fluids but failed. i really have no affinity with fluids really.. was reading my friend's blog again. he went krabi during school term, which is like so cool lah! i should have planned something like that.

just look at the blue blue sea...just makes me wanna plunge in. was chatting with him about what he does at krabi. guess what the first sentence he said, "hb, i think you'll love the place..it's so outdoor!"

hmm...i wonder whether i've got time to squeeze in a holiday in the midst of my internship? i wish!

life's like a rubberband

rubberbands are amazing inventions. they stretch, bends..very elastic, binds things together and not forgetting that they snap. when 2 rubberbands are put together, they can achieve great things, hold on to heavier load, withstand greater deformation. however, if 1 rubberband is used instead, little can be done but it can stretch much more and further than 2. 1 rubberband snaps more easily than 2 though. please, dont make a rubberband snap, dont put too much load on it, unload and relax it...it will give way one day or another.

so near yet so far vs so far yet so near
who says being physically close means that they are close? i dont believe in such things. you may sit, eat, study or watever with a certain person everyday, yet both of your hearts are so far apart. whereas, you get to see this particular someone every like once a month, but you know you can pour all your sorrows and divulge all your secrets to that person. you know that someone will be there for you and you are so comfortable with that. talking everyday doesnt means you're communicating. speaking the right thing, thinking insync, sharing nothing but the truth is true communication...it beats the tons of words spoken per day when you say that a crucial sentence.

there's no absolute answers to questions about feelings...
so far, i've never found an answer. maybe time will tell..


anyway, swimming was fun! and i became darker. boo..

my love-hate relationship with stereotypes

was chatting with my friend on the way to tutorial that day. he then asked, "is that xxx bf?". i replied "ya..you mean you didnt know? they've been together for quite some time already". later on my friend went to made a comment that there's quite a numbers of couples btw our year mech eng students. yeah..quite true. i think i know about 5 me couples within my batch? later on, he went on to say that he will never get attached to engine girls. he say that engine girls are not his type, i argued that he's stereotyping. i feel that engine girls study engineering for various reasons. hence, character wise they are quite different too. he thinks otherwise, he insisted that engine girls arent his type without giving a proper reason so. that's such a hasty generalization lah. who knows man...i wont be surprised if his next gf happens to be from engine.

but then again, stereotyping helps us make decisions quickly. like during the process of making new friends. judging from the way your acquitance dresses, behaves, you can quickly decide whether he/she is a possible friend. i dont deny that i do stereotype people at times by being plainly bias. but on the other hand, i hate it when people stereotype me or others... haha. i critic others and other critic me.

meanwhile, i will anticipate and see what kindda gf that friend of mine will find.

i'm so into the movie and music mood these few days.
杨宗纬 洋葱
作词/作曲:阿信(五月天)

如果你眼神能够为我
片刻的降临
如果你能听到
心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己
像是空气
大家都吃著聊著笑著
今晚多开心
最角落里的我
笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我
永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现你会讶异
你是我最压抑
最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望
装得很风趣
我就样一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与你有一秒
专属的剧情


anyway, to continue from the previous eating post. i got very sick due to my giant appetite! haha! irony right? yeah..got so sick that i threw up the chocolate which i ate in the morning. boo. but i'm fit and healthy now. think i should go exercising more, havent been working out for a month. seriously unhealthy...
as for school, life has been simple and bored. eat, sleep, stone @ school. yeah... not forgetting crapping, gambling and doing silly stuff... i miss trekking. i wonder if i'll have the time to trek during the 3 month holidays. i'm must squeeze in some time to get in touch with nature! till then....

i think i really like musicals. beauty world,grease, rent, hairspray..eh maybe high school musical.
below is a part from enchanted



from the original movie

oh yah, music and lyrics is nice too. ah..maybe i like films which is heavily laden with music!

i've been gaining weight. this is very bad, not only for the sake of my figure but more importantly for my health too! i havent been exercising since cny. omg, this is like nearly a month already! cny period...binge like crazy! what to do, the food is so tempting, luring me towards it. as for now to why i still eat also, i guess it's just to make me happy. being able to eat freely and indulging them slowly brings great pleasure and joy to my life. i want to savour the 酸甜苦辣 in different foods. it's just so exciting to anticipate the kindda taste you'll get. moreover, after eating your hearts out, with a full stomach. this kindda experience is extremely satisfying. people out there, call me out for food sessions soon!

definition of argue:

1) To put forth reasons for or against; debate
2) To attempt to prove by reasoning; maintain or contend
3) To give evidence of; indicate
4) To persuade or influence (another), as by presenting reasons

Hypothesis - stance on a topic which the debate focuses around.
Argument - something you say to piss your opponent off and move the topic away from the hypothesis.
Example: "You're stupid and nobody likes you."
Logic - progressive statement that follows valid reasoning.
Example: "Some people who wear purple are stupid. You're wearing purple, therefore you are stupid."

i personally feel using the word "stupid" is a very lousy argument. nvm..i'll do my best to reason and show logic. hah!

(i've got 2 more days to study for my quiz...i'm so screwed! yet, i'm so indifferent towards it!)

this holiday just wheezes by...as fast as lightning. moreover, it's not exactly fun! i havent had any fun at all.

and now all the ord-ed army guys are so free. having a carefree life of slacking around. jio-ing ppl out for fun...come on lah. dont disturb the girls! we're hella busy. you guys can go gay together!

was reading my friend's blog then i saw a rather sad entry from her. she still remains sad till now ever since breaking up with her boyfriend for about a few months. indeed, to get over a relationship is never easy. moreover, i know she loved the guy very much. then i was just thinking about myself.. what happened after that? i felt bad, guilty and disappointed. but i know i needed to move on...was i too selfish?

方大同-爱在
买了菜她跟他慢慢的炒着菜
他为她赶回家走得快
爱无处不在可是呼之却不来
小阳台她拿走死掉的小盆栽
他对着啤酒杯等下载
爱无处不在可是到处有悲哀
爱在大街上小路上每个人海
谁却爱在小岛上不愿离开
难道爱在不该爱的时候才爱
就算百步以外总有爱在爱在
我爱在黄昏看谁的刘海
你爱在清早打谁的领带
我们都要爱偏偏无法同在
不能明白只能够期待
爱无处不在
那是爱到头来也发现这是爱
流泪的微笑的都是爱
管它好与坏总是呼之却不来
雪花白永远都渴望看桃花开
梁山伯辜负了祝英台
在何年何代总是到处有悲哀
爱在阳光下烛光下每点尘埃
谁却爱在黑暗里不愿离开
从来微风都靠树枝摇摆
从来种子都靠春泥破开
所有人世间的美好都存在
就算看不到都依然存在
在意料之外
我的女孩你快走过来
爱在期待(爱在爱在)
我们无处不在爱
我爱在楼下找谁的门牌
你爱在途上靠谁的胸怀
我们都要爱偏偏分开无奈

ignore the lousy lyrics. i just like the melody. if i didnt like the lyrics why shld i post it in the first place? humph! i hate feedback...it's a module btw

not that i dont wanna update my blog. not that i have a uber boring life. not that i didnt celebrate my birthday at all. just that i'm lazy...



let's end it of with a cheesy "poem"

holiday come come!

assignments go go!

aeroplane fly fly!

ferris wheel spin spin!

toto huat AH!

hmmm...currently writing my critique and my mind drifted off. it's feburary now, 2 months off new year. i think i'm beginning to regret the slackness in my current lifestyle. i really missed the busy me where there's never-ending task to be done. at least i'll be on my toes and keep pushing myself forward. for now, i think it's just procrastination and more of it. i guess i'm the sort of person who complains about being so busy and subconciously enjoying the process of being busy. i dont know why i suddenly think in this manner, i think it's maybe just on impluse. the next moment, i'll just return back to my slack mode. or maybe i really do have the inner desire to bring back the old me again. end of the day, what do i really want?

ps: i know this contridicts the previous entry i wrote.

many thanks to those who remembered my special day. thanks to those who forgot it too, coz they eventually remembered it.

i wont say that this year's birthday is very exciting or special. it's just very low profiled. to me, it's just yet another day except i know that there's something constantly behind my mind saying that "i'm getting old le!" hah. i wondered if i really have grown....but one thing for sure is that i've changed.

i am happy to be able to enjoy a simple and boring life. really. i think i'm getting used to a boring lifestyle. boring is plain and sweet bliss.

seriously, i'm getting really sick of 21st bday celebrations! enough is enough... happy bday to the 21 year OLD ppl! =P

i miss the holidays even though my holiday wasnt exciting...

i need time to think and reorganise my thoughts.
change of lifestyle, change of aim...
loss in direction, no motivation.

should i keep myself busy all over again?

odac chalet @ pasir ris costa sands

for now...that's it! i'm simply lazy to keep uploading photos! enough is enough...

some green fella and me. haha

everyone at the base of datuk

we are small...

some of us @ summit

tent carriers! i'm so honoured to be on par with lao jiao...

the sun and me

traditional jump shot!

mech eng year 2 ppl!

geok, kellie and me

us at the train station

sorry. the photos are not in sequence. just too lazy to edit!