Friday, January 19, 2018
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I don't know how to love and be loved. Maybe that's why I shouldn't love.
6:38 AM
Sunday, January 01, 2017
NYT
A sense of
Belonging
Can't be found in
Depending on one
Eerily similar to yourself
7:21 AM
Saturday, December 17, 2016
Child's Play
There is something very strikingly lonely
about seeing colored kites dotting the dusty skies
Above the rooftops of the buzzing streets
Dancing with one another
Speaking a secret language amongst themselves
One that you hear but can't understand
We all are constantly moving
Along the streets, among the crowds
Seamlessly,
Jarringly.
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Jaipur, it's only day one and I think you've stolen my heart.
7:34 AM
Wednesday, November 04, 2015
Two steps forward one step back
I still see you in the midst of crowds.
When will you stop appearing?
More importantly, when will you stop mattering?
2:37 AM
Saturday, April 11, 2015
Falling in love
I fall in love too easily.
I fall in love with the clouds above my head.
I fall in love with the stars dusting the sky.
I fall in love in between pages of a book.
I fall in love with the gentle air con caressing my face as I sleep on the bus.
I fall in love watching my shadow dance beneath streetlights, flitting across the road in sync.
I fall in love with smiles of innocence I see in faces of children.
I fall in love with the way strangers grin while reading their glowing phones.
I fall in love while reading the most intimate thoughts of strangers.
I fall in love listening to the music that reflect the pain of those who wrote it.
I fall in love too quickly, too carelessly, too recklessly.
Yet I am cautious when it comes to you.
Why?
8:24 AM
Sunday, November 30, 2014
心痛的滋味
当你把心交给一个人， 你正在赌博。
真可笑。
我以为一两个星期就能把他当作普通朋友。原来是不可能。 没那么容易。
虽然我知道我们不可能，但是我还不能把你当作普通朋友。
当我每次看到你她两人有说有笑，我的心如刀割。但是我能和谁讲？
我是在跟她抢吗？抢到了又有什么用？为什么我感到那么委屈。为什么我好像变成了第三者？
我对他的这份感情让我觉得很累了。
上帝， 我真的真的很累了。
我狠我自己的妒忌心，自己的自作多情， 满脑子的猜疑。 我狠我自己不能一心一意的爱你，我的心就那么容易被人糟蹋。
这份友情已经变得很复杂了。
每当你和我讲你对他的感觉，我的心只能担心，还有怀有妒忌心和痛。
但是作为你的朋友，我要爱你多过爱自己。
我真的很累了。
值得吗？上帝，值得吗？
帮我走出去， 我求求你。
我已经没有力量去想，去走，去思考我下一步是什么。 我每天只是想要不要看到他，不要胡思乱想，不用去想她和他的事。真的那么难吗？
我只能每天依靠你， 记得你的美，你的慈悲心，你对我无限的爱，无条件的付出。
上帝，原谅我现在愚蠢的行为，帮我看到你，继续爱我和保守我对你的爱。
啊门。
8:24 AM
Wednesday, November 19, 2014
Not the right time
I'm pretty stupid at times.
Why do you still matter to me?
Maybe I need time and space away from you. Haha did I think my heart a switch that I could turn on and off?
Expectations versus reality,
you're a mystery.
What's so great about you,
I don't know the answer to that too.
You're not the right person for me,
Why is that so difficult to see?
God, you are sovereign this I know,
But sometimes it does leave me feeling cold.
Happy birthday to me.
One year older, not necessarily one year wiser.
5:41 AM