never wanna hear you say goodbye.

last post?
hey! haha. decided for a change. yup this time not the layout but the address.

moving on to orangesoddaa.livejournal! ;)

oh my i will miss my blogspot!! and those memories written here!




这些日子以来
偶尔会想起你的爱
面对这回忆依然还是温暖
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life is full of unpredictable.s
cherish. cherish. cherish.
i feel like slapping myself.

YAM HTXIS
SIXTH . MAY

yeah hey. i like my new layout! HAHa. curly handwriting curly fries!! i miss onion rings!

haha well i have nothing to do so ya, changed layout again. its a different experience whenever you change layout. hahaha. you can try changing it everyday, it makes you feel that each day is special!

hahaha. okie im jus getting boredd thats why. lol. going out YAY gg back TP! hahaha boy scouting!!! HAHA. our new hobby. hahahaa. no la jus kidding!


yup so im the nanny of the day! its fun playing with michael! hahaha we went guessing which is de hole the ball come out from. hahaha. you will know what i mean if you play before!

oh we were at jurong bird park. AHHA. the granny is super enthu when comes to phototaking. oh yaya, you know what, the granny speaks mandarin to them!!!

and i really need to brush up my english, kids nowadays speak much much fluent english than us! hahah. got one time, i translated directly from chinese.

'last second hole'
AHHA. then he was like, 'oh the second last hole.'

'there, your nanny!'
he went 'huh'.
then i realised its 'granny'.

-_- kill me.!!








fifthMAY.
i realised my new blogskin don have any date!!

1st time!!

my work is getting better i get along pretty well with them alrd ;) im so happy;)

although its not perfect at least i tried my best. im still trying.

there re many things taht i wanna do, wanna learn. i wont waste my time away jus like tt. yeah haha.

i wanna learn yoga, learn dancing, go pub, listen to liveband, wanna have a taste of de vibrant nightlife...etc.

new things. a change. is good.
maybe. haha. GO!!
you ve to try before u get white-hair!!!
HAHA.


2nd may.
dark eye circles. wider smiles.
the happiest part of today is meeting henry, eddy, charlie and james.;)
the colours of their golf balls are denoted by the colors used. haha.
2nd part - the last customer i demonstrated to was a boy with curly black hair. hes super funny!! i asked for his name and he was saying something like 'arburan ran rannnn ennnn' wow.
really stunned me, i tot my english is that bad or something. got this name wan?? Hahha.
yup so the accompany adult was stunned too!! HAHAH. den he was saying, 'Alex, wahts your name tell the lady...' den i realised his name is totally nt linked to waht he jus said. ahaha.
den i was like, oh Alex.. den i mus be stupid because that guy mus have mentioned 'alex' for a few times before we start to introduce ourselves. haha im like so kuku.
i guess im too hungry. lol. yaa so i began to explain the game rules and it was only then that i realised how cute is that guy. hes really good-looking!!! i mean the acc parent. he's angmoh. he seems like the actor stepping out of the magazine or something.
lol. the funniest part was, after i explained, we noticed that alex got this stun look. hahahahah. practically staring into the space. LOL.
'alex is stunned', i said.
(laughss laughs) yaa i guess so! he looks stunned', that guy replied.
HAHA den we burst out laughing looking at him. hAHHAHA its so funny la we jus couldnt stop laughing. he was practically stoning there.. and we have no idea why!

omg i look so shag. haha heres eddy!! hes shy.

thats james and charlie (behind)

they are super hyper, running here and there. but at least they listen to me. hahah. gosh i become mummy for the day. ohno!!

the boy in red is henry, he is the most senior of all, thats probably why he is more naggy HAHA. he keeps telling the boys not to do this and that. hahahah he is de most sensible one!
hes definitely a great help!

ahha eddy looking at the orange ball (henry;s ball) in the moving SMRT train.

hes ever ready for the camera!
guess whats colour is his ball? his fav color is PURPLE. omg!!! haha.

captivated by the mechanism.

okies i didnt upload the picture i took with lyna cos i really really look like obasan. shit. haha. 85dinner. i like the dishes we ordered, both spicy and hot;) haha though the weather is super hot these days. and de dinner was alright except for the last part! haha. and yeah lyna sent me home! HAHA. okie la not really home but she walked me to de busstop near my house. HAAH. like so funny.


on my way to meet huimin last sunday! yay! i by pass tp!! hahaa. this uncle turned to look at me after i took this picture. he mus have thought i was a stalker taking his picture!! oh my!! NO uncle no.!

;)
de school days.

aha huimin!! i couldnt find her at 1st. ahhaha.

haha don look like ah ma right!!












yst went braddell to check my back.

i waited for around 45 mins before they were open. crazy right?? on top of that, they didnt pick up my callssssssssss. dunno hw many calls i made. driving me nuts.

travelling from tamp to braddell. nt to forget i have no mp3 only hp. so i started smsing ppl. sending those random sms that i never tot i would send until yst.

i really miss my friends. yes, i do.

however as time passes by, the distance becomes wider and wider ..and slowly we drifted apart. and you know the ending.

yup. thats hw fragile friendship is.

yaa. haha. yst, i scrolled down my hp list. gosh. really have no idea who to tok to. dunno who is free because nobody seems to be free.

so i jus smsed tzehui and lyna to call me. i was so so glad that they called back. at least i know im not abandoned.

Miraculously, after talking to tzehui, de clinic opened.!

hahaa. yaa so pain man. i was screaming and screaming if you know me i hardly scream. even at home, i don. haha. yaa. before i could take a breath, it came again, suffocating me.

yup i felt my legs twisted like dunno waht. you know those kungfu fighters always like to crack ppl;s bones? yaaa i finally experienced it. its not the 1st time.

honestly, this time was not as bad as last time. but its still making me yelling like mad.


ppl never know how much you care, until you take some action? Haha. i know theres a saying but i cant remember wahts it.

lol. yup i truly agreed. so, tag me sms me call me if you wanna care for me okie! HAHA. if not i'll never know! ok maybe you can email me too! though i never really check my mail. HAHA. maybe i will start checking if u send LOL.


CHEERS to our friendship,
bestie! ;)
you re the best haha!

heyhey!! i heart you! ;) LOL. dun puke!!

i shall not say further! ahha!

our lunch,
dunno why i always pick the same dish again and again.
hahaha im so LOYAL!


our dinner,
yay!! the seafood is very fresh, the bacon is not too saltish its PERFECT. ;)
thumbs up. though we shouldnt have chosen tomato cream.
we aint cream eater. ahhah.

you can see qiudan eyeing for her bacon pasta at right-hand-corner!
oh ya,
we went expo to watch the planes. OMG.
one word to describe the feeling of standing right below the flying plane,
WOW.!
its cool man. the plane is so so so CLOSE to us.
1st time in my life, that i experienced standing that close to a flying plane.
for one moment i tot im gg to touch the plane with my arms raised.
ahhahah.!
THANKS TO YILONG.
but we never took any pictures!! wasted!! hahaha. its okie we shall go next time again alright!!
my fav plane is our own SIA plane.!
remember to go expo to experience it urself!

mac don al loves. hhaha i heart my sis too! though we quarrel quite often. hahah.





i l l
be . filled with.
happy thoughts. i will constantly remind myself to be happy.
things that make me smile from within -
a kid lets me see her drawing. hahah seriously i dunno what she had drawn and seriously another reason why i kept staring at the picture was that I was finding a word to describe the picture.
my brain juice used up, i finally spoke, 'hmm whats this?'
o.m.g.
i cant believe i actually said taht. its like im pouring cold water. i should know what shes drawn!!
and her mum was asking her again, as though she cant hear what i jus said.
so her mum helped to reply, 'its a face' in kiddish tone.
actually i know its a face but it doesnt look like a face cos the nose mouth and eyes are very far apart. haahha. yaaa.
den i really have no idea hw to end the conversation!! but they are waiting for my reply. i know the kid was waiting for me to say something nice or even praise her.
'its cute'. i kept smiling and smiling hoping that what i said is sincerely true. though its a really stupid comment. seriously i dunno which part of the picture is cute.
arg..........im stupid. i hope shes happy hearing taht though haha.
before they left, their mum urged them to say goodbye to jiejie hahah yeah! ;) they are cute and pretty kids;)
yes, thats the thing abt my job, i love making ppl smile!;)
once, someone told me he doesnt like me to lie..
yea, but he never understands the reason why i do so.
i guess its really difficult to know me.
because sometimes even I, don really know myself.


have you ever feel this way before.



i cant keep bottling those feelings up im all stressed up. pardon my emo entries because i really have no better outlets to relieve those tightup feelings.

warning: don continue to read unless you prepare to read a whole chunk of incoherent writings. im still feeling dizzy.

yesterday was the last day for the australian fair at taka. yes i made it through. Mixed feelings. On one hand, I slapped myself for being angry/disappointed at her. On the other hand, I finally realised how ppl can be so self-centered and irresponsible.

I have no choice but to work. Supposedly, i work today but it was cancelled i guess since there was no news about the work. Oh man, stop giving me those last-min stuff.

have you ever feel that you are all alone?
im so afraid. im so so afraid.

the closing part was the worse thing of all.
i did everything by myself when others have at least 2 to 3 person who helped them out.
i dunno how to say what to say. but its a terrible feeling when you are on your own and everyone is watching and nobody is helping.

i began tearing off the price tags. fortunately i had took them off earlier. despite that i was the last to go because Im the only one who was doing everything myself. Maybe it seemed easy for you to put all the stock into the respective boxes, stock take, do the cashier closing, trying to find boxes and stuff to contain the items, and so on.

but i realised why others need more than 1 person. besides those manual work, human need moral support.

you cant imagine the stress when everyone is moving so fast and you are all alone, uncertain whether you will make it through by yourself.

you cant imagine how stressed i am to fight the fear im facing.

i guess i was the only one who perspired. lol. i dun even know until aunty honey told me. they were so angry with my boss. My boss, was the only supplier who was not present. I, was the only one who did everything except moving the stuff to the lorry.

i am really happy because i know that i have become stronger and theres nothing i cant do by myself. that includes, walking up to the empty floor where there is no single soul around, searching for the stupid loading bay.

those slack security were so kuku la. they told me the wrong direction deliberately. How do I know? Because i got Dennis over there, Den i realised waht they told me was wrong. It made me walk up and down the stagnant escalator in the dark.

Reason why? jus because my co's delivery man was hot tempered and quarrelled with them. WTH? cant they be more professional or something? It was alrd 11pm and i was Stucked At TAKA jus because they were not professional. I even saw a guy eating MACDONALD NUGGETS and USED HIS DIRTY HANDS TO TOUCH THE CONSIGNMENT PAPER WE HANDED TO HIM.

oh. i feel like boxing him up down left right.

but it also taught us a lesson, NEVER ever fight with security you will never win because they are the kings when taka closed for business. even dennis has no say. so you think. better stocked up some nuggets if you wanna get out of the bloody place faster.

yes i was the last.

its like a nightmare to me. it kept flashing in my mind. and i couldnt slp despite my exhausted body. my back was super achy because i had to bend all the time when i was doing the stock.

I don look good at all. not at all without the makeup adn with spects on. and those stress and all. gawd i got dark eye circles!

and my eyecandy saw the worst side of me. ;(
so sad. but thats another case la. well i was glad at least at least there was someone, dennis was a great help. or else we could jus camp over there. You know what the security said? HE SAID HE WANTED TO COUNT THE STOCK BEFORE WE CAN GO. AND HE SIMPLY HAD NO INTENTION TO COUNT THEM.

so tell me how can we go home?

so we jus ignored him and dennis asked me to go home 1st.

yeah so having eyecandy doesnt help. they will be the one to go if when such thing happen.

i took a look at my watch 1125pm.

I shouldnt be bothered by her feelings. I wonder, whats true?
You can jus leave me alone to handle all these craps.

earlier i was still thinking oh man, i must be so bad to give you cold replies and all.

oh my, I felt so foolish. You were happily shopping and all and I was there Clearing ALL THOSE MESS. i cant see any link.

From teh start, I have to help to pick up those pieces. yes. so at the end of the day, I was still the only one who cleared up those stuff.

whats happening. I still think i din care abt your feelings. Oh, which is which?

working from 930am to 930pm was no joke. plus theres no break. unless you count those 10mins break in. extended hours 930 to 1030 or even later for consecutively two days. and friday and sat are the busiest days of all.

i felt like a fool. Why am i so softhearted. what for I took on the responsibility which is not mine in the first place.

BAck home, i have to listen my dads scoldings. abt those stuff. JUST NOW, 5mins ago, I raised my voice and he was unhappy. STOP TALKING TO ME. CAN YOU SEE IM ALRD DYING.

so he kept asking me to do things that i don wan. I HATE IT.

he refused to pick up the phone after that. WTH. he thought its mine.
AND guess what, he went speechless when the call was for him.

WTH?

cant you take a pity on me?

too many decisions to be made
when the stress comes
they come all together.

i feel weak all over.
i could really feel my health getting worse. day by day.
yeah. today i was woken up by my bro at 8plusam. gawd. there goes my beauty sleep.

so everyday i have not enough slp. i really wonder am i strong enough to work 6day week 9hrs a day. seriously, yesterday was kinda one of my worse days at taka. though i din show it, i could feel my body giving way.

when i was walking to mrt station in the morning, my mind didnt seem to coordinate with my body. i pushed myself to walk faster but to no avail. i felt as though i was gg to faint or something. yea so i was late for work. and i was the last one who reported to work.

didnt manage to have my dinner again.

on the happy note, gt one boyboy very cute! 2&half yrs old. hahahaa he went hiding beneath the table so that i couldnt see him. ahhaha. he likes my apple snack! and yeah he said thankyou jiejie luckily its not aunty huh. hahaha. you have to see his face hes really cute.!

i like kids who are shy shy yet playful. hahaha.

gt one girlgirl very smart also. she gave back the baby rice to her mum after she tasted it. its blend but crispy. hahaha. i think if i were her i might jus throw the baby rice into the promoter's face ahhaa it is not tasty at all.

haah so they are very obedient kids.

yesterday was my 1st time eating the rice cakes. i was forced to. of cos. haha. but after a while i realised its not that bad. quite nice actually!! haha.

turning on my com, i saw pj comment. setting goals. seriously, i have no goal anymore. because everything is uncertain to me. some advised me to study uni. arg. really really. im all messed up.

seriously i was angry with myself, because even I, dunno waht i want.

thats the worse feeling that i dun wish to get.

whats my career path. can i don think of it? i haven even started my full time job. How am i suppose to know whether i like it or not. honey aunty was saying simply, quit if you think its not suitable den find another one.

yeah yeah. thanks man. thats what i wanna hear. haha.

why am i stressing myself so much. i haven even tried. mistakes don mean that i will fail all the way right? i tot they make us grow? LOL. okie i know its lame.

besides feeling edgy towards de new job, there is something else.

its like suddenly i was being shot by so many things at one time.
im trying to handle. pls i need more support.

later still have to go down to sign the employment letter abit waste time becayuse after that will have to head to the library, i hope the book is not overdued, then to my aunty house.

so tell me, what can i do with 1 off day?


i hide them so that you cant see.
but that doesnt mean the heartache will go away.


i dunno why i miss you even more these few days. no matter how exhausted i am, in fact the more vulnerable i am, the more i think of you.

seeing you online doesnt help, it just makes me even harder to forget abt you.

would you ever see?
i hope you re not. since you have gone back to your routine life.


i tried all means to distract myself; keeping myself busy with work, meeting up with friends, trying not to stay alone, having more eyecandies but they don seem to help.


haha maybe having more lollipops help. Haha. gawd im becoming sillier (silly-er)


im lost.
in you? lol.

im choosing my career path nervously//

sidetracked a bit, talk about happy stuff;

1) oh ya i saw my big big eyecandyyesterday well its my sis BIGBIG eyecandy . so you can differentiate the degree of liking with the size of the word 'big'.

2) i got a free 'GOGO' hotdog;) yay i used $10 for both days (lunch and dinner).

3) haha. i drank 1.5L of water for the both working days. big accomplishment because its one step nearer to getting healthier.

4) i sold one milk formula HAHA its like finally.

5) i can make babies smile. AHHA. omg i dunno i can do that.

6) i finished closing faster and faster. haha. u know hw much i wanna get home.

7) i can walk super fast, practically overtaking everyone ahead of me. i know its abit crazy but im really rushing for time!

8) i got to see my small eyecandy. hahah. aaaa. though i need a binocular.

9) i managed to save money by walking back home despite my achy legs.

10) finally i got my own time. ;) thinking of not working tml makes me happier haha.


i hope . i can . someone could . ....


wasted my time for checking out the company because i don think i would like the job. lol.
sigh. its okies. shall see.

yesterday was my 1st time seeing him on msn after so long. i went stoned and i practically sticked my eyes on the monitor when i saw his nick. i thought i was dreaming because i jus woke up from a nap.

i worked half day yesterday and i was really glad that i finally got some time off to send some resumes and listen to some music. since then, i had never listened to my mp3.

i fell asleep immediately the moment i landed myself on the bed. i didnt expect that i would fall asleep because i was facing downwards, which was not a very comfortable position.

it was really a good sleep for me after so long. i woke up and realised its 730pm. i couldnt even remember what time i slept. but i guess i had only slept for half an hour lol cos i was still browsing through jobsdb at 6plus/.

and it was never my style to leave the monitor on because i wont waste electricity LOL. i was really tiredd/

everytime im online i would scroll down the msn list for his nick. at least i know how hes been doing. ya i saw his nick and i roughly know how hes getting because he always writes a little description of his current situation.

delon smsed me earlier that morning and honestly i was stunned by his changes. he became more sensible and no more computer games for him. hahaa.

yep i was really glad for him. ;)


i had a love test last week on facebook HAHA i know its childish but don mind trying since my sis said its really true! it said i fall in love quickly but i stay in love forever. LOL. forever? its something that i don believe in. and in this century, theres nothing like forever.

hah. enlighten me.


becoming like a
___________.
(fill in the blank)

i got a new notebook hahaha qiudan reminded me to put the photo of the month into that. so when we flipped through it again we will get back all de memories.

im feeling so slpy lol. i might not know what im typing now. but i need to type in order not to feel slpy. hahaha./ later im having an interview was really stunned when i saw the email. .
SPLASH AT PLAYGROUND. woohoo. it sounds so exciting and im excited. YEAH. it really suits me man haha i would love working outdoors if its neccessary!
yeah i like to run about instead of sitting under the air con the whole day. meeting with new people makes me come alive because its a brand new experience everytime.
in addition, i work better when no one is watching me when im not tied down with those formal regulations. lol ya. dunno what the qns will be. OMG. im afraid i might turn to stoned mode when i reach there! NO!!!
okie let me train my brain now...
met a lot of cuties yst i mean those kids. tampinese kids are really super hyper and active!! they kept coming to us to get flyers!
the most memorable one was the kid dragging his parents to me to get the flyers. he got 6 flyers from me in total. HAHA. THANKS for your support boy. hahaha.
yea for a start he got 1. den he came back and got another 1. HAHA his actions super funny. he would roll himself on the glasswall den come to me with a shy look. HAHA. den he would run back den come again with a flyer stucked on his face because he was paiseh to see me. HAHA.
yup so he got 3 alrd.
then he asked his father whether he want a flyer.
"no, i don need."
then he dragged his mum to me. reluctantly, his mum followed his lead to me and took the flyer. HAHA. then he persuaded his father again. hes really persistent. maybe he can be a good salesman or something. haha.
"papa, ni yao ma? ni yao la!! ni yao!!"
then without any words, he dragged his father to me. HJAHA.
so in total he gt 6. each gt one. LOL. i found the scene super funny. a family of 3 got my flyers. his mum asked me to say byebye to jiejie. luckily its not aunty.
haha yaa den he screamed. BYEBYEBYEBYE. all passerbys looked at me because he almost knocked onto someone as he was moving backwards.
hahahahahah. really cute right i kept laughinmg and laughing at his bahaviours. he really loves me that much!! HAHA.
gt a few kids came and get my flyers and they are really supportive! HAHA. gt one girl got my flyer and screamed all the way back to her mum. i could hear her voice when we were 100m apart.
hahaha kids are so excited to get our 'woof woof' flyers. ahhaa.
oh ya i really gt common look man. gt one aunty kept looking at me then stopped and stare. HAHA. that song. den
"SIEW MEI?"
her partner, "really meh, no la."
"you siew mei?"
for one moment i tot she asking whether i gt trim eyebrow anot. HAHAA> or am i promoting those trimming eyebrows package.SUPER FUNNY.
so i was like, "huh, er nono no." i dunno hw many nos i said.
LOL. and i remembered giving the same guy flyers again. HAHA. 1st at wisma now tamp. AHAH. so paiseh.


breaking. yeah i hope i know hw to do breaking. haha.

qiudan is making me laugh like mad.

LOL. i cant stand her face. super funny. its my wallpaper in my hp now.

alright the normal one. hey you got dimple? HAHA. mus be influenced by me!! LOL.



slpy typing
yup im slpy and im typing. that explains the title for today.

haha lots of complaining to do before getting into bed today otherwise i will get worse after today which is tml, and that is too unfair to qiudan cos she needs to hear me complaining the whole day when we are working.

super tired. 8am to 10 pm. on the 1st day of work at taka. its stressful to do the closing. really. alot of procedures and details to be noted/. reminded me of secondary sch days when i had to keep taking down notes. yeah. today was alright. luckily.

yst, half day. from 930 to 330pm. i walked from taka to bugis to take the train. haha. save MONEY. yeah and also to exercise. its been a while since i exercised.

got home, was really hungry so i ate my mum's chk rice. haha. afterwhich went to library to return the overdued books. then went to my godparents' house.

the 1st thing i had to do was to do admin; helping my godpa with his medical appts dates. yup luckily i was a planner i know what to do. but unfortunately he was really a nuisance at times. so i had to be more tolerant. really im improving tremendously because i didnt make any noise.

i was really mentally and physically drained for the days.

alot of responsibility that i had to carry for taht taka job.

dunno why it turned out this way. is it our fault for not being able to work for the days when we are not free?

work was boring sometimes; at the end of the day i was selling honey for my neighbours. lol i should change booth.

i was happy that most of the mothers trusted me ;)
some of them were really nice and friendly. but of cos we met sucky customers too.

and teh transportation fees is really killing my pocket slowly. gawd. hw many times have i topped up the money for this mth. argg. they should lower the price!!!! wth. i hate inflation.

everything rises except salary.
they dunno maths or wat?

okok 1,2,3 breathe.

ya so tml i need to take bus because it is cheaper. dots i hate bus rides. especially long bus rides.

i don like it because it makes me emo for nothing and its slower. even though it is not slower but it feels like its slower. so ya in conclusion i always have to do things that i don wish to do.

only now, im doing what i feel like doing.


tuesda.y
falling asleep



was busy as usual.

roadshow was tiring but that was the most happening one, with a lot of kind souls, funny 'dares' played between me and qiudan HAHA, and more.

saw peihua and yisheng its always nice to see my sec sch mates they are friendly and easy to talk to hahaha. the last hr was crazy for us because we simply could not finish giving out ALL the flyers. it was killing our legs and soul. hahaha. we played 'dares'. alright i shall not mention here. lol.

at our desperate moment, YILONG came and saved us. hahaha. THANKS MAN. you rocks sometimes. lols! yup i was stunned and really happy to see a yellow polo tee guy walking towards us. AHA. thanks to yl and friends that we finally could go home. ;)

it was nice meeting people haha because it was a nice feeling to see people smiling to you back even though you guys dunno each other. haha. yups;) no wonder thats a saying, there are no strangers but friends not made.

yeah and i was thankful to all of the peopel who helped to take the flyers ahha and those who U-turned back jus to take the flyers.

9/10 malays will help to take the flyers. they are really nice people!!

i finally went for the 1st interview yst. and kind souls are everywhere. i met a lady who was willing to bring me across to my interview place. It was raining cats and dogs. coincidentally she was my HTM senior. hahaha. and she gave me a job opp.




today was the sec interview and they were keen to take me. its hard to make a decision. .. hmmm. so i went to search for more jobs. but seriously it was taking me to nowhere because i was browsing through blindly. args.


i ate two cakes in a row. lol. i guess im too stressed out.


oh ya, i quit POA and now, im having two jobs. tml will be a full day starts at 8am. $_$ haha. now im working working and working.


this time, the shirt was nicer but i felt it was too short haha.

we couldnt resist toilet breaks.



i felt that the shirt was kid size.


i don meant to take them into my picture. sigh. haha. shoo*


okie they are gone this time. haha. i prefer toilets at suntec because there are seats.

i know my hands are redundant. hahahaa. am i that short NO!!

my fav plant in my shop. ahah. i like to water it because it shines immediately, as if the water is some magic water.



i like the flowers of this plant. its white in color. haha my fav.


now, say byebye to POA. i will miss my colleagues!!! im alrd missing them;)

ahha went to swensens with qiudan someday last week and we had cookie monster and salmon sadwich. i f.a.l.l in love with salmon!! haha i had salmon bowl yst with peijiao!


it was really nice i like it. hahaha. it was funny because there was no bill. the waitress and manager stunned upon seeing the screen. ahha it was qiudan's treat. she had the voucher for swensens tahts explained why it was a free meal. hahaa.
i feel that its hard to maintain a friendship. because there are so many assumptions, misunderstandings and all. lol. i wanna say, i really treasure all my friends. really. and if there were any bad feelings, i hope we can solve them! ;)

its a nice place to chill. ahhaha.

wherever i am, i ll still think of you.















haha i thought i had indigestion but the fact was i had eaten something wrong. i was woken up by the pain in the middle of the night. i couldnt sleep but i managed to catch a few winks. the pain didnt go off until the afternoon. fortunately it was the time before i went for work.

i cancelled my interview in the morning because i was really sicked. the feeling when you wanna vomit but nothing came out was sickening. i never thought i still have the energy to meet sockhui and the boss to talk about our new job. i even rushed there!! and my poor feet got cut again. yeah after lunch went for work.

standing for the whole day except the half and hr break time. or maybe lesser because i ate in the store. my colleague who appeared to be bad told me about her lovelife. stunned me.!!!! yup imeant her story and also her sudden change.

tzehui came and bought drinks and mentos hahah thanks alot i really need some water because i only eat watermelon to replenish the water in my body for the whole day.

today worked at Singtel. was happy to see mei jin!! US dollars. oh ya i saw meiqi! tomato hahahha. tzehui! ur friend! hahah. i recognized her despite her change in hairstyle and appearance. she switched to contact lens haha and she remembered me!

we met kind souls they helped us with the flyers. oh ya i saw alot of familiar faces and cute guys HAHAHA.

oh ya amk notebook shop is really nice and i wanan buy them all. hahaa. level 2.

the samsung guy incident was funny.
our in charge is funny also and i was stunned because he looks really decent.
jin mun is as easygoing as ever. ;)

and i was really high to see mei jin for i dunno why. hahahaa. i cant forget she said her chinese name is 'mei li' de 'mei', jin se de 'jin' aahah.

den i was saying ur brother mus be called 'wang jin' or 'chao piao'. which means gold or cash.

haha okies gtg tml work again. now is alrd gg 1am! gosh!

its a terrible
feeling.
to get indigestion.

yeah i ve been feeling unwell these few days and i looked like a sheet of paper if i don make up. great creation. haha it covers up everything and boost your confidence immediately to 100%. ahha okies 90% maybe.

except for the eyeliner part the rest is ok/. ahaha.

i dread tml because im gg to work with her. ARG. save me!!! and i need to tell her that she did not write my working days correctly. my another colleague urged me to tell her by tml. butterflies in my stomach whenever i see her face hear her voice.

sad. aha. i ve an interview tml . yeah this time a full time job. seriously, qiudan is right, i might be cut out to be a sales consultant since i love talking to people. hahahaaa.

i hope the pay is good. haha;)

alright, i shall stone when i see her.










lol; im watching the repeat of the 'wei wo du zun' and seriously im thinking whether the shouting and shrieking are from peijiao huixin they all. hahaha. omg i missed the chance of going there!! HAha. sure very fun and so many cute guys JAJA.

but i think some guys look scary though hahaha but some are really h.o.t LOL. im not watering SERIOUS. hahah.

my feet is super pain because of the two huge blisters. it was still bleeding when i reached home after work. pro. haha.

i decided not to go for the telemarkter interview. partly because my sis father said i alrd got part time jobs and i don need that anymore.

seriously im lost. haha. do i really wanna go for events? i wish im gg army. ahha so i have two yrs to think abt it. ahhah.

arh its like so stressful. i often have to take a deep breath in order to reduce the pressure.

i wanna do alot of things buy alot of things but seriously how can i plan when everything is uncertain. beat me.

nvm i will find a way out. haha. think qiutin think!!

haha sidetrack abit i think m5 quite cute and scary at the same time omg. hahaha. can cute and scary come together?

m6 super sunshine! his smile is so wide and shiny hahah can go for DARLIE ads. oh ya one shocking news huixin ur cousin is actually so old? stunned me!

but nvmnvm he still looks great ok hahaha. later his fans come box me. haha.

haha okie i better run.

can i don grow up
as we grow up responsibility increases.

a few days back my mum was talking to me about her medical expenses and all those random stuff. i wondered when is the last time we have a decent chat.
seriously, deep inside i was afraid of facing the reality. im still running away from it. it doesnt go away when i don think of it. so im learning to face it. i think im doing better now. haha. my mum said eating alone is not as enjoyable as eating with people around. yeah. i know what she means. sometimes you know it but ur mind don usually coordinate well with ur actions.

my godma says she loves me staying at her house and its no trouble at all, when i said i might be a nuisance sometimes/all the time. haha. i dunno why i suddenly feel like crying when she said all those stuff to me. am i someone that emotional omg!

maybe its been so long since someone told me they like me to be around and they want me to be around. haha.

working over the weekends and i see alot of familar faces haha. its nice to meet people. i like to laugh at ppl. ahhaha. i know i will get karma ppl will laugh at me too. hahah. its okie, jus laugh at me alright.

i persuaded qiudan to play the 'dare' with me. AHhaa. i dare her to walk up to the super narrow staircase and give out flyers. hahhaha. she did it. and so did i. but the kuku thing was, the passer-bys who walked up the stairs only laughed at me!! LOL.

hahaha its okies i was busy laughing also hahahaaa the guy coming down took the flyer from me and he didnt laugh. ahaha okies thanks. haaha.

ya i enjoyed playing. hahahaa. i think its because of that friday-with-sockhui that rekindle my passion for this kinda stuff.

hahhahahaha.

i guess my ex bf would think that im crazy and childish. but now i don need to think about all this stuff anymore.

hahaa lifes like this, you don need to be so rigid and do things that are right doesnt make you happier anyway.

yaa. lol maybe i should be more firm to my own thinking. haha i guess i listen too much from ppl. sometimes it gets my confidence lower each time.

yeah thats saddening.


sigh. oh ya i saw nat!! hahaha hes the same when hes on tv. lol.

some guys are really nice, they ask their gf and friends to help us to take the flyers. now den i realised they are nice. lol! i don mean those who din take are not nice; they might think that they don need it and have to throw it into the bin anyway.

hahaha hw come i know? because im one of them

LOL. but after that week after i distribute those flyers, i began taking all the flyers from others. HAHA. you ought to believe in karma sometimes. hahaha.

alright. im facing problems with POA and its gettingon my nerves. arg i got to learn eye make up because of this job. dots. why do ppl invent such things. its troubling me!! lol/

not in a good mood these few days because of all the pressure im facing. from work, lack of slp, the fact that i haven got a full time job and blar.

sigh. can i don grow up?


you still zoom pass my mind everytime without any notice.

randomly browsed through a blog and i found out that all guys are all the same.

they got you running in circles
and then walked away and say they are not ready in a relationship

its as though i have gotten an elaborated answer.

anyway im not gg to say anymore of this haha. i need to get my payyy.
and thanks to sockhui i got my pair of shoes! lols i like shopping with her because she knows how to say no when i was about to buy something. haha. today we did a stupid thing. AHAH. ok whats new right.

i pressed the bell thinking that its for sale and suddenly the owner came with his drink. i think he was having a break and i ruined part of it. haha.

i saw someone who resembled E and HAHA. IT WAS NOT HIM. hahahahahahah im sorry sockhui i did hope it was him then it would be the best gift for you.

it was so funny because suddenly the good friends separated after going to the toilet and everyone outside at ben's n jerry were looking at one of them. AND i was the one. i think that was because of my laughter.

dumbly, i went and he turned towards my direction. i dont think my laughter was that loud. lol. then the next moment i realised i was heading towards a musuem-look-alike shop. SHIT. maybe my cap might show that im that kind who visit those shops that normal teenagers wont go.

because it was the only shop along that stretch that was opened, i had to go in in order to avoid looking suspicious. so i went in. SERIOUSLY i thought i was gg to bump onto any glass any moment because the glassdoor don look like a door and everything was like distracting me; the big big tv filming those old time story (japanese occupation or something), those floating paintings, glass cabinet sort of thing and colours.

ahha but after a while i got used to it and i saw the transformation of the cameras. from the past to presence. its really nice! and you got to go cathay.

yup and before i could get a clearer look at them, sockhui called and i had to carry out my mission.

hahaha we kept giggling non-stop until i walked past the target.

LOL and acted as though we had lost each other.

ahhahaha its really lame! but its quite fun actually its been so long since i have done that!! LOL. kinda remind me of the stupid things i did in de past. AHHA.

seriously when we met each other's eyes i felt like jumping down to sockhui. im still shy la. HAHA.

okies. thats the most fun thing today i guess. LOL. oh ya no long bus rides for me anymore. its getting me emo for nothing!!!


here we go
broom
broom.


shopping needs atoilet break too. hahaha.

haa. my sis's wearing eyeliner!! i think she resembles the taiwan gothic singer. hahah.

she says she looks werid in this pic. NO. you don!! haha its nice!! vote for her HAHA.

okies im trying to do something with my not-so-busy hand. haha.

thats sudden/.

haha okies im helping to promote the dustbin.

werid position hahahaa. ok jus focus on my face!

another picture where i dunno where to place my hand at. hahaha. i dunno how models are so carefree!!!
thats taken on sunday. ya. im trying to recall things. hahaha. memory fails. my sis treated me to kimchi and bbq chk set. its still as NICE. =D
i have eaten it for # times so you guys have to try it. the soup was really NICE, picked the one with no egg in it. i think its the seafood one. its at taka basement you can see Ajisen there. haha so you know where you can find it.
yup and we went shopping though we are tight on cash. hahaa.
AND YES the teh peng was NICE. it sells toast and all, not ya kun. its beside ya kun. HAha. i wonder why stalls selling the same type of food like to stand beside each other.
maybe they will get to enjoy the spill over effect. haha.
i like gg out with my sis because shes a diff person when she was outside!! HAHA. shes nicer i guess. hahahah. and shes nice in black! ahah cos shes fair i guess.
i wanna be fair!! but dunno why im still like that. lol.
alright the construction next doors began and there goes my slp!
sickening. waking me up early in the morning. i gottta change my plan!
i looked at some webby about curved spine this morning.
seriously i was stunned. i need to do something abt it soon. yeaah tml will be a better day!



those renovation days were crazy. with limited cash i had to control my budget. yes, i walked most of the times to huixin and qiudan's house. haha. this picture was taken when i was on my way to qiudan's house!
tomorrow with be a better day! (and i saw my tp eyecandy a few days back!! TWICE. hahahah.)
i love my godma/pa;) and i miss ah fat! her picture is still sticked onto the wall and i really miss her. see 'the block of flats' picture, its sunshine after rain. and i slept everyday beside the tv throughout the 5days! you see how much i love the tv. haha no la. cos there was not enough space for me to sleep. haha.
there was a night when i got freak out by a super real nightmare. the murderer was chasing me , tzehui and another girl (i reckon its qiudan! HAHA). yes, very scary. lol! and i quickly switched on my hp, (though i don have the habit of turning it off but i dunno why i decided to turn it off that night) i felt much at ease when i saw the picture of peijiao and me. HAhaa. the fortunate thing was i had woken up from this nightmare.

hahaha the darkest wan is qiudan's. she accidentally poured too much black soy sauce hahaha. (that cant be eaten lol!) and oh ya thats the picture of the toilet at the mall at clarke quay. haha its super boring there. don go. lol.

haha. i like working there because the pay is good and there is not much restriction we jus need to brush up our hiding skills ya qiudan HAHA. i couldnt forget how funny it was when they kept asking us to hide somewhere in a corner. as though we are some construction workers or immigrants. hahahahahaahahahaha. i wanna burst out laughing.

and yes, tourists especially the chinese like to take picture of Sg flyer.
oh ya the 1st day of work was when i borrowed yl's house toilet hahah forgotten to thank you!! i could tell the other dog of yours MUST be super fierce. i could picture its ferocious look on its face. lol. i hope ur family was not woken up by the barkings and my voice. hahaa.

she danced with one angmoh on the bridge. LOL. no la jus kidding!! it seemed like, but they were only dodging from each other. HAHaa i was laughing along with the passer-bys. de scene was really FUNNY, you wish you were there. lol.

ok here we go, our toilet breaks. hahaha. it helped greatly, to turn the minute hand.


i really got no idea how to pose. lol.
yes i worked at P.O.A too. ;)
i always need to carry pails of water, top up the water for steamer and water heater. so ya, i got the time....to relax abit. ahhaha. but other than day, it was really tiring. i don even have an hr break. the only time i could sit down was when i was eating my dinner at the store.
the second day trained me to overcome my phobia of height because i have to climb up and down up and down to take and put the stock. i was lucky enough because the new stock jus came and the whole shop practically got its new face. the layout was changed and old stock needed to be folded and sent to other outlets.
yes thats the reason they hire me. lol.
my colleague was straightforward and i kept reminding myself its better than meeting those hypocrites. haha. so ya. im considered lucky when she shot me with those questions like 'you don need to do see me do ar?'. and she became more demanding as each day passed by.
i practically steamed all the clothes in the shop. and i never fail to find water vapour on my fingers. the steamer is too strong and i always got steamed. so end of the day my fingers turned red.
but there are strong pts about my colleague, shes organized and hardworking. she never stops, so cant i. lol.shit i wish she was qiudan!! den i will have more breaks.
too boredd. aha.

its the new layout. and i folded those roses!!! ;D

yes thats the culprit , the s t e a m er.

then tzehui came!! waht a surprise! i finally got to talk. hahaha. after work went sg flyer. that was my 1st time there and seriously it was really nice! especially when we were close to it. haha.
he is still as chatty and its really nice to be with someone who gt tons to say because it means i can take a break. hahah. it suddenly reminds me of the days at TAS. haha. and sabrin.a is really cool. lol she works part time at Starhub, a bartender and she studies LAW. Hahahah. go for her!!! LOL.
my legs threatened to give way when i was in the train. standing for 8 hrs and walking to Sg flyer can kill them. and not to forget standing in the forever packed trainnnnnnn.


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