.Friday, November 25, 2011@2:04 AM.
i think im really stupid, i rarely say this but its true
theres no way things like this can happen
and and there were hints given alr
i was just too caught up in my own fantasies that i didnt notice.
today i noticed and i get the msg.
i wash my hands off this and officially give up.
adios, byebye.
PROM WAS AWESOME!!!!!! :D
everybody looked so good!!
took lots of pictures with everyone!!
shall upload soon!
for now, goodnight (:
.Saturday, October 15, 2011@6:42 PM.
i hate it sooooo much when people change.
are you the same person years ago with whom i spent my entire time with on the phone?
are you the same person i use to love so dearly and look out for?
are you the same person i was so proud of to call my bestfriend?
are you the same person i was willing to beat up anyone who made you cry?
i really dont know....
maybe im being petty, maybe im out of my mind...but there must be a reason why this is in my mind in the first place right?
i mean im starting to wonder if i am of any value to you anymore...
is my presence even worth anything anymore? or am i some clingy friend now?
i really dont know
if im wrong pls come and clear my misunderstanding.
it seems as if other people have now earned the right to be called your bestfriend...
im not jealous, i just need to know if i still mean something to you now or not.
it seems like the whole world wants to be your best friend
and i can no longer remember you being your normal self anymore
i mean if i have to persistently ask you for info during your bad times instead of you picking up the phone and calling me, i dunno what to judge that as...
its as if my speed dial no. has been replaced by hers.
im not jealous, i just really need to know.
but you and i both know that even if the entire world backstabs you, i'll still be standing there to give you my shoulder to cry on and to be your pillar of strength, whether you like it or not, whether you accept it or not.
i dont need to make a show out of our friendship on fb or twitter. i know how strong our friendship is, i just need some reassurance.
clear my misunderstanding before it turns into an opinion would you?
.Sunday, July 31, 2011@1:27 AM.
i didnt study this entire week.
damn im screwed.
i wanna pass prelim 2 with flying colours for a small confidence booster.
i feel feverish too ):
am i imagining stuff or are things really happening?
i dont even know why and when things started.
i scared i imagine everything and one day you come and tell me you like someone else.
thats why my expectations are super low but my hopes are super high.
i hope what i saw is true.
if not i damn paiseh....
i can be such a dumbass sometimes you know.
why i stare until like that?
not as if i like it or anything what.
OMG i needa stop this shit.
sometimes i wonder if showing you attitude today was the right thing to do.
but hey, you did things first lor.
and and i dont even know if you are sincere.
skali you did it just to impress her.
but i know i did the right thing by ignoring you.
lying your way through life will not get you anywhere i tell you first.
and backstabbing people also.
so dont expect alot from me cos you know who i am.
i want Os and prelims to end faster
cannot tahan studying already..
.Saturday, July 9, 2011@10:41 PM.
Os are in 3 months and i can tell im fucking screwed.
never start revision yet and syllabus never finish.
shall start tmr man. hardcore mugging.
3 months of hardcore mugging will allow me to enjoy the rest of my life in peace.
and after 3 months, 6 months of holiday! :D YAY!
i have so many plans i wanna complete after os.
life is boring-ish.
i fell today in mt school.
sprained my ankle abit.
im a fool for hoping too much.
you have utterly no sense of remorse or a slightest sign of wanting to be friends again.
and im such a dumbass to limp there, hoping you would care.
but obviously you arent that nice.
i would have helped you out but you are so unappreciative. why bother right?
i have to accustom my mind to not think about you. its just fucking annoying.
we all dream of that one perfect love story.
theres a beautiful starting and a happily ever after.
theres everlasting love and romance.
theres the love of your life that you wanna never lose.
and we will get it but patience.
.Wednesday, June 22, 2011@11:21 PM.
alohaaaaaa!!!!
life has been no less than a carnival these few days.
well fought with amit in order to put some sense into him
but as usual it was a futile attempt.
honestly? i think that certain things posted by some people out there refers to me
all i have to say is,
IF YOU HAVE A FUCKING PROBLEM BITCH, COME UP TO ME. OR KEEP YOUR TRAP SHUT!
thanks (:
i take it as ive done my job as a friend. he wont appreciate it now, but 5 years down the road, he will. till then, adios. :D
today had study session with xian and luoly, my 2 darlings (:
made another crazy treaty with them and once again im holding onto it :D
the reason why i love those 2 is cos they are so drama-less, crazy, fun, awesome, not self-conceited, and just love living life. exactly the type of people i love (:
they never fail to make me smile and forget my problems.
i hope our treaty is successful :D
basically i dont care what the world says cos i know where i stand.
even if the entire world is on the other side, and i know im right, im staying put.
the ones i love and the ones that love me will stand by me, im sure of it.
i think what i did was right and thats all that matters, honestly.
i live for myself not the world.
i know how love can feel, i know how heartbreak feels, i know how it feels to confess your love. but my friend. most of all, i know what it feels like to let go. dont tell me i dont know how it feels. i do. just cos i dont go around making my love a show doesnt mean i dunno know how it feels. you loved her for what? a year? guess what, 3 years?! yet absolutely no sound. it takes sense and strength to love and let go.
k luoly just sent me game request. so adios. :D
.Friday, May 27, 2011@12:05 AM.
its 12 05 now an i have ptc tmr
what am i doing still awake?
mye just ended
results are ok (:
i miss my air peeps
i miss how we use to be so normal with each other
now got some attention seeking freak
and another drama feller that behaves worst than a girl
sian
feel like family change alr
not the same
all like not the people i usually live with
hahah weird shit
cry alot these days
for no apparent reason
kinda dumb but yea
feel kinda sad a lot
i think i going crazy
i guess there a point in life you just need to stop, cry and restart
i dunno if you exist
but if you do,
faster come k?
i need a holiday
no religious commitments
no books
no fake people
just me and the people i love being their usual self
.Saturday, April 23, 2011@6:40 PM.
you have no freaking balls to talk to me
stop running away from me
im gonna tell you off once and for all
and after that you are not part of my world
i will accustom my mind not to think abt you
no matter what it takes
you no longer matter to me
theres so much rage in me that i will tell her off tmr as well if she butts in too
i am pissed and im not afraid to give you a piece of my mind
