Opal is Hearbroken

BE prepared. this will be a long post. as Opal is now heartbroken. deep deep hurt. it may appear to you a small issue but it's hurting me alot. Because i treasure friendship and i believe trust is very important to sustain a friendship. and i have lost one friend. Let me share with you what happened and u can share your thots later.

I had once considered him as a good friend of mine. He is living alone in Singapore with no many friends here. Somedays i see him quite upset and once i saw his teary eyes after listening to one repeated songs for umpteen times a day. I am concerned for this friend of mine and i thought maybe i could help him.

During leisure time, i would also include him in our activities be it sports, makan or shopping. to make him feel at home and at least he won't feel alone. Remember one day over dinner, i thought our friendship is true enough to be oen. I asked if he has any problem and what is his problem. if he missed his family or ...relationship problem... then he mentioned that he had before a 6 yrs long girlfriend and had broken up. i asked him where is his gf now, he told me in KL. as a friend i comforted him and told him to take it easy and not to be upset. ..bla bla *somemore i told the other friend of mine that i felt guilty for asking him this and making him upset.

days passed and one day he msn me and asked if he can ask me a question. He asked if it's possible for him to be my bf for 2 months! i was like... $*&%*$&%# i told him i prefer to be friend. and he was saying it won't affect my studies and why not try 1 month. i told him again that i am not interested in relationship. .. and he asked me to share with him how to forget a past relationship. somemore like real, i told him that it takes time and most importantly to be fair, not to engage in a new relationship to forget a old one. and bla bla bla...

the next day he told me again he fell in love with me! i told him to stop asking and it's not possible between us. GUess what he say!

He told me that he rate me 6/8 and i am a socialable, open-minded bla bla ... i was busy and did not reply to his msg. He began to felt guilty and told my other friend that he made me angry and he is only testing our friendship. and i am just the 1st target then they will be next! i was so angry to know this..

sometime later he smsed me and told me that actually he lied to me. he did not broke off with his gf and is still with her. i got even more upset than angry. HE lied to me !!! i trust him as a friend and i was trying to help him, but in return what i got were all lies. one after another!! which version shld i believe that it's truth?

due to what happened in the past, i really treasure people around me, every friendship. as we won't know what will happened tomorrow. you may just lose them and i don't want to take things or people for granted. i treat everyone sincerely and want to give my best to them but why this happened ? i am upset i lost one friend, but i can't convince myself to forgive as with no trust, it's no longer friendship. and i can't convince myself to trust him again.

I hope he could learnt a lesson from this and he won't do the same thing again to other person. He will lose a friend for what he had done. it may or may not be important to him. but at least i think this is what i can do now. to make him learnt his mistake and the consequences. having to lose one friend 'me', i hope he will be more sincere next time to his friends and appreciate them and don't lie.

Given u my situation, what will you do?

Read this somewhere on web:
Friendship is a blessing...

Friendship is a blessing, and a friend is the channel through whom great emotional, spiritual, and sometimes even physical blessings flow. Friends will cheer us when we’re sorrowful or depressed. Friends will challenge us to attain our orginal limits with encouragement when we allow ourselves not to go beyond our reasonable boundaries. Friends will motivate us when we’re ready to give in, and they can provide for us when life falls apart. Friends are there when all is well, and we want someone with whom to share life’s pleasant and memorable moments. We often just want them around, to have a good time, to laugh, to act silly, to enjoy some mutually liked activity. In how many ways have friends enriched our lives and made us feel loved, accepted, respected and cared for? Probably, too many to list, and the list grows daily.

When you act silly with friends around they also comes and join you and get the enjoyment that you are getting. In the dictionary of friendship there is no word named sorrow. Friends will enter into that word and friends break the word into peices. They motivate us to attain our goal. They will stand by our side when you need a support. you will tell about a girl/guy whom you love and will ask for help for the love. You can't tell the same to parents or any other before the love starts. In our life deciding factor also there is a friend and his/her friendship is helping you. When you get problem in that love all others will run from u but not your bet friend. They help us by challenging( a challenge which motivates us) and also motivates us for reaching our aim.

When you are in college or studies you ask doubts in the subjects not to the professor but to a friend. Friends never says no to anything. They will try to help us and try to solve the doubts. When you play a friend is the first person to cheer you when you do a record. Friends will be the first to treat us without any jealous mind. friends consider the record of yours as theirs and they feel happy by telling about the record to others. In life we share most of the time with friends. We can't share some topics with our parents but we can share any topic, with friends. friends research that topic as a judge and tell us the good's and bad's

I rather have have a few deep and loyal friends, than many superficial ones. Others thrive best when friends are everywhere and numerous. It is not so much the number of friends that is important as is the possession of friends, period. Loyal and deep friendship is good. It doesn't care about the numbers, Even if you have one loyal trustable friend. it is better than to have hundreds of untrustable, superficial friends. With the trusted friends we can discuss our problem areas and get ideas for solving them also. These friends share their time with us to solve problems. But when you have lots of friends who are not loyal or trustable it is the case of the person who is not having any friends. Even after having hundreds of friends our mind can't able to find real, trustable friends.

Shape Run 2007

Finally i completed 5km run although timing is not good, but i am glad i can completed the run. Had a bad flu! boohoo