::September 11::

Life is like usual, wake up, go work, do work, after work, ...
I feel so life less today, is like a walking zombie...
I feel like a robot... with feeling or no feeling...i also dunno

I don't know what iam doing or i just doing what i am supposed to do...

1. What I have been thinking?
- Have been thinking what is the cause of me getting so depressed

- Have been thinking what about life and death

- Before we were born, the expiry date of our visitor pass here is already fixed

- If we were to know when is the expiry date, would it be better or worse


WHAT IF :-
- you are able to read people mind

WHAT IF :-
- you know what is happening around yet and need to pretend you know nothing

WHAT IF :-
- you see things which you shouldn't be seeing

WHAT IF :-
- you hear things which you not supposed to hear

WHAT IF :-
- you know something which you not supposed to know

would it be good or bad

2. What I have learnt?
After what happened on 11 sept 01. I am learning to appreciate people around me, especially my loves ones and ppl who i dislike.

But, i think i am withdrawing myself from human touch. COS It's painful to see my loves one or friends leaving before me. And i am really afraid of losing the one i loved. thus, if i don't be too involve in too many relationship, i would not be so upset so often?

It;s so confusing.

3. I am upset, I want to cry, but I got no tears...

Just wondering, why god put me to so much test.

More About Opal

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness. You're generally a friendly and trusting person. But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism. You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is medium. You are generally broad minded when it come to new things. But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it. You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

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