I`m in the mood for a rant. Haha well geog test today was rather horrid. My mind went blank and I completely forgot all the details which are significantly important. Oh well, you always have a laugh after a test right? Yupp haha that`s what we tell ourselves.

Anyway I`m glad today is over. No more tests till promos. Oh yay! Haha I seriously mean it. Time to get down to serious shit right! But, for today, I`ll just indulge in some good ole slacking. :) Hehee I promise I won`t procrastinate anymore. And I seriously need some goal settings but I think I might have some issues. Haha oh well.
Know what I`m thinking of doing after dinner? Plonk myself in front of the computer with a ben and jerry`s tub of ice cream and watch some OC! Yessss. That sounds awfully heavenly :) I know you guys are drooling already. Mmmmmm, the life! I wish I lived in the OC but I think it just might be a tad too drama and hectic for me. But that`s the fun in it isnt it? Haha. Dammnnnn the OC life seems to be so hellish but it always turns out good in the end. Ahh, the life. Haha.

And I`m listening to the WRONG sort of songs right now. The dark side might resurface. No No!! I cannot let that happen. Haha ok lame. -Bouncebouncebounce- Shittttt, I gotta stop this. RAhhhhhhh I shall not succumb to any temptation.
No wait, scratch that.
I WILL NOT succumb to any temptation.
I WILL be a good girl.
I WILL be determined to stick to my resolutions.
Yes.
I WILL I WILL I WILL.

Dammmn I`m in a dilemma. I dun wanna go to school on Friday. Can you imagine how ac is celebrating teacher`s day?! They`re doing ACES day work out BODYCOMBAT-STYLE. Please scream for me. Or cry maybe. Body combat irks me. I mean I really think you dun get much of a workout with that la. Grrrr. Plus I`d need an MC if I dont go on Friday. Gee, this sucks.

Okie dokesss I`m starvinggggggggggggg.
I swear I could someone right now.
Haha adieus.

I`m sleepyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
This week`s short. :) I like.
I have a stupid geog test tmr. Tests tests tests. I`m drowning in them. Can`t wait for this week to be over. My stress levels are rising quite rapidly now that I know the promos are drawing near. Bleahh.
Dummmmdeedum.
Listening to chinese songs now. Can you believe it? Okay only ONE chinese song. And ONE canto song. :) I`m in the mood for it.
I`m nuts.

Time to stop hereeeee. Good night I`m sleepy.
Oh shit I already said tt.

Friday night was good :)

Rox, Ty, Amos, Bhock, Yk and I went for Doug`s mom`s art gallery viewing thingy. Ate there.. and watched stupid hossan leong make a fool outta himself. Haha. Oh and all of us were dressed formal so we all looked like we were damn old. Haha. Quite fun.
Then we headed down to Acid Bar but it was packed (as usual). So sad. Aho came. And then you will not believe it! We taught some of them how to take the MRT. Hahahaha. Cuz we wanted to go down to indochine at wisma. Shan`t name who those people are. Haha. It was quite an experience for them. Lol..

Anyway after that was the usual chatting, playing games and yada.. Daryl and Han came. Manda and Clovis came after that too and we hung out and stuff.

Well, Friday was quite a night. :)
But I shall not elaborate.

Saturday was quite a messy day.
Land of the Dead has got to be one of the lousiest shows ever. It was sososososo stupid and a complete waste of time. Haaaa.
Dinner at Breeks was JUST AS BAD. The food was horrid. Did you know that the cheese sticks there are actually wasabi sticks?! Yuckk. And the list goes on la. Haha. But I guess Haagen Dazs made up for it.
After that, Ong came to pick Rox and I up to go to a friend`s house.. YAWNNNN it was very boring. They started watching a scary movie so rox and I ran outside to sit in the garden. Then ong came to talk to us and we had another one of those ask-ong sessions. Haha funny la.
Overall, Saturday wasn`t that great really.

Now, let`s talk abt the present!
I`ve gotta go do my work. Ciao.

I am getting clumsier by the moment.

I fell down outside school ON THE ROAD while flaging a cab to go for hockey training. I was actually very determined to go for training you know. But I got a sprained ankle and cuts all on my knees from the fall on the road. UGH. Pissed with self.
Yuppp, klutzy ole sam..
:(
Stupid weak ankles.

Arr but that`s old news.
New news? Oh I have plenty. I`m abounded with them right now and I`m just about to explode. Or maybe implode. That`d be more apt.
I dunno whether you can call it being troubled but Ive definitely got lots on my mind. And somehow, Nic confirmed many of them. She knocked quite abit of sense into me but I`m still feeling pretty....... I cant explain it. Haha one of those indescribable feelings. I cldnt say messed up cuz that`d just be wayy off and it`d be way too negative. I`m just trying to be positive here.
And Ive got so much more to say.. But I cant say it here.. Like how I`m feeling extremely ________ and _______. Sighhh.
I swear there`s really no such thing as freedom of speech on the world wide web. Somehow, someone somewhere out there is watching.
So all I can do right now is attempt to do my work or watch some good ole fashioned teevee. :)

I realised that I haven`t been uploading my photos into shutterfly. This is quite sad cuz I`ve got lots of nicenice photos. Nevermind, ONE day I shall put up all the random nice photos.

Gosh I really dun like the word "promos". It scares the living shit outta me. In exactly 6 weeks, I`d be worrying by butt off abt my GP exam the next day. Am I scaring you? Haha. I`m scaring myself too, it`s okay. We`re all in this together. PATHETIC GRIN.

Sighsighsigh it`s Sunday. I hate Sundays. They`re the days before Mondays. And Mondays bring Monday Blues. How terribly tragic. Thank God our Mondays arent like our Fridays. Okay, this isnt really making much sense for many. Haha. But stilllllll, the whole point is that I hate Sundays. :( Especially Sunday nights.

Today I ate many fruits. Peaches, longans, rambutan-like things (cant remember the name) and melons. Mmmmm, sounds so good right. I love these fruits although they arent particularly healthy or abundant with vitamins. Haha but who`s complaining?

Anyway, dun watch Must Love Dogs. It has got to be one of the most boring movies ever. This is like one of the few movies that I almost fell asleep in. Okay, so maybe it was like 11 plus at night but the show was so predictable and uninteresting. Goshhhh.

Alrighttttt, it`s 10pm. I`m gonna just stop here. Nights world.

It`s SATURDAYYY!!!!

SCREAM FOR JOY :):):):)

Time to have some funnnnn.

Sighhhhhh I`ve got tonnes of things to complete. :(
And I`ve got lots to think about too.
I really need to get some stuff done before going out.
OH OH OHHHHHH did I tell you I feel like LARD. :(
And PORK too. This is very bad. The consequences of eating too much. What am I gonna dooooooooo what am I gonna doooooooooooooooooooo.
Guess I`m in a whiney mood.
I`ll just have to do that to Ong later! :)
Hopefully tonight will be good. I hope that it`ll be a meet-all-my-favourite-pple night.
Time to stop blogging.
I`ve got virtually nothing substantial to say.

I`ve got a chinese mock exam tmr.
Chinese is so painful to study or skim thru or whatever. Haha I mean it`s impossible to study for chinese anyway. BUT STILLLL. Gosh, it`s gonna be a 3 hr paper and I shudder to think of it. Imagine how bored I`ll be. Haha. But I just hope that I can pass! *please God please*
Then I`ve got a human geog common test on Thurs. Another shudder. Oh and an Econs essay test on Friday too. Wowwwww, studying`s just soo fun. Damn, these 3 days are gonna be hell for me. Boohoo. I can`t wait for this week to be over. Saturday quick come! It`s like the only day I feel liberated. Okay, sort of.

Okay guys I think I have an eating disorder. I`ve been gorging non-stop these past few days. I have this inability to stop myself from eating even when I`m not hungry. Uh oh. Alright, it`s like I eat for the sake of eating which is downright WRONG. Haha. I have like dunno how many meals a day and tiny ones in between. Goshh even though I feel full, I`d still feel like eating. Haha. Must be the itchy mouth, in need of exercise. Right now, I feel like I`m about to burst at the seams. It doesn`t feel too good, I must say. Haha. I`ve really gotta kick this habit and start being normal again. Where`s qibby when I need her?!! Haha another pig on the run.

Hmmmmm I`m so bored. Shan`t blog anymore.
Ciaoo.

//life is too short to regret anything.

Sometimes you just wonder why your life can be so messed up. One minute everything seems to be peachy perfect and the next minute, everything you believed in turns on you and throws you off balance. Can your world be the right side up for once? And will it just stop being so dysfunctional. I`ve got past the mad and angry stage and stepped into the very familiar numb zone. I mean, why can`t a person just be responsible for one`s actions? Maybe then the world wouldn`t be so bitter about blaming one another. Yeah I know, I`m guilty of not owning up or simply just being afraid of the consequences. But, it frustrates me to think of those... ugh okay nevermind . I know I`m going around in circles but I can`t really feel right now. I wish that you two were here with me now though. But I guess I`ve gotten used to ur absences. I mean I`ve got to live with it don`t I? I can`t go around moping about it and acting all weepy-eyed right. Everyone wears their masks, plasters a grin on their faces and pretends like everything in the world is going to be alright. But well, sometimes, that facade peels away and it`s tough to hide. I dun know what I`m saying anymore. I dun even know what my point is.
This seems so pointless and I hate the fact that I have to resort to blogging about it. This inanimate webpage where ur daily rantings are scribbled upon. It just lies there to rot and it can even serve as pple`s entertainment sometimes. That just sounds so...sad. I`m just really clueless now. I have no mood for anything at all. I can`t even fully express how I feel. I won`t either. Sighh, this is really stupid.
There`re so many layers and patches of grey that I can`t even see where I`m going anymore.

Byebye samsung e700a
Hello motorola v3
:)
YAYY.

You feel really good in my hand.
Haha okay that sounded wrong.

Damn I shall write a longer entry later. I gotta go bathe now.

Fixing my phone is even more expensive than the value of my phone! :(
Looks like I gotta change phone.
The camera`s screwed and the lcd screen`s cracked. It`s so ugly. But, I`m gonna miss it! I really am! Been with me through thick and thin. Haha. So melodramatic.
Okay, that`s besides the point. Right now, I need to decide which phone to get.
I need help people!
It`s either the motorola v3, samsung d550c or the samsung e730.
Please tag to help me decide. Haha.
Actually, I`m getting quite excited. All these mixed feelings. Hahah but nevermind, I`d have to see my phone go sometime anyway. BUT BUT BUT all my photossss!! Omg, I`m gonna hyperventilate. Haha shit there`re so many photos in there definitely worth keeping. This sucks poo. If only I could transfer the photos to my new future phone. Haha. I`ll think of something. When there`s a will, there`s a way! :)
Oh another thing I miss... MY FRINGE. Omg, my fringe is like spikey. Haha and rox keeps staring at it. Sensitive issue! I can`t stop trying to fix it and stuff.. ok sam, HAIR WILL GROWWWW. Haha but it`s not that bad right? It`s just well, SHORT. Haha I shall do something about that too.
So many problems, sp little time to solve them.
Okay, there`re really dumb and superficial things but yeah.
I can`t stop thinking abt my phone really. Haha my heart aches everytime I look at it.
Aiights, I shall stop moping about it and get a new phone.
Oh yeah, please rem to tag and help me decide! Thanks! :)

I have 10 mins to fully express how I feel about today.
Well, to be it very simply, it was ****ed UP. :)
Pardon me, I`m usually not that vulgar.
Wellllllll, let`s just say that things didn`t go my way today. Neither did it go for Rox. :(
Firstly, I went for PE, left my phone in my shoebag, changed after PE and to MY UTTER AND MOST HORRIFIC DISMAY, my phone`s external LCD screen had 3 cracks!!?!?!?!? Like WTF! I was absolutely devastated. There were only 2 ways my phone could have cracked that way. Either someone stepped all over my shoebag during PE or I was just too violent with it. But seriously, THREE cracks dun just appear from dumping ur shoebag on the ground. Grrrrrr.
Secondly, I was scolded during Geog Lecture today in front of everyone. Yes, and I was made to apologise to the whole LT too but that`s okay. For something which slipped outta my mouth, for saying "no" real loud. Well, it`s a stupid reason to get scolded for. Aye, forget it, I`m too lazy to elaborate already.
I`m tired and there`s OC now.
Oh yeah, I embarrassed myself during hockey today too.
Wowwww sam, something NEW! Aye, but that`s no big deal.
The only good thing about today was Prata Cafe.
Haha okay shit, talk abt porkyy.

Okayyyy
I dun know where to start.
Haha.
Last night was MADNESS. It was CRAZY.
Literally I mean. Gotham was like packed to its brim. The queue at the stairs was horrid. I felt like I was suffocating. The amplifier/woofer screwed up. Police were around cuz someone was selling fake tickets but everyone thought it was a raid. The music was so bad that all the ac pple left. Off to Coccolatte we went! The music was soooo much better. Less packed. Yadayadayada.
All in all, it was an intoxicated night. Haha. You could imagine.
It was fun though :)
To end off the night, we had supper at newton. Stingray never tastes so good! Haha.
Hmmmm, today is gonna be an unproductive day.
All of last night`s events are still running through my head.
Alright I`ve got nothing else to blog abt already. I`m off.

I`m so excited and I just can`t hide it!
:)
Lalalalala.
Shall not get TOO hyped up.
Heehee.

I am currently in emo mode.
Dun even know why.
Somehow, the weekend isn`t what I`m expecting it to be. Okay, maybe it`s cuz I`m just not out yet. Sighh but stillllll, that is not a good enough reason why I`m feeling so emo. It`s not angst if you were wondering. Haaah.

Okay this is a funny conversation between 2 pple. I shan`t name who.

Person A: I feel like drinkinggg
Person B: Drinking?!! You`re like an alcoholic!
Person A: But I haven`t been drinking for like.........*drumrolls* 2 weeeks!
Person B: WHAT THE!! Haahahahahahaha 2weeks..?!?!

Hehe I`m so tickled.

Alright switching back to emo mode, I feel so like troubled. Can`t quite place it. It`s like I realise I blog abt these kinda things every week. I sound like a manic really. Right nic? Haha. It`s getting dreary and utterly unexciting. I need to find new blog topics. Something controversial right? Now wouldnt that be nice. Wouldnt it be nice if we were olderrr than we wldnt have to wait soooo long. Okay major digression!

Anywayyyy I need to go off now. Was supposed to go iceskating today but plans have failed. Bleahh.
Nevermind, the day has only just begun..

THE START OF A LONG WEEKEND!

yesyessssss! :)

Haha YAYYYY omg I`m so excited. So many activities :) Wheeee.
See, I`m actually bothering to italicise and bold my entry. I MUSTTT be happy. Haha crazyy.
Ladeedum
Dum dee dum

Okay dinner now.
Supper at 10 plus at newton with my darlings lys cor and rox. :)
See, told you it was good.

Shall blog later and update on the events sometime soon.
For now, I`m gonna GORGE :)

Yay I got to see some juniors, friends and teachers at IJ today. :)
But not alllll... UGH!
Shit I really miss IJ. So many memories walking along that winding hill up to st. raphael`s. And the spirit there is just crazy. The friends, the screams, the hugs, the atmosphere, the everything! I love it all. Haha. It was just too bad and sad that we couldn`t see alot of other pple. Dun worry, you`re dearly missed. :)
Today was a damn good day. Short day, slack periods and IJ.
This has got to be an extremely lousy entry. Very disjointed and random. I dislike it. My thoughts are jumbled up. It`s too late at night, I`m talking on msn and I can`t blog properly. Haha. I can`t seem to type what I feel. Blahh. See what I mean?!!! That whole junk didn`t really make sense.
Anyway the feeling back at IJ is blissful. I wish we could all stay young and never grow up. Then we can live in our little well and pretend to be ignorant without getting blamed for it. Now wouldn`t that be cool? Haha hell no. Such wishful thinking. I`ve got lots more to say but I`m just too lazy.


I`m going to sleep soon, the bed is calling.

Okayyy I have come to a conclusion.
After I finish typing this blog entry, I shall go and do some work that I NEEEED to do. :) Sense my determination? Oh yay. Gosh I just can`t wait for this week to be over. Long weekend ahead. Haha hmm I dun think I shld think about the weekend now, it`s a tad early. Ahhh but I`m still buzzing with anticipation. Haha it`s quite hard to get rid of this feeling. Oh welllll.

Nevermind, if it`s a consolation, tmr`s wednesday, early day. And it`s mostly lectures so I get to slack ard without feeling so guilty. Hee. Oh oh oh and I`m going back to IJ tmr! Wheeeeeeee! I`m so excited! Gonna go watch Danceamania and I get to see all my juniors and some teachers. Something to look forward to.

Oh, on a different note, here`s a msg out to all those crazy pple. I suggest you dun listen to "rock your body" and any of those songs cuz they seriously put you in that mood. Haha. And this burning desire, baby light my fire! Lol ok ignore that. Btw, to all those dirty minded pple out there, that was far from indecent.

Hmmm I was gonna type a whole load of important things which I feel strongly about but I decided against it. Blogs are just wayy too public. Everyone can read what you type and know how you feel. Bleah, I might be thinking of locking this place up so I can have the freedom to blog whatever I want. You know how they say friends come and go? Well, I think it`s completely true. Of course it is. But know what`s the worst? It`s when one party doesn`t even bother to try and make an effort. Doesn`t even bother to care anymore. Then the glimmer of hope just fades and you know there`s really no going back to what it was like before. Sighh, it hurts me so to think about it. But like someone said, why bend over backwards trying so hard when all you do is land up on the ground?

Okay that was solemn.
I guess I shan`t blog anymore. This was quite a long entry, I must say. I`m off to try and gain some inspiration to kick start the night.
Can`t you just feeeeeel my enthusiam?