So it has been a month since the 6 months’ mark was over. Sometimes, I still miss the we when we were together. But it is just what it is right, the truths are just eventual. Your touch and whisperings. I think i am addicted to you.
"Maybe I like exploring a hand that seems as chaotic as mine. All my best friends would tell you that I have a type. Gorgeous men with crooked smiles who have stories that stretch far and wide.
People are like the moon, and we move in and out of phases. So it's okay to experience someone in a phase that may not be forever - that's where we learn the most about ourselves. It's where we allow ourselves to crack wide open and connect with everything that lives underneath the surface level bullshit that they will most likely revert back to the end.
Indulging in these fleeting moments may leave you hurting when it all comes to an abrupt halt, but it wont be for long. So lean into it. Because how fantastic is it that humans can make each other feel in extreme ways? And that feeling fades quickly. The chemicals pulsing through your brain will slowly run their course, and you'll forget what they smelled like. You won't remember the words that are inked on their lips or the grip that made your knees weak. But you'll carry the experience with you forever, and maybe next time you'll show up better. Your heart will understand complexity in a way you never did before.
So it's okay to entangle with someone great and wild and beautiful in so many ways. Even if they aren't close to you forever. Shrug your shoulders and laugh when your friends tell you that it is the same song and dance, just with a different face, and choose to feel it anyway.
Some day these experiences will change and it will all fall together exactly how it should, but that doesn't have to be today."
12:41 AM
will we make it?
10:07 PM