i miss you...

i am blogging for the very first time again.

i don't know where to start.

so many things had happened in my life.

good things most of them i can say.

i just completed my CPA PREP.

and currently on study break.

yes, i have all the time at my disposal!

and truly, restless with so much proposals.

this could be surprising to you.

what am i thinking? why now?

i blame this line for it.

"kung mahal mo, babalikan mo." :-)

p.s.

#OTWOLista

#ClarkIsLove

Ciao....

Dear Animus,
Ang bilis ng panahon, mag-aapat na taon na sana tayong magkasama this October. Sori kung lagi akong nawawala at iniiwan kita sa ere. I know ni-promise ko dati na never kitang iiwan gaano man ako ka-busy pero ang dami ng nangyari at tuluyan na nga akong nawalan ng oras sa'yo. Naiintindihan mo naman yun di ba? Kaya naman gusto kong pormal na magpaalam sa'yo para wag mo na akong antayin.
Maraming salamat sa lahat-lahat. I will be forever grateful to you. Hindi ko man ito maisusulat na, mananatili ito sa puso ko.

Bago ako tuluyang magpaalam, I-update muna kita sa mga latest happenings sa buhay ko:
1) Nasa pinas ako ngayon - ni-surprise ko ang nanay ko sa kanyang 60th birthday last Aug 19.
best-ever decision I made. Nagawa ko na din lahat ng unfinish business ditto sa pinas.
2) Renewed life in Canada - balik Canada ako this weekend. Bye corporate world muna ako, at isasakatuparan ko na ang matagal ko na ding pangarap ang mag-negosyo! (ito ay sa tulong ng aking kaibigang si DG, now business partner na)
3) No worries - i'm all set & ready for any challenges (including meeting my future husband. yay!i agree nasa right age na ako at gusto ko namang magkaroon ng sariling pamilya)  . ala na ding homesickness. i'm actually looking forward this time sa magiging buhay ko dun sa Canada. :-)

Hanggang dito na lang ang aking sulat. Hangad ko ang iyong kaligayahan kaibigan.

Nagmamahal,
-tin

fresh start.....

i finally resigned from my current job. maaaring di ako maintindihan ng iba sa ginawa kong desisyon pero ang importante suportado ako ng pamilya ko dito at aware ako sa magiging consequence nito. alam kong mahirap ang maghanap ng trabaho dito sa canada pero ready ako na sumabak sa job market ulit. yup, di muna ako uuwi ng pinas. hahanapin ko muna ang kapalaran ko dito.

would you believe para akong nabunutan ng napakadaming tinik ng kausapin ko ang boss ko tungkol dito? all of a sudden bumalik ang enthusiasm ko sa pagtira dito sa Canada. now, i am looking forward sa mga darating na araw. hindi yung paggising ko pa lang ayokong bumangon dahil ayokong pumasok sa office.

nakamahigit dalawang buwan naman ako sa company. nag-pramis ako sa boss ko na di ko naman iiwan ng ganun ganun lang ang trabaho ko. aantayin ko pa rin naman silang makakuha ng aking kapalit. kakausapin ako sana ng boss ko bukas dahil malapit na matapos probation period ko (3 mos) at magiging regular na ako. kaya lang naman talaga natagalan ang pagdesisyon ko is kasi i was hoping na hindi ako ma-reregular para wala ng hassle sana. enewei, good to know pa rin nman na may trust ang boss ko sa akin pagdating sa work ko.

hindi ito overnight desisyon. pinag-isipan ko ito ng mabuti. i'm thankful na binigyan ako ng courage & capability para isakatuparan ito.

Dear Lord,
thank you for always guiding me.
remember last time nung nawalan ako ng work sa dubai?
binigyan mo ako ng strength para harapin ito ng bonggang-bongga.
and in no time nakuha ko ang gusto kong trabaho.
although this time ako ang nag-resign at wala pa namang lilipatan.
the feeling is the same. i know na hinding-hindi mo ako pababayaan ever.
i feel i'm back on track again. thank you so much Lord.

love,
tin

Depression...

i'm struggling..di ko lubos maisip na sa bayang pinangarap ko pa ako magkakaganito.
dinaig pa nito ang lungkot na naramdaman ko nung ako'y mangibang-bansa sa dubai.
last week, buo na ang loob ko na mag-resign at umuwi na muna sa pinas.
kung anuman daw desisyon ko, suportado ako ng aking pamilya.

i'm still struggling..pero napag-isip isip ko na kakayanin ko ito. di ako susuko ng ganun ganun lang.
napakatagal ng aking inantay para magkaroon ng visa..ngayon na nandito na ako. babalewain ko lang. di naman ako makakapayag nun.

from now on, pipilitin kong maging masaya pa rin dito. besides, plano kong papuntahin ang nanay ko dito next year.

trivia:
kakaibang depression ang tumama sa akin ngayon.
imbes na pumayat ako, ang effect nito sa akin ay kabaligtaran.
sabi nga ni jo, nawawalan ako ng credibility. di halatang homesick ako.lol.
62.1kg lang naman ako....this is my heaviest weight so far.
kasabay ng pagpuksa ko sa depression ay ang pagpapayat.
yesterday nag-umpisa na akong mag biking.
at usapan namin ni jo na merong 5cad fine pag nag miss ako.
i'm happy kasi medyo natatauhan na ako ng paunti unti
in the past days, ang gusto ko lng gawin ay ang walang gawin.
it's a good start for me..sana magtuluy-tuloy.

july 1 is Canada day kaya alang pasok
hopefully, next year ang blogpost ko na is
Happy Canada Day na talaga.

diversion

something's wrong with me
i feel i'm stuck here
i wanna breakfree
but i don't know where to go!

something's not right with me
i feel so sad here
i wanna go home
yet this new home is what i've dreamt all along!

something's going on with me
i feel so lonely inside
i wanna end this feeling ASAP
it's just so unfair with my friends here who support me all the way!

something i know i must do
i can't go on with my life like this
two months have passed
now is the time to fully embrace Canada!

Hit by Homesickness :-(

I had only good things to say about Canada when I arrived here - best place to live, family-friendly environment, etc...And that was only a little more than a month ago,  38 days to be exact...What had happened? Why I don't feel the same anymore? All I want now is to pack my things and go home. :-(

I am actually one of those 'chosen few' here in Canada. I did not have to go thru to a difficult adjustment. My friend Joan is already settled here and she prepared everything for me...from my pillows, linens,  toiletries to winter coat! Yes, that's how blessed I am for having such friend. It's not only that, it is also through a friend why I got a job in my field in just one week! 

Am I being ungrateful? No, it's not like that.  I'm just so lost nowadays. :-(

My Apology

Dear Animus,
Sorry it took this long to update you.
I know 6 months is no joke!
I just got so busy---
from dubai to philippines then
now in Canada.

There been so many things that happened in between.
I hope I can share them to you also.
(I will in the coming days)

Uhhhhh, blame it to FB...for I am now an active user.
But I promise I won't take you for granted anymore.
From now on, you'll be on the list of my top priorities. :-)

Sincerely yours,
-tin

p.s.
here are my latest pics uploaded in FB.
fyi, nothing followed after these.
i decided not to update my FB unless
you're updated first. hehe. ("wink")

13 April 2013 Sat
my very first day in Canada!
(such a blissful experience having to play with a true snow for the first time)

this is it.....and the long wait is over!
jo and I are at last singing "together again"

me, jo & his hubby
(they're the ones who picked me up at the airport)

FB caption:
"getting the hang of it. my first day @ Downtown"