Thoughts ...

It feels so empty inside.

It seems that the external is portraying its cheerfulness,
but,
who will actually notice the amount of sorrowness
that is drowning internally ? :O

Damn it all ~
Life's treating me so unfair in certain aspects of my life.
Such as friendship 'n' relationship ? -.-

The feeling of liking/crushin on sum1
who's actually not interested in u
can be really disturbing at times.
emotionally wise ...

BUT,
if he/she is showing signals that he/she is interested in u,
later on, when u respond to the signals,
he/she might stop signal-ing...
Thats an act of selfishness ? =

U actually make someone feels that
u'r interested in him/her,
then, when u've succeeded,
u'll start to ignore he/she eventually.
Thats really stoopid, aint it ??

Why will u actually bother to make someone fall for you
when u don't even have feelings for him/her ?

It may be fun for u to do so,
but,
why hurt the innocent hearts ?

Why let the innocent hearts bleed
for the sake of ur own selfish attitude ?
for the sake of ur own pleasure ?
Give a thought bout it.

I've been thru this for like 2-3 times
'n'
i knoe exactly
how it feels like to be involved in sucha situation.

It comes one after another
'n'
yess, im certainly ignorant enuf to allow it happen again ...
and again ...

Call me a fool !
Percep me as a pathetic girl ...

But,
Love is a beautiful gift from GOD.

And,
i'm pretty sure that,
each 'n' everyone of u wants to feel the
feeling of being loved ...
be it by ur parents, friends or special "someone" =D
because it makes us feels that we're not alone in this world.

I really love my friends now
'n'
its really like tearing me apart
if i were to further my studies outta here
in the near future. :(

I'm still thinking about it,
but my future lies on the decision.

Whads holding me back here ?
Family ? Friends ?
GOD, send me a hint!

I've gotta make a wise decision,
but, i'm confused now.

Old Town : 23.08.08

Yumcha a.k.a Gossip Session ~!!
*weeeee~*
xD


Decided to meet up
cz we kinda lost contact
for like bout a month ?

hell yeah~
They planned to catch a mv,
but, i told em,
its betta that we chit chat ;)
cause im nt feelin well,
aint godda mood to watch mv.
Sorry guys!

So, they agreed for yumcha !
*hops.ard* =D


Met up @ Old Town @ nearly 10pm.
Bumped into Chandni, Geral, Marilyn 'n' Nic Thong.
We were updatin ourselves with all the happenings in mlc.
Such as,

"Who just coupled up ?"
"Who just got dumped ?"
"Who betrayed who ?"
"Whads the latest gossip ?"

Well,
its hella hilarious ~

Laughed a lot,
sorta released all the tension
that i've been bottlin em up in me.

I really love all these
"Gossip session"
once in awhile.
It feels really good u noe ...


Somehow,
while i was readin a few blogs just now,
came across a few pics of
a sweet lovey-dovey couple.

It made me felt so lonely
'n'
miss the feelin of being in love+loved
'n'
havin someone der who's with me
thru my ups+downs.
*aww~maynnnn*

dearest mel,
forgot bout the past,
look fwd 'n' live life to the fullest.
"A friend in need is a friend indeed!"
I'm always here for u,
just a call away, aytes ??
*huggles*
Thanks for everything, hun!
-xoxo-

Last pic of the night : Leslie . me . mel
=)

Nytes!
-outta here-

Happy 18th, Amanda =D

Specially dedicated to
Amanda "the panda" =)

steph lim . me . amanda

Happy 18th burpdaeee
dearest Amanda Chong ~!!

this was her b'day celebration last yr @ her place. :D

I miss u lots ~!!
have a blast! =)
-xoxo-

Tagging

Lets do da tagging thingy ! =)
my 1st time weyh ~

Instructions:
Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question,
make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list,
list them out at the end of this post.
Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.
Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. Do you believe in love at first sight?
- Speak bout attraction, its a YESSIE YESS case for me.
I fall for guys who owns a beautiful pair of eyes 'n' gr8 characteristics. ;)

2. Do you hold hands in public?
- hell yeah ! its nt a crime. (",)

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
- depends! I would say UK for now. don't ask me why cz i dont noe why.
I just feel like goin UK for a shopping spree
(ony God knoes when will tat ever be. lols)

4. How many relationships u've been into?
- TWO! The 1st one lasted for 2yrs 'n' 2nd one lasted for ony 2mths.
[sucha huge gap of diff, ryte? lols]

5. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- absolutely yes. cz i've seen it for like a few times. =)

6. Do you like being who you are today?
- NOooooo !!! because im so restless 'n' sick now. :( *sniffs*

7. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
- Divide it wisely, donate part of it to charity, off to my dream destinations, HUGE shopping spree, sign up for a slimming programme, part of it for my parents ...

8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
- I won't confess to him. But i'll show signs to him. *winks* (hint!) ^.^

9. If given the chance, what would you like your other half do for you?(ANYTHING)

- Love me wholeheartedly, share his ups 'n' downs wimme 'n' not disappoint me in any ways. =)

10. Are u crushin' on anyone currently ?
- erm, YES! [his.image.pop-up.on.her.mind.now] xD



11. What is the biggest mistake you ever made?
- Being too ignorant 'n' not appreciating the chances given.

12. Which do you prefer from your other half? hug? or a kiss?
- Both !!! more to hugs~ thats where i cn sense his security for me.

13. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
- Speak to me about it in a nice way, because i'm just a fragile child.
I'll not bear any grudge towards u 'n' mend my ways.

14. Are you afraid if your not in any relationship/commitment with somebody when your almost in 30?
- It depends. If i'm 30 and filthy rich, i don't mind being a bachelorette. But, who would wanna live in wealthy world all by herself? I would prefer a loving family.

15. Are you a shopaholic or not?
- hell yeahh !!! Anyone got xtra cash to spend on me ?? *pouts*

16. What kind of electronic device/gadget you own that you like most?
- DSLR ? because i love beautiful pictures 'n' they paint a thousand words! =)

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
- My laziness ! Learn to be less ignorant, but more appreciative. hee!

18. What makes you feel disappointed?
- When someone betrays my trust 'n' ignore me. Not replyin my text messages [depends.who] xD

19. If given a chance, do you want to see your future?
- Nope. because i wanna explore each 'n' every bit of it all by myself! Its thrilling, rytes?

20. What would you do when your secret is being found out?
- Oopsey doo !!!
*hides.in.a.corner* :@

Tagging :
Teck Peng, Ching, Steph Ong, Jean, Shin Jiu 'n' 3 from anyone! =)

have fun!

TCPJ - its "happening" day (12.08.08)

KLPac Night : 07.08.08 (Thurs)

Taylors College PJ
Daym happening weyhh ysday ~!!
I was in my media history class.
Supposed to do a presentation BUT ...
*dangg.danngg..dangggg.....*
TADDAAA !!!
(alarm.bell.ringsss)

Ms.Natasha went to check it out.
We were like hopin for her to dismiss us.
AND YESSSIE YESS !!!
Dream came true ~~~
*weeeee...*

So, she dismissed us
'n'
told us to go down by stairs a.s.a.p !!
We were on the 5th floor
(luckily~phewww!)
I was the 1st to leave the class
(suprisingly)
so kiasu of me ...
*nyahahahahaaaaa*

We met many others @ the open air area.
We were told to move to here 'n' der.
1st to the main office,
Next to the guard hse ...

As we were movin over to the guard hse,
packed like hell,
we were giggling all d way!
Well, most of it were frm me ...
Cz i was like daym jakunn doinkk =P

Then, the camwhore idea
*tinngggg-light bulb flash*
Let's camwhore Ching, Lili !!
effin kewl weyhh ...


Ching msged Cheryl
'n'
told her whad happened.
Guess whad Cheryl replied.

Cheryl : daym happening weyh ur coll.
*lols~*

I was laughin my ass off mayn ...
She actually thought tat it was happening.
Well, if it was me,
i wud've replied the same as well.
;)

Meet Fitri 'n' KA's *peace* sign !
=)

and the left one is KA *puffinggg...*

thats all for now!
nytes 'n' sweetdreams ...
*waves.byeeee*

-xoxo-

08.08.08

08.08.08
Once in a lifetime,
a unique day has arrived after long awaiting for it ...

However,
it wasnt a good day for me
bcz many things happened.

I was so reckless when i was drivin,
banged a laday's wira's butt, but,
she was kind enuf
to not ask me for any compensation.
=)
*pheww~~~*

Luckaayy me !
:D

Anyhoo,
after droppin Shamaine+Kalai
@ the Subang KTM,
went to AC for lunch with Lili+Wei Keong.
As usual, after lunch,
went upstairs,
a few rounds of pool 'n' foos.

Met Ashveen today @ AC,
so we played 1 round of pool
'n'
catch up a lil on whad i've missed out
while i was in Subang all these while.
Kinda sad when i think bout it. :(
I miss my mlc frens a lot!
*sniffs*

Beijing Olympics !!!
I missed out the opening ceremony @ 8.08pm.
:(
*ttaaatttooott*


Have a great weekend ppl !
bye.

Sprained Mr.Left Foot :(

alryteys,
everything has been settled.

So,
i'm bac to NORMAL !!!
=D

err, w8,
nt so normal YET ...
cz i sprained my left foot
ysday nite @ Subaidah.
(a-mamak-shop-nearby)
*aikks~!*

pain weyhh my ankle ...
jln oso x betul now !!!
ggrrr!

PC Fair
Sat (02.08.08)

m lookin fwd to my dearest ching's play entitled,
"ISMAIL, the last days"
this cmin Thurs @ KLPac, Sentul !
(07.08.08)


The grand-opening night ...
;)

Check it out frm the link below !
http://www.klpac.com/Welcome.asp?c=whatsontheatreview&theatreID=238&theatrecatID=7#

best of luck Ching !!!
*huggles*

-xoxo-

~ mood swings ~

Whad have i done to deserve
to be treated by you
in sucha cold-hearted way ?

I'm fuckin' seriously
HATING u for that !!!

It used to be sucha wonderful friendship
which i really do appreciate that bond btw us.

BUT,
look whad have u done to it now ?!!
:(

U influenced my mood so greatly,
that i'm always feelin so frustrated lately
'n'
not knowin whad i cn possibly do
to search back the kind of BOND
we once shared happily before ...

It's really very
SELFISH of u
to treat me in sucha way
'n'
not takin the initiative
to do anyth to it.

Being a petty-minded person
will get u to nowhere,
be it now
-or-
in the near future.

I'm FUCKIN DEPRESSED
for the past few days.

DAMN IT !!!

Fuckin THANK U
for mkin my life so MISERABLE now !!!

Congrats,
u managed to influence my mood easily!
U MADE IT!

Are u happy now ? :O


U really don't realise
how much i really do appreciate
every single friendship i share
with each 'n' everyone
in my circle of friends.

All i can ony say now is that,
I'm extremely disappointed in u.

Hopefully,
things will take a good turn
for its own
in anytime soon.

bliv it or not,
my tears have been tryin
to not roll down my cheeks,
but,
it has its limits
'n'
its finally out.

I noe by cryin,
it definitely won't solve the prob.
but,
its the ony way for me
to release all those frustrations
thats trapped in me
for the past few days.

i'm outta here for now.
Still hvin mood swings,
try not to get into my way.
tq ~