The last day of 2012

Was crying a couple of minutes ago, and i decided to stop, and i got off the bed and here i am, writing this post because i felt the need to. So that one year from now, I would come back here and read again to see how much one year have changed. Just read my previous two dec31st and I realised my tone and feeling one year ago was, contented and simple. However, i am not feeling like this now. i am sad. i think here i go again, expecting too much.

Nonetheless, I still learnt alot this year as usual. But I realised I need to learn even more. The recent two months made me realised something even though I was idling around: I should be learning even more things.

Shall recall how my 2012 went:)

• Started my 6 weeks ( Supposed to be 3 months though) internship at KU, Bkk. It was indeed, a memorable experience. Exploring new places, made new friends, awesome people there, road trip to pattaya, koh larn island. Truely had so much fun:)

• Completed my FYP presentation which I dread since Year 1 D: haha, everything went better than i expected. Got the most popular poster award, all thanks to my supportive peers. Unofficially graduated and idle. and not knowing what to do. haha.

• I met Joseph, not expecting myself to fall in love, never thought that i will be with him initially, but yup, i went into a new r/s this year

• Joined Udders, been my fav alcoholic ice cream brand since poly days.

• But unfortunately, left after half a year, met new people, learnt stuffs. 

• Went bintan on Nov, and to bkk again! with family:)

Last two months of the year was pretty emo and lost for me. but i promised, i will be stronger than ever, after all the tears and sorrows. I am still very thankful that I have my love ones with me, each and every single one. healthy and good:)

Thank you, life.

I want to study T.T

Was looking back at my older posts, I blogged about how I dont wanna study and all and realised I was so foolish! BECAUSE I REALLY HOPE I CAN STUDY RIGHT NOW:( I refuse to think that I am stupid. sigh. I would have got into a local U if i were to work hard. but whats the point of saying all these now?:(

I NEED SOLUTIONS

Off to bangkok! City of angels:D

Currently on the way to the airport, feeling abit sian as usual, haha! well, its normal. I was feeling like this for my melbourne trip or bangkok intern trip too, because my family members are so excited/paranoid for me! This time is a family trip, more challenging! I am trying to be as calm as possible. Zz, haha. Seriously, my dear ah ma woke up at 5plus n asked me up, really?

this will all be good once i reach bkk, i hope. Shall use this trip to try to be more responsible for my folks and ah ma and give them an enjoyable holiday trip:)