What's on my mind...

HA! On my mind...
Actually in my mind...

I finally had my specialist appointment...
For the past ten years, I have been having trouble with my ears...
My problems started out with some kind of virus..
My ears would get full, and really hurt..
I would get Vertigo and get really sick to my stomach,
I felt like garbage..for about a year..
Slowly it did start to ease up, but I have had problems with my ears ever since..
I still get Vertigo a couple of times a year, and then I am really sick,
and after one attack about three years ago, I got tinnitus, (ringing, buzzing, and hissing in the ear)
Of course, I didn't know it was tinnitus,
and I kept waiting for it to go away...but it never did..
In fact, in Sept. of this year, it actually got worse...

Over the years, I have gone to various doctors..
and pretty much been ignored..
One doctor even asked me what did I want him to do about it?
to which I responded..
"Your the doctor...why don't you tell me?"
After a while, I just quit going...
After all... what was the point?

Finally I found a regular doctor...(hard to do here)
and Thank God...someone finally took me seriously...
She sent me to a specialist...
His name is Dr. Chikukwa...
and I had heard he was highly recommended..
However, he also had a four month waiting list...

Yesterday, I finally made it in to the appointment..
and after waiting for two hours
(My appointment was at three...and I didn't get in until 5)
I finally saw the doc...
He WAS very thourough...and after years of being ignored..
I was impressed.... although I didn't like his answer...
It is not certain yet..I have to go for an MRI,
but he is pretty sure it is a benign brain tumor...
What does this mean...
Well...if it is..
then it means either surgery or chemo....
Obviously...I'm not impressed....
However, I am glad that someone is finally taking me seriously....
He wasn't too happy with the other doctors himself..
It is possible that because of their neglect,
I have lost 40% of my hearing in my left ear...
and I will need to get a hearing aid...
not to mention, the damage is much worse then it might have been...
He also gave me a perscription for a couple of different drugs
for the tinnitus...I may or may not try them..
I don't like the idea of being on drugs the rest of my life..
I guess it depends how crazy it makes me...

So for now...that is it until I get the MRI....


Has anyone here ever suffered with tinnitus? Tumors?
And how do you manage it..(the tinnitus..)

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