I see parallels in the life of Rip van Winkle and my own.

This isn't good ):
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So this is what the end feels like.

It kinda sneaks up on you, so you don't really realise that you've nearly finished such a long journey. And along the way, you've accumulated so many wonderful memories, you're kinda reluctant to let it all end.

But end it well, I must.

I think I haven't really sat down to write a proper piece about what I feel these days. It's hard, with all that mugging and exams being top priority these days. But I guess through it all, I've learnt that there's nothing more important than having faith in God's plan, in your own abilities to do your best, in life continuing despite what the results will be. Maybe it's been too long since the Os so I can't really remember much about taking a major exam but I want to say that the As have been a blast. I don't remember much of my previous life before I started mugging haha. It's like I have these hazy memories of movie outings, pool (oh my, that's something I haven't done in ages), dota, sentosa, meals etc. but they all seem so distant now. I can't even remember days where I used to go home early anymore. Seems like in recent times, I've been going home only when it's dark.

And then now that it's all ending already, there's suddenly this huge expanse of free time to spend. And after As, it'll be like the end of your purpose as a student. You've survived 12 long years of basic education! And now you're standing at the threshold of something so big and uncertain. I think I will wake up on Saturday feeling rather strange haha.

I'm already filling up my free time with stuff to do already. I've got a job for next year, I've got plans all throughout the hols and I have huge ideas about what I'm going to do with my life. But you know what, I think I'll just loosely structure my activities, I don't want to overplan anything and risk disappointment when things don't turn out right. I don't even want to expect anything of my results. Things will work out just right in God's time, when it's all in His hands anyway. So for my last paper tomorrow, I'm really going to go in there and have fun and enjoy doing the paper instead of stressing about "the whole of Singapore surging in front of you", or moderation bell curves or scholarship opportunities. So yes, that also means no more mugging today. I'll be reading Zumdahl for fun. Really. Haha.

This hasn't really turned out to be the piece I really wanted to write but I guess it'll suffice for now because to be honest, I haven't really given any thought to anything besides studying in a while. I guess I've really just been so blessed and gratefulness is pretty much the predominant feeling around here. I've been listening to a lot of Switchfoot as well and I guess I'll just end with the lyrics off some of the tracks which have really resonated within me during this time.

You've been hiding in your bedroom,
Hoping this isn't not how the story has to go
It's not the way it goes, It's your book now,
You're golden,
You are golden, Child
You are golden,
Don't let go
Don't let go tonight
;golden.

Let it go
Daisy, Let it go
Open up your fist
This fallen world
Doesn't hold your interest
It doesn't hold your soul
Daisy, let it go
;daisy.
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Ohaiyo! Ha, it's 1210 am so I guess I could say "Good Morning" heh. Anyways, my As are nearly done! Just Chem mcqs tomorrow afternoon as well as 2 more Bio papers and Chem S. Hell yeahhhh, I never thought this time would finally come. Seems like time's been speeding up when I need to cover syllabus and slowing down when I want it all to end. But so far it's been pretty good. Really in the Lord's hands, I say. I think I've done my best (: I've never really mugged this hard my whole life. Haha.

Anyways, I'm starting to feel the holiday vibe already...Watched 23 episodes of Naruto yesterday cos today's a free day with no papers (: I must say I'm pleasantly surprised by season 3, the action's so much cooler, the plot's moving way faster so now I can't even watch it at double speed anymore or I'd miss out too much. Haha.

And the newspapers and sites everywhere are talking about the whole Dawn Yeo thing. What a waste of time! Like for example, in today's New Paper, they devoted two whole pages on the issue when they could've done a decent, comprehensive Harry Potter review instead -_- Who cares if she's even had plastic surgery or whether she's the hottest blogger around, there're bigger things in the world.

Anyways, I'm off now because I still ought to get up early tomorrow and start on Bio option which I haven't touched since prelims. Plus I think I ought to get started on Chem S before next week comes and I start to panic.

Ohwell, have a urm, good week, or make whatever's left of it good (: Ja!
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Hell yeah! I finally got my CD yesterday and I so nearly didn't get it cos when I stepped into the store, the staff were just signing for the new batch haha. But it also means that I have the normal version without the bonus vcds, the calendar (sob!) and photos of Jay in Venice ):

Well anyways, here's just my two cents worth on the new album:
I think it's better than Qi Li Xiang, minimal rap and loads of ballads which are amazingly wonderful. But I noticed that most of the songs were sad ): Like 5/12 of the CD are sad songs. And Feng is like uber sadness! ): But it's my favourite track off the whole cd for now. Heh. And once again, the lyrics are so incredibly beautiful! I mean seriously, the music's typical Jay, there's no exciting new developments, but the lyrics are, as always, so beautiful and moving. And Si Mian Chu Ge, the song Jay wrote about the paparazzi, is hilarious and it's pretty good! There's even a Meitantei Conan(Detective Conan) reference at the end! Haha. K enough gushing for now (:

And As start next week! All the best to everyone who's taking them, it'll be over in a blink of an eye!
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