it's only the 2nd day of school and i'm already feeling feeling kinda blue. school has started off well-enough but it's not fun. and today i think i shot my mouth off without really thinking about what i was saying ):
And they stopped showing Spongebob Squarepants on kidscentral ): ):
So now I'm living for my Wednesdays, Thursdays and Fridays when I get my anime fix (:

I had a really funny dream this morning haha.
I dreamt that Jay Chou was driving me and my sister around in Taiwan. And he ejected the CD in the player(if was Jay songs anyway) and it was a CD-R so he asked in chinese, "Why is it not an original?" So I replied in my sucky chinese "Oh, I actually have the originals but I burnt them onto the disc so that I can carry around all your CDs" Haha...
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SEVEN weeks to prelims ):
SIX a.m. -- when i'll be up tomorrow
FIVE 10 hour schooldays to survive in a week ):
FOUR a.m. -- the time i've been sleeping at the past week
THREE.ten p.m. -- hopefully my new dismissal time on early days
TWO a.m. -- the time i hope to be asleep by tonight
ONE new term to live through.

it kinda hit me that 3quarters of my jc life is over ):
i am gonna enjoy this new term, make it the time of my life. not that the past year and a half haven't been an incredible time; but i just really want to make the most of the remaining time. so that means no more procrastination, slacking, excuses and time wastage. so yeah, all the best to everyone (:
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Playing a game
Move the character along the street using the navigation key. If you have enough coins, earned while fighting, you can buy defensive items at the drug store, and offensive items at the item shop. Move the character to the currently fighting team and press the # key to join in. When the snowball fight starts, hit the rival kids with snowballs and avoid theirs. While fighting, you can make use of any items you have. If you raise enough mana, you can also use special attack. You must win all fights in four stages in order to challenge the champions.

Special Attacks
Level 1: Aurora, all enemies are hit by snowballs.
Level 2: Ice dragon, all enemies are hit by snowballs and frozen for 8 seconds.
Level 3: Icicle storm, double powered snowball attack on all enemies. Enemies' attack accuracy is decreased for 10 seconds.

I see myself playing a lot more with my mom's new phone =D
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yikes. i didn't realise prelims were in 7 weeks ): ): ): ):
and i effectively squandered away my holidays, but i don't regret enjoying myself (:
i wanna watch initial d! i think i shall let that be my final guilty pleasure before starting on revision and exam prep. heh.
i think it's time i went on a hiatus.
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I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
And as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love it's suicide

You say you're cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore

Now I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance, girl

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you
--bonjovi; i'll be there for you

a lot like love was okay. Only worth $6.50 if you ask me, but it has a really good soundtrack! But guys shouldn't watch it. I think they wouldn't appreciate it heh.
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Hell yeah! Haha. I finally caught H2G2 with my mom and it was a pretty good movie! Rather different from the book but fun and good, nonetheless. And I caught the trailer for The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe as well and it was truly amazing. Really took my breath away. I think I love The Chronicles of Narnia so much because it's so real. But, I've gotta wait till the 22nd of December :/
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lotus love says:
i just read this by oswald chamber, wd lk to share w u - if u debate 4 even 1 sec when God has spoken, its all over for u... be reckless immediately - to recklessly abandon urself, surrenderin all to Him. its only thru e abandonment of urself n ur circumstances tt u'll recognise Him.
you will only recognise His voice more clearly thru recklessness - being willing to risk your all.

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Last week of the June hols. It hasn't exactly been really productive but I guess it's been a good break. And Bintan was a good experience, even though I really wished I could've gone overseas on a proper family holiday. But, it's been a good break and that's really all that matters since that's what holidays are for (: It's been great to be able to get the proper 9-10 hours of sleep (even if it's at the expense of my sleep patterns) and to be able to just really take a break from the rush, the stress and routine of school.

Which is why I think Singaporeans just have nothing better to complain about after reading the recent Forum pages. Heh, I'm enjoying my break, thank you very much. I do have lots of homework, some of which may still be undone when school reopens next week, but I've had a break. And while it wasn't totally fun and games, it fulfilled its purpose. It's probably all in your mindset, I guess. I think just taking things easy, doing work and revision at a leisurely pace is good enough to qualify this time as "holiday". But then again, maybe I'm not in the best position to comment considering that we don't have Terms on the first week of school, heh.
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Things which make me ):
not being told things
loneliness
feeling stupid
not being good enough; disappointing people
having to prove myself
unwanted attention

Things which make me (:
spongebob squarepants
chocolate
koko krunch, cookie crisp
good music
good stuff to read
good friends
good food
helping people
most animals
museums
learning random facts(eg. did you know that it doesn't matter how far your toothbrush is from the toilet bowl because it'll still be contaminated with the same amount of faecal bacteria?)
good conversation
stationery
milo dinosaurs
followed schedules

*I'll continue tomorrow. I'm sleepy already.
(more, if you knew where to look.)
actually, at the ungodly hour of 0245, i'm not sleepy. in fact, i'd rather not sleep because i have so much to express and if i don't get it out of my system, i will wake up tomorrow feeling crappy. so. here i am, typing away in the dead of the night...
what's bothering me? well let's see, there was raymond, who i got very annoyed at for not telling me something. it's not that i want to make a fuss but i just didn't appreciate him not being very honest and i sent him an email expressing my immense indignation but i have a feeling he probably won't read it because something is wrong with his mailbox or something. oh screw it, if he really doesn't see it, i guess that's the way it's meant to be then.
and then there's how to be good by nick hornby. well it's not exactly bothering me but it's a good, thought-provoking book and i think i've got to sit down and really think about it a little (hence i am here, doing just that). well i guess everyone's got different ideas of what it means to be good. but i suppose if it's a universal quest, shouldn't there be a universal answer? perhaps. oh heck, i shouldn't be up so late thinking about such things.
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Today's been a good day. A nice day to reminisce, to cherish, to realise. It's one of those days with a quiet charm about it. It's something you want to remember but words can't express it, photos cheapen it, and memory would fade it over time.

I went to church and heard a good message today.
I went to Kino and found a whole bunch of books I'd love to read.
I had coffee and a nice chat with Jonk today.
I went home on the train listening to good music. (oh i haven't mentioned this, but my mom got me a zen neeon while I was in Bintan heh.)
I was reminded that all I really need in this life is just God and His amazing love.

Nothing spectacular or out of the ordinary. In fact, it was such a simple day. But that's what I like about today. It was just a simple day, spent doing the simple things I love -- God, books, good company, coffee and good music. Aah, such is bliss (:
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I've been back since Wednesday night but I haven't really settled down back home yet. There's this sense of missing out and it's like everyone's busy with their own stuff. I feel it everytime I come back from overseas but this time it just seems as if people have changed ever since I came back. But then again, maybe it's because everyone's so busy we haven't had the chance to really catch up. Ohwell.

Bintan 4 was a real eye-opener! Ok the service part wasn't as fulfilling as I'd hoped it would be but I think I learnt so much on this trip. Like I've really seen for myself how lucky I really am. I think there's no way you can imagine it real enough. You could always remind yourself that there are many who are less fortunate when you see pictures or read the news, but then when you see it and the disparity is in your face, it makes it tangible, real. So yeah, I'm really really thankful for what I've got. But there's still this divide though, like we were Singaporean, and they were poor Indonesian villagers. There's no way it's going to be crossed unless they make a quantum leap of progress. I mean like yeah sure, we spent a week within the community but even then, we're still just visitors, passing through. There's really nothing more that can be said though...

Well anyways, the conditions we were in were actually pretty bearable! The dorms weren't half bad except that the toilets had no flushing system so we had to use buckets of water to flush. We were damn well-fed! The food was generally good, a little too spicy on some days, but not too bad. Plus we brought hundred over dollars(sing) worth of junk food and snacks so yeah. I even put on 3 kg la -_- And roasted bananas taste damn good! They've got a slight alcoholic taste and the sweetness is just heavenly man. I had like 3 the night they served them haha, on top of the dinner which was fantastic that night(it was bbq and I had seconds heh).

Everyday, we'd be off to teach and the roads are damn bumpy there. The bus was usually stuffy and without suspension -_- The schools in the villages have no electricity(no lights and no FANS plus the weather was hot) and the one I went to didn't even follow a timetable. There were some issues, so on the first day we were supposed to teach, no one was in school because supposedly, there was a small demonstration. Then on Monday, which was supposed to be our last day teaching, we found out that the kids were having exams so yeah, quite a lot of last minute changes. But the children were really enthusiastic to learn! Ok maybe just the primary school kids. But the secondary school kids were pretty ok as well, just not as fun to teach (: I think we taught them more games and songs than actual English heh.

We had quite a lot of free time there as well so we went on a couple of tours like to the mangrove and a fishing tour. The mangrove tour was spectacular. We went at night so we saw fireflies and they were really really pretty! They look like fairy lights and there's really nothing that can compare to holding one cupped in your hands, seeing the light blinking and pulsing in your hands. Ok, maybe holding a newborn baby might trump that, but for now, that's about the most wondrous thing I can lay my hands on. And the night sky...MAGNIFICENT. It was so clear we could even see galaxy clusters . Oh man, I was just so in awe that night. And I don't think any photo or description could really capture the experience of that night in a tangible manner. It was just too...beyond the visceral man.

The fishing tour was damn funny haha. But the funny part is damn mean so I'll tell it to you if I see you. Heh.

Well if you remember, I was feeling like shit before the trip but I think the depression cleared up quite a bit, until I took my anti-malaria pills which seemed to make the homesickness and the missing people feeling more acute but it wasn't as bad as before I left. I think what I'll treasure the most from this trip, apart from the memories, is the fact that my friends back home made sure I knew I wasn't alone and miserable alone (: So yes, much thanks to them. And Pramit, if that half hour call to you on the last day is damn ex, we gotta share the costs ok. Haha. Seriously, I'm damn scared my phone bill's like hundred plus ):

And I think I made some pretty cool friends. Haha. I know so many more people from Arts fac now! Heh. But there was a lot I learnt about inter-personal relationships and how a lot of them can be so unreal. I'm really thankful for my mates man. And my class and the rest of my social circle which has like zero politics. I think I ended up learning more about the group instead of the bintan kids haha. Aah well, at least I learnt stuff, even if not everything was what I'd hoped and envisioned it would be.

Well, that's about all I'm going to write about Bintan 4. I had a good time. There are nice memories. I'm thankful. Yup. That about sums it all up (:

Now, I gotta get started on hardcore revision ):
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