Things are starting to be in motion...

Well the exam was alright yesterday. Very vague, I know. I just did what I could and the rest is up to God. Today's a very slacky day for me. Tomorrow's my last paper, Telecommunications & Systems (longest name ever). Not that I'm an expert in that subject, but let's just say that I don't plan to revise it in detail later. Arrogance. Hate it, really. But I don't mean to be that way, honestly...

Okay, I managed to talk to my dad about my uncertain future. Let me be vague here, alright? The change of courses? The cessation of my course, perhaps? You know what I mean, don't you? Did I mention this before? Not really, huh? Anyway, I'll tell you when the result's out. Simple as that. Hmm, this is going to be interesting. Difficult, yes, but interesting, no less...

Alright then, I'll end here for the time being. The holidays begin tomorrow, too. Quite surprising, huh? Time never ceases to amaze us. Good day to you...

Death note...

I know it's a little risky typing this before my exam paper at 2:30p.m.. It's so redundant to the extent that I can't even be bothered browsing through my notes for the paper. Alright, maybe at the last minute before I enter the hall. But even then, I know it won't do much help.

I feel as if I'm typing a farewell note before my 'death' later. Haha, I just hope I'll do justice to the paper - with whatever I've learnt so far. Mostly from the first half of the semester. Boy, it's really not good typing a post before any test or exam. I don't feel right, haha! Tense, tense, tense. Alright then, I think I'd better end here. Will type again soon...

Feelings...

Whoohoo! I feel great today. Actually right now, to be exact. That's because I've just finished my Maths paper! It was fine, really. I could do it - to quite a considerable extent. I'll be happy if I can scrape a pass for it, hahahaha!

Anyway, the weekend looks extra special - even though I still have 2 more papers to go. Tomorrow feels tempting, haha! Indulgence? Maybe, maybe. Oh yeah, it's choir tomorrow. Great, great. Missed the last one because of the reunion dinner on Chinese New Year eve. I guess I'll study for the next paper on Sunday instead. That one's pretty useless, really. It's probably the most redundant subject I'll ever learn. Networking Fundamentals. I know I said at the beginning that I was looking forward to this subject but now that I've seen its true colours, hell no! Alright, it isn't all that useless. Connecting several computers to a network was probably useful (although I still don't know how to). But the rest of it, I feel as if I'm studying alien language - never going to work in that field. I'll probably just answer those questions which I know and put a huge "HUH?" for the rest of them.

So all is well in my world - for now at least. Funny how feelings can change so quickly. Sometimes I just wish I could stick with a good one all my life...

Don't stop living, my friend, there is no time to spare...

Hi all. Well, a hell of a half-week it has been. Yesterday was cool, though, however packed it was. Met my friend for lunch in town and all of a sudden, my dear ol' cousin invited the both of us to come to her place for some reason. So we took a cab down and spent the afternoon... gambling. Well not that sort of serious gambling but the just-for-the-fun-of-it kind. And that's not the reason she invited us, though. There were actually two reasons to me. The superficial one was because her father's friends were there, too, and since she was going to invite a close friend of hers, she thought it would be more appropriate that my friend and I came, too - so all the attention wouldn't be on her close friend, get what I mean? The more substantial reason was because her sister, (which is also my cousin), is going back to Australia the day after - which is today, in fact. How fitting, I thought. It's a good thing I managed to see her before she flies off tonight. So anyway, the rest of the afternoon was filled with guests arriving at their house. Mostly my cousin's friends, of course (the one who is flying off). Not forgetting the gambling which continued until half past midnight - when I had to come home. I believe we all had a great time. It's not everyday you get to play cards and mahjong before my exam tomorrow. Oops! Did I say something wrong?

Ah alright, my Maths paper commences tomorrow afternoon. Risky, shocking, foolish - call me anything you want. Don't worry too much, though. What's done is done. And what's being done tomorrow, will be done in the end - full stop. Life goes on, my friend. No point worrying about the past; time is not on our side...

Need some sign!

It's the 3rd day of the Chinese New Year. A Tuesday. Pretty monotonous day but fine at least. The last two days were tiring days. Visitings as usual. However the reunion dinner on the eve was great. Extra nice this year...

Anyway, I guess it's time now to turn my attention to the exams this Friday. The only thing is I'm not in any mood to start studying. In fact, I've lost a great deal of enthusiasm and motivation. I'm currently lost now. Stuck in the middle of nowhere. Should-I-or-should-I-not state of mind. It's a transition, I know, a huge transition. Drastic. Changes for the better, I hope. But I do have faith, yes. Don't fight nature? It's hard sometimes. Need some sign.

And now I've just lost the mood to type, too. Bloody mood swings. Worse than a girl...

Motivation = Passion

Ahh... instant relief! I almost wanted to type another post yesterday after I'd gone through my lessons. It was good, really. Everything went extra smooth yesterday. And what a great way to end the school term as today's the eve of the Chinese New Year. Big feast tonight as usual. I purposely didn't want to eat a proper lunch just now as I'm saving my stomach for later...

Well, although it's the exams this Friday, I'm not too worried, to tell you the truth. I'll just do what I can and get done with it. I doubt the results will be as good as last semester, though. One reason for that is because my motivation isn't really there. You can see how powerful motivation is, huh? When you dislike doing something, there's absolutely no point in using force - because the result will never be as good. It's all the same with passion. When there is passion, there is a strong motivation behind it. Same goes for discipline. The reason why someone can achieve what he or she wants to achieve is because there is a strong motivation behind what they do - not because someone is forcing them to do it. The only thing is that it doesn't feel like a discipline anymore; it turns into passion.

Motivation's the keyword. The world is built on it. With that, you develop a passion for something, and that's what matters. I'll leave you to it.

Change.

Just changed my blog skin yesterday. Funny thing, change. Personally, I'm always afraid of it. But I know I shouldn't be. Because in life, the only permanence you can find is change itself. Scary, I know. Imagine having to lose something important to you someday. But see this, we cannot look at change this way. We usually look at it from the nagavtive point of view - that means thinking about what we're going to lose - when in fact, we should be seeing it from the positive point of view - that means thinking about what we're going to gain from change. And believe me, there is always something to gain from it, be it tangible like material things or intangible like a good lesson to be learnt.

The hardest part is always taking the first step to change. But once you've taken it, the rest is pretty easy. It's all about adapting to life, because nothing in life is static. Everything changes eventually, whether in a small or big way. So go with the flow, get what I mean? Now enough about change. Today's the last day of school. Next Friday's the Maths exam. I'm hoping everything would flow as smoothly as possible today. Yesterday was horrendous; I don't want to talk about it here. I just want to wrap things up today and forget all about them. In a way I'm quite happy that today's the day when it's all unofficially over. The official "over" comes on the last day of the exams, which is the 28th of February. After that it's live and let live and bon voyage...

I might sound dramatic but I'm quite serious about it, really. I'm been contemplating all this while, thinking that I've reached my limitation in this field of study. I can't go up any further, get what I mean? It's just not meant for me. I totally believe I'm meant for something else. Alright, I've got to head to class now. Remember that java project I've been rambling about? I've got to submit it today. Wish me the best of luck - because I really need it...

More tips for the new year...

Hello, hello. It's a Tuesday afternoon, the last week of school. Can't wait for it to be over. This Sunday's Chinese New Year, too. But before that, I still have this very clingy java project to finish. The thing is, I'm already at the verge of giving up. Just this morning my lecturer came into the class and asked me:

"So how? You got it?"

"Huh? Got what?"

"You managed to come up with the method?" (Method's a term used in java.)

"Oh. Er well. What a good question."

She started laughing as she was telling me something but I cut in.

"Ma'am, I have my limitations lah."

"What limitations? If you think you have limitations, then you will have limitations..."

I can confess it out loud. I have no potential, no talent, no calibre in java programming. My project, although it seems complete on first look, is only half done. I'm still figuring out how to construct this sickening method so that my pictures will be able to interchange randomly. It's a Jackpot system, by the way. You know those lottery machines in casinos? Yeah, I'm doing a java version of it. It's supposedly the easiest of the lot but it doesn't seem to be that easy to me. And that's why I said I'm already at the verge of giving up. Just submit what I have, you know.

Well, that's one story. Enough about school. The lunar new year begins this Sunday. Let me see, is there anything new happening? I guess I've already said the important facts. Dragons enjoy a better year ahead in the piggy year, thank God. The sickness star is affecting everyone this year, so have more metal on you wherever you go. In other words, you've got the perfect reason to wear more jewellery this year. And oh yes, just a little more tips to make your year run as smoothly as possible.

The good stars this year are in the East, South-East, South, South-West, and West.

- The East holds the number 9 star. Excellent for completion luck. Got that stupid, ol' project from last year that needs to be finished? Spend more time in this area. You can place that lava lamp of yours here, too.

- The South-East holds the number 1 star. Good carreer opportunities including new beginnings and transformations, etc. If you have your study in this sector it would be great. Place anything metal that symbolizes great achievement if you're not comfortable using chinese symbolism.

- The South holds the number 6 star. Luck from heaven, unexpected money and windfall luck. Want to win the lottery? Activate this area and lock yourself up here, for heaven's sake! (Don't take that last part too seriously...) You can have crystals in this sector and hang 6 metal coins here, too.

- The South-West holds the most lucky star: Number 8. Great, good fortune overall. This star benefits the matriach this year. And relationships are generally going to be smooth, too. If you have your room in this sector, count yourself damn fortunate. Activate this sector with fire and earth energy - candles, crystals, and precious gems will do fine.

- The West holds the romance star number 4. Activate this sector if you want to meet your soul mate. (I know you're dying to know how!) Alright, place a nice plant in this sector if you can. Never place water if you don't want your partner to stray. If you want to go a little deeper into feng shui, you can place your peach blossom luck animal in this sector.

> For dragons, monkeys, and rats, place a golden rooster in the West sector.

> For snakes, oxen, and roosters, place a red horse in the South sector.

> For tigers, horses, and dogs, place a green rabbit in the East sector.

> For rabbits, sheep, and boars, place a blue rat in the North sector.

And now for the bad stars of the year. They are located in the North-East, North, North-West, and the centre.

- The North-East holds the worst star of the chart: Number 5. Extreme misfortune. Period. Place a 5-element pagoda or hang a hollow 6-rod metal windchime in this sector. Try not to have bright lights or crystals in this sector for the year, especially if you don't have the cures.

- The North holds the number 7 star. Burglary and theft galore. Place a pair of blue rhinoceros in this sector, especially if you have your main door here. Have a small fountain with a blue light here if possible.

- The North-West holds the quarrelsome number 3 star. This year, don't be surprised to see your dad becoming more hot-tempered than usual. You can hang a hollow 6-rod metal windchime here, too.

- The centre holds the illness star number 2. It's the one I've talked about before and place lots of metal in this sector if you can. Anything metal depicting good health would be a bonus. Hang that hollow 6-rod metal windchime here, too. And... wear lots of jewellery!

Do take note, however, that this is just a brief overview of the lucky and unlucky sectors of the year. There is a whole lot more information concerning everything from enhancers and cures to stars and their effects on the astrological animals. Want to know more? Go take up feng shui as a hobby. I'm not propagating anything, by the way. Feng shui to me is a very fun pastime to have. What harm can it do if what you've just read above are some of the skills I've picked up thus far?

West Side Story

Ahh, incredible. Shocking. Beautiful. West Side Story. Now I know how wonderful this musical is. I've always heard of the name but never got down to watching it until this afternoon.

Oh, Maria. How sad it is. Love can end so tragically at times. One part of me would prefer a happy ending, but then again, the other part of me says that without that sad ending, people wouldn't understand the truth about love.

Love has no boundaries. Love is blind. Love crosses borders. It is the most powerful thing that exists beyond anything and everything. Without love, we might as well not live. But with love, we can be brave enough to die for love's sake. That's something beyond our normal abilities. That's something that makes us truly human.

I can't say anything more about the musical. I guess it's best if you watch it for yourself. Only then would you know how unique love is to each one of us. Love exists beyond all...

Here's a good reason to wear more jewellery...

Woohoo! No more Problem Solving & Process Skills (PSPS)! At last I can sleep a little longer next Wednesday. I just finished the last presentation a moment ago. And now it's the time again for taking advantage of the hour. My my, I can't wait for next week to be over, because by then it's the study week. And oh yes, Chinese New Year, too.

It seems like it's going to be a fine day, indeed. The signs are pretty good for me today. Oh, almost forgot, the new year has already started, by the way. According to the Chinese Solar Calender, the day of Spring (Lap Chun) was just last Sunday, February 4th. And boy oh boy, its effects can already be felt, especially this month. Just last night I suffered a tummy ache - I'm living proof that the effects of the year are evident. You see, if you know a little Feng Shui, in this year's chart, the sickness star is in the centre, so everyone will be prone to sickness this year. This sickness star is ruled by the earth element. And usually the symptoms are around the abdomen area - because the stomach is classified under the earth element, if I remember correctly. I've also realised that this sickness star affects me to quite a severe extent. You see, I'm also born in the year of the dragon; the dragon's natural element is earth, so when illness occurs, again it affects the abdomen area. That's not all. I'm born under the Virgo sign in western astrology. Virgo is ruled by the earth element, too. You can guess what happens next. Virgoans are prone to tummy aches, don't you know?

The reason why I said the effects of the new year can be felt pretty strongly for this month is because the monthly sickness star also joins the annual sickness star in the centre of the chart for this particular month of February. So its ill effects have doubled, posing a higher chance of falling ill this month. And now you must be wondering what you can do to protect yourself from the sickness star. Well, as I've mentioned, the sickness star is an earth element star. In the exhaustive cycle of elements, metal is the one that exhausts earth. Simply put, have lots of metal on you this year. In the World of Feng Shui enterprise, they are selling this amulet specially designed for 2007 to overcome the effects of the illness star and also to simulate the coming of Spring as there is no Spring in the fire boar year, which begins after February 4th. This amulet is therefore not just a protective one but also an enhancer itself. It's called the Ling Zhi amulet - do purchase one if you can. Alternatively, you can also carry a metal wu lou wherever you go. And remember to place a metal wu lou in the centre of your home, too, to overcome the effects of the illness star affecting you and your loved ones.

That said, I hope you get through the year safe and happy. Wishing you all the best in the coming fire boar year...

End it once and for all?

Hello. It's a Friday and I'm stuck in the lab trying to do my java project but to no success so far. I just gave it up for the day. The scary thing is that submission is in 2 weeks. I'm only 1/4 done.

Now I really need a miracle. I need noblemen who can patiently help me. If I can find one. Anyway, I'm really in no mood today because it's a darn Friday and Fridays are meant to be relaxing! But then again, you can't totally avoid deadlines.

The afternoon will be spent here in school for me. I'll be waiting for drama to start at 6p.m.. It's half past three now. I'll probably slack in the library like I always do. The afternoon is probably my weakest hours of the day. Especially after lunch, when I start to feel drowsy and just want to fall asleep. I must never schedule anything important after lunch. I guess the best hours for me are in the morning (not too early, of course) and probably in the night - after my sumptuous dinner (I doubt I'll feel sleepy after dinner). Sheesh, I feel as if I'm exposing my body here on my blog...

So glad tomorrow's a Saturday. But it's going to be a busy one, I guess. My friend will be going to my aunt's place to promote (and possibly sell) his products for the company he's working for. I'm "expected" to be there to give support, haha! And then there's also choir tomorrow. Looks like I've got to rush down to her house after that. And I was actually planning to have a haircut, too. Postpone it to Sunday, perhaps? And then finally, alas, the big, bad java project I'm forced to do during the weekend. Damn.

2 more weeks of school before the exams and it's all over. And it might be all over for good, too...