Really ineffective. Never really mug. Never really do anything. Juz very slack. While others have already moved ahead of me by so much. I m not comparing. I just feel I m behind. How am I going to do? There is so muich dissatisfaction in my heart. Or rather I would say my heart is filled with discontent, all the things that I hate to say, all the ways that I hate people to treat me. Yeah, when other treat u like a rubbish, how am I going to treat them back? Still treat them as good friends? Yeah, I m the only fool in the world. Maybe I just treat those people too well in the past, yeah, its time to let go. Holding the things that do not belong to you too tightly wont be me any good. Let me learn to let go. Let me learn to not be affected by people. Let me learn to tell God my troubles. Sigh, there are so many things that I need to learn. Can I walk with God in this learning journey? Sigh. There are so many disappointments. How am I going to tackle all these? Humans are so complicated. Or I m too naive? maybe a mask is what i need now....