This will not matter a year from now

Have you ever encountered a problem that was so unbearable that you felt it would last for all eternity?

Time travel.
Do you know that many of us are actually doing that?

Unpleasant things happen to us.
We relive it by travelling back to the time it happened
& refuse to get out of it.

Recently, I got angry at a friend over something.
In the deep recesses of my mind,
I could still feel the hurt, visualise the hate, revise the experiences I had been through.
All the humiliation
Accusations
Hatred
Yet undefended.
I just couldn't bear the memories.
I mulled over it for days.
In the end, I talked it out, & decided to put the hatred behind, & move on.
(Even though I still DO NOT want it to happen ever again)
You can say,
Perhaps it is just me to get over things easily.

No,
I used to cover it up like heaping sand over hidden treasure
But when the wind blows & as time goes, won't it uncover itself again?
We can't erase memories.
But we can avoid focusing on them when they do surface.

Inspired from a great book I've borrowed from the library. (:
Remember, this will not matter a year from now.
Don't time travel...
1.

We ought not to look back unless it is to derive useful lessons from past
errors, and for the purpose of profitting dearly bought experiences.
-George Washington

2.

It is not every calamity that is a curse, and early adversity is often a
blessing. Surmounted difficulties not only teach, but hearten us in our future
struggles.
-James Sharp

Cast all your worries to God. (:

Random picture of pretty daffodils kopped from Google, my friend said they represent me. (:

AVIATION!

WOOTS AVIATION! (L to R: Clarence, Gersh, Chinchilla(That's me!), Calvin!)1. I am so short compared to the guys. -.-2. My hair is very messy.3. The guys' legs are very skinny! *jealous haha nah just joking.

Many many apologies!! ): to the guys because we didn't get to run, & I think the main reason was because I was late for 30 minutes past our supposed meeting time.

Well in the end the shuttle bus we boarded could not drive into Changi exhibition Centre because of the road closure (The run had already started while we were still on the bus!!). So we were supposed to walk (5km I think?) to the start point to put down our bags & all. But when we were walking halfway(around half an hour passed?), the first 10km runner finished the race so we saw no point in running anymore.

Collected ugly oops goodie bags & took pictures & looked at many many cars. :D I think I shall learn driving! But for now, waiting for the guys to get their licenses next year so that we can all travel around~~

Walked a long distance out to Changi Beach Park & cut through some bushes to get a short cut out. Got a taste of army life, but my legs were left with many scratches which hurt when I poured water on them. Oh yes & we saw Mr Tan, our J2 Co-CT! He was cycling with some juniors, we didn't get to found out the reason why.

Went to tour some places(I think I have almost 20 mosquito bites. Well shouldn't elaborate here, but thanks guys for making sure I was okay) & collected 4 saga seeds, YAY. :D

After which, we went to T1 to grab some lunch before heading off.

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Just the other day, my Sis texted me while I was at work to ask if I prefer Milo or Chocolate Malt. Turns out that My Mum & sisters think that I've lost weight & they are very worried, so they're buying some stuff for me to bring to office to eat/drink. Mum even volunteered to prepare lunch for me to bring to work & told me to wake her up so that she can do so. However I didn't want to trouble her so I just let her sleep in :P

Hahaha did I lose a lot of weight? I think I look okay, just a bit ghastly sometimes when I never get enough sleep. But a little make-up will solve the problem. That's good, SLIM mah! :D

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Shall blog about something that's been on my mind for a while, but haven't got the time to organise & type out. Watch this space! (:

I want to be a student...

I want to touch pencils & paper & books
& lecture notes & go to school
& study with my friends
& walk around familiar school environments
& get allowances

Not facing laptops the whole day
& dealing with office & business stuff
& getting troubled over my finances
& being thrown into independence
& being different from most of my peers

Somehow I feel forced into the workforce(pun, lol)
Just because I can't fit into the education system
Why, why didn't I study harder?!
Why didn't I stay focused during college? ):

Well I could get into uni
But I just refused to go into the one most of my college friends are at
Applied for a private school
Supposed to start school in Sept
But first sem fees too high so I deferred

Okay just that occasional rants

But the good part is, I get PAID :D for working
Which is more than my allowance of course
Like, >5 times?
Wee~
Haven't minus the debts that I have incurred though
But more or less I can break even next month

Yet then again
My contract ends in Dec
Low chance of company extending my term
So there goes,
The frenzy of finding a new job again
& The huge risk of not finding one
& dwindling all my savings to zero again
*Heaves SIGH ):

Of course
It's inevitable to be in the workforce
Ain't that where I will be at after uni anyway?
I just took the shortcut
HAHAHA

Though now the pay for a uni grad may be higher than mine
I have more experience
Stepping stone to higher grounds~
Rather to have a little experience
Then being good in studies but know nothing about working life
Too sheltered, in other words
I'd be a nerdy little girl (8

Shall do my best to get into uni
For the sake of the piece of paper degree
Because that seems to be becoming a common denominator
But if I can't join the paper chase, so be it

What's gna make me stand out from the rest? (:

Forced to grow up too fast
Feels really tired sometimes
But it's worth it, it's worth it
Whatever it is,
God has the perfect plan for my life! (:

I'm excited for the future. (:
Still wna go to uni though, hahaha. Chinchilla's little dream since Primary school. (:

P.S./
SMU applications are opened till 8 April 2010
Considerations in re-applying (:
Although it was the first school to reject me last year
Hahaha.

P.P.S./
Aviation Run on Saturday! Going with the guys! Excited! But don't think I can ever catch up with them because I haven't trained for ages -.-

P.P.P.S./
I don't see my Twitter updates showing(above). Does anyone share the same problem?

P.P.P.P.S./
I don't usually type in this way (fragmented thoughts), just in case my readers get irritated & stop reading my space. Nah just joking. Hahaha.
Is this type of 'fragmented' typing easier to read, or the normal 'chinchilla goes on & on blabbering' easier to read? (:

Comments welcomed! Hahaha.

Let's trade shoes

'Cause where you see it, from where you're sitting
is probably 110% different

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To be elaborated... Maybe.

(:

[EDIT 18 Nov 2009 17:54 : Can't remember what I wanted to say, let's just leave the post this way. Wow, rhymes!(: ]

Scaredy Halloween!

@ SENTOSA SPOOKTACULAR!Last Saturday, 31 Oct 2009!(Thanks DJ for organising!) (:(Thanks Kelly for the pictures!) (:Alright I think this was the thing I was most afraid of seeing but I didn't, PHEW. Imagine he/she/it running up to you. AHHH!
Taken in the toilet before going inside the haunted house! Nicest shot of me, the rest scared until cui diao already, haha!
On our way up. Decided to pose with this sign & hoho we're SUPPOSED to look scary in this pic! My face looks distorted, hahaha.

First Ghost for the night, I was very scared already. When Kelly & I requested to take pic with the ghost, she just gave us the stony stare & started walking towards us & I decided to stand far away. EEE. ):

Check out our glowing devil horns!! :DMy uneven teeth so obvious here & my face so cui. I want BRACES BRACES BRACES BRACES!
Brave Souls! : Me Clarence Gersh Cheongsam Ghost DJ Kelly Vonny Denny!

Last Ghost of the day, one of our rare group pictures. (: Cheongsam ghost staring at me! Clarence asked me to stand there. I was so scared. Okay take my name out of 'brave souls', I was so scared throughout the whole thing I just grabbed on to anyone in front of me & screamed my way out. ); Many many apologies. & thanks to friends who comforted me. (:

Okay actually I didn't see anything much inside the haunted house because I was too afraid to open my eyes most of the time. LOL yes we shall go visit the museum someday to see how it looks like without all the 'ghosts'.

I am gna dress up for Halloween next year! Kelly suggests that we dress up as pumpkin & watermelon! :D LOL! I want to dress up as an angel! Or fallen angel, *grins! Or vampire, since Calvin called me that when I told him I was allergic to onions.

Wait, now then I realise, vampire is GARLIC LA Calvin! LOL!

Sidetrack: I LOST MY PURPLE IPOD! ): Can't seem to find it in my room & around the house. Must have dropped out of my bag... While on my bus trip back from the library? Or did I left it at my office...? It's still very new & I spent a large portion of my savings on it... It has a orange smiley sticker with a leaf on its head on the top right hand corner of the screen... Just in case anyone finds it. );

Sidetrack again: I NEED TO GO ON A SHOPPING SPREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! For now, I need a new bag because my red bag is tearing on the inside & my black bag is rusty & I don't carry my other bags anymore.

Sidetrack again again: Signed up for aviation run! Hope my legs heal by then. (:

P.S. Edited header image to welcome upcoming Christmas! (: Simply 'negative'-ed the image colors.