I can almost see it

Beep beep beep beep beep beep beeeep~* Sound of crickets*

WOOOOO catch the lyrics- really meaningful! (: (:

Oh speaking of Jay Chou suddenly remembered someone said that Jay Chou has a song that talks about God:

& I found it! Here you go:

Can't find a vid with the lyrics inside, but managed to find a link even with english translation: Clickty-click. So just open both in 2 windows so that you can view alongside & decipher what Jay Chou is singing.

Another vid! Just as meaningful. (:

No MV, just the lyrics.

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's on the other side

It's the climb

Just like faith...

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Life's great so far- still waiting for school & work to start. Many many complications. But oh well- I'm still looking forward! :D

Hold on if you feel like letting go

DELETED. Can't seem to delete them o.O, shall try again later/tomorrow.

But I'm definitely feeling better already, thanks so many good friends for their concern..! (:

Saturday's service was good, Pastor did the last part of his series on BIGGER. Bigger minds, bigger hearts, bigger territories.

Went for discipleship class the following day with a heavy heart. Sleep/songs/drinking a cup of bubble tea didn't cheer me up at all. Our zone leader, Dominic shared about preparation- stories of Pastors & a little biblical portion in the old covenant terms.

Wanted to go somewhere to take a breather after the class, but ended up going back for service because I had no where to go & no one to ask to go out with. Although the sermon was repeated & I was feeling drained from the lack of sleep, this time round I understood the sermon better & had some new revelations & felt much, much better.

& I realised(only after the Sunday service) that the worship team's been singing 'Free' by Hillsong- which I actually have in my iPod but always skip it(because I tend to listen to the same few, say 20 favorite songs). & I caught the lyrics on the big screen. Here's a vid of the song-with beautiful pictures & lyrics!

And if I had wings I would fly
'Cause all that I need, You are
And if the world caved in around me
To You I'd still hold on

Yea if the world caved in around me... The times my life felt crashing down on in... The times I feel down... .... I still have God to hold on to. (: & of course my brothers & sisters of God-my good friends- who are always there with me & truly love me.

Just live your life with God inside
You wont regret one moment of it
And give all that you can for God, for God

The last part of the song... Amen! (:

P.S. I am given a project to do! I'm so excited!

P.P.S. Alongside with that, I have 2 more birthday-related things to do!

P.P.P.S. Hahahahaha I feel purposeful... Hope I can manage all of them well!

Change the colors of the sky

During C.G. yesterday, Shuyi shared about 5 roles of a spiritual home & the last part caught me:

Our dreams are never too big or too small for God.

With our hopes and dreams, imagine what tomorrow it may bring
Cos the sky’s the only limit when you’re not afraid to dream

Even the NDP song says that! :D (I'm still stuck at the NDP song, I think it's really meaningful! Haha. O-la patriotic! :D)

Speaking of dreams, I have a lot of variations of mine. From being a very successful business-woman to a hip housewife(YES muahaha I like to learn to cook & keep everything spick-and-span) with a successful home-based job, I have no idea what I would like to be. Both sounds equally appealing. :D

What's my purpose in life? What's God's purpose for me in this lifetime? What's my mission in this world? I'm seeking for it, I'll get to know it in time. (:

Speaking of dreams in the ones-you-get-during-sleep-kind, I've been getting a lot of morbid dreams T_T. Of floods & hurricanes & bad things & death of someone close to me. Maybe I watched too much CNA- there's been quite a few catastrophes going on around the world. Told Kelly about them & we laughed it off, but thinking back it's quite heart-wrenching. T_T

Not thinking about it already...! Listening to many great guy singer songs :D *tries to sing*

Maybe it's just me, couldn't you believe

Secondhand Serenade song stuck in my head because Gersh had recommended that the band was good & so I listened to this song which I had put into my iPod since a long time ago & now the lyrics & tune are like locked inside my brain. (:

What a long sentence! Well I have nothing to update about actually, since both work & school haven't started. Spending my days just doing my own revision, especially Econs since it would be of relevance when I take up business in school.

Perhaps I should revise the rest of my subjects too, since I'm considering to re-take 'A' levels. Yet again, that depends on whether

1. I can cope with my work & school & revision for 'A's, &

2. I can get into a local university when I re-apply next year.

The thought of Chemistry & Physics- my worst subjects since secondary school & GP!

Many people are encouraging me to go for engineering/NIE(I want to take social sciences).

Jackson said NIE would be good(But I don't really like to teach... Or rather I haven't tried teaching)...

Even my mum tells me to just get into a local uni, the course doesn't really matter(Quite true, since most people don't pursue a career related to the field of their studies. But then again, it's 4 years! Imagine studying something you detest for so many years...).

Calvin told me that there's a 4th uni coming up when they ORD(but then again, I heard it's more for Poly students...& wait till the year they ORD?!).

Julius suggested that I should retake 'A's since I'm still young.(haha.. I'm turning 20! That's quite old.)

Wow many many people are telling me what to do... Guess I shall just gather their suggestions & decide for myself, then take a step at a time! (:

Weirdly enough, I'm actually enjoying revision(for Econs that is).(: Perhaps it's because I know I don't have to take 'A' levels(at least for the time being). Perhaps because there isn't school or anything else to distract or tire me. Perhaps it's because I like Econs. Or perhaps I just successfully changed my mindset. (:

During service 2 weeks ago Pastor How shared about having BIGGER mindsets.

mindsets, mindsets, we gotta unset the mindset.

If we want something we never had before,

then we have to do something we've never done before.

Just like in terms of studies, if we want better grades, we gotta start revision, or even change our usual less effective revision style. Just like something on our wishlist, if we want it, we have to start saving for it. Just like almost everything else. (: Or simply just by telling ourselves we can do it.

I'm learning to change my mindset. (:

For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling downstrongholds, casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ,

-2 Cor. 10: 4-5

Show me a garden that's bursting into life

12082009

Click here for Wiki synopsis of movie
Went to Jurong Point to meet some of my CG peeps to watch UP! (: Forgot to suggest to take a group picture... Only had some taken with ShuYi before the others arrived & some of Benedict & Jackson. Walked around JP1 & JP2, & I think JP's really a good place to shop!

13082009

Carl & Ellie, so sweet (: (:

Went to Jurong Point to meet Kelly & WeeFong to watch UP again! (: What's worth watching once is worth watching twice(quoted from ShuYi, haha!) Carl's love for his wife Ellie is just so touching.. so heartwarming... heart-wrenching. Sob sob. Okay I didn't cry during the movie, but it was really sad. ):

Went to NTU for lunch & toured around the school. The university's so big, it feels like a community itself to me. Then took a bus down to the School of H&SS! AHHHHH my dreammmmm! Haha. Next year, hopefully! (:

After WeeFong left for her lecture, Kelly & I left NTU & headed towards AMK. Turns out that the Outram way was faster. :X Talked about things on the way home & I really think I should stop talking about repeated things! :X

Was supposed to meet Gersh to collect $$(I sound like a loan shark) since I was at AMK which is near his camp. Initially thought I could just walk around while waiting for him to finish all his stuffs, so I traced the 165 route towards my house, thinking that I could walk back to AMK once he's done.

In the end I got lost & forgot the way back, so cancelled the meeting & managed to trace the 88 route home. Had the crazy thought to try walking all the way home, so I did! I guess it must have been 10km! :X

Feet felt soft swollen pink when I got home... Bathed & used the computer a while then zonked out till afternoon just now. Today's gonna be a boring day, I can't wait to start on my new job(rare hearing me say that) & new school! (: (: But then again, that translates to less time to spend with friends. Yet again, everyone's busy with their own lives- studies, work, army.

It may be tough, but we'll all make it. (: Just like how I thought it was impossible to walk all the way home from AMK, I did it. Hohoho.(:

All that I am, all that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

See the moon & the stars

Clarence's bday celebration yesterday(DJ left before that so he's not in the pic)
I need a haircut lol.

Had a great day put with the guys even though we did not have an exact plan on what to do.

Ended up at the arcade for a very long time, caught many many Patricks & we were so excited when 3 of them fell out at our last go(or was it just me lol).

Along with the big Patrick we got for Clarence:

Really blessed to have great friends around. (:

Look how far we have come
Look around at our faces, they shine brightly in the sun
With our hopes and dreams, imagine what tomorrow it may bring
Cos the skys the only limit when youre not afraid to dream
Haha this part if the NDP song's stuck in my head

The sound of all the places we could go

Went to church for my 1st(everyone else's 5th) discipleship class & it was interesting. JianMing shared about discipleship(well afterall, it is a discipleship class). Was surprised to see ShuYi & Fifi at the auditorium playing Captain's Ball. (: I thought I would be feeling completely foreign since I seldom mix around with people from other CGs.

After class, went down to AMK to meet Shuyi, CheongJing & Daniel for dinner. After which, Benedict & WenHui joined ShuYi for pool(in some claustrophobic place, if you read my tweet) & I watched them play. Got reminded of the times I used to learn how to play pool in J1 but never succeeded. Haha. But I still like watching people play, it's so interesting & photo-worthy.

Went home, washed up, read some books, listened to music, did some origami, yak-ked on the phone from 3 to 4, slept at 5, woke up at 1pm.

Researching for places to go for Monday's outing- meeting the guys since they're having a holiday. WOO! :D Tentative place Marina Barrage(it's such a pretty place-I want to go!), but I think it'll be really crowded so plans may be changed. ION Orchard?!

Stomach's been growling since 3am last night, chocolate sandwich eaten at 2pm didn't reduce my hunger. Hungry hungry, off to eat dinner. :D

Walking with God

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Today's a winding road

Went for FOP (Festival of Praise) yesterday! :D

Surprisingly there were fewer people then we thought, probably because it was the last day. Still remember the first FOP I went for was last year & we went after school(If I never remember wrongly...? Ehh CAN'T REMEMBER), but I went on the first day & it was really packed.

At first I was really lazy to travel down & was feeling really tired & was grouchy that nobody was travelling down with me(yes I hate travelling/eating alone because for my previous job I had been so alone zzz) & had more or less decided to finish my card & then go to sleep. Then Cheong Jing called me & asked if I was going, & I thought I would feel like I had missed out on something if I didn't go(often felt this way), so I agreed & whee, I did not regret! :D

Sent out some job applications today & hope they get back to me! (: Can't wait to get pay-slips. HOHOHO. I have so many things to buy, so many things to do, so many places to go! (: Surviving on your own bank account ain't easy.

& the very-much-late ODAC website! It's finally completed(with the help of some of my friends, thanks so much)! :D Sent the URL to our ODAC VP already, if it's nice it shall be published! It took such a looonnng while... Every ODAC batch (since the 15th) have a site, so the 20th shall have one too. Previous site taken down due to cost & no back up was done so had to do up a completely new one): , bahhh!

Been looking at my friends' photos & most of them are going into local uni-s & I so wanna get in NEXT YEAR. But the people won't be my batch anymore... NEXT YEAR, NEXT YEAR! (:

I'm losing the ability to type blog posts- my life ain't interesting anymore. )': LOL.

P.S. Was curious about the vid Daniel & YuTing were talking about, so I went to Youtube & looked at it. Here's the URL: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-fVDGu82FeQ

HAHAHA NOT FUNNY! I like the last part of the vid, the boy's expression! :D