Anticipation.

Left: Still part of the unemployed.
(Okay picture has no link to being jobless since I look all-so-smiley, I just put it up because I think it's nice, HEHEHE)Right: XIAO DING DANG.            XIAO DING DONG.Yes I'm semi-mad because I'm jobless.-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Scans through the black & white boxed texts of the Classified pages.

Circles with blue marker whatever's suitable.

Combs through the Part-time/temporary positions section.

Picks up my old mobile phone & dialled.

Sample opening speech revised in my head.

Waits for buzzing over the other line.

Nervous nervous nervous *twiddles fingers.

Gimme a job gimme a job gimme a job.

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So far, called those with numbers given & only 1 picked up. Emailed 2 & 1 called back. :D High hopes of getting it, some home-based project job which is totally cool with me, & better still I can still work when I get into uni. She asked me if I wanted to do telemarketing but I told her I get really nervous speaking to people, hahaha. That's why I seldom talk to people even friends over the phone. ~

Speaking of uni, still no acceptance letters & I'm getting sad of waiting. ):

I have a lot of pictures & vids to upload but my poor old com wouldn't budge. I think the USB port's spoilt. ): Some pic taken long time ago:

Shoplet (I've checked Dictionary.com, this word does not exist!)& Toilet. Guess they just wna make it rhyme! & Fitness Corner is really at the corner of the board.

Alright one last picture before I end this blah-blah-blabbering post. How I wish I can go shopping. Clothes & BAGS!!

Those shopping bags weren't even mine. )':
& I look like I wore no bottoms here. LOL I wore a skirt. Hahaha see first pic with DING DONG.
Congrats to me for finally having the courage to post my individual shots on this space, 2 some more. I don't like my face.

TADAA~! OFF!

give me a temp job

type, type, type, back space, backspace, select all, delete.
running empty on cash & exhausted almost all means of getting one.
event or anything as long as it's not sales or require talking to strangers.
hungry & ill.
blah blah blah.
please send me a university acceptance letter.

And the angels were silent

(W.r.t. book title above) Truly, awesomely inspiring. (: (: (:

Finally got a job offer for some receptionist job, keeping fingers crossed for getting it. At least it's a source of income & it's only a 5-day work week so yea, fits in nicely with all my schedule! (: Hope my resume can pass because for the recent photo I just cropped my face out of one of my prom photos. Still having some regrets that I didn't put on super thick make-up or style my hair to make myself look stunningly different! :P LOL!

Been staying at home these few days(in between going to church & everything), & I found this really cute show on TV- OKTO! *weehoo!*

Catch this at 1330 or 1400 on weekdays, can't remember.
Going out with Mum later, this is a very boring post. Goodbye.

5 loaves & 2 fishes

I ♥ the song(title above).
I ♥ my new blog header(flower!).
Life's good but I have nothing to say, been still horribly jobless yet time well spent at home with family, so far.
Revamped room now lack of a study table & a nice comfy chair.
Uni uni uni unicorn send me letter please.
Nice little picture taken long ago to keep this site alive:


First page of my purple FAITH notebook. Getting another one hopefully soon! (:

On my own

Got the dates wrong for Julius' & DengYao's enlistment, so didn't get to send them off to Tekong. Calvin went in yesterday as well- followed by Henry today & Gershwin tomorrow.

Finally figured out how to upload photos to Facebook. Spent 30 minutes tryna upload 6 of Calvin's pictures on my slow com. There you go:


Left to Right- 2 of Calvin's friends on the extreme left(forgot to ask for their names), Calvin, Gerald, ShuYi, DJ, Yvonne, Clr, Chinchilla.

Haha remembering staying out the whole night last Christmas, hang-outs(with the rest as well)& talking nonsense about the rest of our lives.

I've spent 1 whole hour typing all these I don't know why.

Looking through all the(last?) photos taken with the guys before enlistment, I hate that Pasir Ris interchange background. LOL.

I know they aren't gna leave forever, but I'm just getting the feeling that we'll all drift apart. 

2 years ago was when we became classmates, then good friends.

Where would we be 2 years later?

They'll be out from ARMY & I'll(pray hard) be in 2nd year of Uni.

How changed.

No way to take it all back

Looking through photos again. (WOW! My Mum felt like going out after she switched on the computer- with Interenet connection!!! I am a lucky girl.:D)

During J1 class chalet, the BBQ guys- Calvin, Woody, Julius, Jackson!

J1 tiems. Unmentioned in previous picture(clockwise from top) - DJ, Clarence, Henry, DY. Our favorite after school past-time of drinking BBT, then going to PG to play, LOL.

Taken during J2-Coolest classroom shot ever. Closer friends(: , where's DJ?

My goodness, in less than 24 hours the guys(except Clarence & DJ who are already enlisted, & Jackson lol!) are all going into army, one by one.

& also best friend YJ(in white)! ):
Oh man. Some of us will eventually lose contact, it's already happening. I'll miss them so very much. ):

Calvin- tomorrow! ):

& 24 hours later,

& 24 hours later- all in Tekong. ):

Reverse

I realise... The C.G's getting bigger.

Feel like backing out because I was never comfortable around a lot of people.

Or because I still can't afford to take sides in that controversial issue, I simply don't know.

They were right, change shall take place a little at a time. & I'm always doing drastic every 2-3 years(For now, I am very different from who I was in secondary school). Which delights myself in the first place(because I think the change was good), then looking back feeling very scared because I do not know what kind of person I am exactly(or even so because the change had opened up new problems which I've never faced before).

But one thing I've never regretted- the decision. (:

Went walking alone(havent done that for... years?) the other day. Felt a lovely peace in my heart, that might last for a while, but perhaps never forever.

Been thinking about my closer friends for the past few days, & I realise I havent been nice & I have so many apologies ungiven & so many thanks unsaid & & & I am disappointed with myself.

On a happier note

1. I bought my purple iPod! :D

Although it looked blue to me & it still does, the label said purple so yea it shall be haha! 

& Much thanks to it, I finally get to use the computer for a while(successfully convinced my Mum to let me download iTunes). 

Sadly, this shall be my best friend for the next ? months, since closer friends are all enlisting & I reckon that we'll somehow lose contact because they'll eventually forget the existence of a mobile phone lol. )':

2. I've fixed my camera! :D

After a few months being camera-less, checked the warranty & it was expired, so decided to do it on my own. Took out the covers, tried to figure out how it worked- tadaa! 

It was miraculous. (:

3. I borrowed 4 books from the library! 8D

Lovely companions for sleepless nights.

I love reading, but not studying, not anymore. Currently reading on photography! WOW & I can use my camera for experimenting. 

If the heart is always searching, can you ever find a home?

CHALET!

Wasn't really free(LOL), & picture has many missing. But nevertheless good, loved. (:

Let me tell you something.

"You heterosexual singles have no less right than married people. Not to say that you both are homosexuals, I know you are heterosexuals(?). This world is full of hypocrites(agreed that there are people like that)! This bus of people is filled with hypocrisy(disagreed because it is a too general stereotype) ! You think the rich would help the poor? You think the people from __(some elite school) would help the poor? The world is filled with hypocrites, just like you! Don't laugh, this is serious matter!!!"

-Excerpt of speech from an orange guy to the 3 of us at the bus stop,

my comments are in (purple brackets).

Hilarious. We are nice neighborhood school kids & I believe we do help the poor.

Into blog-shopping, the wonders of shopping without needing to find company, & aching feet due to endless hours of walking.

http://www.blogshoppin.com/

Update: Getting sian because there're so many nice things that I see that are nice & affordable, including prom dresses. Frowny face.):

Update update: uni uni uni uni unicorn argh!!

Take it all away

Whenever confused, escape. 

& I hate myself for that. Feels none but guilt, self-hatred, more confusion.

I wished I lived out, free from worldly pursuits, even from spiritual ones.

Unbounded;

Freedom.

When you grow up with (self-deemed?) almost none, you crave for it like a horrible addiction.

That applies to all things, doesn't it?

Tired

Of being strong,

Of being a disappointment,

Of being sucked into confusions,

Of being there for people whom will not be for me.

My priorities are wrong, wrong, wrong.

Too consumed in loving self(perhaps?) & (some?)people.

This world I'm whirlpool-ed into

wants, needs, grades, , religion, relationships, hypocrisy, love, freedom 

Build a sheltered little space for me please.

Repeat the same things over & over & over.

Blah, blah, blah, ambiguity, I'm tired of myself too.

& To a few people unnamed, I'm sorry for the things I've done to hurt.

& there's no more lies in the darkness there's light

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine
&not enough cash sufficient to buy all on To-Buy List.
OR
N-I-C-E! NICE NICE NICE!
I'm going out with WF later, hope to get some nice nice clothes!:D YAY!