A friend told me that he really wants to go overseas.
Now who doesn't want to?I'm tired of being bombarded with negativity.Repeated complains, criticisms, of people, of things.Every night when I spend my quiet time watching TV(yes because there're documentaries & also funny entertainment shows), ___ will pour out grievances all over me. A listening ear I would not mind giving, but sometimes biased judgments are just made which made me feel so horrid.
& when I start sharing about certain convictions I have, it will simply be dismissed as a 'personal thought of my own' & added on with a masked 'open-mindedness' on everything.
Work's really draining.But finances are equally draining me, to weigh out which one?I didn't get the flyering job(which if I did, I
might be working with my classmates). But I got another roadshow job which spans over a month but lasts only for 6 days.
I believe it requires talking to people, I'm really tired of it. & the next job I'm taking up in March will be flyering for IT show as well as redemption booth(which requires calling people up although they seem least related). I am left choiceless.
Should have taken a break before taking up another. Just left data entry a few days back, now I want a break. Luckily roadshow has long breaks in between.
The culture?When I make decisions, I want it to be the best because I don't want any regrets. Not to say that I regret now, it's mere confusion
There's already a segregation, & I know which side I'm on already.
Just as you are convicted of your own stand, perhaps we're just as convicted to ours.
Yet I'm open to listening to both sides. Give me all the viewpoints & I'll decide on my own. For now, I'll pull myself out of the picture.
Things aside, a lady came to my house door to share the gospel with me.
I told my friends & they told me to beware that the person might be from a cult. I don't know why, should check out the church the lady's from.
Her key message was that man & animals can live harmoniously together, yet we must do
something(to be elaborated next time, she told me).
Her's was in Chinese, translated:
21 They shall build houses and inhabit them;
They shall plant vineyards and eat their fruit.
22 They shall not build and another inhabit;
They shall not plant and another eat;
For as the days of a tree, so shall be the days of My people,
And My elect shall long enjoy the work of their hands.
23 They shall not labor in vain,
Nor bring forth children for trouble;
For they shall be the descendants of the blessed of the LORD,
And their offspring with them.
24 “ It shall come to pass
That before they call, I will answer;
And while they are still speaking, I will hear.
25 The wolf and the lamb shall feed together,
The lion shall eat straw like the ox,
And dust shall be the serpent’s food.
They shall not hurt nor destroy in all My holy mountain,”
Says the LORD.
-Isaiah 65:21-25
Bible study would be good. (: Some time on my own would be even better. I love the times I do a little bible study overnight.
Man, I think I'm dreading the the new job. It's only 6 days it's only 6 days it's only 6 days.
Continuous blabbers... I went back to college with Deborah & Andy in the afternoon for lunch & some other stuff. I get the feeling that the school is tryna wipe out all traces of our batch & earlier, our 2-color uniforms, our
culture. I don't feel 'belong-ed' to the college anymore.
Till 6 march.My friends notice the ring around my neck in pictures(I thought it was pretty small to notice hah). It is just because I haven't bought a cross & a new chain.
My slipper broke(yet again-_-) today. I was next to the traffic light at the cross junction, I called almost everyone I
thought I could get help, in the end it was a kind lady whom helped me flag a cab because I couldn't walk.
Stuck at the junction for almost a quarter-hour I guess, & I've come to the conclusion that in the most desperate of times, perhaps the only person you can depend on is
yourself & your $$$ big fat wallet(I had my pay in mine hoho I am so rich today why isn't it everyday). Wrong conclusion. Oh well. I am still disappointed & very hurt.
I want to buy a condo & live with my friends- anywhere with good facilities, heartland area, I'm familiar with the place. Wooo. (:
I wish I could blog more sophisticated stuff- to do with religion, my innermost thoughts, my deepest darkest secrets wrapped nicely in words revealed slightly yet undisclosed.
Follow your heart's desires. Define, elaborate, explain.
