dilemma

if what is taught is to respect authority
yet if authority is against what is taught
...?

:S.
To adhere or to take my own stand?
Ask & you shall receive, seek & you shall find.

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Service today was great as ever, but it felt like some kind of deja vu as Pastor How have preached about the same topic before.

We went to have Subway cookies after that. No wonder Daniel likes Subway! The cookies are real good, I like the double chocolate one, hahaha. (:

Bought a kopi bing on my way home, I'm trying not to sleep tonight.

My printer's not budging, I think I messed up the installation. Help!

in the ayer , ay , ayer , ayer , ay , ayer

I bought a printer (& carried it home) while shopping with Sis for Mummy's present today.

Many minutes of waiting for the promoter to come to serve me paid off- I got my printer-cum-scanner-cum-copier at more than half price, HAHAHA I LOVE SALES, (:. The guy assured me it was a good buy. I don't know, anything that can give me my documents in PAPER!

Anyway C C.C was okay today, learnt quite a lot of new things, like most of the time, the precipitate of transition metals is the hydroxide. (: But was quite irritated by guys sitting behind me talking about summoning demons & angels & whatever, some kind of online game I think. They talked non-stop for 2.5 hours about this. -_-. Tsk, tsk, tsk. Shall end off abruptly here with a pretty picture of it.

Starting printing spree later, off for bath & dinner!

Random title of no relevance at all (can't think of any). Good night!

I candy-coat and cover everything

I DECLARE ONCE AGAIN-
I HATE THE SCHOOL PORTAL, ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

& I NEED A GOOD PRINTER! My lao ya printer broke down a few weeks back & apparently (Its 80% confirmed, my guesses are pretty right) there's no intention in getting me a new one. ): Library's new printer system is tedious & confusing. Why not just give us all the documents, in paper, PAPER!

Everything's online. I don't have the freedom to use the com. I don't have portable laptops. My printer broke down. Even if it's fixed I don't have $ to buy new ink anymore. I don't want to trouble my friends.

Just gimmmmeee the PAPER! I have more than enough files to keep them yea.

ASS pire's driving me crazy.

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Yesterday, 240908
Pizza Hut with Winnie. They aren't as appetizing as before. But yea I enjoyed the chat. (:
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Moments ago, 250908
Studied in school lib with DJ & Gersh.
Its real cool that WF & her guitar friends study together. They're such nice people, wow. (:

& yea perhaps for me solitude is really better.
Or solitude yet not alone.

Speaking of real blogs, I'll tell someday if I can find someone whom I trust would not hurt me I'm ready to let out my innermost thoughts. Hmm.

Get back to studies, bye world. (:

le jeu ne vaut pas la chandelle

listen.

've been looking back at things
found a gift which i have received 5 years ago for getting a distinction in literature
lovely poetry
good ol' times

Bcos the heart can beat the hate

Lovely people from HoGC :D

Clockwise from front: Daniel, nerdy me, Yvonne, Jack, Julius, SY!

Disgusting/Not-so-lovely/looks-nice-but-can-be-deceiving food from Waffle Factory.

Switched to Red Bull from usual ice coffee a few days back. It really increases concentration power. I feel like I'm on drugs. O.O

Wiki-d "Red Bull" & found:

Reports of elevated stroke and heart attack risk

On August 15, 2008, researchers from the Cardiovascular Research Centre at the Royal Adelaide Hospital reported that just one can of Red Bull can increase the risk of heart attack or stroke, even in young people: "One hour after they drank Red Bull, [their blood systems] were no longer normal. They were abnormal like we would expect in a patient with cardiovascular disease." Lead Researcher Scott Willoughby added that Red Bull "could be deadly when combined with stress or high blood pressure, impairing proper blood vessel function and possibly lifting the risk of blood clotting.

Goodness gracious me. I'm one step nearer to death.

Anyway listen to this great song. Its by various arstists such as Mariah Carey, Beyonce, Rihanna, Fergie, Carrie Underwood, Miley Cyrus, Carrie Underwood, Mary J. Blige, Sheryl Crow, Fergie, Ashanti, LeAnn Rimes, Natasha Bedingfield, Nicole Scherzinger .

Regards to fighting cancer, but hey it applies to all us students too. (:

disheart turn

Happenstance; found in my email.

This is so disturbing.
I want to focus on my studies.
STOP IT & GO AWAY HOR*!
*indicates warning signal before I. blow. up.

I know you guys don't mean it, I am not angry ok? Just... disturbed. Oh please stop it. ):

Found this in my phone. WOAHHHH so nice lei. Save from here or I'll send next time. (:

Gave 7 P.M. show a miss 'cause I don't like the woman (the ex girlfriend) in the story! Goodness gracious. ):

Anyway results checking today, moderation pulled me up by 2 grades for some yet they are not good at all.

Taken from college website, NIKE!

Us on the 3rd & 4th row, wow Jack DY & Henry have mastered the super ^^V sign, COOL.
This was one of the best days in my life. :D

Tonight's must watch: Ghost Whisperer! That's what Fridays are for, man.

& hey hey hey if you're reading this please do me a favor if you find a printer please help me print Physics SA & CJ paper thanks. I'll go check out the bookshop tomorrow.

CCC tomorrow. Why is my Chemistry ever so LOUSY!?

Have a good night ahead.

locked down

Haven't I said how much it irks me to see you 

Or sense that you are anywhere near me

All thanks to you we're all strained

Why did you come in & destroy everything?

I'm so much better off without you

I want us back

All our old good times

With none of you in it

NONE.

You better go away

& I want to scream out loud

I hate you

I hate you

I hate you

I HATE YOU!

I HATE YOU, STRESS!

Now who do you think it was? But things aren't what they meet the eye.

School was alright, a load more things added on to To-Do list & things-I-should-do to brush up all my Superb grades. 

& stupid me who keeps trying to brighten the atmosphere/reduce the silence/keep everyone cheered in this stressful period, ended up saying the wrong things & getting snapped at in return. This so hurts. Yet faith had taught me to be stronger, plaster a smile move on.

I need some time to straighten things out with myself. 

Its like a hollowed bark.

Perfectly alright on the outside.

I am not emo.

I am just thinking.

Back to copying Econs straight from the screen 'cause I forgot to buy the answers & submission for correction's tomorrow.

Seriously, I don't wish to see you... 

middle

Papers back.

Superb grades for all except GP which was exceptional, for the time being (where's my paper 1?). Sigh. At least I improved a grade from the all ultimate-s for Mids. Well I'm picking up the momentum to study again, but I'm afraid its just too slow. All hope on Econs...

I'm afraid, real afraid. Faith I have but...

Well. Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LILIAN & WEI^2! (: 

Sweet 18! Wow I went to shop for Wei's present yesterday after accompanying Winnie to go cut hair & had lunch at Macs(I'm gna eat CFO someday! New EVM meal down to $5 from $7 hahaha). Hope she likes the toy! Hahaha I like it so much myself I wanted to get myself one. So CUTE! :D

Today was fine initially but turned out a little moody at the end. I don't know what went wrong, perhaps grades, perhaps the awkwardness still lingers. But yea keep the smile on, cheer up ok besties. I hope they are fine now. (:

Still not used to school curriculum, keep falling asleep even when lecture's only an hour. Ice coffee! ICE COFFEE!

I sound like some crazy coffee addict monster.

*Kopped from somewhere.

Oh well. Better get back to revising Econs. I will finish all my content by today! 2 more lecture books to go. (:

P.S. Downloaded Google Chrome. No diff from Firefox? Apparently the preoblem is with my slow com. For a moment I was delighted that the newspaper says that the browser is faster. ):

Let now our hearts burn with a flame

Saturday, 060908
We learnt about Opportunity, which was amazing! (:
Dinner was good with them all around. After which went to buy my all-time-fav Ramlee burger. Should have bought the chicken one 'cause beef tastes weird after 1 hour of traveling home.
I love them all! :D

Sunday, 070908
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to BESTIE WEEFONG! :D
Anyway today was a GREAT day! <3

& new time-table is such a blessing. Compared with the old time-table, this is way way wayyyyyyyy shorter & hey I must really get the momentum back, back, back to study.

In fact it is possible to squeeze all lessons into a day, taking away all the long breaks in between & of course CT. All lessons of the week(of new time-table) added, the whole thing may be even shorter than 2 days in the old one. JOY!

Econs & PQ(how to evaluate myself & 2 other friends whom I am not very close to?) undone.

School starts tomorrow, work hard on the factors, seize the opportunity & level up to success!

First I need a motivation.

Ok I need a cup of ice coffee. (:

I believe You, I believe

What am I doing, blogging everyday?
I can't bring myself to study... Yesterday was quite a good one at the library (:, around 6 hours minus lunch time. But after that I got very tired & spent the rest of the day glued to the TV screen.

Hmm but I went to the wet market with Mum in the morning. Wow the stall owners never change, & the familiar fresh aroma :D of the greens, mixed with the raw smell of meat :S. Then went to the coffee-shop to buy lunch home. Hey, the auntie at the rice stall is still the same! It's been more than 10 years I guess. & the food... still as yummy :D.

I heard something so hurtful today. ): But it's alright, for I know that is not true at all. I just couldn't believe the amount of mistrust in me coming from someone whom I actually respected.

Its ok. (: Anyway I was blog-hopping a few days back when I came across someone who posted this web link up, & a few days back I think the guys were talking about it? I can't really remember. I used to play the games there. So cute! Haha & I remember telling Julius I like one of the games. Must play the stars game! (: See below.

Yea the one with the heart hahaha.

For the more challenging one play the Apple game (the last icon)! I caught 89 & missed 11!

LOL I sound childish but this is kinda better than the gory CS ok! :P Or go dig out your rusty Neopets account & feed your dying pet.

Lalala I don't want to go back to school but I want to study. Lalala so many revelations everyday & I'm so tired out. Lalala I can't roller-blade. Lalala tuition postponed to tomorrow.

Anyway this blog may die off soon or turn into some brief recounts. I sense spying eyes. YES, YOU. Hahahahaha joking. -_-

the light is white

Last Friday,(I think) lazy-to-check-date.
This is gna be weird 'cause I seem to be blogging backwards. Haha. Maybe I'll blog about last year's things all of a sudden! o.0 Nah joking.
Well I was browsing through my camera & found this:

Saw this at Bishan while going for dinner with Julius & Gersh hahaha. Our Econs/ co-form teacher's clinic?! Next time go there get free MC of you get 'A' for Econs! :P

Before this, together with Woody & Riyanti, we went to AMK Raiders to play LAN. Woody taught me how to play CS. LOL I was quite nervous but it wasn't really fun for me. Gory... :X Most of the time I just walk out & get killed. & I don't know how to play other games so I stopped after an hour or so then watched them play.

We went to this ABC bargain store which was closing down & got some snacks at low prices :D Hahaha. There's one near my house too, which is quite 'hip' -_- 'cause they play loud pop songs all they long. I heard 'Umbrella' today.

Speaking of umbrella!!

Blur picture of college T'chers' Day celebrations.

DY took Riyanti's brolly & waved it in the air for a few seconds while the girl on stage was singing 'Umbrella'. Did I say that Teachers' Day celebrations were so boring?

& a picture along the walkway (we walked out before the horrid thing ended)... Wow they are some of my favorite people in school. :D
Clockwise from me, back to front : ME, Julius, Calvin, Gersh, Clarence, DJ, Woody! (:

Oh no I really need to back up all my photos & songs but my laggy com would not work with my HDD & keeps hanging ): My thumbdrive got some virus from some lousy Konica Minolta shop near my house when I ATTEMPTED to print something from there. BOYCOTT THAT SHOP!)))): The shopkeepers are super mean. No wonder they don't have any business. LOUSY LOUSY LOUSY SHOP. I WANT(ed?) TO COMPLAIN TO C.A.S.E. RAHH!

I am real happy that I'm meeting up with them tomorrow, tomorrow, TOMORROW! & Sunday! :D :D I'm glad its over.

Anyway hear this (: !

There'll be a better view from here

Saturday, 300808
Rushed for tuition early in the morning & got another few more pink cuts. ): Why am I so clumsy nowadays?

It was too early for service when I reached so I had lunch at Macs & studied there. SY came to join me afterwards! We went to Popular & bought some stuffs, I finally got my notebook! Eyes on it for long long time :D.

Service was good, we learnt about the revelation of sin. Oh & there were fireworks when I was walking towards the bus stop. All the passers-by around me stopped to look, how pretty. (:

Sunday. 310808, Nike Human Race
Ok the first thing I did when I finally got connected to the Internet was to visit Calvin's blog to see if he has uploaded pics! & there was this link to check your position, so I clicked on it & searched... & WOAHHHH look at this:

*Click to enlarge
Ok I'll zoom zoom ZOOM...


My NUMBER! So nice!!!!!!!!!

This was what happened: When I signed up with the college they put my shirt size as Men's 'S'. -_-. Does my name even sound like a guy's. So when I collected my race pack I went to the shirt exchange counter & wrote down my name & my bib number there.

Apparently there were no details regarding the shirt exchange so I totally forgotten about it, so I thought well forget it I shall just wear the Men's shirt since all of them are wearing the shirt there.

I should have changed my shirt! ):
I would have the nicest number, Clarence!

Hahaha. :D
Anyway the run was GREAT! All of us wanted to run together but I was too slow I guess so most of them (Julius, Jackson, DY, Henry, Clarence, Calvin) ran off first. Ran with Gersh & DJ. (: This was definitely better than w ill run! Gersh had Lilo stitches on the way but still he could sprint better. At the 8km mark (or was it before that?) we met Henry so DJ & I ran off first!

The prize presentation was good! They were giving away free iPods, & 1 came my direction... & everybody in front of me started scrambling backwards & I almost fell. Tsk tsk. Haha in the end someone from our college got it, so nice!

Well & so Ser ang oon Junior College won the school category & we got a BIG TROPHY & $10, 000! *SCREAMS! XD I suggest the college to get everyone who ran free iPods! :P

Oh & most of us took a college photo & I think it might appear on our college annual but I wasn't looking at the camera! ): ): & when we won we took a picture with the trophy but Nash's hand blocked my face, I am so sad! ):

We went for dinner after that, walked all the way to Raffles place with all our aching bodies. Pictures at the MRT station, shall post a nicer one up here. :P


HAPPY FRIENDS! ^^V

& so the day continues to end- home, bathed, tiger-balmed body every few hours, overslept this morning, & hey I could get out of bed, unlike after will, I could not even walk. LOL CHEERS :D.

& hey, I found, we're real different, but probably what I wanted to be. Good for you. (: