Monday, July 31, 2006
ahh.. haven't blogged for 2 weeks. wow!
ok. now that i am back, let's discuss something grim. i always seem to be blogging about something grim. sheesh..
right. here's a question to whoever actually bothers to read the crap i have on my blog (a big thank you to whoever's reading this. you are so sweet..haha.) "How old are you? Are you old or young?" If you are anywhere near my age (which you probably are..), you would more likely than not, say that you are young. "duh.. i am seventeen.. they don't call us youths for nothing *roll eyes*". anyway, here's an alternative perspective..
how old or young you are does not depend on when you were born (no joke..). it depends on when you'll die. if i were to die tomorrow, i would say that i am a very old person. honestly.. you can't control how long your life will be so who's to say that you wouldn't die for years and years to come? even if we were to live to a ripe old age of say.. 70, our days are numbered. you don't realise it till you take out your trusty calculator and do some mathematics. (a graphic calculator would do too. but you don't need the graphing function..)
alright.. calculator ready?
let's see.. 70 years.
70-17 = 53
53 more years to live..wow.
53 X 365 = 19 345
you have 19 345 days to live.
oh no.. that's like less than 20 000 days! seems like a lot doesn't it? but imagine writing down these numbers on pieces of paper and throwing away one piece after another at the end of each day. there.. there goes your life. into the wastepaper basket.
Life is all about love. here's why.. because God is love.the most important thing he wants us to learn during our time on earth is to learn how to love. it is in loving that we are most like him. therefore the bible says to love your neighbours as you love yourself. neighbours meaning the people around you.
the best expression of love is time. relationships take time and effort. the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E.
if you thought that the above paragraph sounded familiar, i shall admit that those weren't in my own words. it's from my book. but the point is that you probably have more or less 19 345 days left. everyday of your life could be the last. say the things you want to say and do the things that really matter. don't procrastinate.
people always say that it's ok. there's always tomorrow. but you never know. live each day of your life as if its the last.
here's a little message to my wonderful friends out there:
i want you to know that each and every one of you have made a difference. here's a really really big thank you ( though a million trillion gazillion 'thank you's wouldn't be enough) and you people have a really special place in my heart. thank you once again for coming into my life. it wouldn't have been the same without you.
says oddball
Friday, July 14, 2006
ah well, there goes another week.hrmph. not bad a week.nothing too exciting happened, which can be a good thing.
just came back from youth sunday practice in church. youth sunday's next sunday! isn't that exciting.. i am doing backup singing (like last year), with hong sheng and elizabeth's the worship leader this year.i hope i get to know the rest of the youths better through the practices and rehearsals. no puppets this year though.. aww.. sad.
says oddball
Sunday, July 09, 2006
there's this overseas cip trip to cambodia organised by our school. after my last experience with asking my parents to let me go to bandung with habitat for humanity, i wasn't too sure about asking them about this trip. honestly, i was pretty hesitant to go as well.
at church today, a couple, norman and fi from england shared about their work in cambodia. they run a center in cambodia taking in orphans, widows, and children rescued from the sex-trade in cambodia. they have an adopted cambodian son whose married and have 2 kids. then their son adopted a little orphan girl as their third kid. so this family of 7 lives in cambodia with something like 50 other people they are trying to help. i must say that these 2 people have such big hearts. for fi, it hasn't been easy, especially with her aged parents back in england but they have stuck in there, following through with their work in cambodia. all these, for the sake of a group of strangers.
one thing struck me during her sharing. she showed us this picture of a 4 year old girl. fi said "this girl came to us when she was about 3 and a half years, rescued from the rampant sex trade. she was sold as an infant and has been so badly abused. there are scars, physical and emotional. 3 and a half years old but she has never known childhood."
i mean when you read about such things on Time magazines and stuff like that, it doesn't really mean anything. it's just so factual with stats and numbers. but when u see the photo of a real person, the sadness, innocence and fear in her eyes. you just don't know what to say.
we joke so easily that " oh. i didn't have much of a childhood. what with piano lessons and dance classes etc.." but we don't really know what it's like for these children who REALLY don't have childhood.
i have always wanted to do something for someone. i always believed that i could make a difference in this world. perhaps this would be a wonderful opportunity to reach out to the people who really need our help most.
i must say that i feel so thankful for being born who i am. i am blessed, sheltered and most of all loved. i just want to share a bit of happiness with those who have never experienced happiness. i believe that this is god's reply to my prayer. a heartfelt testimony was all it took. i had completely put the idea out of my mind when they came up to talk about their work in cambodia. it was like god was nudging me to go. coincidence or a calling. i don't know. it was an excellent opportunity to convince my parents anyway. so yup. i'll be going to cambodia. to do my little part in changing the world for the better. maybe not the world, but somebody's world.
says oddball
Saturday, July 08, 2006
Day 2:
Point to Ponder: i am not an accident
Verse to remember:
I am your creator. you were in my care even before you were born. -- Isaiah 44:2
Here's a poem by Russell Kelfer:
You are who you are for a reason.
You're part of an intricate plan.
You're a precious and perfect unique design,
Called God's special woman or man.
You look like you look for a reason.
Our God made no mistake.
He knit you together within the womb,
You're just what he wanted to make.
The parents you had were the ones he chose,
And no matter how you may feel,
They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind,
And they bear the Master's seal.
No, that trauma you faced was not easy.
And God wept that it hurt you so;
But it was allowed to shape your heart
So that into his likeness you'd grow.
You are who you are for a reason,
You've been formed by the Master's rod.
You are who you are, beloved,
Because there is a God.
boo. saturday.. we went for audition for the nus charity fair thingy today. about 13 of us. sect 1 ppl + solo girl + thyn? (dunno how to spell her name! so so sorry!) it was held at some remote little studio at bukit timah. yep. kian sin was spastic again. he was officially appointed the permanent guest performer for "Spastic Camera".ok. no comments about that. zizhao and tanying can tell you a lot more about that..
wow. important thing was that we got accepted. i mean considering that i screwed up zhi zu (by looking at the wrong page), it's a miracle that they thought that we were good enough to do a formal performance. we'll be linked up with a beneficiary for that. yup. that's so cool.
i seriously wonder ow many people actually bother reading my blog. i think blogging is just a way of self-amusement. haha. "i am amused.." -.-" boo!
right..
says oddball
Friday, July 07, 2006
i just started reading "the purpose-driven life" written by rick warren.
maybe it was about time i did search for my purpose in life. no. not MY purpose. but God's purpose for my life. it has been quite (no. very.) discouraging getting my results these days. maybe i haven't been doing what i was supposed to do for the past months. it feels like i have been drifting around life like a headless mosquito. yes. i do think that i need a focus for my life.
anyway, the book requires me to sign on one page as a sort of covenent, a promise to myself that i will stick through the 40 days of searching for a purpose in life. i was quite hesitant at first but i signed it anyway. i guess it makes sense to do it anyway. maybe that's the thing that has been missing in my "headless mosquito" kind of life.
Day One: IT ALL STARTS WITH GOD
Point to Ponder: It's not about me.
Verse to remember:
Everything got started in Him and finds its purpose in Him ( Collossians 1:16b )
says oddball
